Chapter 89: Look at Zhu Chengbi's thoughts
"You wrote this letter...... What?"
Filled with righteous indignation, I walked quickly to the Lotus Pavilion, but I happened to see a figure stroking the piano in the Lotus Pavilion, and the pavilion was surrounded by Man
By the time I asked this sentence, the person had already come to the Lotus Pavilion, and then he saw the green front shadow, and then the whole person was stunned.
The sound of the piano of the people in the pavilion also stopped abruptly, as if they were slightly panicked by my sudden arrival.
We fell into a dead silence so suddenly that no one spoke for a long time.
......
In the end, it was the woman in green in the pavilion who broke the permeating silence.
"Although I don't know what the letter is written in the mouth of the adult, it is indeed not written by the little woman, and the adult asked the wrong person. ”
The woman in green spoke deferentially, but she exuded a sense of coldness, which was not like her at all.
Did she call me "Adult"?
Oh, yes, now that I'm wearing a public uniform and having a reputation for myself, I'm undoubtedly an adult.
With a wry smile, I immediately clasped my fists and saluted:
"I see, that's really a reckless attack, please don't be weird!"
The figure of the woman in green was a little thin and cold, but she bowed her head slightly, and still didn't turn around, but Shi Shiran stood up and stroked her piano, seeing this, she wanted to leave here, only to hear her say lightly:
If the adult has no other instructions, the little woman will not disturb the adult to enjoy the flowers and Yaxing, and then she will get up and leave. ”
"Slow~"
I immediately stopped it, and then regretted my reckless behavior, after all, it had been so many years that I couldn't really be sure if the person in front of me was her!
"I wonder what else the adults command?"
Although I couldn't see her expression, listening to her tone, it was tepid, unhurried, and I could see that her temperament was extremely calm.
"Can you tell me the girl's name?"
“......”
The green girl paused for a moment, and I knew that she had no intention of dwelling on this, but I wanted to make it clear, plain.
"I want to see what you look like......"
“......”
"Let me know who you are!"
“......”
I pressed hard at every step, and the man walked behind her, yes, I was going to find an answer anyway!
"Is this important to you, more important than your life?"
There was a sudden hint of sarcasm in her voice, perhaps sarcastically at my ignorance and ignorance, or at the fact that she was still so infatuated.
I couldn't help but look a little sad, and the letterhead and the silver hairpin in my hand were pulled in my hand together, and it hurt a little, as if my fingers had been punctured.
"My life is no longer my own, but at this moment, knowing who you are is more important than anything else!"
"Perhaps, it's much better for you to know than not to know......"
There was a bit of helplessness in her tone, but in a moment, I was sure of what I wanted to know.
"No, I want to know, I, should. ”
My gaze was determined, because I was no longer the ignorant teenager I used to be when I didn't understand anything.
Hearing the firmness in my tone, the corners of the green woman's mouth couldn't help but show a smile of relief, and then she slowly turned around, and after looking at me for a while, Shi Shiran saluted and said:
"The little woman is quiet, and she has seen adults. ”
Yes, her eyes are still the same as at that time, soft and delicate, and there is always a little sadness between her eyebrows, and her delicate and slightly familiar face is with a hint of a smile, which looks very beautiful.
She used to smile very little, but when she did, she didn't seem to look as good as she does now.
Because now she has long taken off her immature coat in the past, like a beautiful butterfly that has turned out of a cocoon, radiating a different kind of charming beauty.
She became more mature, and the extra green gem between her eyebrows also reflected her more and more brilliantly.
Is this her real name?!
I still remember that she once said that her favorite sentence is one of Zhuge Liang:
There is no ambition without indifference, and there is no far-reaching ambition without tranquility.
It turned out that at that time, she was faintly reminding me that her real name was gone.
"In Xia Gaochen, Miss Ning is polite. ”
He solemnly bowed again, and looked at her again.
originally thought that there would be no chance to see her again in this life, and I was often haunted by dreams and memories in my heart, and I felt that I owed her a lot, and I thought that I would never be able to make up for it.
Now when I see her again, I just see her somewhat familiar figure, and my heart is already excited. When I saw her face again, I thought I would be thrilled and uncontrollable, but I didn't expect that in the end, only a light smile was left, and then I felt that time was fleeting and it was no longer the same......
"The people around are used to calling the little girl Jing, and if the adults don't dislike it, they can also call it that. ”
"Miss Jing...... You are very similar to an old man Gao Chen once knew. ”
I spoke quietly, then silently looked into her eyes.
"Oh, I don't know what kind of old man is that adults still can't forget?"
Tranquility smiled slightly and asked lightly.
"It's an old man I owe her a word of truth. ”
"Oh?"
Tranquility scoffed a little.
"Catkins ......"
"The adult recognizes the wrong person, and the little woman is quiet. ”
Tranquility's tone was a little anxious, maybe even she didn't know, at this moment, her mood was also a little fluctuating.
"A person's appearance may be similar, and her voice may be slightly similar, but her heart is unique and unique in the world. You once said, I am good at reading people's hearts, and I can understand the heart of the qin, and your heart is the heart of the catkins, whether you are the catkins or the girl Jing, you are you, what is your name, and what does it matter?"
I was thinking that I would be so quick to accept the fact that the catkins were not dead, maybe I had already had such thoughts in my heart, especially during the time after the catkins fell into the water, I went to the lake almost every day to search for her traces, thinking that even if she had long since disappeared, I would find her and bury her properly.
But for several months, I still haven't been able to find any clues about her, and when I think back to the past, I always feel that catkins are not as weak as I imagined, and I never even thought that she would seek death. In those months, I regained a little bit of sanity from the constant disappointment, and began to know some of the doubts and mistakes in the analysis.
In the end, I suspect that catkins may not be dead at all.
I don't know if this conclusion is a conclusion that I have come up with with so many excuses to comfort myself after I have been discouraged, or if it is really a conclusion that I have come to after careful reflection and analysis.
All I know is that I lived in hell instead of the human world for a few months, and people were a little bit of a god, which was not normal.
Now it turns out that she is indeed alive, yes, it turns out that I didn't know enough about catkins at that time, and now I don't seem to understand Miss Jing a little.
Outside the Lotus Pavilion, the sky was gray, and suddenly there was a drizzle, which was rippling, just looking at it, it made my heart calm down a little.
The letter in my hand was not written by her, that is, the person who brought me here. But this man can get the silver hairpin of catkins, know our past, and use it, what a terrible person!
Hearing my answer, Tranquility was only slightly stunned, then lowered her eyes and asked:
"Then what kind of words do you want to sue the deceased?"
......
"I like you, I used to like you as you said I liked you!"
This sentence will become an eternal regret in my heart, and I will never say it, but now, in this conspiracy that has been planned, it has been realized. I don't know what's next for me, but I don't want this regret to continue.
Hearing my confession, Tranquility's eyes moistened slightly, and then she threw herself into my arms and hugged me.
Maybe the people who are waiting for this moment are not only me, but also her.
We are all desperate to be free from the shackles of the past, and only by bravely facing the past can we create a better future!
Gently hugged her in his arms, this belated hug made both of us feel a little teary-eyed.
Ever liked you, really nice!
"Do you think that's fine?"
Quietly and gently crouched into my arms, and asked the words softly.
I nodded, and said:
"Well, that's fine. ”
......
"Are you changing because of her?"
Tranquility had to admit that she actually had a trace of jealousy in it, even she couldn't change the person in front of her back then, but that person did it.
"You're in love with her?"
Hearing Tranquility's question, I didn't feel a blush, but I still nodded a little proudly and shyly, and said:
"Well, I'm in love with her. ”
......
Hearing my words, Tranquility gently pushed me away, it was time to let the past qiē be over.
When they met my eyes again, it seemed that I could no longer find the figure of the past in her eyes.
I saw her smile bitterly, and then said:
"You are still Gao Chen, and I am Tranquility, and I am also the righteous daughter adopted by the virtuous king Xiao Yan, the lord of Morong. ”
With just one word, she pulled the distance between me and her to the edge of heaven and earth, and between me and her, there was really no way back to the past!
The sky was getting darker, and the rain was still falling outside the pavilion, which made my body chill and feel a chill that pierced my heart.
Inadvertently, I turned around and glanced at the horse that I was idle on the embankment, even in the rain it was leisurely looking for the green grass at its feet to eat, and not far from its feet, an open oil-paper umbrella was lying sideways, the rain was coming, making the sudden appearance of the oil-paper umbrella look more lonely and sad.
Could it be...... Princess, princess, she's been here before?
Could it be that she has seen everything just now?
My heart throbbed violently, and without thinking about it, I turned around and wanted to run out of the Lotus Pavilion to find the person who had long been out of sight......
Tranquility just looked at me quietly, didn't say anything or stopped, just watched quietly.
I turned back suddenly, looked at her helplessly, and then returned the letter and the silver hairpin in my hand to hers, and with a knowing smile, I said:
"I'm really happy that you're alive, thank you, I've liked you, I never regret it, really!"
After saying that, I slowly withdrew from the Lotus Pavilion, she stood in the pavilion, and I was in the rain, just looking at each other like this, the farther and farther away, it was time to end.
Just as I was about to turn around, Tranquility suddenly spoke, saying:
"From now on, you and I will be mortal enemies when we see each other again, and I will not show mercy next time. ”
I saw the resoluteness in her eyes, and if this was a war letter, I would have to respond with the corresponding fighting spirit and courage, so that I would not be an opponent who regarded me as an enemy.
I nodded firmly and said:
"Okay, I accept your battle offer. ”
Finally, I saluted her with a fist and said goodbye, and when I turned away, I ran away without looking back.
At this moment, I just want to find the person I love the most in my heart, the plain clothes that I am familiar with and love, the gentle and gentle that I love and can't give up, I want to find my lover......
Princess, you must wait for me!