At night, the apartment on Riverside Street.

It's not the first time Katie has come here to find that Lin Yilong's residence is still the same, and the furnishings and items in the room are neat and clean.

It's always very inhibitive to be in such a situation—not that it's bad, but in general, when a guest enters such a room, he is always afraid of violating some of the taboos of the owner of the house and becoming restrained. In Katie's opinion, Lin Yilong lives alone in the apartment. Whether it's New Merdan or Riverside Street, it always seems that it is deliberately cleaned for others to see, not as if it is inhabited by oneself.

This habit made Katie very nervous, and even this was the only reason why Katie and Lin Yilong broke up at that time.

Failed in her resistance, Katie was eventually cut off by Lin Yilong and imprisoned in Bonas's beach house, where she was transformed from a free-flying falcon into an ornamental bird in a golden cage - an identity that Katie always wanted to forget.

"Do you think Fatima is pretty?" In the philosophical time after the intimacy, Katie suddenly remembered the phone call from Fatima a few days ago, and tested Lin Yilong.

"It's okay, but I can't take the curry taste. Lin Yilong put his hand on Katie's back and rubbed her shoulder blade, "She's coming back to you?"

"Yes. Katie replied.

"Fatima is really a nice girl. Lin Yilong completely eliminated the possibility of Fatima, "I did overdo the Fatima incident, to the point that I don't have the kind of love of men and women, can it be considered sympathy?"

"Sympathy, do you have that kind of thing?" said Katie, skeptical.

"I'm human, of course I do, but not so strongly. Lin Yilong then began to talk about his understanding of the psychology of 'sympathy', "It is probably a kind of self-protection that other people are afraid that the situation of the object of sympathy will happen to themselves." ”

"But aren't you the initiator of "Fatima Homecoming"?" Katie was a little angry, and then she was pressed under Lin Yilong, panting and begging for mercy.

"I've never denied it, Katie, you also need to think about it, will I 'sympathize' her for you?" Lin Yilong was a little weak after exercising again.

"For me?" Katie was extremely unconvinced.

"Of course, mutual confidence between us is very important. "I'll put everything in front of you and tell you that Fatima came to my forest farm to help me with saffron before she left England, and Vera and Nadia asked very similar questions at that time, and my answer was the same." You and Fatima were already in contact before we met, and would you be hostile to Fatima because of me? ”

"It's a despicable strategy. Katie shook her head and commented, "On the one hand, it makes me feel that you are absolutely sincere to me, and on the other hand, I can't trust you as a person." ”

"Isn't that good?" Lin Yilong had a little strength.

"Of course it's problematic. Katie voiced her question, "Not intentionally offensive or prejudiced, Yilong, you give me the feeling that all the furnishings and items in your apartment are like showing them to others?"

"Could it be that Katie, you don't like clean and tidy rooms and like them to be a little shabby and messy?" asked Lin Yilong.

"That's the problem, okay!" said Katie, "I..... You belong to you, you don't have to put on that kind of feeling to make me comfortable for me, it makes me nervous. This tension is completely unnecessary for our relationship. ”

"You mean, everything about me is like acting. Lin Yilong asked.

"Yes. Katie replied, "And not just for others, but more importantly for yourself." ”

"It's so sad for me. Lin Yilong said, "People are always growing, and after some things, they will gradually pay attention to it - take health as an example, only when you see the pain and despair in the hospital bed can you understand the fragility of life - even if it is played as a kind of placebo to yourself, you can always feel a little more at ease, which is also a kind of self-satisfaction." When this self-satisfaction becomes a habit, it is difficult to quit. When you're always behind the mask, and you see the face on the mask every day, you've forgotten what you look like. ’”

"Isn't that tiring?"

"It's already a habit, why are you tired?" Lin Yilong looked at Katie incomprehensibly, "This is the inevitable self-regulation of the instinct of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages under the influence of the environment." ”

"Is it social Darwinism?"

"No, we are human. Human beings are not primitive animals that change their needs to adapt to the external environment as the environment changes, but the great creatures who adapt the external environment to their own needs, and social Darwinism does not apply in this logic. So for me, I don't think it's social Darwinism, it's empiricism determined by man's own desire to gain and avoid harm: because it's in my best interest. Lin Yilong retorted to Katie, "Just like you take Fatima as an example, you feel that it may be out of my own bad intentions, but after all, the benefits she brought to me for this particular girl are far less than the losses caused to me." However, for Katie, will you put yourself in your shoes, because this value scale is my Lin Yilong's personal subjective scale, you have no way of knowing my true thoughts, it is precisely everything I show that makes you unable to test my evaluation method, if you inadvertently commit some kind of taboo of mine or I consider it an unforgivable mistake, will it be worse than Fatima's situation, this may be what Katie you want to know more. ”

"It's really always self-interested. Katie slightly understood Lin Yilong's words.

"That's right, so I never ask the people around me what kind of life they want. Lin Yilong replied nonchalantly, "Your goals determine your lifestyle, and it is inevitable to compromise with the people who live around you, and in the end it is still as much as you get, and that's it." Never try to understand someone by putting yourself in their shoes, it will make you change your position, and if you do, what can't you do? That's the real danger. So, I've always adhered to the core belief of egoism. Even if it is altruistic, my starting point is always self-interested, and I will judge others with the same starting point. ”

"What about me?"

"As you say, you are a part of my life. Lin Yilong said.