It's a strange state of mind that is trapped.

It's not like wandering, it's not like being dual-minded, but when you face someone, you will smile and even respond, but in fact, your consciousness has long been far away and you don't know where to go.

Ever since Precia left, Thor had been unconsciously falling into this state due to some associations or memory fragments, but most of the time he was alone, and this quirk did not affect him much.

It took a while for Thor to return to his body.

Seeing that Erin was staring at him with a puzzled face, Thor had no intention of explaining, raised his hand to pull her whole person away from him, and then put his arm around Erin's shoulders and took her into his arms.

"When you grow up a little more, I'll turn you into a woman. ”

Sniffing the intoxicating scent of a girl she had never smelled in her hair, Thor said to the girl in his arms, but he knew it wouldn't happen.

The orphan and the children of the town are two different kinds of people, and when order is restored in Grey Curtain Town, he and she will return to their respective trajectories, and eventually they will only drift apart.

With her back to Thor, Erin was secretly a little glad that this man ...... Well, boy, did you let yourself go out of some kindness, but when you think about it, it's not really anything to be happy about, the cold winter is not over, and the predicament is not far away.

There was silence all around, and only time flowed in the silent darkness.

After hesitating for a while, Erin twisted her good-looking side face in Saul's arms and asked in a tentative tone:

"You ...... Do you have any food? Or, can you take ......?"

Tears suddenly and uncontrollably fell, and Erin covered her mouth with the back of her hand in such embarrassment that she choked up a complete sentence and could not finish it properly.

originally wanted to be stubborn and not cry, but some unexpected emotions suddenly surged, and her emotions that had been tense all night were suddenly shattered.

She had never experienced a moment like this in her life.

The love of her parents and her modest family background gave her a fairly stable life, at least she never begged anyone.

It was only at this moment that she realized how hard it was to speak to a stranger of the opposite sex of the same age.

In tonight's so-called 'deal', when she showed her body and her chastity to the other in her bed, with all the humility you could take, she knew she had nothing to trade for.

But thinking of the agreement to live with her sister, even if the other party has let her go, she still has to force herself to inch in and be cheeky to beg more.

This made her feel very ashamed, which was tantamount to nakedness in the light.

Dusty stubbornness, torn dignity, grievances, and apprehensions...... , too many complicated emotions filled Erin's sight, making her tearful eyes very bright in the dark.

Watched by Erin's expectant eyes, Thor almost couldn't help but turn his head away, but in the end he just met Erin's gaze and said a little stiffly:

"It's a pity that we don't have the resources to spare...... Be considerate of others. ”

From the few words of conversation tonight, it was clear that Erin may have a mature side, but behind the unclever disguises, she is only a child after all. Well, she seems to be younger than her, just turning thirteen.

The world is not tolerant of women.

Thor didn't feel good about seeing her lose her armor and be vulnerable and helpless in front of him, but he knew very well that this sympathy was meaningless, after all, reality had always been so heavy.

Thor didn't lie, although his usual creed of being an orphan was to protect himself first and then look at the rest, but in the face of Erin's questioning, he still silently calculated in his heart.

The cold winter will not pass for at least a little more than a month, and the food left over from today's expenses is barely enough for him and Xiugues to last a week, and with two more mouths, it will be shortened to three or four days.

That small acre of sharp-leaved carrot will not be harvested until about three weeks later, which means that if the four people are in a group, as long as there is a blank in the search in the middle for a few days, the final outcome will only be to die together.

And Thor has always known that the real predicament is not just about surviving the present and surviving the cold winter, if the famine does not end next spring, everyone who stays in the town will eventually either devour each other or be driven into the dark wilderness.

The only thing a weak person can do is to choose a way to die while he still has the strength.

Originally, Thor wanted to stock up on as much food as possible until after the winter, but the cold reality had already forcefully revised his plan countless times to survive as long as possible.

Thor has experienced deep hunger and knows very well how hunger can torment a person when hunger comes, when those crazy and irritable emotions tear away your reason, and the desire to devour everything in your heart.

What is it to eat people, even the gods can gnaw if the teeth are better.

It is undoubtedly dangerous for four people to stay together, and in the last moment of delirium, even the blood relationship can be easily cut off, not to mention some temporary warmth.

After receiving a solemn answer from Saul, the light in Erin's eyes gradually dimmed, and she turned back silently, and the lonely back looked thinner and thinner.

Originally, he wanted to withdraw the hand that was still on the other party's waist in time, but feeling the temperature of the girl coming from the palm of his hand, Thor sighed silently in his heart.

"Today's food should be enough for you for two or three days, and after that, maybe I can provide you two with a job to pay for food, such as sewing or ...... Uh, slurry or something?"

Thor scratched his head and thought about it for a long time before he could piece together these two jobs that were completely unnecessary.

When survival is threatened, who cares whether they dress sloppily or neatly, search and persistence are the focus of life.

It is not difficult to foresee that after tonight's contact, Shogues will definitely offer to take care of the sisters, and even if he opposes it, Shogues's stubborn freak will quietly tilt the food towards the sisters.

Anyway, the food is far from enough, so it is better to be a single person and accompany Xiugus on the road of self-abandonment and disregard.

There are many things in this world where sanity is useless.

It's like time, no matter how you plan it or how it collapses, it's still there, not in a hurry.

Just like death, no matter what age you are, no matter how unwilling, resistant, and fleeing, you are getting closer and closer to it.

It's like food, no matter how much you save and you are careful about it, you always can't get enough of it, and in the end you find that the food is gone.

"Thank you. ”

Erin whispered, her emotions seemed to be relieved, and her whole person suddenly relaxed.

She turned around and looked at Thor deeply, then took the initiative to look up and kiss him, but the next moment she buried her head in his arms and cried even more fiercely. She didn't know what she was crying about, but she couldn't stop the tears.

The sudden burst of gratitude made Thor a little confused for a moment, and it was only after a moment that he unskillfully raised his hand and gently patted her on the back.

The low sobbing gradually subsided, and the surroundings fell silent again.

Neither of them spoke after that, only their own heartbeats.

The wind and snow outside were still howling, but this small room temporarily isolated the cold of the whole world.

Shogues was right about at least one thing, it was a warm night, and Thor hadn't had such a good night's sleep in a long time.

In the quiet environment, the soundproofing downstairs was obviously not very good, and from time to time in the darkness came the grumbling ...... poor Hughes.