"Why do I have to go to medicine, I don't want to go. This conversation happened when Xu Lanyue was 18 years old, and he completed the college entrance examination without danger, and when he chose his own volunteer, Xu Lanyue actually did not have the volunteer he wanted, and his family made a choice for him, and he didn't know how he felt now.

According to my own feelings, I have lived without heart and lungs, I don't know anything, I don't think for myself, I just do what I like, and I will do whatever I like, as long as this kind of love is generated, I will not care about any obstacles and any pain, including death.

Xu Lanyue's growth is good, and she will specialize in something in depth, and she will not ask for other foreign objects or anything. The disadvantage is that if there is no good guidance, it will lead to a dead end, and no one can pull it back, if he can't wake up himself, it will be a harm to himself and others.

This growth can't be changed by others, it's not clear, body construction, growth caused by genes, if he can awaken later, or suffer something, this growth has been curbed, and there is some opportunity to change, it will be more difficult to change, it will take his own persistence and hard work.

Presumably no one else will help Xu Lanyue recall the past, presumably Xu Lanyue will not remember to recall the past, especially finding time to recall the past, that is a kind of cognitive analysis of one's own needs, a process of beginning to understand, a process of thinking, and a process of having memory.

In this case, Xu Lanyue does not have the idea of recalling the past, and others cannot help Xu Lanyue recall his past, so time can help us see Xu Lanyue's past. Growing up in the countryside, the world is already very modern, but there are still rural areas, and the living environment there is not good or good, so it must be nonsense in comparison.

The time was very busy, so I only gave us a few fragmentary fragments of Xu Lanyue's memories. There are no specific events in hours, minutes and seconds, and the years are quite vague, and the order of occurrence is quite vague, and the earlier the more ambiguous.

In fact, if Xu Lanyue is willing to recall the past by himself, he will find that the things that are remembered may be random, it may be a one-second picture memory, or it may be an afternoon memory, the memories in the middle do not exist, and they are all records of these lost intermediate memories in a row, which should not be a real memory no matter how you look at it, it can only be an important memory fragment connection, not the real self.

Why do people feel that these memory fragments are connected to themselves? What is going on with this own feeling, it should refer to the current state of oneself, this is oneself, and the instantaneous feeling is oneself, this feeling is always quite vague, and when you carefully calm down and analyze, it feels as if you are far away, and you seem to never be able to see through yourself, even if there is really a bunch of physical data to monitor yourself in real time, what you see is only data, and what is connected is only a law of running waves.

This kind of wave is continuous when viewed continuously, and instantaneous when viewed by slicing, and may be entangled with other waves in the form of particles, and thinking like this, guessing like this, is because we see this law in continuity, and for the wave itself and the wave time, he has been developing continuously in wave time.

For the whole regional temporal state of separation, these are just spatially fixed point existences that appear and disappear. However, considering the unity of time and space, those trajectories are all continuous collisions, fusions, and separate evolutions. Therefore, space-time cannot be separated and discussed, it is a unified state of existence, and separation and discussion is a misunderstanding, and time can be taken away, which is just a continuous trajectory of space, and some orbits do not collide, and have always existed in a certain space region in the same state.

Thinking is also a continuous process, you must remember the previous cognition, before you can carry out the later deduction, otherwise it is an instantaneous feeling, this moment this feeling, the next moment next feeling, that is to say, some people feel that the memory is too tired, do not want to do any memory, have used memory to think about the process, such people will present a sense of instantaneous. And the reason for not wanting to think may be that you remember too many things, hurt yourself, are too tired, painful, unhappy, and these will prevent thinking from proceeding.

Xu Lanyue has her own childhood, and she also has her own childhood playmates, at the beginning she was very wild, she didn't stay in a small area at all, she always ran out to play, there were a lot of natural beings outside that could be played, and there were many existential things built by humans, and she could grab food and collect food items, there was no law, the rules let them know that these were someone else's, and they couldn't take it, and the family occasionally talked about it, but it was useless, it was still like this, there was no compulsory restraint.

At that time, Xu Lanyue did not have cognitive fear, right and wrong is also a kind of cognitive fear, realizing that it is wrong for him to do this, so he does not do it, this is a kind of cognitive fear, for the orderly world, cognitive fear is good, but for some other conditions, cognitive fear will make people dare not do things, dare not recognize the world. Cognitive fear is defined as having knowledge of something that leads to not doing something.

Therefore, the older you get, the more fear you have to know, the more you dare not do things, and if you want to break through this cognitive fear, you must have more cognition, just like now you recognize these things, then the solution will be understood, no longer recognize fear, take the initiative to abide by the good, take the initiative to overcome some cognitive fears, and do some beneficial things, just like to recognize the world, rather than not dare to recognize the world.

didn't do anything particularly bad, in the countryside, that is, they ate the fruits grown by other people's families, took some fish in the nets home, destroyed other people's rice fields or something, and they were all sent home to educate well, anyway, whether the parents compensated later, this is not clear, next time Xu Lanyue will still do the same thing, and grow like this.

The cognition learned in school, some may be remembered, more are not clear with the release, more often it is for the exam, even if the exam is completed, and there is nothing to remember, children with good memory do well in the exam, Xu Lanyue does not have this talent, he does not work hard, he is not interested in these, he prefers to play in nature, he rarely socializes with others, and nature does attract him more.

This is when he chooses to volunteer, and he has no sense of direction, because there is no existence in those volunteers that he likes. If there are other reasons, it is that he later liked to read novels, I don't know why he liked it, he just liked it, and then he liked to imagine that he was the protagonist, of course, not the protagonist in the novel, but he himself was the protagonist, to experience those novel worlds, it was a kind of completely sinking into that kind of world, where he could build it as long as he could think of it, and at the same time he didn't like the outside world even more.

Studying medicine seems to have no way to avoid it. Xu Lanyue only struggled once, so he didn't resist, he went to read the novels he liked to read, and let those uncomfortable things leave his head, in fact, Xu Lanyue didn't do it consciously, he was used to this, and when he encountered these things, he naturally reflexively did it according to his habits.

The vocational skills are set, presumably foreseeing the possible future, as for the separation of routes, it is just a change of career to do those jobs that are not technical, maybe the extended vocational work outside the skills, if you say that you change to another professional job, it really can't afford to spend that training time, Xu Lanyue will definitely not consider taking a new path of vocational skills training.

This is a possible life that belongs to someone else in this era, not for Xu Lanyue, the 523rd generation inheritor of the Rapid Bloodline, and on the night of volunteering, Xu Lanyue dreamed of a book, the Book of Truth, and swore to become the successor of the seeker under some hint inexplicably.

Of course, this is a dream, Xu Lanyue didn't feel at ease, and when he got up the next morning, he just felt strange and funny about the ridiculous dream last night, he felt that he had read too many novels, and he said that he was quite late to read novels last night.

Xu Lanyue treats this thing as a dream, but the reality is real, when the dream is the same every night, whoever encounters this kind of thing will have doubts, Xu Lanyue is quite nervous, mainly because he doesn't pay much attention to things outside the novel, so it was a month later that Xu Lanyue realized that he had to find out what kind of seeker matter.

A check on the Internet, a lot of information about the seeker, of course, a lot of it is spam information, Xu Lanyue doesn't know much about these, he checks it when he has time, and clicks in to see the content, because he has the experience of a dream, so when he sees the seeker's information similar to the dream, Xu Lanyue records it.

The seeker is an ancient profession, a legendary existence, but no one has seen it, even the source of writing this seeker at that time, he is not sure that this profession exists, he just guesses that it may exist based on some information.

The messy content about the seeker in the back is an extension of the creation of that person, Xu Lanyue spent half a year figuring out these things, and now he wants to find the original materials that the person guessed about the existence of the seeker, fortunately, the preservation of the knowledge of the data in this era is very perfect, and if you really want to find it, you can find it.

After a period of time, he felt that he was right to study medicine, maybe he could find the reason why he always had such dreams, no longer resisted, and wanted to use medicine as a tool to solve his own problems, which was also motivation.

Is it man who controls the tool, or the tool that controls the man, or can it be said that the man controls the rules, or the rules control the man? People always want to control the tools and control the rules, and in fact, most people are controlled by the tools and the rules.