He really loved that girl, and he thought that girl would love him as much as he loved that girl, and accept his physical flaws and disabilities!

But the girl disappointed him, and made him feel even more hopeless, feeling that his pride was mercilessly trampled under the girl's disdainful gaze!

Yes, how much he loves that girl, how hard his hands are!

At that time, he may have gone crazy!

Otherwise, with his cleverness, how could he not have imagined that if that girl really loved him, how could he care if he had a disability!

Maybe he can still have a little calmness at that time, and his and her fates will be rewritten!

Maybe that girl would never have thought that her glance would not only kill her, but also make him fall into madness!

That girl couldn't have imagined that once this madness broke out, it would be like a poisonous seed that would take root in his heart, making his mind extremely twisted!

In this tragic love, the girl gave a life as brilliant as flowers, while he lived in loveless pain!

In this tragic love, it no longer matters who wins or loses, and his and her fates cannot be rewritten!

I don't know how long it took, his hand gradually let go, when he saw the girl's disdainful gaze and the blood flowing from the corner of his mouth before she died, he only felt a convulsion in his stomach, squatting naked in the corner and vomiting desperately, that painful feeling was like a scar hidden in the bottom of his heart from then on!

The bright moon in the sky has also become eclipsed, as if it is sad for the love that ends without a problem, the stars have also hidden in the clouds and seem to be secretly weeping for this love tragedy, the flowers do not know when to fall, the petals falling with the wind do not know where to fly, as if to see off the vanishing wisp of incense, the sound of frogs and insects one after another, like an elegy for his and her love, each sound seems to be full of pity......

Since then, every time he sees blood, his stomach will twitch uncontrollably and want to vomit!

But sometimes there will be others, he can only endure not to let himself vomit, the pain of the stomach twitching, but his face will be tortured pale and distorted, in order to hide his pale and distorted face, he has to wear a delicate gold mask!

If there was no one around, he would vomit at once, and vomit until he seemed to vomit out everything in his stomach that could vomit out, until it seemed as if he had vomited all the bile, and his mouth could not be bitter any longer, and then he curled up there like a dead dog and gasped for breath......

Later, he always liked to wear robes, and the hem of each robe was surprisingly long, and no one knew why he made the hem of the robe so long.

Only he knew that he didn't want to be seen by others on his disabled left leg again, and he couldn't stand anyone's disdainful gaze anymore, and if there was another time, he knew that he would really go crazy!

But he forgot that he had already trained his disabled left leg to be more flexible than his right leg, and as long as he didn't take off his pants and expose his left leg in public, others would never see it!

Such a simple truth, but he didn't expect that this may be what Buddhists often say about the obstacle of knowledge!

It's like a person holding a handful of sand in his hand, the harder he grabs it, the faster the sand flows down his fingers!

He is like the man holding the sand, the more he cares about the left leg, the tighter and tighter shackles he puts on himself, he is afraid that the tighter and tighter shackles will kill him one day, but he doesn't realize it, but he spares no effort to hide the disabled left leg!

There will always be times when a person is lonely, he is also a human being, and naturally there will be times when he is lonely!

When a person is lonely, he usually drinks, he is also a human being, and he also drinks when he is lonely!

When a person is lonely, he usually gets drunk quickly, and as long as he is drunk, no matter how painful and lonely he is, it seems that it no longer becomes so unbearable!

When he was lonely, he drank but never got drunk!

It's not that he doesn't want to get drunk, but he doesn't dare to get drunk, he has to keep himself awake at all times!,

Because he knows better than anyone how important it is for him to be sober!

There used to be at least one or two people he wanted to deal with, all because they were drunk, and his people would be so easy to move, otherwise what the result would be, I am afraid that even he could not predict!

It is such a mistake that he does not want to make, and he must not make, a person who is about to be worshipped as a god is absolutely not allowed to get drunk, and must be sober!

He has been doing a great job of this!

It's just that he forgot one thing, he is a human being, not a god, except for the disability in his left leg, he is still a normal man!

A normal man, of course, will need a woman!

He's also a normal man, and he naturally needs women!

On weekdays, in order to hide the disability of his left leg, he has suppressed his desires very well!

But he was lonely after drinking, although he was very sober, and his thirst for women was like someone burning a fire in his heart, and he couldn't extinguish it!

That night, in the darkness, he finally had his first woman, and he couldn't remember what that woman looked like now, or he didn't see it clearly!

In short, that night, he threw all the suppressed pain and loneliness on the woman's moving body, and got unprecedented happiness!

The next day, in the eyes of others, he was still the same high-minded appearance!

Only he knows that that happiness seems to make every part of his body extraordinarily relaxed, especially the loneliness and pain that is pressed in his heart seems to have been alleviated a lot!

But he did a great mistake, that is, he had the woman killed!

If he could have kept that woman in the house for a few more days, maybe his fate would have changed again because of her, but this time not for the worse but for the better!

Unfortunately, when he stepped out of the house, the woman's fate could not be changed!

The woman died silently, his secret will never be known, and he is still smug!

However, when he returned to the house at night, his stomach began to twitch again, and then he vomited in a mess, and the feeling of relief during the day was not at all, but the feeling of loneliness and pain was a little heavier, and he could only think weakly like a dying wild dog, where was he wrong!

It's a pity that he didn't understand what he did wrong after thinking about it all night?

But he was never one to give up easily, and he locked himself in his room for three more days and thought about it, still not knowing what he had done wrong.

For three days, he vomited several times, and each time he looked like a dying wild dog, and could only curl up there panting, not even daring to light a candle to look at himself, so he hid in the dark!

Three nights later, he stopped torturing himself, and after drinking, he brought a woman into the house again, and this time he had pleasure in her, but after the pleasure had passed, he immediately let her out of the house!

He knew that as soon as a woman walked out of the house, someone would naturally take her to the place where she should go, and that place was said to be only for the dead!

Another confused woman just gave her life, he didn't care, he only cared if he would vomit, that kind of pain was about to torture him crazy!

took advantage of the night to send the woman away, and he returned to the house at night and really didn't vomit!

He felt that he was the smartest person in the world, and only he could think of the woman the night before, why he would make him vomit as soon as he returned to the house, just because as soon as the morning dawned, his disabled left leg would inevitably be seen by that woman, and he would be uneasy in his heart, and he would think of that disdainful gaze again, so he would keep vomiting!

It's just that this time he was clever but was mistaken by cleverness, the first night the woman did see his disabled left leg, but if he was willing to look back, there was no disdain in the woman's eyes, only a little surprise, but more pity!

The woman watched him walk out of the house, and wondered how many children they could have!

It's a pity that he is not her, and she is not him, so what is left after a night of joy is only a sad story!

A smart person often makes mistakes, just because he is too smart, just like him at that time, he always likes to be self-righteous, which is the mistake that every smart person is most willing to make, and every smart person is unaware of it, and is still complacent there!

Later, as long as he drank, there would inevitably be a young and beautiful woman on the bed, and there would be another wisp of fragrant soul in the yellow spring!

Women and wine are like indispensable elixirs, making him, a lonely and inferior person, regain his self-confidence in the midst of pleasure and intoxication, and become the god on top again!

Over the years, his heart has become colder and colder, and people have become more and more numb, and women and wine have long been unable to make him get the slightest satisfaction in his heart, but every time it is over, there will be an inexplicable feeling of emptiness, and that feeling is getting stronger and stronger!

In this way, he locked himself in the house, neither drank nor looked for women, but just sat in a daze, like a soulless walking corpse, who did not eat or drink for seven days, and finally hatched a crazy plan, and since then I don't know how many people on the rivers and lakes, how many famous heroes and heroes, have lost their lives for this!

At the beginning, his plan was perfect every time, so perfect that no one suspected this person hiding in the shadows, until his methods became more and more intense, and more and more people died, and finally he and his Zhuge Gang who were hiding in the shadows aroused the vigilance of more and more people three years ago, and the mysterious Zhuge Gang and him were even more hated, lest they avoid it!

He was not satisfied or frightened, but set off a greater desire in his heart, which was a desire for power, he longed for everyone to prostrate at his feet and look up to him, he wanted to become a god on the rivers and lakes, a god that everyone feared, an undefeated myth, an eternal legend......

This person is none other than the leader of the Zhuge Gang!

Many people know his name, but few people know that he is the leader of the Zhuge Gang!