Chapter 106: Guilt
After finishing the math test, when they returned to the rented house, a few people were already in the dark at five or five, and it was not until the evening that a few people had eaten something before they were ready to go to bed. The fat man came up from downstairs and walked to Liu Li's side: "Brother, Huang Xuan is looking for you below." ”
After a few people's meal, the old cheap immediately said: "The first class of people is over?"
Ju'er sighed: "Let's go, let's go down and do it!"
Liu Li thought for a while and said, "How many people are there?"
The fat man smiled: "He's alone." ”
"No one can be taken lightly, maybe people are behind him. Zhou Bin said.
Liu Li got up and walked out: "I'll go alone, he didn't participate at that time, he should come over to spread the word now." ”
When he came downstairs, Huang Xuan smiled: "Brother Li, we haven't seen each other for a long time." ”
Liu Li smiled: "Well, I haven't seen you for a long time, how are you?"
Huang Xuan was embarrassed: "That's it!"
Liu Li didn't have the heart to entangle him, so he said directly: "Junmo asked you to say whatever you wanted." ”
Huang Xuan smiled awkwardly: "He asked me to tell him that he slept with Lin Xiaoran, and then wanted to see what you have...... React. ”
Liu Li's expression was as usual, and he sighed: "What else?"
Huang Xuan said again: "His original words were: You have been guarding for so long and have not started, I will do it in a week, are you stupid!"
Liu Li nodded: "Is there anything else?"
Huang Xuan didn't find the expression Jun Mo wanted on his face, and he was also disappointed and at the same time a little sympathetic to him, he shook his head.
"You tell him that he and Lin Xiaoran are lovers, and what they do has nothing to do with me. Liu Li smiled and turned around and went back upstairs.
When he returned to the house, several people asked again and again, but Liu Li just casually perfunctory and did not tell the truth. He lay on the bed and smoked a cigarette, feeling unspeakably uncomfortable. He really didn't feel anything about Lin Xiaoran now, when Huang Xuan said that. But the discomfort in my heart surged to the peak like a tide.
A few people didn't guess anything, just pulled him to play games. In this atmosphere, I also put this matter behind me.
On the second day of English, Liu Li C began to sleep after choosing. When I was called up by the teacher, I found that the saliva had wet half of the roll. He smiled bitterly, maybe he was the first to sleep in the high school entrance examination and wet the papers. Gently wipe it off and then blow it at your position, looking funny, the teacher shook his head when he saw it.
Jun Mo didn't do anything more to be a demon, and quietly made his own volumes.
After another day, I finished all the tests, and said goodbye to the pots, the fat man had already bought a ticket and was coming out, and the drizzle began to fall. Even if it rained, it didn't feel too cold, but the two of them still walked in the crowd of people leaving the school with umbrellas.
"Who is smiling~Who is pretty~" Liu Li's mobile phone rang, he stopped and saw that it was an unfamiliar number.
"Hey ......"
"Hey. Lin Xiaoran's voice!
Liu Li sighed: "What's wrong?"
She said, "Where are you now?"
Liu Li looked around: "I'm going to leave the school gate immediately." ”
She said, "Will you come back then?"
Liu Li said indifferently: "It has nothing to do with you. ”
She was silent for a moment and choked up, "It's raining, do you have an umbrella?"
Liu Li sighed silently, and the fat man thought about it, although he didn't know what it was, he could guess it, and whispered in his ear: "Go, I'll wait for you outside." ”
The fat man walked away and Liu Li said, "Where are you?"
She said, "The commissary is hiding from the rain here." ”
Liu Li hung up the phone and stood in place, thinking for a long time and walking in the direction of the commissary.
The rain seemed to be getting heavier and heavier, and Lin Xiaoran had to keep her body close to the wall of the store to avoid being caught in the rain, but there were still some of them on the cuffs of his trousers. She took out the paper and bent down to wipe it, and a figure with an umbrella stood in front, and when she looked up, tears came out.
hugged him at once, Liu Li's hand was always on the umbrella, and his heart hurt like a knife.
Lin Xiaoran looked at him lightly, there was pain in those eyes, love for himself, and a trace of indifference flashed.
"Lai, are you still waiting for me?"
Liu Li stretched out his other hand and wiped the tears that were about to slide down his cheeks: "The person I am waiting for is Lin Xiaoran, and I promised her that I would always wait for her." ”
Lin Xiaoran's body trembled, and she smiled bitterly: "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." ”
Liu Li took her jade hand and put the umbrella into her palm: "You don't have anything to be sorry for me, there's no need to be like this." Since it's all like this, you should be with him, as long as he can protect you and love you. At least better than me......"
Lin Xiaoran's tears were even better: "My heart hurts so much, I really don't know what to make up for with you." You say that as long as I can do it, I just want to make up for the guilt I have for you. ”
Liu Li sneered, thinking of what Huang Xuan said, he looked at her eyes and felt that it was full of hypocrisy, but his words were still not so absolute: "No need, it's me who didn't protect you." You don't need to force any guilt, it's in the past. After I leave today, I may not have the opportunity to see each other again, and we may be separated.
In fact, I was the one who wanted to say I'm sorry, and I said to protect you, but it turned out like this. I didn't make such a simple promise, and I will definitely wait for the girl named Lin Xiaoran, because that was the last promise I made to her, but unfortunately you are no longer her. ”
All his sadness and unwillingness are in his words, but the person in front of him can no longer find the shadow of the past.
Lin Xiaoran's smile was even more bitter: "I...... Can I hug you again?"
She threw away the umbrella and ignored the gazes of the people around her, closed her eyes, and spread her arms.
Liu Li's eyes turned red and he hugged her into his arms, and after hugging, he turned around and left.
There was no looking back, and there was no further entanglement and left directly. The rain and the tears are no longer distinguishable. The initial drizzle has turned into a torrential rain, and my heart is empty, and all my unwillingness and sadness have been washed away.
He stopped when he was almost at the door, and when he looked back, the man was gone. Maybe it's because she's going with the flow, or maybe she's never been there.
He still loves her in his heart, otherwise how could he still send an umbrella. But he also knew that he had no chance with her, and he could leave after this final goodbye. Perhaps, as he said, he will never see each other again. If you don't go to find it after S City, you may encounter it, and you only come back a few times a year?
She may be Liu Li's regret in his hometown, or she may be the regret of this life. His mind was buzzing all the time, and he didn't know how he met the fat man, and he didn't know how he got into the car.
As soon as the fat man got in the car and took other clothes to wipe his hair clean and fell asleep, Liu Li did not feel the slightest sleep, he looked at the familiar everything outside the window and gradually became strange. The thoughts in my heart came like a tide, and tears flowed out unconsciously. He was afraid that others or the fat man would quickly wipe it away when he saw it, but the tears seemed to be flowing like he couldn't get over it.
It was already night when I came to S City and returned to the rental house, so after a little rectification, the two of them found a random place and started eating. Liu Li's chopsticks didn't move the wine but kept drinking, the fat man knew that he was uncomfortable, but he couldn't say anything comforting and could only drink with him silently.