Chapter 116: What I Want to Tell You
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"Wan'er, do you promise me, no matter what happens in the future, you have to believe me, as long as you trust me wholeheartedly, okay?"
"If I promise you, will you be at ease?...... Well, I promise you, I believe in you, with all my heart. ”
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Following her piano music, the things I wanted to tell her, the promises I wanted to make her remember, and my sincerity, all pinned on this continuous flute song.
Wan'er, every promise I have made to you will be kept for a lifetime, and what I want to do for the tenderness and sincerity you have given me is - this heart and this affection will never be defeated, this is the way I love you.
The original sonorous and powerful tune was surrounded by my gentle and lingering flute sound, and in the tenacious piano sound, I was fascinated by the lingering flute sound, and I actually relied on a little more soft tone, and unconsciously, people's mood also changed slightly.
I lowered my eyes slowly, and I said that the most touching thing is the rhythm, because there are people's hearts inside.
I want to convey my heart to her, I don't know if other people understand, but I know that she must understand, not only because she is good at music, but more importantly, my heart, she understands!
From the beginning, I didn't want to compete with her on top of the rhythm. All I wanted was an opportunity to explain to her.
Yes, the opportunity to explain, in the two days when I was silent, there was an opportunity to explain to her, but why did I miss it?
At this time, I realized that sometimes I really make stupid mistakes, no wonder she calls me 'stupid', because I always habitually think too much, and if I think too much, I will take care of more, and the burden will be heavy, and what was originally very simple will become very complicated in the end.
Emotional things, sometimes you really don't need to think too much, you just need to follow your heart.
I'm a fool to understand this now!
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Maybe even Wan'er herself didn't notice that her piano gradually lost its unstoppable sharpness when she regained the throne, but was replaced by thoughtful indulgence, the affection in the flute, just like the flute sound of the moon every night in Yong'an Temple, the sound is urging people, and it can't help but be sad. As long as you listen, all kinds of the past will come to your heart, sweet and sweet, but the heartache will be even worse.
This is probably the so-called, cocoon and self-restraint!
When she saw her laughing and taking the jade pendant from Dugu Xin's hand, reason told her that it was just her momentary playfulness and playfulness, and she couldn't count it, but the heartache that was stronger than a burst, and the gradually whitening face, made all the reasons pale and weak, even if it was not true, but the intense heartache and the desperate suffocation were real.
What rises suddenly is hatred, born of love, deep hatred......
Wan'er doesn't know what's wrong with herself, why, she has become like this?
Perhaps, sometimes, love, is to torture each other.
Wan'er deliberately ignored her and deliberately didn't look at her, because she was afraid, afraid that when she showed a lost and sad expression, she would definitely find those pale and powerless reasons to excuse her, and then use countless righteous reasons to persuade herself, to be the rational and decisive Xiao Wan, to be the Xiao Wan who is dead and controlling, like a doll!
Not being able to say her true feelings really made Wan'er very painful, she had been suppressed for too long, and Xiao Wan, who had never taken the initiative to express her wishes to others, had such a strong urge to express it for the first time.
The changes that Yiqiē wants are all because of her, the nerd who makes herself willing and tender, the lovely person who is the same woman as herself but has a simple and benevolent heart!
The true meaning in her flute music, the unreserved lover's heart that she wants to pass on to herself, is the most precious treasure for herself, and it is also the true and pure feeling that she wants to get the most.
She really wants to sue that person, she wants to sue her, what do she want......
Perhaps the rhythm has found a common beat, or the hearts of each other overlap at this moment, the sound of the qin and the flute seem to have broken through the fog, there is no-for-tat, mutual exclusion, and some complement each other, leaning on each other.
In the majestic and mellow rhythm, there is a timeless affection, which makes people sound unique, and between being encouraged, what haunts the heart is a wisp of burning feelings that cannot be guessed and explained......
opened her eyes leisurely, Wan'er could no longer find confusion in her eyes, she knew, she had some intentions, she should be brave to say it!
When the song was over, and everyone was immersed in it and confused, I walked slowly to her side, smiled and stretched out my hand to her, met her shining eyes, and finally, ah, found my figure in it again.
She just looked at me quietly, and then gracefully handed her hands over, and the moment she held each other's palms, the warmth that could be transmitted in the palms of her hands, as well as the unreserved prayer and firmness in her eyes, made each other's hearts tremble.
Hold the hand of the son, and grow old with the son.
I have made such extravagant hopes, and even today, this infatuation still does not change, just because the weight of this person in my heart has long been irreplaceable.
When she got up and stood in front of me, looking at her unconfused and resolute gaze, I suddenly wondered what her weight was in her heart.
From the very beginning, I knew that the woman I loved was a woman who would never be completely mine.
She is Her Royal Highness the eldest princess of this country, and she is also the most solid guardian wing of this country, she is destined to be born for the country, so the weight in my heart will never be the heaviest one, but, at least, I want to be the one she loves the most!
Wan'er, I will never regret falling in love with you!
Then I can't be a little greedy, I don't expect that I am the heaviest one in your heart, I only pray that in your heart, you will love me like this.
Sue me, okay?
Her gaze was more gentle than ever, just a shallow smile, and then pulled me forward, and when I saw that smile, I didn't have time to think about anything, so I followed her steps, and slowly knelt down side by side with her, and then kept looking at each other, smiling and bowing.
It turned out that the little emperor had personally led his clan relatives and civil and military officials to pay homage to the empress dowager.
First of all, the royal family and the royal relatives bowed their heads and bowed, and said in unison:
"Sons and others congratulate the imperial grandmother Fuhai Shoushan, the sun and the moon are always bright; The emperor's grandmother is blessed, and the sons and daughters respectfully invite St. Ann!"
Then there were hundreds of civil and military officials, who had already ordered women inside and outside, and said in unison:
"The ministers wish the Empress Dowager a gift of pure heaven, the pine crane to prolong her life, the mountains and rivers to live the same life, and the sun and the moon to shine together!
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"Good boys, get up! Officials, don't be too restrained, let's all be flat!"
"Grandmother Xiehuang!"
"Thank you for the grace of the Empress Dowager!"
After speaking, from the imperial family to the civil and military officials, they all got up respectfully and returned to their seats.
The Empress Dowager smiled from ear to ear, and hurriedly beckoned the little emperor to sit on her side, and summoned several princesses to her side, and several concubines stood on the left side in turn.
Now, the national ceremony has been completed, and it is time to perform the family ceremony.
Aunt Luo Xia had already prepared a qiē and gave me and Wan'er a look, which meant that the two of us were ready to bow to the Empress Dowager for her birthday.
Wan'er and I came out left and right, knelt side by side again, bowed respectfully, congratulated the birthday in unison, and said:
"The imperial grandmother is above, and the child congratulates the imperial grandmother on her birthday!"
"Yes, good boy!"
The Empress Dowager didn't expect that this group of children would be so filial and commendable, and she was quite moved in her heart, and she was excited for a while, and her tone was a little choked.
Wan'er and I respectively took the tea bowl from Aunt Luo Xia, raised it respectfully above our heads, and said:
"Grandmother Royal, please have tea. ”
The Empress Dowager took the tea we handed over with a loving face, took a few sips, handed it to the palace maid, and said happily:
"Get up, good boy!"
"Grandmother Xiehuang!"
I was busy smiling and helping Wan'er to get up, and the Queen Mother saw the two of us looking kind, and she sighed in her heart, and her face did not change, and said with a smile:
"You two are the princess and the head of the concubine, and you are the role models of several sisters and brothers-in-law, don't do it so arbitrarily next time!"
Wan'er and I blushed slightly, knowing that what the imperial grandmother said was about the two of us fighting each other, so we hurriedly lowered our heads and said in unison:
"The child obeys the teachings of the imperial grandmother!"
The other princesses and ponies couldn't help but smile with their faces, it seemed that the eldest princess and the big pony were reconciled as before, and the big guy was secretly relieved.
I took Wan'er's hand, and the two walked side by side together, giving way to several other princesses and concubines, and then several princesses and concubines all gave the imperial grandmother a birthday greeting, this scene made the civil and military officials present envious, and the queen mother was already smiling from ear to ear.
The governor of Xiangzhou, Dugu Xu, led the governors of other states and towns to officially enter the palace to congratulate the queen mother on her birthday, which also gave the civil and military officials present the opportunity to see the true face of these famous thirteen state and town governors.
Dugu Xue took the lead in standing up and congratulated the Empress Dowager:
"The Empress Dowager Fuhai Shoushan, now she is a good son-in-law, and the old ministers are also envious!"
Dugu said a word, and the governors of other states and towns also congratulated in unison.
When the Empress Dowager heard this, she said with a smile:
"Your children are also heroic, and they should be happy!"
Between the three words, the monarchs and ministers get along very well, like a fish in water, and the sound of joy and laughter is endless.
"Today's banquet is not only a state banquet, but also a family banquet, just to celebrate and be happy. Children, come here, wait for the imperial grandmother to toast a few uncles, they are all veterans and important ministers who have made great achievements for the country, and they are your elders, don't lose your etiquette. ”
The Empress Dowager's words flattered the governors of the states and towns, and they hurriedly stood up and saluted the Empress Dowager to show that they were ashamed.
The princesses and horses nodded yes one after another, since Wan'er and I are the eldest princess, we naturally have to take the lead, obey the will of the imperial grandmother, and go down the stage to toast the thirteen governors of Zhenzhou respectively to show the royal favor.
I and Wan'er together, took the wine glass, and went to Dugu Hui's side, this toast, naturally from the beginning of the noble position, Dugu Xue is the head of the thirteen state town governors, this first toast, naturally he has to be.
"Old General Dugu, please!"
Wan'er smiled, behaved, noble and elegant, and asked each other with words, without losing the majesty and etiquette of the princess.
After speaking, he drank it all in one go, and there was a lot of women who did not let her eyebrows, which made Dugu Shen quite emotional, only to feel that the unruly style of Her Royal Highness the eldest princess was vaguely similar to the queen mother of the year, and she couldn't help but be secretly surprised in her heart.
"Her Royal Highness the princess is polite, the old minister is grateful in his heart, His Royal Highness and the big horse, please. ”
After saying that, and glancing at me with ulterior motives, I stood opposite him, bowed slightly, and drank the wine in the cup with a smile on my face.
Dugu Xue once saw the pair of beautiful people standing side by side in front of him, these two people are very comparable in appearance and temperament, it can be said that he has seen one or two of Gao Chen's skills, and he is indeed a brave and resourceful person, but it is not what he Dugu Zhi is afraid of.
What he was afraid of would be this little girl he met for the first time, Her Royal Highness the rumored frail and sickly eldest princess. I don't know why, the first time I saw this girl, Dugu Xue seemed to see the radiant Empress Dowager, the Empress Dowager was the only strange woman he had seen in Dugu Hui's life, and the only woman he admired in his heart.
Dugu Xue originally thought that there would be no more women who dared to be the first, but when he saw Her Royal Highness the eldest princess, the uneasiness in his heart still made Dugu Xue pay more attention to Her Royal Highness the princess.
Wan'er is worthy of being a battlefield general, such a graceful bearing, extraordinary spirit, even men rarely compare, no wonder Dugu Xue has some scruples, even me, standing beside Wan'er, it seems too weak and delicate.
Even so, I'm not annoyed, but I'm very happy, and I'm willing to be a green leaf foil for her, doesn't this also show that I have a unique vision and a blessing is extraordinary?
Because I am fortunate to have her as my wife in this life, what more can my husband ask for!
But I hate those people staring at Wan'er without scruples, I just feel very dazzling, if it weren't for the state banquet's exemplary etiquette, I would have pulled her away from this banquet immediately.
So I stood as far forward as I could, shielding her from those hateful burning glances, and those pretending to make respectful toasts, and trying to get the princess drunk in front of me, which was wishful thinking!
The next toast and entertainment, I tried my best to block her, I never knew that my amount of wine was still very good, this cup of belly, people are still in good spirits.
In the midst of this, my mind seemed to become more and more inventive.
I am not a ranger swordsman with strong martial arts, I can block the swords and swords in the rivers and lakes for her, I am not a tall and mighty general, I can shelter her from the wind and rain, I am not a husband who stands up to the sky, I can hold up a vast world for her, and all I can do is probably to protect her with all my strength and my life......
Yes, at least, I'm still of some use!
Tilting her head and drinking the wine in the cup cleanly, before the next glass was full, Wan'er took my hand and hurriedly took me away from the banquet.
We crossed the arch one after the other, and came to the quiet back garden, full of flowers, and tonight the moonlight is gentle, the moon before the flowers, the beauty is on the side, the beautiful scenery, but it is also.
She stopped suddenly, turned to look at me quietly, and I looked back at her with a smile, and said hurriedly:
"Did the princess pull me here to enjoy the flowers with me under the moon?
Wan'er's tone was light, but she couldn't hide her concern, and said:
"You're drunk. ”
When she spoke to me, I rejoiced in my heart, waved my hand, stood up straight, and showed that I was not drunk, and said:
"No, I'm not drunk, you see, I'm still on my feet, and I don't see things, and I don't talk upside down......"
For some reason, Wan'er was angry and suddenly said:
"You're drunk!"
I was so frightened that I hurriedly took her hand, fearing that she would be angry with me and ignore me and not speak to me, and pleaded:
"Don't be angry, okay, don't be angry with me, and don't ignore me, okay?"
I became like a child, playing the scoundrel.
Hearing this, Wan'er showed a sad voice, stretched out her hand to caress my eyebrows, gentleness was still there, so I couldn't help but reach out to cover her, and her cheek took the initiative to stick to her palm, that some long-lost tenderness, let me indulge in it for a long time, unwilling to wake up.