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The cold hands and feet have lost their intuition due to blood loss, and even the pain that runs through the hands and feet is almost gone, and the image in front of them has gradually become blurry, and the brain has begun to feel groggy.

"Hoo ......"

The mouth was unconsciously panting, there were no superfluous thoughts in my mind, no pain, no other thoughts, even the initial cold and tiredness were almost gone, but there was a vague sense of peace.

The entanglement that has always plagued my heart seems to have become clear......

Inexplicably, I tried to laugh, but the place that should have been my lips seemed to be about to lose feeling, and there was only a cold feeling on my face, and I didn't even know if I had laughed or not.

But at this moment, a deep voice seemed to sound in my ears.

"Hmm? ”

There was no undulation in that deep voice, and there was no emotion, it was cold.

At one time, he thought that the voice was there to stop him, but in the end, the whisper was helping him to grow the church even stronger.

With that voice, a clear image appeared in the originally blurred vision......

In the dark fog that gradually filled the line of sight, everything in front of him disappeared, and only faintly in the depths of the darkness, as if there was an invisible twisted creature constantly changing its form.

That distorted form, for some reason, made Joshua feel a shuddering and terrifying beauty.

What kind of beauty is that......

Not a man, not a woman, not a child, not an old man, not a good man, not an evil man, not an ignorant beast, not a wise man with insight......

It is sentient beings, and it is not sentient beings......

Just like when night falls, the deep darkness that hides the stars and the moon is so magnificent.

At this moment, the overly beautiful formless creature seemed to be looking at itself in the dark, and all its facial features could only feel the coldness and oppression that penetrated into the bone marrow, as if it was staring at the bottomless abyss, and would be swallowed by it at any time.

However, looking at the figure that made people feel inexplicably frightened and trembling, Joshua felt an inexplicable sense of peace, and at some point, his throat, which had been unconscious, seemed to be able to speak again.

"I've got it...... I've made my choice. ”

When he opened his mouth, his voice was no longer stagnant, and there was no intention of a dying person, but Joshua didn't realize it at this moment.

"Between the God in whom I believe and the merciful ......"

Joshua looked up, and there was darkness all around him, and in a trance, he seemed to be back in that dream...... In that dream, there was also darkness around him, with only a six-pointed star by his side.

In the past, he had only God by his side, but now he ...... He was no longer alone.

A smile appeared at the corner of his mouth, a relaxed smile that he hadn't seen in a long time.

"If it is God's will that only the Jews can be saved, but all mankind cannot be saved, then I would rather not have this God. If the price of believing in God is to abandon people, then I would rather abandon God. ”

In the relaxed words, there is a deep relief.

He did not die for God, but for the church he had built.

"Interesting mortals. ”

There was a low laugh in the darkness, and that laughter was full of inexplicable and terrifying demonic charm, but Joshua didn't realize that there was also a slight sarcasm in the laughter.

"Human, you love the church you founded, don't you? ”

The devil's whisper rang in Joshua's ears.

"Naturally, the Church was founded by me, and it exists so that all human beings in the world can be united by the same faith, and from then on they will be like brothers and have no disputes. ”

Joshua had a smile on his face, as if he were talking about his most cherished child. There is no doubt that the doctor, who was once named Hanna, was a pure idealist who integrated his ideal world into the church and looked forward to the day when his ideals would be realized.

However, he was only answered by the devil's wanton laughter.

"Hahahahaha...... Like brothers, no more disputes?"

"Poor man, you don't know that all those who try to establish heaven on earth in this world have made it hell. ”

There is no hell in this world at all, because the earth is the hell in the mouth of the angels.

The world is hell.

As he spoke, a hand reached out from the darkness and touched Joshua's forehead, and countless images flashed in front of Joshua......

After his death, his disciples and followers preached in his name in the Middle East, and eventually, Peter "The Stone" realized that preaching in the bitterly confrontational Middle East was not a good option.

So many of the disciples went north to Anatolia, across the peninsula, into Greece, over the mountains, into Rome, and spread throughout the Roman Empire, spreading his teachings throughout the Roman Empire.

Christianity, which is regarded as a branch of Judaism, has had many differences from Judaism from the beginning, and many religions have despised women, and even forbade women to believe. But Christianity, which advocates love and forgiveness, has welcomed women from the very beginning. The wives and ladies of many wealthy families did not worship the god of war or the god king, but had a good impression of the Christianity of patience and forgiveness, so they chose to believe in Christianity and became the most powerful pillar of Christianity.

But another characteristic of Christianity was more advantageous: in an era when missionaries were often concentrated in the cities, Christianity was the result of Joshua's initial missionary experience in the countryside, which often led to missionaries going to the countryside, and eventually developing the entire countryside into believers.

A large number of villages were Christian, and the Tinder ...... It just spread slowly from the countryside.

By the time the Roman Emperor realized this, it was already too late, and the widespread belief in this Christ in many villages, among the citizens, and even among the army, was already a threat to the imperial rule.

No amount of Roman emperors forbade it, even to the point of killing Christians at sight, but it could not stop the spread of their religion. The Roman emperor could kill hundreds, thousands, and tens of thousands, but could he kill all the villagers in the entire empire?

Eventually, even the Roman emperor bowed his head and embraced Christ, making Christianity the state religion......

Everything looks so good.

When he saw this, Joshua's eyes were almost full of tears and he was excited, but he didn't realize it...... In the darkness, a hideous smile on the corner of the demon's mouth.

Immediately, many images of the future appeared in front of Joshua, and finally stopped at one of them......

Holding high the cross flag, many knights wearing chain mail and leather armor, many spear-wielding sergeants, and the solemn and cold soldiers pierced the sky, and the priests who accompanied the army fanatically proclaimed the glory of the Holy Land.

"O brothers of Christendom, take back our holy land!"

The pope, wearing a triple crown, delivered an impassioned speech.

Numerous peasants, down-and-out aristocrats, mercenaries, pilgrims...... Countless fanatical believers, wielding their weapons, went to the holy place, which is said in the scriptures, "full of milk and honey."

The Crusaders, an expedition that brought together the power of all Christendom, slaughtered from west to east, all the way to the pagans, to the holy land of Jerusalem, where rivers of blood flowed, and their mouths all shouted the same name with the same name.

"In the name of Joshua (Jesus)!"

"No...... It shouldn't be like this......"

Looking at this scene, the young doctor only felt that the sky was dark, his lips trembled, and he could hardly speak, but there was only the low laughter of the devil in his ears.

"Hear, O Joshua, O Messiah, listen, look, they are killing and plundering, committing adultery, and fighting in your name!"

Witch Hunts, Tithes, Toms......

Everywhere there are followers of Christ, everywhere they say Joshua's name, but everywhere they don't see the world that Joshua envisioned.

The king believed in Christ but used his will to suppress the common people, claiming that Joshua had given him power, while the pope believed in Christ but used only the believers to make a lot of money, and he was a mistress and illegitimate child everywhere, but he kept the purity for God.

When they killed, they said, "In Joshua's name!"

When the tax was collected, they said, "In Joshua's name!"

When the war was waged, they said, "In the name of Joshua!"

But......

"I never let you do that......"

Joshua's pupils gradually dilated, the ideal world in his heart had been destroyed, and there was only deep remorse and self-blame.

In my ears, there was only the low laugh of the devil.

"Mortals, your teachings do not save them, but only form a larger group of power and increase my followers. ”

......

In front of Longnookis, the unusually peculiar thin man finally looked at the sky in front of him, with only dazed and helpless on his face.

In a trance, Langnukis vaguely felt the invisible power that had always been in his body, the tenacious power that could be defeated but could not be defeated......

It's broken.