The mother, who was not a drinker, rarely drank a lot of wine, and her face was flushed with red clouds, but in the end, she drank a little too much, and Su Dian talked about the past, Su Dian listened to her mother's words quietly on the side,

Before you know it, the night is already deep, and at twelve o'clock in the evening it is Chinese New Year's Eve, and as the countdown of the host on TV returns to zero, the familiar song sounds, and the sound of fireworks outside the window is more eager.

"Xiao Nian, you have shoulders on your shoulders, the expectations of two generations, don't let them down!" The mother drank too much, grabbed Su Di's hand and chattered.

Su Dian nodded solemnly and said, "Mother, don't worry, I will!

"I'm happy! I'm very happy, who says I'm not happy? Who can be happier than me?" The mother suddenly opened her eyes and looked at Su Di, with a little drunkenness.

"When I was a child, I watched my father leave, when I was young, I watched your father leave, when I was middle-aged, I watched your brother leave, and now, I watched you fly high?

"Mother, are you drunk......" Su Dian helped her mother, who was a little shaky. Her current state is very wrong, and it seems that she wants to release all the repression for so many years.

"It's hard to be able to release it, don't stop me!" the mother leaned back in her chair and looked up at the ceiling, calming down suddenly.

"Mother's ......"

"Don't worry, my mother is fine, I just remembered something, your grandfather responded to the call of the country, enlisted in the army with honor, and the sky was stained with blood, everyone said that he was a hero, but who cares about my feelings? He is still my father, I don't have a father......"

"My husband, also a glorious driver, died in a mission, I still don't know the cause of his death, the only thought for me, is only a military uniform, and an urn, everyone says that my man is a hero?

"I still have a son, when your brother applied for the Air Force, I still refused, but he has been treating your father as an idol and begging me, I relented and agreed! As you know, he didn't come back! I lost my son in middle age, but who knows my pain?,"

"People say that our Su family is a loyal martyr, but how much blood and grief are behind this loyal martyr?

Mother's voice was rarely calm, she was still lying on the chair, looking at the ceiling, she never looked at Su An, but it made Su Di's heart tremble, this was the first time his mother told him these things, he never knew that his mother actually hid so much pain in his heart.

"Mother......" Su Dian didn't know what to say for a while.

"Everyone wants to be a hero, but it's hard to be a hero! They have to pay a lot and contribute more! How can the dead bear the glory of the living? The name of a hero is just a mountain that oppresses them!"

The mother kept shaking her head, her voice was extremely peaceful, but there was an inexplicable emotion brewing in it. The Su family, three generations have died in the sky, and there is no doubt that the loyal family has even been received by the chief.

But behind this honor, what kind of pain did the surviving people endure? Especially his mother, Su Dian wanted to say something, but he didn't know where to start, "Mother, don't say it, that's the honor of the Su family!"

"It's Su Jia's honor, but it's my pain!" the mother suddenly turned her head and looked at Su Di.

"Who understands my pain all these years? I try to understand you, to be a good wife, a good mother, but I am just an ordinary woman, I just want a quiet life, a complete family, as long as I am given these, this honor, I would rather not!"

Mother's eyes regained clarity, stretched out a hand to touch Su Di's face, and a line of tears fell: "It's just, I'm still the empathetic mother, let you go, and give all the pain to yourself,"

"Mother, don't say it. Su Dian was speechless for a while, and he really didn't know what kind of words to say to be able to calm his mother down.

"It's okay, I'm just venting, it's a good feeling to vent my suppressed emotions!Don't worry about me, I'll still be your understanding mother tomorrow......" The mother stood up and hugged Su Di gently.

"But for now, let me be my true self......"

Su Di nodded, watched her mother walk to the window, as if she had removed something that imprisoned her, and looked at the lights of thousands of homes outside the window stupidly.

"Member, that's good......"

Su Di quietly looked at her mother's back, without saying a word, and time froze the figures of the two into a picture.

Chinese New Year's Eve passed, Su Di got up early, his mother may have drunk too much yesterday, and now he hasn't gotten up, he cleaned up the house, ran down for morning exercises, this is also one of his habits, and he can't let go of his physical strength because of the holiday.

There was still the smell of sulfur from last night's life in the air, and the sky was gray, I don't know if it was fog or the traces left by last night's fireworks.

After running for half an hour, Su Di's body warmed up, looked at the time, found a place to sit down and rest, and was about to go back, but by chance he met Liu Rong.

Liu Rong also spotted Su Dian for the first time, and her face was surprised: "Su Ran, why are you here?"

"Morning exercise, you're here, but what are you doing?"

Su Dian looked at Liu Rong's hurried expression, and seemed to be a little anxious, so he asked.

"It's also a morning exercise for the New Year, and you are also self-disciplined enough," Liu Rong teased Su Dian casually, then shook her head and said, "My grandmother called early in the morning and said that she had arrived at the train station and asked me to pick her up." ”

Their location is not very far from the train station, Liu Rong rode a battery car, that is, twenty minutes away,

"Oh, come here on the first day of the new year?"

"Who said it wasn't, my grandmother said that it was originally for Uncle Lujiang's New Year, and I don't know what's wrong, I suddenly came here, and I didn't prepare at all. The dark circles on Liu Rong's eyes are enough to explain the problem.

"It's also a good thing for the old man to come, how lively it is. ”

"It's not just him, it's my uncle's family, and a little nephew, oh my God, I hate children the most......"

"Hahaha, then I can only wish you good luck. ”

"Su An, meeting is fate, you can go with me......"

"This ......"

Su Dian was a little hesitant, it was not too early now, he was going to go back, especially his mother should be awake now, he still had to bring breakfast over, but looking at Liu Rong's appearance, it seemed that he really couldn't cope with it, and after hesitating, he still agreed.