Euthanasia, for her, is definitely not an impulsive behavior, but after a series of thoughts, the best choice for the current life.

She was diagnosed with multiple system atrophy three years ago when she was approaching the peak of her life.

It is a sporadic neurodegenerative disease with no known cause and no effective solution, and the patient ends up unable to move and bedridden.

The doctor told her that soon she would not be able to take care of herself, speak normally, and even breathe with the help of an artificial respirator.

In just three years, she also clearly felt the rapid deterioration of her body, but she couldn't do anything about it, and she couldn't even maintain it.

She went from a normal person who could walk freely to a person who needed to rely on a wheelchair to get around, and it became difficult to speak.

It is becoming more and more difficult to live independently, and she needs the help of others to live.

From the moment she felt discomfort physically, she was taking notes.

Her hands began to be unsteady, her body began to wrestle on the flat road, and gradually, she couldn't see her sister's face clearly.

The reason why she made up her mind to euthanasia may have been because she met a patient with the same condition as her, who was bedridden all year round and needed a respirator to keep her alive.

Seeing the patient's inability to move and her body full of tubes, as if she saw her future self, made her feel a deep sense of despair.

"I want to die while I'm still me. She decided to euthanize because Daewoo did not support euthanasia, and she began contacting agencies in Switzerland.

The necessary conditions for euthanasia include unbearable physical suffering, a clear hospital for the patient, and no signs of recovery from the disease and no other treatment options.

At first, the family naturally disagreed, but after reading her diary, as well as the care she had been taking care of for the past two years, and the possibility of curing this disease, the family understood.

She really wanted to put an end to her pain.

This pain permeates from daily life, and little by little it discourages people from wanting to continue living.

Even if she tried, what she was waiting for was that there was no possibility of healing.

Even if he tried hard to live, he was only a futile "struggle", watching how he changed from a normal person to a person who could only be paralyzed on the bed, but there was no way at all.

When she arrived in Switzerland, doctors began to evaluate her.

And she was given two days to regret it, but as a result, her mind did not change.

On the day of euthanasia, everything was as usual, nothing special had changed, only she and her sisters, plus an outsider Prince An knew where they were going in the car.

Arriving at the location, she firmly signed the consent form.

The sisters who accompanied her had long since burst into tears, and their sobs echoed in the quiet room.

"We Daewoo people always say that after death, the body cannot return to the hometown, and the soul cannot find the direction to go home. Daewoo does not admit euthanasia, you are ...... Those who cannot return to their hometowns can only be buried. At the bedside, Wang Zi'an whispered to her.

"I know, while you, while you can still see that I am alive with dignity and a little decent...... This is the best option. The woman half-lying on the bed said, crying silently, she didn't want to die.

There is no other choice.

Wang Zi'an held the woman's hand, didn't know what to say, and was very depressed.

"If you meet me from the past, please bring her back. The woman said she didn't like her for the past 10 years.

She loves who she was ten years ago, growing up.

At that time, she didn't know what love was, and she didn't know the warmth and coldness of the world.

"Good. Wang Zi'an agreed.

"I'll leave right away, write me a poem. The woman smiled suddenly.

Looking at the woman's eyes, Wang Zi'an reached out and stroked her hair.

Her eyes were full of anticipation, like the last wish of her life.

After a moment, Wang Zi'an whispered:

"If there is an afterlife,

To make a tree,

Stand for eternity.

There is no posture of joy and sorrow,

Half in the dust,

Half fluttered in the wind;

Half sprinkled with shade,

Half soaked in the sun.

Very silent, very proud.

Never rely on, never seek.

If there is an afterlife, it will turn into a gust of wind,

An instant can become an eternity.

There are no sentimental feelings, no amorous eyes.

Half free in the rain,

Half traveled in the spring light;

Lonely, lonely to go on a long journey,

Take away all the faint thoughts,

Never miss, never love;

If there is an afterlife, be a bird,

Fly through eternity, without the distress of being lost.

There is a fiery hope in the East,

There are warm nest beds in the south,

Retreat the remnant sun to the west and awaken the fragrance to the north.

If there is an afterlife,

Hope that every time we meet,

can be turned into eternity. ”

There is no joy or sorrow, Wang Zi'an is like a sculpture, looking through the window and looking at the vast world outside.

The world seems to be business as usual, and it hasn't changed a bit because of anyone's departure.

"I really don't want to die...... I want to go home when I die, I want to go back to see you, to see my parents......" she cried.

Wang Zi'an retracted his gaze, lowered his head, and stroked her hair: "When I finish this life, I will come from my hometown to take you home." ”

"Hmm. There was a gleam in her eyes.

Euthanasia in Switzerland requires a personal procedure.

After she lay down, the staff began to explain to her the order of euthanasia.

After choosing euthanasia, this path is lonely, and no one can "help" you, because "helping" is equivalent to killing someone, which is a sin that will bear a lifetime.

A few minutes after the drip begins, the person dies.

Every step of euthanasia makes the applicant's family feel like a knife, because they know that every step is advancing the applicant's death, and they know that it is death, but they cannot stop it.

In this process, the sisters had no choice but to cry.

The entire process of euthanasia is filmed and presented to the police.

Glancing at him, she turned on the drip switch and said to her sisters:

"Really, thank you very much. ”

"I really didn't expect that at the end of the day, you would come to see me off. ”

"I'm not so uncomfortable, and I always let you take care of me......"

"I'm really happy......"

Her speech became slower and slower, and when she got to the back, it was obvious that she was struggling to speak.

The sisters cried and touched her head, comforting: "You don't have to suffer such pain soon, you will ...... soon"

She smiled.

But what her sister said, she couldn't make any response anymore.

She would rather die as a lonely ghost and never return home, rather than suffer such pain in the world.

Euthanasia, the whole process took only 4 minutes.

Doctors began to confirm the death.

Two days later, because Daewoo did not admit euthanasia, her body could not be brought back home, and her ashes were sprinkled on a river in Switzerland.

There was no return date.

The river was sparkling, with gentle and delicate ripples, flowing away, not knowing where to go, like her free and noble soul.

From birth to death, she lived such a gorgeous and dignified life, and the choice of euthanasia did not detract from her life in the slightest.

The decision to end one's life is often because the rest of life is worse than death.

If it weren't for despair for the rest of their lives, no one would want to end their lives with their own hands.

To live is endless suffering, to bring trouble to the family, but the body has not improved, such a life, there is only despair.

She couldn't find any hope of continuing to live, so she could only watch her health get worse and worse.

If you struggle and actively cooperate with the treatment, the result is that you are lying in bed with a tube inserted.

Compared with such a path, euthanasia may be a better option.

But for loved ones, even if this is a better path, it is still difficult to accept.

But they couldn't encourage her, who was suffering from the illness, to let her work hard and continue to persevere.

The only consolation may be that she chose euthanasia, and finally left with a smile on her face.

For her, it was the best option.