"That seat in the café

I'm looking forward to seeing who will return here

Cappuccino's grief

I have no way back

It's like spreading your wings and taking you flying

See how beautiful the starry sky is at night

Fate is always in reincarnation

If you have a dream, you have to chase it

oh baby

How the hell am I going to sing this melody for you?

Even now I'm lost

For love

I kept my stubbornness

The lonely back, the familiar streets, waiting for me to ride the wind and waves

Night in the moonlight

The lights are dim

I don't know why I'm so greedy for you."

The dense forest path in the middle of the night, every place is decorated with lonely snow, and the starlight in the sky is bright and softly sprinkled on the bare treetops. The starlight did not hesitate to shuttle through the thousands of ice crystals among the branches.

The neon lights at the end of the trail are still flashing, and sad songs are still playing over and over again, adding a unique charm to the otherwise quiet garden.

July looked up at the starry sky, the sparkling stars shining on her pale and almost transparent face, and the soft fluorescence spilled through the Joan Tip on her long snow-white down jacket. Her back was like wings made of convection suddenly growing from her back. And she was like an angel coming down from heaven to earth.

"The first time I saw you in July, you were wearing a snow-white dress. Now in the cold of winter, you still prefer white. Why?"

"White makes people feel cold when they look at it, don't you think?"

Mu Xuan asked curiously, a pair of dark blue eyes full of confused color.

"I don't know why, I've been interested in white things since I was very young. “

July breathed quietly and said quietly.

"Speaking of which, Mu Xuan, you are not the first person to ask me this question, and so is Liang Xia, she is also surprised. In fact, white is the purest color in the world, and she symbolizes selflessness, fearlessness and dedication. Maybe I'm a persistent person myself, so that's why I like it in particular. “

As she spoke, July slowly stood still, and she looked at Mu Xuan with pity in her eyes. There is no longer the slightly naughty girlishness of the past, on the contrary, she looks very serious, so serious that even the corners of her eyes are moist. From the time she opened her lips to speak to the time she gradually fell silent, anyone with a discerning eye knew that she was using the topic to play.

Mu Xuan's eyelashes trembled, and countless snowflakes swirled beside his tall nose.

It's just that July's gentle eyes also began to flow with an inexplicable sense of depression.

Mu Xuan opened his mouth slightly, and slowly looked at Qiyue's gaze with a very solemn gaze. Even if he Zheng Muxuan is able to argue well, he is at a loss for this answer in July and doesn't know how to continue to round it. In a trance, an inexplicable panic occupied his entire heart. He gently held the hand in July's palm and lost his strength slightly.

"Oh, I see. ”

Mu Xuan's face was surprisingly calm, and he quietly hooked his lips and shook his hand very hard.

The stomach kept protesting, and the two of them exchanged glances with each other and couldn't help but step up. Mu Xuan shook off the starlight and sat silently beside July.

The sound of singing fills the flowing air of the restaurant.

Taking advantage of July's inattention, Mu Xuan fumbled out the shriveled wallet from his pocket, he took a light breath, and quietly put the wallet back.

"July, come, I heard Liang Xia say that you usually like to eat French tea pancakes with creamy beef and tomato soup, I searched for a long time to find this shop. You taste it. ”

Mu Xuan said, conjuring up plates of delicious dishes from under the table like a trick.

"It's a ring and a big dinner, and my birthday is really fruitful. July said softly.

"Of course. Mu Xuan paused, and he took a deep breath of the wings of his nose.

"Since the festival, there has been a lot less club activity. The New Year's Day party and the final exam are too close to each other, and there is a possibility that it will be canceled at the behest of the student council. That way, we see each other less often. ”

Mu Xuan rubbed his eyes, but he couldn't get rid of the fatigue in his eyes.

"After the final exams, we will meet again after the winter break. I don't know, I don't know ... ”

Mu Xuan looked back at the first snow in the sky, his heart couldn't help but feel uneasy, a high heart was pounding, no matter how much he persuaded himself, he couldn't fall into his heart.

"Forget it, at least today is a good day to celebrate, not to mention the depressing things. ”

After the strange silence, Mu Xuan pretended to smile relaxedly, and he raised his hand to gently caress Qiyue's red and hot cheeks.

"This ring flatters you very well, and it looks so good on your hand. ”

Mu Xuan looked at the ring on Qiyue's finger and was stunned for a moment, he looked at her stupidly. I didn't know what to say for a while.

Seeing that he was so frizzy, July simply handed his hand high in front of Mu Xuan.

"Ah, look. July kept shaking the hand with the ring on it, and the expression on his face was bursting with joy.

"Mu Xuan, isn't it good to wear it on your middle finger now. ”

"People say that if you wear your middle finger when you get married, and if you wear your ring finger when you get engaged, will it be too early for me to put the ring on my middle finger now. ”

July's voice was as light as the wind, and Mu Xuan looked at her in a daze. The heart hanging in his throat sank fiercely.

"No, it won't. Mu Xuan's expression gradually solidified as he looked at July.

"Mom, why do you always wear this ring, and Dad he treats you so much, do you still have nostalgia for him? Do you still calculate that he will change his mind and return to you at some point in the future? I really don't understand why he abandoned us in the first place?"

"No, it won't. "No, it won't. He raised his hand and pounded his groggy head hard. His eyes were so helpless and desperate when he looked at July.

"Silly boy, when you meet the girl you like, you will understand that liking and loving are two different things. Love and staying together are two different things, and there is a special zone in the middle of these things that is helplessness. My mother always hated the man who ruined my life when I was awake, but every sleepless night, my wandering consciousness told me that I still loved him. After this torment, I told myself that it was better to forgive him than to hate him. ”

"It's nothing, then I'll keep it for you for the time being, and I'll give her back to you before you marry me, and I'll give it to me again when you give it to me." ”

"By the way, Mu Xuan, why don't you speak, don't talk to me again. July said with a small pout.

"Hey, why are you talking to yourself. July sensed something was wrong, and she just raised her eyes.

"Mom, is this love? It's too hard and torturous. I'd rather never meet the woman I love in my life, than anyone hate me or who I hate. ”

"No, no, no, no, I don't. The blood on her lips dried, and July looked horribly gray.

"No, no. ”

Mu Xuan looked around in the dark world one after another.

At last

He stared at July in a daze, his eyes were a little fluttering, and in his trance-like vision, he faintly saw the shadow of his mother from July's body. The erratic shadow made his head hurt fiercely. The dull pain was like a blood gushing all over his body, and he could barely breathe in pain.

"Mu Xuan, Mu Xuan. ”

"Hey, what's wrong with you. Why can't you give up, is it uncomfortable? ”

July stretched out five fingers and shook them in front of his eyes.

"Hey, Zheng Muxuan, you look at me. ”

Mu Xuan pressed his fingers on his temples, his back straight. But his pale face and the sweat on his forehead showed his fragility unreservedly in front of July.

"Xiao Xuan, when you meet a girl who wants to entrust your heart in the future, don't forget to leave the ring to her. ”

"Mu Xuan, Mu Xuan. Hey, what's wrong with you. ”

Mom's shadow slowly dissipated from the pale mist.

"Don't move. Mu Xuan stood up suddenly, and grabbed Qiyue's wrist indistinctly.

"Mu Xuan. July looked at him in surprise.

"Mu Xuan, what's wrong with you, I felt that something was wrong with you from the moment I just entered this store. ”

July looked at him with puzzled eyes.

Mu Xuan calmed down slightly, and then sat back in his chair.

"yes, it's beautiful. ”

Even though she had a splitting headache, Mu Xuan still endured the severe pain and pretended to answer her calmly.

"Why did you shed so much cold sweat? Mu Xuan, are you really okay?"

July looked at him in shock.

"I'm sorry, I, I was thinking about something, so I lost my temper, sorry. ”

Mu Xuan said guiltily, his voice was hoarse and dull, and even his face with no expression was as cold as ice.

"You. "July's eyes were swirled with mist.

"You, have you eaten well?" Mu Xuan gritted his teeth and forced out a smile to ask her.

"Well, it's done. July was stunned for a moment, looked at him and nodded obediently.

"That's good. Mu Xuan smiled happily.

"But, you, were you okay just now?"

July stared at his flustered eyes with a worried expression. She hesitated for a moment, but then asked about the uneasiness hidden in her heart.

"It's fine. Mu Xuan said lightly.

The mist slowly slid down Mu Xuan's cheeks towards his eyes.

"Are you really okay?"

"Do you want to go to the hospital? Do you know how scared you were just now. “

July's eyes were so wide that if they were a little rounder, they would fly out of their sockets.

"How do I know? I'm not looking in the mirror. There was a gentle smile in Mu Xuan's voice. It's like every time he looks at July, his eyes are filled with soft moonlight.

"But you. July was shocked, and she said without thinking.

Mu Xuan kept pinching his temples with his fingers, trying to make himself look not so tired.

"I just didn't sleep well last night, and I have a lot of homework to make up. It may also be that you have drunk too much coffee, and your body is a little overwhelmed for a while. “

July was still looking at him in amazement.

"Really? Don't fool me. Since I was a child, I have been interested in medical books in addition to my love of design. You've already broken the boundaries of sub-health, and you look like you're sick. “

July used her warm hand to clench Mu Xuan's cold and dry palm tightly. With a little force, she half-dragged Mu Xuan to her eyes.

She gently tested the temperature between his foreheads, then pressed her hand to her forehead.

"It's a little hot, but fortunately it shouldn't be a big problem. “

"It's that your lips don't have any blood at all, so you're not in a state. “

July carefully stare at him, her clear and bright eyes full of concern.

"Why don't we take a look at the school doctor. “

July continues to propose.

Mu Xuan's face was full of knowing smiles, and his pale lips gradually moistened and became very transparent.

He barely suppressed the ecstasy in his heart, and half-jokingly and half-seriously said what was in his heart: "Why is this distressed?"

"What did you say?" July shouted as she glared at him fiercely.

It's just that when she suddenly woke up from her anger, her face was extremely flushed, and at the moment she only felt that her blood was boiling. July forcibly endured the unhappiness in his heart and stood timidly in place.

Hearing this, the guests sitting next to each other turned around and cast curious glances in the direction of Qiyue and Mu Xuan.

The lights were as bright as day, and countless pairs of unfamiliar eyes were converging all over her, and July's face was even hotter. She became the center of attention, and through her slanted bangs, she cautiously looked around.

At this moment, she is neither standing nor sitting. You will be stared at when you speak, and it is embarrassing to shut up. "What the hell is going to do?" said July, stomping his foot uneasily.

In a hurry, July pouted angrily, and glared at Mu Xuan with the worst eyes.

The fierce light highlighted in his expression dwelled in a funny temperament, and the beauty that could not be described in any words really shook Mu Xuan's heart. It's just that for some reason, she seemed to be very angry but not ruthless, and pierced the softest nerve in his heart.

"I'm sorry, I was wrong, I won't tease you again. Mu Xuan forced a smile, and he touched his nose embarrassedly.

July's funny expression still had an unrefined childishness, her eyes were full of anger, she aimed at Mu Xuan fiercely, and her black and white pupils looked at him without moving.

"Don't be like this, I'm already dizzy, if you scare me again, I'm afraid that my whole body will fall from the chair. If I fall and hurt or am disabled, I will be fine. If you throw a few fine lines out of the marble floor, it will really be a waste of money. “

Mu Xuan looked Qiyue up and down, and saw that there was a wave of annoyance surging between her eyebrows.

"Ah, a headache, a terrible headache. Mu Xuan grabbed his hair, and half-closed his eyes and pretended to be arrogant.

"Donkey skills are exhausted, lie to the ghosts, and see if the ghosts can listen to your lies. July's answer was extremely cold, cold to his surprise.

Mu Xuan was a little anxious in his heart, and he glanced at July who was sulking alone in his seat out of the corner of his eye. He shook his head vigorously and said helplessly:

"July, you're determined to ignore me anymore, aren't you?"

July had a straight face and looked at the two empty disks in front of him with a serious face.

Mu Xuan pulled his hair fiercely.

"Don't be like this, I, I've been alone for too long, I've long been used to loneliness. It's just that I didn't think so after meeting you. I'm afraid that the loneliness of the rest of my life is all from you. ”

July looked at Mu Xuan in a daze, and his hand holding the juice cup high was frozen in mid-air.

Orange-red juice flickered from mid-air and fell on the snow-white marble floor.

"Your words are really too deep, and they are incomprehensible and incomprehensible. I'm a little too engaged. ”

July scratched his head and stuck out his tongue in Mu Xuan's direction.

"However, Mu Xuan, you are really abnormal today, so abnormal that I threw unpleasant things out of the clouds. ”

July's voice was gentle, even the smile on her face was very gentle, and she looked at him quietly.

"Oh, yes? I'll pay attention next time. Mu Xuan said guiltily.

"Actually, I don't know what's going on today? Fortunately, the happy and unpleasant past has become a memory. No amount of unpleasantness I tried could get rid of them from my mind. ”

Mu Xuan's heart swelled with acid, and he looked at her with a wry smile, such a smile was more like facing his sincerity than facing Qiyue. He pursed his lips tightly.

"What kind of memories make you so haunted. July looked at Mu Xuan curiously, her voice was very soft and soft, more like muttering to herself than asking.

"I, I, my mind is so confused, I don't know what to tell you. Mu Xuan replied stiffly.

With that, he turned his face out the window again.

"Give me some time to think about it. ”

July slowly lowered his eyes.

"Don't mind, I just feel that since we are together, I have an obligation to help you share your sorrows and troubles. But since you're not ready to talk to me, then I respect you, and when you're done, you can answer me. ”

There was a pain in July's heart, and she reached out and gently placed her hand in his cold palm.

"I'm with you, always with you. “

July's eyes that looked directly at Mu Xuan gradually moistened in the blurry and smoky warm light, and her gaze did not leave Mu Xuan for a moment.

"Thank you. ”

"Thank you. ”

"Thank you, July. “

Big tears slowly slid down from Mu Xuan's cheeks to the dining table, and the uncontrollable headache and the despair hidden in his heart surged again like a river bursting the embankment, he pressed his fingers against the dining table, and the glistening tears and sweat had already drenched the dark red roses that covered the table.

In the agony of death, his eyelashes were wet with tears again and again. His face grew paler, as pale as the snow outside the window. The white is transparent, so transparent that it is poignant and tranquil, like the petals of the white epiphany.

"Mu Xuan. July called emotionally.

Mu Xuan struggled to resist the corner of the dining table, his face was unusually pale, and his eyes shrouded in mist were full of stubbornness. The fragility of the moment is long gone.

"This time it's not sad, it's moving. “

The tear stains left on the eyelids are like bloodless scars that have been cut alive one after another. Although Mu Xuan's tears disappeared, they had already been injected into July's heart.

July understands that Mu Xuan's tears are taboo and untouchable, and there is a black world stationed in that forbidden harbor.