When Lin Jinxi came to me for tea, he liked to be quiet, silently looking out the window, and I continued to excerpt my manuscript quietly, ignoring her. After 40 minutes, she left, like an evening self-study arranged for herself when she was studying, and then went home with stars and moons. insisted on it for a few months, and on a rainy day, Lin Jinxi said to the pouring rain outside the window,

The old company had a financial problem.

Outside the window, lightning and thunder, rain like a curtain, never stop washing the floor-to-ceiling glass windows, Lin Jinxi announced a bad news to me. I stopped tapping my hand on the keyboard, let out a deep breath, and said with concern,

Find a solution?

Lin Jinxi turned his head and smiled heartlessly.

I stood up and walked up to her, maybe I should give her a hug. But she gave me a 'completely unnecessary' physical signal, saying,

I can't help him, but his ex-wife, I can.

Are Leslie's parents going to be reunited?

I've heard Leslie say that his mother has always cared about Lao Ren and has never changed, and the divorce is because she is too ambitious, and she gets together less and leaves more, so she ......

Wait a minute, are you best friends with his ex-wife? What are you thinking?

You always knew that it was my problem, that I wanted to leave my old Ren.

You're really a master of everything, underestimating you, and now is the right time. I'm glad in my heart, maybe Lin Jinxi will have an easier time leaving Lao Renhui.

I'm sorry, I really can't keep going. He asked me if there was something wrong with him, and he said it would be fine when we had children. But I can't do it, it's not his problem, I think that as long as we always remember his goodness, we can get out of the country without incident, but life is different from what I thought. Lin Jinxi's desperate eyes were like a pool of lake water that was about to dry up. She was finally going to wave goodbye to this loving prison.

Don't push yourself too hard, after all, people only live this short life. I dismissed her and asked, "What are your plans for the future?"

Work, travel, whatever you want.

I gestured to the picture on the whiteboard.

Perhaps, the day of the unexpected reunion will be a new beginning for me and him.

I shook my head, skeptical of the possibility of such a unlikely event.

Go with the flow. She couldn't get her and Lao Ren, let alone Xu Zeyuan and her, who had passed a thousand on time.

Later, the development of events did not go well, and there were many twists and turns along the way, and Lao Ren would rather give in, preferring to borrow usury than accept the financial support of his ex-wife. Later, the situation developed into the insolvency of the old company, and under Leslie's threading of the needle, the two women formed an alliance and "each had a ghost" to turn the tide. I am deeply sympathetic to Lao Ren's fate, and at the same time, I am also relieved of Lao Ren's ending, the woman he met is a 'love' and a 'righteous'.

I have not yet passed on the long letter written by Xu Zeyuan to Lin Jinxi, the content from his acquaintance with Lin Jinxi to his seeing through the red dust, in fact, it is more like the end of his life, it seems that after writing, he buried his nearly 40 years of time. The reason why I told me was that he was just expressing his courtesy to a 'pen pal' who had never known him. I estimated the approximate time of his shaving, which should be in August, and I marked it with an asterisk on the August page of the desk calendar. In my spare time, I try to look back at her and Xu Zeyuan from Lin Jinxi's point of view, or comb through all the photos, emails and letterheads sent by Xu Zeyuan again. Obviously, on the one hand, Xu Zeyuan gave me more overview of the story, and on the other hand, based on my understanding of Lin Jinxi, I obtained the context and flow of their feelings. After reading Xu Zeyuan's long letter many times, I decided to reply to him. In the letter, he asked two questions: 1. Can you elaborate on the interesting story of the blue soul? 2. Have you had the pleasure of attending your ordination ceremony?

Lin Jinxi, Lao Ren and Lao Ren's ex-wife, if they follow the original script setting, there will be a best of both worlds ending, but once interests and emotions are involved, a comedy that is clearly laid out becomes treacherous. Lao Ren's ex-wife is worthy of being a ruthless character who makes Lao Ren talk about it, and she learns military books well. Mingdi generously lent money to Lao Ren, and calculated interest reasonably. Secretly used a shareholding company to negotiate a joint venture with Lao Ren, and acquired at a cheap price and accounted for the vast majority of the shares, which means that Lao Ren has become a minority shareholder, and Lao Ren's ex-wife has become a major shareholder with the right to speak. In the new round of stock meeting, Lao Ren's ex-wife sat in the first place, and Lao Ren's face was torn, ravaged, and trampled on the ground. The strength of a strong woman is probably to be pervasive every second, strong to the blood, strong enough to eat human dignity alive in the brutal love that only remains of slag.

Lin Jinxi looked at Lao Ren with more guilt, thinking that if she was not selfish, she would not have persuaded Lao Ren to accept the olive branch handed by his ex-wife, she did not consider Lao Ren's feelings at all. If Lao Ren doesn't lend her money, at least she will suffer a heavy blow. Now, it's not time for her to leave, at least she can't be another blow to him. Simple people will never understand complex human nature, and complex people will think that simple people are stupid.

The old ex-wife started another round of victorious pursuit, asking Lin Jinxi to file for divorce as soon as possible. Lin Jinxi thought for a long time and said, please wait a while and give him a little more time.

Unexpectedly, a simple and straightforward expression made the predecessor Ren Tailuo weave a lot of ideas, such as, whether Lin Jinxi has changed his mind; or from the beginning, Lin Jinxi helped Lao Ren to do the game; how can there be such a generous woman in the world, who will make her husband and ex reunited; what is the biggest unforgivable thing in the siege is not love, they are clearly as deep as the sea; Lin Jinxi is a woman who is not easy to deal with. When Leslie said that she wanted to see Lin Jinxi again soon, her predecessor Ren Tai threw out a sentence, sure enough, he is a vixen, and he eats all ages. put the final word on Lin Jinxi's character. A woman's suspicion and jealousy can stimulate the potential of Sherlock Holmes-style reasoning, or it can turn the mind into madness. The only thing she is glad about now is that she has two hands to prepare, Lao Ren's personal debt and her right to speak in the company. In public and private, Lao Ren has become her bag.

Lin Jinxi was honest with Lao Ren, and she also had a share in his danger. Lao Ren has always been generous and patient with Lin Jinxi, and he still blames himself for not letting Lin Jinxi live a happy life, and assures her that he can handle the complicated relationship with his ex-wife. A mess of hemp can also be peeled off, but Lin Jinxi and Lao Ren's problems have nothing to do with this mess.

Lin Jinxi has been hovering whether to say or not, Lao Ren was forced to retreat by his ex-wife, and the more emaciated Lao Ren became, the more she couldn't speak. The three of them finally sat down at a table and spoke openly. The ex-wife speaks without revealing a drop of water, from a young age with affection and reason, to the most tragic ending possible, there is a great taste of the death of those who follow me. Lao Ren was enraged and asked her to sue him directly and send him in directly. The ex-wife pointed the finger at Lin Jinxi, thinking that Lao Ren's resistance was all because of Lin Jinxi, so she exposed the true face of this Ms. Lin, she never loved Lao Ren from beginning to end, but just used him as a prop, Lin Jinxi had no way to refute. But Lao Ren is even more popular, what's wrong if you don't love her?

The three of them are in a misplaced relationship, and Lao Ren and his ex-wife are even more clueless about family affairs. Lin Jinxi drafted a divorce agreement, stayed on the desk, and moved out of Ren's house.

Have you made up your mind? I asked Lin Jinxi.

I'm here, I can only help, they're together, maybe all the problems are not a problem.

What are you going to do, old man?" I said tentatively.

Please forgive him! Lin Jinxi thought for a moment and replied calmly.

It's good that you figure it out.

Any news of him? She looked at the whiteboard.

Missed him?

seems to understand, understand how difficult it was for him to get out of that relationship back then.

Want to see him?

Where is he? Lin Jinxi's eyes sparkled with brilliance, and he begged me eagerly for an answer.

Daoyi's "Vimala Sutra" was sent to Xu Zeyuan, and he said,

If you don't understand that Master has explained this scripture, you must read it thoroughly.

Xu Zeyuan took the sutra and smiled slightly, and said, "Vimala Sutra" has a pure heart, and the Buddha is pure, preaching that Mahayana Buddhism should deal with the world, advocating not leaving the world, discovering where the Dharma is, and advocating 'the only way for people'. You, are you here to persuade me again?

Since the senior brother understands the truth here, why should he be persistent? Dao Yi earnestly obeyed the instructions and became an obstacle to Xu Zeyuan's monkhood.

Why on earth can't I be? Xu Zeyuan couldn't figure it out.

Master, since he explained like this, he must have his reasoning, I believe it, don't you believe it? Maybe it is more useful for sentient beings to stay outside than to go inside.

I just want to be quiet and sort out Master's unfinished notes.

You can also write it at home, otherwise you can write it in the temple. I see that you have studied the Vimala Sutra carefully, and after reading it thoroughly, you may change your mind. Dao Yi helped Xu Zeyuan make a plan.

Wait for the old monk Zhixian to shave me, and then it's not too late to devote myself to studying.

Unenlightened is obsessed with the fireworks that block Xu Zeyuan outside the empty door, Xu Zeyuan is obsessed with the breeze and bright moon stepping into the empty door, and Dao Yi is obsessed with the life and death of the unenlightened master.

In addition to persuading Xu Zeyuan, Dao Yi also often lobbied the old monk Zhixian, who either meditated with his eyes slightly closed, or was suffering from ear disease.

Uncle Shi, Tan Yue in the town under the mountain, do you know?

Oh, what is the copying of the scriptures?, Zhixian asked.

It's the one that copied the scriptures, and you can't shave him.

Shaving, good, is a great merit. Zhixian listened in reverse.

Uncle Shi, if you don't shave, you can't shave. Daoyi's hands shook like two small pu fans in front of Zhixian's eyes.

No effort, no effort. Zhixian, with a smile, turned around, his eyes slightly closed, and he was settled.

Lin Jinxi all the way to the dust, got off the plane and transferred to a long-distance bus, three hours of winding mountain road, because the landslide not long ago has not been completely repaired, the car drove for 5 hours, arrived at Xujia Town when it was already midnight. Now Xujiazhen is not what she was when she first came, at midnight the ancient street is still lit with red silk paper lanterns, the bar is crowded and has not yet closed, and the young lovers on the street are slightly drunk. She carried a backpack and looked for an inn called Yiwu along the way, and she probably remembered the location of Xu Zeyuan's ancestral home. Standing in front of the door of a room, she looked at the place of peace she had imagined so many times, which was supposed to be their home. The blooming roses scrambled from the gray tiles to the white façade, and the lanterns on either side of the door read a room, and she knew that he was not inside, and that his body and mind were delivered to a pure place. Tomorrow he will say goodbye to the rolling red dust and thousands of troubles. She just wanted to look at him from afar, to see the last glimpse of their never-ending love. Lin Jinxi stopped outside the door for a long time, she guessed that Xu Zeyuan lived in a room, maybe he was here to rummage through the magazines he had collected one by one, looking for her traces. Maybe one disappointed afternoon, he kept staring at his phone and longing for her to call. Thinking of his appearance, she couldn't stop crying and laughing, laughing and crying again. She used the ultimate way of escaping - marrying, trying to completely cover his position with another person, but realized that Xu Zeyuan's place in her heart has long been irreplaceable, and she has continued to grow taller and become three-dimensional under her forcible containment again and again, and all the reactionary actions she has done only prove how important he is, and she has not stopped thinking about him for a day, even with a misunderstanding of hatred.

After all, she didn't have the courage to set foot in a house, so she found an inn to live in. She didn't want to stay up all night feeling his presence where he had breathed, and she needed to sleep well for 4 hours to meet a parting.

The old monk of Zhixian made incense and invited the Buddhas to do the proof of shaving and the protection of the Dharma. Xu Zeyuan thanked Sien and said goodbye to his parents in the south. Mother Xu wiped her tears quietly, and Father Xu patted Mother Xu's shoulder to show comfort, even the hot-tempered Ah Chuang didn't dare to make a mistake when he saw the majesty and solemn shaving ceremony, so he had to endure it. After Xu Zeyuan said goodbye to the four graces, he heard the sound of the chime and bowed to the three treasures and nine bows of the ten directions, bowed to the master three times, knelt with his palms together, and recited the confession. Thou shalt be judged and decided, and it is not too late for thou shalt not forget to enter the Tao and endure hardships, and if thou hast few hair, thou shalt still be with the laity, and let thou go home. Therefore, I ask you before the public: After you decide to become a monk today, will you have no regrets about retiring?

When she said this, Xu's mother stopped sobbing suddenly, maybe her son still had room to return it in a thought. Lin Jinxi stood in the last row of the laymen to watch the ceremony, politely invisible, because she was far away and heard intermittently, but 'no regrets' heard it clearly, she leaned out half of her body, pricked up her ears, bit her lower lip, and waited for a miracle to happen.

"I decided to become a monk, and I have no regrets about retiring". With three questions and three answers, everything is settled. The old monk of Zhixian held the precept knife and shaved off the top bun, gave the Dharma name Zongyuan, and the Dharma name was quiet. Sing and dedicate to the monks and finish the ceremony.

Xu Zeyuan, about to change his name to Master Suijing, he was at the end of the line and dispersed in an orderly manner with the monks. Lin Jinxi, who had planned to come quietly and leave quietly, was isolated by the scattered laymen, and she stood in place, and a little luck in her heart was gone. She wanted to take a look at him again, and see clearly whether this Master Suijing, who broke off her love, could also make her break off her love. Hesitating, she took two steps forward, then stopped, her steps as messy as her heart. Ah Chuang noticed the tall woman in a white sweatshirt and kada-colored trousers, he frowned lightly and felt familiar, he tried to remember what year, month, and woman she had lived in the same room. Lin Jinxi finally resolutely quickened his pace and stopped Xu Zeyuan's way as politely as possible. With Jing lowering his head and eyelids slightly, his gaze was narrow, and a kachi-colored pants and a pair of brown hiking boots came into view, accompanied by a faint scent of flowers, and he probably knew that it was her. But he didn't raise his head, just lowered his eyelids, put his hands together, and said, Amitabha.

Lin Jinxi was a little angry when he saw him like this, and said,

Master, please explain, what is the Dharma, what is responsibility, and how can we help ourselves and others?

Xu Zeyuan was silent, what he heard was the voice that had been cut off for 6 years, and he knew that she hadn't changed, and she hadn't changed. What Lin Jinxi actually wants to ask is, have you asked me? Do I agree? If you want to become a monk, you can become a monk?

The two of them confronted each other quietly, and the green tendons on Xu Zeyuan's forehead burst out unconcealably, extending to the back of his head on one side, he gritted his teeth, but he looked dustless.

Mother Xu and A Chuang looked at the scene in front of them, but Mother Xu's eyes were still bright, and she couldn't help patting A Chuang's arm and whispered, It's Xiaolin.

Ah Chuang suddenly realized: Yo, Miss Lin, my sister-in-law. This time there's a play.

Lin Jinxi looked at Xu Zeyuan, who was forced by himself to be at a loss, and felt distressed, who can blame, Xu Zeyuan has been looking for her for many years, how could she have given him and them a chance? Whether it was fate or artificiality, she couldn't tell. She eased her mood, and not far away, she was looking at Xu Mu for a short time, she looked at Xu Mu with full of anticipation, mixed tastes, if they were together, he might not have taken this road, and the old man would not have suffered this change, after all, the most pitiful thing is the old man, she really shouldn't be aggressive, so she got gentle and asked,

Why turn around and ignore the unteachable for this?

Xu Zeyuan was silent for a long time, how could he have expected Lin Jinxi to appear at this moment, his current silence was not like stopping water, but he had broken the precept - he wanted to go to the main hall to repent. But he had just been able to speak eloquently, and then he had no regrets, and he was about to retire before he had a cup of tea?

Lin Jinxi waited for his words and waited until it was hopeless, and then turned around and planned to leave. 'The brook flows into the sea, and there is no near or far at the end of the world. Xu Zeyuan's farewell words came from behind him, and Lin Jinxi read it silently, the corners of his mouth twitched upwards with disdain, as if he was smiling. This is the most affectionate confession.