In the fall of 2011, "Doctor, what's the result?" and "Lung cancer is suspected, but we can't diagnose it yet, so I recommend that you go to HX." Looking at the eye-catching "Lung CA?" on the report, although it is not a diagnosis, I think that my father has been coughing for more than 1 year, and I know what is the difference between this and a diagnosis. With a hint of luck, we came to HY, the largest hospital in southwest China, for a series of examinations, and after expert consultation, we came to the conclusion that lung cancer was diagnosed and advanced. This result blew away the luck in our hearts. Due to the shortage of beds in HX, after 7 days of hospitalization, the hospital recommended that I be transferred to the local hospital, and my mother went downstairs to go through the discharge procedures, I came to the doctor's office, Director Xu looked at me and said, "Wait a minute, I'll help this patient finish reading." "Okay, Director Xu. I sat on a chair on the edge of the hallway, my mind went blank, and five minutes later, Director Xu came to my side, patted me on the shoulder, and motioned for me to come in. When he came to the doctor's office, Director Xu sighed and said, "Your father's condition is not good, according to the situation, there will be half a year at most, and if the situation is good, it can be 1 year." His tumor was on the side of the bronchial tube, which made it impossible to operate and had to be treated with chemotherapy. "Can I be cured with chemotherapy?" "No, it can only slow down the spread of cancer cells." I left the doctor's office and returned to my father's ward, and as soon as I opened the door, I saw my father sitting on the bed with the examination report, I stayed where I was, and my father looked at me with red circles in his eyes, "Discharged from the hospital today?" "Well, go home!" followed a silence until Mom returned to the ward.

When I got home, I looked at this rough house that had just been housed for less than 2 months, thinking that my father had been running for this family all his life, and his life was just getting better, but he was suffering from cancer. I was afraid that I would cry at home, so I said to my father, who was in a daze in the chair, "Dad, let's go, let's go fishing." "My dad and I used to go fishing together a lot, and since he started coughing last year, we've been out fishing together for the first time. When I arrived at the small pond not far from home, I habitually prepared to take a cigarette, ready to give my father one, and the moment I touched the cigarette, my heart was sour, and I may subconsciously not believe that my tall father would get such a disease in my heart. In the past, we would only stare at the float quietly, and the most common dialogue was: Do you have a mouth? But today, we talked a lot, from my naughty childhood to my parents meeting and getting married, and then to my father's business fortune, we all talked about it, fishing for us is just a pretext for us to be alone. When our last sentence was over, my dad smiled and said to me, "Let's go, pack up and go home, your mom is still waiting for us at home." I knew my dad had a lot to say to my mom, so I said to him, "You go back first, and I'll fish for a while." You can put it here, and I'll bring it back later. My father got up and said, "Okay, come back early." "Looking at the figure of my father, he wiped his face, I don't know if he was in tears or wiping dust from his face. I took out a cigarette and put it in my mouth, and I couldn't stop crying.

When I got home and had dinner, I said to my parents, "I'll go out for a walk and I'll be back later." Mom's voice sounded behind me, "Come back early, I have to go to the People's Hospital tomorrow." "Actually, I didn't go far, but went to the woods behind the house and dialed Chen Jiao's phone, she was my junior high school and high school classmates, and she was also at the same table, everyone knows that the same table is always a contradiction, all kinds of fights when studying, in fact, the relationship is very good, just like me and Chen Jiao, we even fought several times when we were studying, and it always ended with her tears, and then I dropped out of school, and she was also admitted to medical school, but the contact has not been broken. I was still thinking back to her angry voice on the phone before: "Hey, Wang Shuo, what does it mean to get through the phone without talking?" I hurriedly said: "I'm sorry, I was thinking about things just now, and I asked you about something." "What's the matter? You have cancer? You don't need a doctor, wait until you die, remember to tell me when you die, and I will give you a gift." I took a puff of cigarette and said slowly, "It's my dad, he's diagnosed with advanced lung cancer." After a short silence on the phone, her serious voice came: "Wang Shuo, you're not joking?" "No, I went to HX a few days ago to check and diagnose it." "I'll tell you tomorrow that there's something going on today, toot ······" I wanted to call again, but if I think about it, I must be just friends with her, just friends?

I stayed up all night, and at 6 a.m., I came to the living room and found my parents already sitting on chairs (since the house was not renovated, all the old chairs were used, and there was no sofa. "Dad, Mom, have you eaten?" Mom said, "Let's go out to eat, let's go to the hospital first, otherwise we will have to wait in line for a long time." "When I came to the entrance of the hospital by car, it was just 7:20, and the hospital was going to start registration at 8 o'clock, although I hadn't gone to work yet, but there were more than 10 people lined up at the registration window, and I said to my mother: "You go to eat, I'll go to line up, and I'm almost done with you." "Okay, I'll bring you some xiaolongbao in a moment." ”

When the long queue of the team just arrived at me, the phone rang and found that it was Chen Jiao's phone, so I picked it up: "Hey, I'm registering now, I'll give you back later." He hurriedly hung up the phone and said to the doctor inside, "Hello, help me hang up the oncology department." The doctor said, "The patient's name, age." "Wang Kang, 44 years old. "12 yuan, 3rd floor out of the elevator left turn 2nd office. After paying the money and taking the registration form, I waited for my parents at the door of the hall, and the phone rang again, "Hey, Chen Jiao, we will talk later, I am in the hospital now, and my father will call you back after the examination, they are coming soon." Chen Jiao said, "Which hospital did you go to?" "People's Hospital, HX beds are too scarce, so let's transfer to a local hospital." "Okay, we'll talk later. Toot Toot ······" I smiled wryly and shook my head, I called her, and she never knew when to hang you up. You don't even get a chance to say goodbye.

I hung up the phone and saw my parents walking side by side, and my mother handed me the bun, "Is the number hung up?" "Okay, let's go to the 3rd floor, let's go." "I took the bun and took my parents to the elevator in front. Then there was a series of tests and tests, and I was thinking, why do we have to check again when we have all the checklists of HX, the hospital that cheats money. After 3 hours of checking and waiting for the results, the bed was finally assigned. The doctor came to the bedside to check on my father, and before leaving, he said, "The patient's family came to me to get the medicine order, and the other went to pay the money." When he got to the office, the doctor asked, "Does the patient know about his condition?" and the mother said, "I don't know, we didn't tell him." I remembered the scene when my dad took the inspection report and said, "He should have known, but he didn't mention it in front of us, he had read the inspection report." The doctor looked at me in surprise: "You didn't hide the report?" "I put it in a drawer in the bedside cabinet and went to ask the doctor about it, but I didn't expect him to take it out and look at it." "I feel deeply guilty that it was because of me that I influenced my father.

The doctor took the results of the bronchoscopy and looked at it, and said: "Now there are two options for the patient's situation, one is chemotherapy and the other is conventional treatment. "Which regimen is better?" "Chemotherapy has a better effect in the early stage, which is conducive to controlling the disease, but the side effects are large, and conventional treatment is drug control. "Is it possible to be cured? "I asked the questions I wanted to answer the most. The doctor sighed and said, "It's possible in the early stage, but it's not very likely, or even impossible, in the late stage." When my mother and I heard the doctor's words, tears fell from our eyes, and I choked up and said, "Which plan has a better chance?" ”