In the carriage back to the princess's mansion, it was calm all the way.

This dull feeling in the car, for some reason, reminded Ziyu of the first time when the horse and the princess returned to the house in the same car, but last time it was like Zhou Yu beating Huang Gai, one was willing to fight and the other was willing to suffer, but this time it felt like the mountain rain was about to come and the wind was full of buildings!

Looking at the princess and the colt sitting opposite but not looking at each other, Ziyu had a bad premonition in her heart.

It's safer to hurry outside the car and drive a carriage with Ah Zheng.

Having made up her mind, Ziyu immediately said respectfully and said:

"The slave maid should wait outside the car first!"

As soon as she finished speaking, Ziyu slipped out of the car, leaving the princess and the colt alone in the car......

Ah Zheng, who was driving the carriage, saw Ziyu coming out of the car, and asked with some curiosity:

"Sister Ziyu, it's dusty outside, why don't you stay in the car?"

Ziyu looked at the unobstructed blue sky, sighed helplessly, and said casually:

"The mountain rain is coming, the wind is full of buildings, and the sky is going to change......"

When Ah Zheng heard this, he took a closer look at the weather and felt that the weather was very good today, so how could it rain?

But Sister Ziyu said that it would rain, so it should rain!

"Sister Ziyu, since it's about to rain, then you better hurry back to the car, Ah Zheng hurry up, let's go back to the house as much as possible!"

Ziyu was speechless, she was about to cry and laugh, so she could only shake her head and sigh, saying:

"What a silly boy!"

Hearing Sister Ziyu say this, Ah Zheng began to think hard again about whether he had done something wrong again, which made Sister Ziyu angry.

......

"Stop!"

Inside the car, the voice of the horse master suddenly came out, as if he was angry.

Ziyu and Ah Zheng were both startled, and Ah Zheng immediately stopped the carriage, took the initiative to jump out of the carriage and put down the stool.

I don't know what Gongzi said to Her Royal Highness the Princess, but I heard that Gongzi was still angry, and said:

"Some things are understandable, but they can't be accepted......"

Immediately, I saw that the prince opened the curtain, the fist in his hand was clenched, and he jumped straight out of the carriage, and then went in another direction without looking back.

Ah Zheng has never seen his son-in-law so angry, not to mention that since the princess married Her Royal Highness the princess, the husband and wife are in love with each other, and no one in the princess's mansion knows, and he has never seen the princess and the princess have blushed.

At this moment, Ah Zheng didn't know whether to catch up with the princess immediately, or escort Her Royal Highness the princess back to the house first.

But he knew that he had to do one thing, that is, to immediately apologize for His Royal Highness the princess, because he knew that the prince was angry at this time, so he didn't care about what he said, and if he was angry, he would definitely regret doing this today.

Ah Zheng immediately excused himself and said:

"Young lady forgive your sins, son-in-law, he didn't mean to ......"

Wan'er's face was gentle as usual, but her face was slightly pale, and her tone was as approachable as before, and said:

"It's okay, Ah Zheng, your son-in-law is in a bad mood today, it's okay to let her go out for a walk!"

Ziyu looked at her with concern on the side and said:

"Princess ......"

Wan'er glanced at Ziyu and said:

"Let people follow the horse, don't let her have an accident, let's go back to the princess's mansion first!"

Ziyu nodded yes.

After the curtain was lowered, Ah Zheng continued to drive the carriage back to the princess's mansion first!

......

After getting off the carriage, my whole mind was confused and excited, so I could only speed up my pace, race like the wind, try to avoid the crowd around me, go wherever there are few people, and walk around without a destination!

Actually, it's not so much that I'm angry at this moment, but that the feeling of loss and frustration is stronger.

I can't accept that she became the Marshal of the Northern Road in the name of Xiao Jue, even if I knew what a good general Xiao Jue was, and even a long time ago, I had imagined that this person might become the most shining general in the Northern Wei Dynasty.

But at that time, I didn't know that Xiao Jue was Wan'er!

I couldn't bear to live without her by my side, and I couldn't bear to be hurt in the slightest. It's a battlefield, and it's also a Shura field where people die, no matter how brave and good a general is, there is no guarantee that he can retreat from the battlefield.

Even if it's Wan'er, she can't guarantee it......

The thought that she might have to put on her armor again to kill the enemy made me sweat with horror, my limbs were cold, and when I closed my eyes, I could see her standing in front of me in blood-stained armor, and no matter how much I called her name, she did not respond in the slightest!

Every time I thought about it, I had to go through the pain and despair of loss, followed by infinite remorse, and this feeling tore at my nerves, so that after a silent struggle, I grabbed her shoulder as if I had lost my mind, and said to her in a pleading tone:

"Don't go, can you?"

"Don't ......"

Her answer was crisp and crisp, and even her gaze became sharp and resolute.

It seems that at this moment, my timidity and cowardice, selfishness and fear, have nothing to hide.

Hehe, I knew that from the beginning, didn't I?

I am by no means the most important one to her, she is Her Royal Highness the Princess of the Northern Wei Dynasty, and the future commander of the Yanyun Dragon Cavalry Guard, which is also doomed, she can't even put herself in an important position, let alone me?

But she's the most important one to me!

So, there are some things that can be understood, but they can't be accepted......

I can understand Xiao Wan fighting for the country and not regretting it, but I can't accept Xiao Wan's expedition to the Northern Qi Dynasty and fight on the battlefield!

Hehe, what a strange sophistry, it's clear that they are the same person at all, but why, if they are the same person?!

I prayed for her to stay because I was afraid of being hurt, and because I was afraid of losing her, I tried to keep her in my side......

Because of this, because of that, there are countless reasons, all because of her, but the main reason is still from my deep dependence on her, to put it simply, the most selfish person is actually myself!

Yes, I am selfish and cowardly, because I can't afford to lose her, so I choose to ignore my long-standing ideals and beliefs, I just want to be with my beloved, is this also wrong?

Why can't I be selfish? Love is selfish, isn't it?

Moreover, people are selfish!

What ideals and aspirations, what I wish for peace in the world, what glory and wealth, what fame and fortune, I can do without these, and what does this world have to do with the chaos and separation, all I want is to be able to live in seclusion with her in a secluded mountain forest, and live some plain and happy days, so it is enough!

Why did such a simple wish become an unattainable dream?

This life seems to be doomed, our love can't be so simple and pure, there are too many things to bear on the shoulders of Wan'er and me!

......

I walked aimlessly on the streets, and when I came back to my senses, I saw that there were wine flags flying all around, and it could be seen that there were most wine shops around me.

Looking at the shops along the way, the smell of wine is fragrant, and a sense of familiarity is coming, sure enough, I only walked through a few wine shops, and I came to an old store with quite old store decorations, but I remember this wine shop very clearly, here, isn't it the place where I fought with people last time?

It seems that I really have an indissoluble bond with this liquor store!

Looking at the hour, the workers on the dock are rushing to do things, and the wine shop is naturally not as lively as last time.

I walked into this wine shop with my feet up, and from the tall counter came a little girl in her teens, with pigtails, and she looked cute, but she was a little scared.

Seeing that I had come in, and that the little man was motionless there, I was worried that I would frighten the child, and I smiled at her, and the little girl blushed and immediately ran into the inner hall, shouting as she ran:

"Mother, mother, a big official is here to drink!"

I couldn't help but be stunned when I heard this, it seems that I don't like children very much recently, why is the little girl either scared to cry or scared away when she sees me!

I couldn't help muttering to myself, inside, the proprietress opened the curtain and stepped out, with a lovely smile on her face.

When he saw me, he was stunned at first, and then as if he remembered something, the smile on his face was like the joy of seeing an old friend, and he hurriedly came over to greet me, and said:

"Oh, isn't this Brother Gao, it's been a long time!"

I smiled kindly, and then bowed to the proprietress and said:

"The proprietress is polite, Xiao Gao is here to talk again!"

"Where, it's too late for you to be happy, come, you're welcome, sit!"

As he spoke, he hurriedly beckoned me to sit down, very thoughtful and enthusiastic, which made me a little embarrassed.

"What's the matter, do you miss Auntie's good wine?"

The proprietress is still very confident in her home-brewed wine!

I smiled and nodded, and said:

"I really miss it, you can help me prepare a few jars, and I'll take them home to drink later!"

When the proprietress saw that I was going to bring the wine back to drink instead of drinking here, she saw the trick and said with a smile:

"The last time I got drunk, I went back and made my daughter-in-law angry?"

The proprietress is like a torch, and the trivial things in life are ordinary, how can you not see through it as a person who has come over!

I was embarrassed to spare my head, and said with a smile:

"It really tired her a lot and took care of me all night, so she didn't dare to get drunk outside at will. ”

"Well, well, I know how to love my daughter-in-law, and I know how to listen to my daughter-in-law, and my family will definitely prosper!"

Hearing this, I smiled and said:

"Where do you start?"

The proprietress pointed to me in a black official uniform and said:

"Look, have you been promoted?

I was slightly stunned, and then I noticed that I hadn't changed my official uniform yet, and then I was a little surprised, I didn't expect the boss lady to know the grading of the public uniform?

The proprietress paused and continued:

"The last time you came, you were wearing a crimson official uniform, but now it's a black official uniform exclusive to the imperial history, isn't this a promotion, what is it?"

I smiled and nodded, and said:

"You know all of this?"

The proprietress waved her hand and said:

"Originally, it wasn't very clear, you also know that we are a group of coarse people who don't know big words, how to recognize this, it's all because of the recently appointed Imperial History, and now, the streets and alleys are spreading about him!"

I frowned slightly, the person the boss said, is it me?

"Speaking of which, Xiao Gao, now that you have also entered the Imperial History Terrace, you should know Gao Yushi......, right?

I shook my head hurriedly and said:

"Although my surname is Gao, I am only a small official of the Imperial History Terrace, and I dare not climb the imperial family at will, if you are talking about Gao Chen Gao Yushi, then Xiao Gao naturally knows it!"

"Yes, it's Gao Chen Gao Yushi, he is still the concubine of Her Royal Highness the eldest princess, all because of his three songs, which can make my group of people feel relieved, comfortable, and comfortable once, and now the whole capital is full of praise when they talk about this young Gao Yushi!"

When the proprietress mentioned Gao Yushi, she couldn't help but give a thumbs up.

Being praised like this really made me a little confused, blushed slightly, and hurriedly said:

"What Gao Yushi has done is within his bounds, how can he bear such praise?"

"Don't look at our group of ordinary people who can't read big words, but we all understand things, and we know very well in our hearts whether the decrees issued by the imperial court are good or bad, because if our lives are bad, no matter how the officials blow the sky, it will be bad; if we live well, even if it is a decree that does not invite officials, it will be good for us ordinary people!"

Hearing the words of the proprietress made me feel like I had read a book for ten years.

"But he didn't do anything to benefit the people?"

"No, he did, you see, the atmosphere in the capital has been lifted lately, at least for so many years, no one has thought to do this, but he has done it. In fact, the big guy's heart is looking forward to him becoming a good official, a good official who truly serves the country and the people!"

For the country and the people?

I couldn't help but be dumbfounded, just now, I once wanted to give up all my qiē, including my own ideals and beliefs, responsibilities and commitments!

Wan'er is right, I can't let it go at all, and I can't let it go, and neither can she......

I still remember that when I was ten years old, the Master took us to the fields to see the serfs working, and then asked us a question:

Why are you an official?

At that time, I said: I wish the world was peaceful!

This indestructible obsession rooted in my heart comes from the most sincere hope in my heart, hoping that there will be no more wars and riots in this world, no more plagues and famines, no more people will be displaced, they can live and work in peace and contentment, and their families will not suffer from life and death, and they can be reunited!

It's just that the days when I was a child are a past that I can never forget......

In the inner hall, a small head poked its head out from time to time and peeked at us.

The proprietress soon spotted the elven ghost, beckoned to her, and said:

"Ping'er, what are you doing there sneaking around, silly boy, come here!"

"Oh~"

The little girl stuck out her tongue and immediately trotted over, threw herself into the arms of the proprietress and hid behind the proprietress and occasionally stared timidly at me.

I smiled wryly, remembering that the proprietress had mentioned last time that she had a son who was a layman.

"Is this your daughter? So, you have two children?"

The proprietress touched the little girl's head and said:

"No, I have three children, and the one who is a layman is my second son!"

"What about your eldest son?"

......

The proprietress was silent for a moment, then her face turned to a rather sad look, and she said:

"I died on the battlefield many years ago......"

When I heard this, I was suddenly sad, and hurriedly said:

"I'm sorry. ”

The proprietress shook her head and said:

"Not long after, the second son was about to come back, and he took over from the child's father and enlisted in the army. ”

Recently, the movements of the Northern Qi Dynasty are suspicious, and the Northern Wei Dynasty has already begun to think about countermeasures, and this recruitment of soldiers and preparation of grain and grass is the first thing, and I think the Ministry of War has already begun to prepare for these things.

"The child's father is old, and his legs and feet are no longer good, so he can no longer serve in the military, and the second son came back this time, he was recruited by the imperial court to serve in the army for his father!"

"But you only have this one son......

"The military book is famous, even if we are reluctant, we have to send him to the army with tears. What's more, if there is no country, where will it come from?"

“......”

"I don't dare to have any more extravagance now, I just hope that the child can come back from the battlefield safely, and then raise Ping'er well, and when the child is married, I will find a good family for her to marry, then I will have nothing to regret in this life!"

After speaking, the proprietress didn't feel tears in her eyes, and wiped her tears with her sleeves.

I stood up silently and bowed respectfully to her.

......

When I returned, my heart was heavy but a little steady, and the words of the proprietress were reflected in my mind, and I couldn't disperse for a long time. I've always been thinking about what I should do and what I can do.

Wan'er is also going on a march, and for the first time I feel what it feels like to be afraid of the person I love!

I would be worried and afraid, why wouldn't the proprietress worry about her son?

I don't have the right to stop Wan'er, so it's no wonder that she would reject me so firmly.

Walking and walking, a few jars of wine in my hand collided with each other and made a pleasant crisp sound, and I don't know when there was one more person behind me, and then the person unceremoniously patted my right shoulder, the force was a little big, I looked back painfully, but it was a handsome young man, this person is not Chen Xiaoyu dressed as a man, who could it be?

I saw her smile elegantly, calmly walking side by side with me, completely ignoring the eyes of the people around her.

I'm wearing a business uniform, and it's fine to walk down the street alone, but walking with someone is a bit eye-catching.

"What, you guys are arguing?"

Chen Xiaoyu saw me holding the wine jar, and wondered if I was going to borrow wine to buy drunk again, and I could feel displeasure in my tone.

I laughed and asked rhetorically:

"You can see that, too?"

"That must be your fault, hurry back and pour tea with her to admit your mistake. ”

"You don't ask what's going on, just say so bluntly, it's my fault?"

Hearing this, Chen Xiaoyu Huo Ran stopped, looked at me with a hateful expression, and said:

"Of course, because there is no woman in this world who is as good as she is to you!"

This sentence hit me seven inches, and I couldn't refute it at all.

So, I promised her that she wouldn't drink casually, so she really wouldn't dare to drink casually, even if I really wanted to get drunk!

I glanced at the jars of wine in my hand, mentioned Chen Xiaoyu, and said:

"Why don't you take these jars of good wine back and drink them?"

Chen Xiaoyu showed a look of disdain and said:

"What good wine has not been drunk, it is not rare!"

I said with some emotion, saying:

"That's right!"

After a moment of silence, I continued:

"Are you hurt?"

I pointed to her right shoulder, and from the beginning of the day, I thought she was acting a little strangely, and she usually patted me on the shoulder with her right hand, but this time she actually used her left hand.

Chen Xiaoyu showed a slightly different expression, and then said lightly:

"yes~"

"Ming Xiufang did it?"

I remembered the Crane Tower, it seems that Ming Xiufang is planning to wipe out the Chen family!

"Yes and no!"

This answer is really ambiguous.

"It's Mingxiufang who wants to kill my father, but the one who wants to kill me together should be the one!"

The guy behind Ming Xiufang?

"I thought he was old and confused, allowing his sons to form a party for personal gain, and stirring up the government and politics. ”

Chen Xiaoyu cast an admiring gaze at me, but I didn't expect that I would actually think of coming up to this level.

Isn't the one standing behind Ming Xiufang the monarch of Chen State!

Mingxiufang has always regarded itself as a decent person, and he naturally has to be upright and famous for killing people.

But Chen Guojun is also a ruthless master, he has never been responsible for others, no one can bear him, he took the throne from his brother back then, you can know how proficient he is in the art of power.

Therefore, he felt that it was not enough to kill Chen Yuan to vent his hatred, and he had to cut the grass and eradicate the roots, so he made these two preparations, Ming Xiufang killed Chen Yuan all the way, and he sent someone to assassinate Chen Xiaoyu!

It took a lot of effort for Wan'er to protect the Chen family, as long as it was in this capital, Wan'er could naturally ensure that no one in the dark could move the Chen family, but Mingxiufang was different, their power was very widely distributed, and it could almost be said that it was pervasive, if you wanted Mingxiufang to stop killing the Chen family, then you had to use Mingxiufang's rules.

Once the killing fails, it will not be done twice.

Therefore, there is the plan of Li Dai Tao stiff in the Immortal Crane Tower.

"Why, that person is a terrible person, he feels that everything is under his control!"

Chen Xiaoyu made no secret of his fear of that person.

......

In this way, the matter I asked Chen Xiaoyu to investigate has already come to fruition, and sure enough, this Chen Guojun's hand is too far!

"There will always be a time when he can't control it......"

I just said it lightly.

Immediately, the two continued to walk forward.

"You two will be reconciled, won't you?"

Chen Xiaoyu was still a little uneasy, and hurriedly asked.

I sighed slightly and said:

"We didn't quarrel, I just hated myself for being useless!"

"What are you thinking about again?"

"The incident at the Crane Tower, she didn't tell you about that plan beforehand, right?"

“......”

Chen Xiaoyu's silence is also acquiescence, too, if Chen Xiaoyu knew, he would definitely not let Wan'er sacrifice his life!

"Yes, she carries everything by herself, she wants to face everything by herself, and when she encounters something dangerous, she tries her best to get us out, but puts herself in the most dangerous position!"

That's why I said that it was useless to hate myself, because I wasn't strong enough for her to rely on, so that she could carry everything on her shoulders. ”

Saying this, I felt a little sad feeling spreading, and continued:

"I used to think that as long as I worked hard, I would be able to do what I wanted to do, but now I realize that there are some things that you may not be able to do no matter how hard you try, because from the beginning, this is what you can't do at all!"

Sometimes I wonder if I'm not strong enough because I'm not a real husband, and if I'm a man, then at least today's predicament should be solved!

"If you really love her, then give her more patience and tolerance, it's not that she won't rely on, but she is not used to relying on, that is the way she has always lived, I think, you should know her better than anyone else!"

Chen Xiaoyu's words made me wake up from a dream, she was right, Wan'er is such a person!

Even so, she is a woman I love deeply......