The little girl's neck was covered with gauze and duct tape inside and three layers outside.

Zhang Tianyang knew that the tube of the internal jugular vein was covered under the gauze.

Is it comfortable to have an extra tube on my neck?

For a moment, Zhang Tianyang felt as if his heart had been pinched by someone.

"Mom told the doctor to talk, can you stay by yourself for a while?"

The little girl's mother smiled and communicated with the little girl, and then politely invited Zhang Tianyang outside the ward.

"I'm sorry, doctor, for causing you trouble. ”

Zhang Tianyang shook his head.

I wanted to say something, but in the end I didn't say anything.

The world actually sometimes

It's really unfair......

......

"Doctor, ask me anything you want to ask here, I know her medical history. ”

The woman's face was a little tired, but she managed to squeeze out a smile.

"This kid is so hard. But if possible, I want her to know a little less about these things and try to be as normal as possible. ”

Pity the hearts of parents all over the world.

Zhang Tianyang nodded in understanding.

"Preparing for this time?"

"The doctor at our hospital said her blood vessels were too thin to have an arteriovenous fistula.

The suggestion was to change to peritoneal dialysis, but her albumin was too low some time ago. ”

"Alas, this child was found out when he was one and a half years old......"

Zhang Tianyang listened to the woman's narration while flipping through the medical records of the little girl hospitalized in other hospitals.

The woman spoke very carefully and complicatedly, starting with the little girl who was sick at the beginning.

In fact, Zhang Tianyang doesn't need to know a lot of information at all.

He only needs to know the time of onset of the little girl, previous treatments and medications, the current treatment plan, and the purpose of admission.

He didn't need to know that she liked cats and mice.

There is no need to know that she studies well in school.

There is no need to know that her greatest wish is to go on a week-long trip with her parents, but she keeps putting it off because she needs to see a doctor.

But he didn't interrupt the woman.

The family gave him the respect he deserved, and he was willing to take a moment to listen to the bitterness in the heart of this emaciated mother.

Five minutes later, the woman smiled apologetically again.

"I'm sorry, I think it's too much. ”

"It's okay, it's not asking for a medical history. It is more helpful for us to understand the condition. ”

Zhang Tianyang comforted him and returned to the office with an A4 paper packed with information.

Senior Sister Liang was scheduling her patient's surgery for the next week, and when she turned her head and saw Zhang Tianyang coming back, she couldn't help but ask.

"I heard it's a 12-year-old girl?"

"Hmm. ”

Zhang Tianyang snorted, his mood was heavy and he didn't want to speak.

Senior Sister Liang continued to line up for surgery, and suddenly the whole person stopped there.

Something seems wrong?

This peerless straight girl frowned and pondered for a long time, and suddenly reacted.

"Senior brother, are you unhappy?"

"It's a bit depressing. ”

Zhang Tianyang exhaled a breath of turbidity.

"Such a young child, only 12 years old, but he has to live with a dialysis machine for the rest of his life. ”

"I heard that the blood vessels are thin and you can't do an arteriovenous fistula,

I can do hemodialysis three times a week, so I can have a little time to live my own life.

If you can only do peritoneal dialysis, three times a day, you will basically have to fight the disease in your life. ”

Zhang Tianyang unconsciously flipped through the paper in his hand and sighed again.

"It feels like her life has just begun. ”

Senior Sister Liang tilted her head and looked at Zhang Tianyang, who sighed, feeling a little complicated.

Usually, the junior brother seems to be all-round, not only in clinical thinking, operational ability, but also in theoretical knowledge, which seems to be no worse than her.

Many times, she will subconsciously regard her junior brother as a senior doctor.

It is only at this time that the junior brother is a bit like an intern who has just gotten out of clinical practice.

"That's what the hospital is like. ”

Senior Sister Liang thought about it, but she really didn't know how to comfort Zhang Tianyang, she would only tell the truth.

"You've just gotten out of the clinic, and you've seen very little. Like us, who have been mixed up for many years, there is no fluctuation in my heart when I see this. ”

"A twelve-year-old girl who has kidney failure must have dialysis to survive, pitiful, right?

I've seen even the younger, just before you came in, there was a 9-year-old girl who had just been discharged from the hospital and also had kidney failure.

There are also those who are studying in college and have a bright future, but suddenly fall ill, and there is one in Professor He's group next door.

And the pillars of the family are not in good health, and the whole family is not good together, aren't people pitiful?"

"It's not just nephrology, you go to other departments.

Hematology, blood diseases, relying on chemotherapy to survive, maybe you won't be able to get up that morning. ”

Senior Sister Liang looked at Zhang Tianyang.

"By the way, didn't you spend time in the neonatal unit?

The children over there are born with a lack of oxygen, and they may be disabled for the rest of their lives.

There is also obstetrics and gynecology, and many children do not even have a chance to survive.

Do you feel pitiful?"

Zhang Tianyang thought for a while and nodded, "It's all pitiful." ”

"Can you be pitiful then?"

Senior Sister Liang propped her elbows on the table, and then propped up her chin with her hands, and a suspicious light flashed in her eyes.

"When I first got out of the clinic, I thought they were pitiful.

Sometimes, patients cry, family members cry, and I cry more than they do.

But what's the use?"

"Some diseases, it just can't be cured!"

Senior Sister Liang had a smile on the corner of her mouth, but Zhang Tianyang always felt that there were a lot of things hidden behind this smile.

"When I first started studying medicine, I always felt that there were very few diseases in the world that could not be cured.

As I learned, I found that there were only a few diseases that could be cured. ”

"You feel that the patient is pitiful, and it doesn't change anything.

So you don't have to pity them, you just have to do what you have to do. ”

"Isn't that what a doctor does?"

Zhang Tianyang had already stopped waving his hand on the A4 paper, thoughtfully.

"Trudeau's words?

Sometimes to heal, often to help, always to comfort. ”

Zhang Tianyang felt that he had finally regained his spirits.

"Senior sister, are you scheduling next week's surgery?"

The corners of Senior Sister Liang's mouth rose, and she didn't know why she was in a somewhat happy mood.

"Yes, there are no operating rooms on Fridays and weekends, and I had two patients who had arteriovenous fistulas on Monday. ”

Zhang Tianyang thought about it for a while,

"I'm probably going to have to do that as well.

The local hospital said she had thin blood vessels, but I wanted to see it again.

Senior sister, will you watch it?"

"Do you want to use an ultrasound? Then you'll have to make an appointment today.

Most of the patients in our department have to do ultrasound, but there is only one machine in the department, you go to make an appointment now, and you should be able to get it tomorrow.

I'll watch it with you tomorrow. ”

"Okay. ”

Zhang Tianyang quickly typed the medical records, and soon typed out the ultrasound list.

"I'll make an appointment right now. ”

Hopefully, tomorrow a vein can be seen that is thick enough.

Hopefully, God can be a little nicer to her.