AH Jin,

Long time no see, how are you?

After walking through the Tanggula Pass, drinking the spring water of Kunlun Mountain, walking all over the Taoyuan of Wuli Village, and witnessing the sunset of Meili in Feilai Temple, I like to wander around more and more, see different scenery, meet different people, and appreciate different perspectives of life.

During the trip, I met Lao Wang, he was bold, open-minded, affectionate and righteous, and manly, but he talked about business and shrewd philistine; he would blame his wife for calling and asking for warmth, but after hanging up the phone, he blamed himself and praised his wife for being a good woman and gave him a chubby son; when he drank too much, he said that when he was young, he was angry and walked away from the woman he really liked. We were fortunate enough to see the true face of the unpredictable Nanga Bhava, and he cried silently as he drove away.

AND LEE, A BRAVE, COMPOSED FEMALE SCIENTIST WHO MUST HAVE A BRAIN SO BIG THAT SHE THINKS ABOUT SCIENCE ALL DAY LONG, SO MUCH SO THAT IT CAN'T ACCOMMODATE OTHER THINGS, LIKE FEAR, LOVE, AND EVEN MEANINGLESS LANGUAGE. She likes to travel the world, to those hinterlands that are rarely visited in search of some kind of peace, but she still can't find the answer to the puzzle, the connection between a cell and the universe, or the extreme pain in her heart—why she is so ignorant that she can't recognize who she is, where she comes from, and where she is going. On a rainy night in Yubeng Village, we are surrounded by a series of dark mountains, and she is deeply distressed by her inability to explore the meaning of life, and her pain comes from what she knows about herself. I felt the intense fear of the huge mountain and the darkness, and I was not as painful as she was, because I was so proud that I had taken the unknown as if it were known.

I think people are miserable because of their own complexity, or in short, greed. They always want to get one, and when they get one, they want another.

For example, when I didn't meet you, what I wanted was to live and exist like my parents and grandparents, to study at a young age, to work at a certain age, and to start a family at a young age. I am calm and calm. Like a formula, the process of solving is all in the rules of the square circle. But when I had it at my fingertips, I found that I was not at ease, I was not comfortable living the same life, or I had mistakenly copied the formula to myself, harming others and myself.

When fate arranged you into my life, I think this is probably what love should look like, even in the cold winter of the number nine. In reality, I had to struggle with traditional morality and the desire of my heart, and finally, I tilted the scales in your favor, not so much to put the blame on you, but to superimpose another mistake on top of the mistake I made.

Remember Seifuji? I know you've been. The Unenlightened Master became my refuge master. Maybe you don't believe that I will become a believer, of course, even I don't believe in myself, until now, I don't know if that supreme paradise really exists, the monks have broken their passions all their lives, strictly kept the precepts, to understand the Buddha's texts, to get rid of life and death, this kind of obsession for enlightenment, for the sake of liberation, is not also a kind of attachment. But I was very touched by the words of unenlightenment, he said: Buddha is a human being, everyone has Buddha nature, and it is better to seek Buddha than to seek oneself. I asked him, "If all the people in the world become Buddhas and become enlightened, how will society develop?" He smiled and replied, "There are thousands of sentient beings in the world of sampa, each with their own karma, each with their own causes, just as thousands of sentient beings become scientists, or thousands of sentient beings become teachers, what is possible? If they all become Buddhas, they will be the Pure Land now." I asked him again: Life and death are suffering, this kind of suffering is given by God, and it is difficult for human beings to disobey it, and love suffering is the most bitter, and God will conflated it with man-made people, and he is always unwilling. He replied: "To get it or not to get it, or to be obsessed or to hate, how can it not be bitter?"

I am probably in awe because of my faith, but after all, I am a sentient being without wisdom roots, and I can't let go of my obsessions. Ah Jin, we can't stop being clever and flying stars to spread hatred. I shouldn't hide it, I just don't want you to leave. Let me hear your thoughts and let's give each other a chance to reunite?

Ah Yuan

This is Xu Zeyuan's all-night confession to write, delete and delete. I was a little touched when it crossed thousands of mountains and rivers through the fiber optic network, and finally skipped the wireless router and lay in my mailbox, which I opened with a few clicks. When I wanted to transfer to Lin Jinxi and was rejected by her absent-mindedly, I had a little sympathy for him. Therefore, after thinking about it for a few days, I couldn't help but reply politely and replied to his email: Xu Zeyuan, I'm not Lin Jinxi.

Shortly thereafter, he wrote that he had a short stay in Beijing, could he see him?

I know that what he wants to see is naturally Lin Jinxi, and I also know that Lin Jinxi will definitely not agree to meet before he sees this letter. So, after thinking about it, I only gave him the address of Miss Lin's company building. It is up to man to plan things, and things are to be done in heaven. Since then, I have not received any news from Xu Zeyuan.