I think I'm a person with a very thin relationship with my parents! Before I was three years old, my parents went out to work, and I was brought up by my grandparents, who had little education, and never went to the county seat in my life. Of course, after going to school, my grandfather also said that he would study hard, and it would be nice if he could have a job and an iron job like those uncles in the village in the future, and there was no too much teaching in addition to that, so he grew up without any pressure and environment of looking forward to Sun Jackie Chan.

I remember that the last time my parents came back together was not for the Chinese New Year, but for the divorce procedures. I was ten years old that year, I didn't cry, I don't know why, although I was very lost, but I still couldn't cry, maybe since I was a child, I rarely saw each other once a year, and I was less close. After that, my parents started a family in different cities far, far away, and then heard that I had younger siblings, but they rarely saw each other, and when my father brought my younger brother back for the first time, I didn't have much hatred and resentment, wearing the new clothes they bought for me, and carrying my three-year-old brother to the beach by the Lancang River to play, and before the New Year was over, they left again.

This is the case from elementary school to junior high school and high school, my father occasionally comes back for the New Year, and my mother has not seen her since she divorced my father. You just asked me what school and what major I want to choose for the college entrance examination, I really don't know! My biggest wish so far in this life is to provide for my grandparents in old age, and I haven't thought about anything else.

Two children were lying on the lawn of the hill behind the fence at the foot of the hill behind Nanping County No. 1 Middle School, watching Nanping County No. 1 Middle School under the night sky and chatting, one of the children said. The person who spoke was called Su Yi'an, and the other was Zhao Jianping, both of whom were from the countryside of Zhonglu Township, Nanping County, with the same family situation, and they were in the same dormitory for three years of high school, and they were each other's only and most iron friends.

Even if he is iron, Su Yi'an has never told Zhao Jianping about his family situation in the past three years, and Zhao Jianping has not asked, perhaps it is the parting he faced after the college entrance examination, Su Yi'an told the scars hidden in his heart that he had never touched, as if telling other people's stories. He answered Zhao Jianping's question about the college entrance examination, and he really didn't know how to choose.

"So what do you want to do in the future?"

"I don't know, there's nothing special I want to do, if being rich is a profession, I really want to be a rich man and a good father. ”

"Nonsense, who doesn't want to be rich, but do we have that fate?"

"Hey, hey, hey......"

"What about you, have you thought about school?"

"No, the separation of the two of us is a bit far from 985 and 211, and I don't dare to fill in the schools and majors that are too expensive, so what else can I do, I'll pick an inexpensive school and major." ”

I've looked at a lot of schools and don't know what to choose, so it's good to go to college. ”

"Tomorrow on the last day, just pick one according to the score. ”

The two people, who were both confused about the future, chatted sentence by sentence.

"It's really a pity, the grades in the three years of high school are average, and I haven't even talked about a relationship. Zhao Jianping said.

"Don't regret it, in the future, you and I can find a daughter-in-law who will kowtow to the sky. ”

"I said Xiao An, everyone has told you that I have liked it in the past three years, can you tell me if you have someone you like?"

Su Yi'an rubbed the grass roots in his hand for a while, took a deep breath, and said: "What's the use of liking, she can't like someone like me, it's better not to say it than to be looked down upon by her." ”

"Although you don't say it, I can guess who it is, don't think about those high-ranking cadres, they are not from the same world as us. ”

"I know, that's why I didn't say it. ”

"Jianping, did you confess successfully in the afternoon?"

"If the confession is successful, will I drink the northwest wind with you here?"

"You have to keep a thought for yourself, don't you?"

"I won't even have a chance to think about it in the future. ”

"Be mentally prepared to continue to watch your roommates feed you dog food for four years of college. ”

"I said Xiao An, what you said just now to leave a thought for yourself, why is it so realistic now? Besides, we have eaten less dog food in the past three years!"

"Hey...... Anyway, I left high school for myself, and I was exempt from future college. ”

"I don't want to, just fill in a few tomorrow, and it depends on God's will which school I will be admitted to. ”

"Okay, look at the will of God, I won't eat a casual meal tomorrow, you and I have to catch the car. From the end of the college entrance examination to the present, we have eaten for the two of us, and if we continue to eat, we will not even have the money to go home. ”

"I gave you my dad's phone number, and after filling out the volunteer tomorrow, I will go directly to him to work for a while, and I will be contacted by news. ”

"The same goes for you. ”

Early the next morning, Su Yi'an looked at the empty shop opposite and was in a very low mood, his heart was a little blocked, more uncomfortable than when his parents divorced, I don't know if it was for the strange future or Zhao Jianping's quiet departure, or the girl he hid in his heart and never spoke, hurriedly packed up his salute, walked to the bus station on his back, and when he passed the Internet café, he filled in the volunteer according to the score and rushed home for the bus at ten o'clock in the morning.

His life is like this so far, he is always forced to make a passive choice, when the initiative is in his hands, he doesn't know how to deal with it, does he have a favorite university? Maybe there is, but the score is not allowed, the head teacher said that the student loan he calculated and calculated, and finally picked one within the allowable range of the score line.

The summer on the banks of the Lancang River was unbearable, Su Yi'an was weeding in his cornfield, the sawtooth of the corn leaves cut across his neck, and the pain soaked in sweat was unbearable, but he endured the discomfort and wore a straw hat and kept waving the hoe, venting all the depression in his heart in the ground. His grandparents are old, and if they can do more, they will work less hard. The whole holiday was spent in the fields, and he rarely went to see his childhood friends in the village. When he rests in the fields, he will think back to his high school days, Zhao Jianping, who will give him half of a bun, and the girl who has never looked at him seriously face to face. When the blisters on his palms grinded out of the calluses, he received the admission notice from Yunlin College, and he read the notice to his grandparents word by word, and the two old men laughed very happily, his grandson is a college student, and they also have a college student in their family. His grandfather asked him to call his father, and Su Yi'an agreed to his grandfather, but after walking out of the door, he didn't go to the neighbor's cousin's house to borrow a phone to tell his parents, but just came to the Lancang River to secretly smoke, be in a daze, and use stones to float. Since he was in junior high school, he picked up a hoe with his grandfather to do farm work every holiday, and he did not continue to fish on the Lancang River as he did when he was a child.

After three years of high school, he left his hometown to study in the county seat. He never asked his parents for tuition and living expenses, and he wouldn't say no when they thought about giving him money, and he wasn't disappointed that he hadn't seen a penny from his parents in a few months. His grandfather would always ask someone to remit his living expenses on time, although it was not much, but every time he came home from vacation, his grandfather asked him and said that it was enough. He is not a sensible and obedient child, and he is not fifteen and is determined to learn and be enlightened. is not a bad boy, he has never taken the initiative to cause trouble, and he even made his grandfather lose money. He once fought with a delinquent teenager in the county who came to the dormitory to ask for cigarettes, defending what little dignity he had left, and he was unwilling to compromise with a cigarette. Despite this, he never bullied children in the lower grades, and sometimes protected children from the countryside in his hometown. He finished high school in such an environment, and he was left behind Zhao Jianping, and the two of them were sometimes surrounded on the street, and a face that was not handsome was beaten into a pig's head and would not say a word to his family. Zhao Jianping can cry poverty with his parents, he won't, it's not an exaggeration to call him the most familiar stranger, he won't be disappointed if he doesn't look forward to it, this is the truth he has understood since he was a child, just like his grandfather has never asked about his grades, and the quality of his grades can't affect the mood of his grandparents, grandparents just hope that his health is good, and he won't be hungry even if he farms in the future.

Standing on the stones on the bank of the river, he sang loudly, it was the first song "Let's Swing the Sculls" that his childhood teacher taught him, a cheerful song nostalgic for his childhood, he sang like tears raining down his eyes, over and over again until his voice was hoarse and exhausted. He wanted to say goodbye to his childhood, the one that gave him unease, low self-esteem, cowardice, and powerlessness. He vowed in his heart that no matter how hard and tired his life would be in the future, he would definitely take his children with him, even if he couldn't give them a rich life, he could accompany them and experience joys and sorrows together.

It wasn't until the middle of the moon that he came home, and the moonlight shone in through the cracks in the head of the wooden flute room that leaked on all sides, and he lost sleep for the first time in the moonlight.

In such an environment, he can go to college he is a little incredible, once Zhao Jianping chatted with him when he said that if the score allows, just want to go farther away to study and see the world is not in vain, eighteen years old he has not yet walked out of Nanping County. Now his results have sent him from the countryside of Zhonglu Township, Nanping County to the provincial capital. He doesn't worry about tuition, because he has student loans, but the cost of living gives him a headache, although he has not been to the provincial capital, but think about it, he knows that the living expenses of the university are not the chickens fed by his grandparents and take to the township to sell can be maintained, there is no one to consult around him, he decided to take a step by step, first sell the pigs at home for living expenses, and then look at it when it is not enough.

In the morning, he told his grandfather about his thoughts, and his grandfather also supported, and there was a week to leave school, and they all said that the children of the poor were in charge early, and he went to the village to ask if he wanted to buy pork, and the two pigs of more than 200 catties in the summer would stink if they could not be sold out in one day, and his house did not have a freezer, so he would lose a lot, and the whole head was sold to the people who collected pigs in Zhonglu Township, and they could not draw it, and a pig earned about 500 less, which was enough for him to live for a month, so he could only go to the village to ask one by one. Everyone in the village also knew that Su Yi'an was admitted to college to save tuition, and they all said that he would definitely buy more and buy less, so he went home and slaughtered the pig with peace of mind. The two pigs were sold for 3,328 yuan, which was the largest amount of money he had ever seen since he was a child, and when he sold pork, he said thank you to his relatives and friends who came to buy it.

The next day, he carried the quilt, clothes and washing tools of high school on his back to the road to study, arrived at the county bus station, bought a long-distance sleeper ticket and called Zhao Jianping's father at the door of the passenger station, Zhao Jianping had gone to school first, and he asked his uncle to tell Zhao Jianping that he had been admitted to Yunlin College. Lying on the bunk of the long-distance night bus, he didn't dare to look forward to the colorful college life, just thinking that he wouldn't drop out of school because he didn't have money to eat. The night bus staggered to the provincial capital, looked at the outline of the mountains under the moonlight along the way and fell asleep, and was woken up by the night bus driver in the morning, saying that he had arrived in Spring City and asked him to get off. He rubbed his eyes and got out of the car with his messy hair to look for his luggage, most of the students on the bus were with their families, and there were very few people like him.

His luggage was easily recognizable, with two red and white snakeskin pockets, one for a quilt and the other for clothes and toiletries. Carrying two big bags, he followed the crowd out of the western passenger station, looked at the west station overpass in front of him dumbfounded, didn't know where to go, he asked the people in the same county who came out together if anyone knew to go to the north station, and asked all the people in the same car no one was on the way. There were a lot of solicitors at the door who came forward to inquire, he didn't dare to pay attention, there was an uncle in the village who came to the provincial capital, and he was cheated out of all the money at the gate of the passenger station, and he kept it in his heart. An uncle sent his child to Normal University, not his classmate, who graduated from Laimao High School in Zhouzhou, he told Su Yi'an that he could go on the same road for a short while, and then as long as he walked along 121 Avenue all the way to the North Station, his admission notice stated that the school had a school bus to receive new students at the North Station. He carried two big bags from the West Railway Station to the North Station, it took two hours, and finally found the reception point of Yunlin College at the North Station, stepped forward to take out the notice to register, was taken to the school bus by a senior to wait, and left when it was full, maybe it was not a good rest in the night bus, and he fell asleep without waiting for him to finish eating the steamed buns bought from the county bus station, and arrived at the school when he was woken up.

The gate of Yunlin College is not as luxurious as the gate of the Normal University that he passed, but it is much better than his Nanping County No. 1 Middle School, and the school gate was taken by the seniors of the student union to go through the admission procedures to the dormitory building of the forestry major, the dormitory building is also taller than the Nanping County No. 1 Middle School, with a separate bathroom. He couldn't be more satisfied, better than the hostels he had stayed in in Nanping County. In order to apply for student loans at the county education bureau and prepare living expenses at home, he came later than his roommate, only the upper bunk by the door was empty, he carefully made the bed, put the mouthwash jar that had been used for three years and had lost the paint, and then listened to the other students in the dormitory speaking "Mandarin" from all over the world, everything was very novel, and it felt dreamy and unrealistic.

The roommates in the dormitory introduced each other, dressed like his classmates in Nanping County No. 1 Middle School, better than his white-washed torn jeans, he was used to such a gap, Nanping County has the largest lead-zinc mine in Asia, and there are many rich people. After a brief introduction to himself, he lay down quietly, took the night bus, because he couldn't take the bus, he walked for two hours with his luggage, his bones were about to fall apart, he didn't pay attention to the chat of his roommates, and the six years of residential life in junior high school and high school let him know that he would always meet people with different personalities and temperaments, some people may become friends, but more are just classmates. He knew the gap between them from the time he entered the dormitory while packing his luggage, although no one laughed at his old luggage, a little alienation made him feel sensitive, and he didn't continue to talk to him and fell asleep.

I woke up on time at half past six in the morning, and I didn't hear the whistle of Mr. Zhou on duty in high school, and I was stunned for a while, and I looked at the unfamiliar dormitory before I realized that he was a college student now, not in Nanping County No. 1 Middle School. The roommate estimated that the conversation was late, and none of them woke up, he got up gently to wash, and went out to find the court to run, which was the habit of him and Zhao Jianping when they were in Nanping County No. 1 Middle School. He likes that he has no sense of security since he was a child, and he only feels calm when he is running. The playground of Yunlin College is very large, there is almost no one at half past six, he went to find the canteen after running, the canteen is larger than the open classrooms of Nanping County No. 1 Middle School and is spacious and bright, there are many types of early, the price is optional, not much more expensive than Nanping County No. 1 Middle School, his heart settled down, and he returned to the dormitory with steamed buns, and his roommate has not gotten up yet. He didn't know what to do, so he sat down at his small table, took out a novel and read it, reading novels is one of his few hobbies, if there is no novel, he doesn't know if he will have the courage to continue to go to school, he once said that he dropped out of school and helped his grandfather at home, and his grandfather asked him to go to school to raise his body and bones for a few more years, and then went back with a handful of strength, and when his size and strength surpassed his grandfather, his grades made him give up high school A little pity, he wanted to try the college entrance examination, so he came to Yunlin College.

"Hey, brother, why do you get up so early, it's not high school now, so you don't have to get up early to memorize and brush up on questions. A roommate's voice pulls him back from the novel to reality.

"I'm used to it, maybe because I went to bed early last night. ”

"Would you like to go for breakfast together?"

"Have already eaten, thank you. ”

The roommate's loud voice woke up the whole dorm room, and they all got up one after another to eat breakfast.

A few days later, Su Yi'an finally matched the names of his three roommates with the names of the provinces, including Liu Dachuan from Harbin, Zhang Jiehui from Guangxi, and Li Wentao from Xishuangbanna, the same province as him.

"Su Yi'an, a few of us discussed and wanted to go together to match the computer, I inquired, if there are more people, the price will be cheaper, do you want to go together?" Zhang Jiehui asked.

"Thanks, I can't afford a computer, so ask the rest of the class if you want to be together. Su Yi'an told the truth, he never hid the matter of no money, and he didn't feel anything to be ashamed of. This may have something to do with his liking Qiao Feng in Jin Yong's novel, he was also looked down upon because of the truth in high school, he watched Tianlong Babu in the days when he was very difficult in his heart, he liked Qiao Feng's atmosphere, chivalrous courage, and fairness, a begging profession was instantly tall and tall because of Qiao Feng's existence, and he was deeply impressed, and he no longer covered up for poverty from now on, he faced it very calmly, but he didn't want to use his grandfather's hard-earned money to save face, he knew that he had no face to speak of since he was a child, so he didn't need to support it.

"Hey, brother is fine, let's use it together when I buy it." Liu Dachuan patted Su Yi'an familiarly, and he suddenly found that this boy from the western Yunnan Plateau was not good at speaking straightforwardly.

"It's okay if you don't buy it, let's go shopping together, we've been here for a few days, I haven't seen you out of school, if you go out one day and get lost, we will have a hard time looking for you. Zhang Jiehui invited him to go with him, and the other two classmates also agreed.

"Okay, I'll go with you guys. ”

"This is the first plenary activity of our forestry 503, we will have a meal together in the small restaurant at the door at night, I have a treat, don't fight with me, let me do my landlord's friendship, Su Yi'an, who of you fights for me and who is in a hurry!" Li Wentao said.

"Listen to you, next time it's my turn. Liu Dachuan said.

"I can't afford to invite everyone to dinner, I came out with some cordyceps, and when I was in high school, I didn't have the energy to eat it into powder to boost my spirit. Saying that, Su Yi'an took out the cordyceps he dug in Biluo Snow Mountain in the spring from the locker and distributed them to a few roommates. He doesn't want to owe others affection, but sometimes being too isolated and alone will make him isolated, he knows that four years is not a short time, studying is only a part of the four years of college life, as for how to get along with each other in the future, let it be natural.

"It's a good thing, so I won't say thank you. Zhang Jiehui also said.

The four of them walked out of Yunlin College together, Yunlin College is built on the hill on the outskirts of Guandu District, there is a slope in front of the gate, there are shops on both sides of the road, and a few hundred meters further down the road is Yungong University, and Yungong University is about a kilometer past is the police academy. He didn't know if any of his classmates had been admitted to these two schools, and he had been in the countryside all the holidays, living a relatively isolated life, and he rarely paid attention to other classmates except Zhao Jianping.

Four people took a taxi to the computer city, he found that he was familiar with here, it was the 121 Avenue he walked when he started school, the computer city was next to the National University, he still remembered that about a kilometer past is the Normal University, he didn't say anything and followed the three people into the computer city, Zhang Jiehui and the salesman he had contacted continued to bargain, and said that the three of them had requirements for computer configuration, and summed it up in one sentence: just play games without cards. Su Yi'an didn't know anything about computers, so he didn't interject at will. After a few people pulled the computers back to the dormitory and installed them, it was already afternoon, Li Wentao took everyone to the restaurant at the school gate to invite everyone to dinner.

Regarding eating, Su Yi'an will never be polite when he has something to eat, because when he was in high school, he experienced only one meal a day, and he cherished food very much. Liu Dachuan, Zhang Jiehui, and Li Wentao chatted while eating, Su Yi'an lowered his head and only cared about eating, and listened carefully to their chat when he was full in one breath, it was the beginning of the school season, and the hotel business was very hot.