Chapter 230: Her gods have forsaken her
Su Miao burst out laughing, but the crystal tears fell on the white quilt of the hospital bed one by one.
"Lu Jinran, so you have to tell me that the seven years I have been waiting for have been in vain, and you don't mean to turn back at all?
You say to me, you love me, you like me, you will only be good to me, you say to me that you will not leave me and will not want me......
Didn't you say it, wouldn't you want me?"
When the words fell, her voice couldn't hide her choked and trembled.
These promises, she only pretended to be cautious when she first heard them, but every word was remembered by herself.
And at this moment, what I didn't notice was the person in front of me, don't look over my head and force my eyes, "I just said those words casually, how can you really believe it?"
He smiled openly, as if he was despising Su Miao's incompetence and self-inflicted affection.
The man's phoenix eyes were playful, and when he turned his head, he couldn't bear to see half of his eyes.
"Or do you still want to hear it? I can make it up on the spot. ”
“......”
Instead, she laughed out loud, with tears in the corners of her eyes, and a wry smile of self-deprecation.
What kind of story does it take to tell what kind of lies, so hard to remember.
Is it true, or is it not true?
Su Miao's gaze was a little sloppy for a while, and for the first time she felt that she didn't understand the man in front of her at all.
has been dormant for so long, and that gentle township really makes people sigh straight at their acting skills.
Those promises made in the years are nothing more than the intention of the speaker, but the heart of the listener.
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Half-loud, she didn't see the man's eyes, which were already slightly reddened but forcefully enduring to be there.
No one knew how much Lu Jinran wanted to hold her so aggrieved and uncomfortable into his bones at this moment, but for Su Miao's safety, he had to do so.
The man pursed his thin lips tightly, a little unbearable, but he pretended not to care, and opened his lips and said lightly, "Sign the divorce agreement, and I will give you no money for compensation." ”
"Do you really think that after so many years, money can make up for it?"
She shook her head, her heart was bitter and astringent, but her mouth was still unforgiving stubbornness.
In all these years, she never asked for much.
So far, in a lifetime, one Lu Jinran is enough.
But she can't ask for it, and she can't love it.
The gods were reluctant to come down to favor them, and the woman's fingertips were curled up, and her heart was empty and indescribable.
It's like being abandoned for a long time, and it's like giving yourself time to digest all these bad emotions.
If she wants to start all over again, she is not someone who can survive on her own.
Fish and shrimp can't leave the sea.
"Lu Jinran, let me ask you one last time, have you thought about it?"
He breathed a long sigh of relief, as if he was giving the person in front of him one last chance to change his words.
It's like a chance for him, and it's like a chance for himself.
"If you don't want me this time, you'll lose me for the rest of your life. She still had red circles under her eyes, but the man in front of her was always graceful and noble, and her words did not change at all, cold and emotionless: "Think about it, divorce." ”
Hearing this, the last line of defense in Su Miao's heart finally collapsed completely, her body trembled slightly, but she was unwilling to bow her head: "Okay, I promise you, I will let Mo Xing send it to you after I sign it." ”
"The assets over there in Shengyuan are divided, and those over there are yours, so if you don't have to move out, I will naturally leave. ”
Lu Jinran seemed to finally breathe a sigh of relief, but his fists were still clenched, and his nails were deeply sunk into the flesh.
From another perspective that Su Miao couldn't see, the man's jawline was tense, and the corners of his mouth curled up slightly when he heard the answer.
Those words, in her eyes, were casual and unintentional.
But only the self in front of him can understand best, and that word by word pierced Su Miao's heart and also pierced his heart.
Neither of them had a good time.
At this time, he was asked to break off this marriage with his own hands, and he had mixed feelings in his heart.
The inside of the eyes was covered with a touch of red, as if in the precursor of a paranoid attack.
I only listened to the girl's words, and there was no way to do anything about the bitterness in her words: "Everyone is gone, is it still home? I will move back to my apartment, don't trouble Mr. Lu to worry." ”
She has always understood all the ways of Lu Jinran.
He has never been qualified to refute and resist what he decides.
It's that he doesn't want his own simplicity, and that's exactly what happened back then.
The teenager is twenty years old, and she is in the same grade.
It didn't matter, and the faint words pierced her heart for more than two years.
And at this moment, the boy has become a mature man.
What doesn't change is that he never spits out any good words from his mouth.
If you don't like it, let her give up.
I haven't loved it, but it's just a playful use.
It was as if Su Miao's hot and surging blood veins had been drained all at once, and suddenly there was no light and no vitality.
The place where the grass was withered was now like a gardener who had replanted the seeds and worked hard for it, but when it came to fruition, he did not hesitate to pick up the shovel and eradicate her completely.
Su Miao is the one who was joked about, and Lu Jinran is the gardener who has no feelings.
He's always been that kind of person.
Su Miao lowered her head, and her tears fell on her face with some dryness, and she was a little dry and painful at the moment.
She only had that faint smile on the corner of her lips, but now it was indescribably desolate.
It was she who tried to pull the gods off the altar because of her strength.
If you dare to blaspheme, you will still have to pay the price.
And her price is to be played with again and again by the god in front of her without a long memory.
He was right, and he believed those words.
Not only is it believed again, but it is put into the heart, and it will be hidden for a lifetime.
Su Miao has always been the fool who makes stupid mistakes in her relationship, like no matter what the person in front of her does, she will always believe it unswervingly.
In the end, he was covered in bruises, which is probably the price.
The man in front of him stopped talking, as if he was trying to cover something, short-sighted and deliberately avoided, regardless of her words, and stood up straight, "Whatever you want." Su Miao, you have to be clear, I have never liked you, let alone love. ”
After speaking, he left without the slightest mercilessness, and the door of the ward was slammed shut with a bang.
She closed her eyes tightly, she was the one who asked a stupid question.
In this kind of words, where does she have the qualifications to ask Lu Jinran.
He is Lu Jinran, the man who knows that he likes him for seven years.
It's always just that he hooks his finger at himself, hypocritically says something apologetic and loving, and he can run to him again desperately.
Feelings and likes are just so unreasonable and make people look like fools.
Su Miao closed her eyes and covered her ears, as if she didn't want to recall that conversation.
But Lu Jinran's departure and arrival didn't take much time.
But the divorce agreement that was left empty on the hospital bed told her that it was not a dream.
It's real, he's going to divorce himself.
There is a saying that husband and wife are originally birds of the same forest, and they fly separately when disaster comes.
It's pretty good.
Her distracted eyes were stained with loss and loneliness, and the wind outside tore the white curtain in front of the window, and the halo fell on her thin back without a trace.
"Lu Jinran, it's winter, we shouldn't be able to watch the first snow of this year together. ”
She muttered a faint sentence on her lips.
Probably, people who have seen the first snow together will not be able to walk through the winter of the following year.
If you make a mistake in the book, you will never forget it, and there will be no repercussions at all.
There is only endless darkness and waiting torment.
Pushing back the clouds, her gods abandoned her again.
(End of chapter)