"Then let's sit down and look at the stars. ”

Su Miao looked at the mountain road in front of her, which was clear of fog, and she would definitely not be able to get out today.

It just so happened that she and Lu Jinran both had clothes to wear and it wasn't cold.

The starry sky in the mountains at night is always particularly dazzling.

The director team didn't expect Su Miao to compromise like this, they thought they were joking, but they saw Lu Jinran holding Su Miao's hand, and the two of them sat behind a stone blocking the wind.

"Okay, then let's sit down and look at the stars. ”

Lu Jinran followed her wishes, and the two of them sat down slowly and had no intention of getting up.

The videographers who followed the shoot had planned to accompany them to spend it.

It's just a thin coat on the body, which stabs the skin and hurts.

One by one, they couldn't hold on, and they added clothes one after another.

She held Lu Jinran's hand tightly, squinting slightly by the faint starlight.

A Milky Way shone brightly on the horizon.

The clusters of twinkling starlight seemed to be a colorful garment woven by the goddess for the earth, and it was gently worn on the ground on the backbone of the valley. Being in this beautiful night is reminiscent of the stars in the sky, as if you are swimming in a galaxy of stars.

The vision in front of her was still a little blurry, but the light of Lu Jinran's flashlight for her allowed her to see the stars in the dark night sky a little.

I can't see the moon tonight, but the sky is full of stars.

The cool breeze caused by the bad weather has gradually subsided.

Su Miao raised her head to look at the beauty brought by nature, she still squinted, but she lowered her vigilance a little.

At the beginning, when Lu Jinran didn't find her, she was calculated in the wilderness here, probably a dead end.

She was ready to die with the people in the shadows opposite, and even gave up a little and stopped looking for a way out.

Until the bracelet tied around her wrist began to glow, until Lu Jinran walked towards her against the light.

At that moment, she clearly heard the voice that was forcing her in her head.

Live Su Miao, live for him.

There are still people waiting for you.

Mo Xing used to always say that she looked sacrosanct and cold, but in fact she had always been an extremely extreme person.

At that time, she wanted to retort, but now that she thinks about it, it seems that she really didn't say anything wrong.

Emotionally, she waited for seven years without giving up.

In life, there was no light in her life, and after the light of the stars that had illuminated her was gone, she became even more depressed.

In fact, in those two years, she didn't have a good time at all.

In the two years that Lu Jinran left her, everyone could see it.

Mo Xing is the one who knows her best.

Su Miao had to take sleeping pills every night to fall asleep.

After gaining that hard-won fame, she didn't intend to continue to create brilliance.

Instead, she committed suicide by slitting her wrists in the bathroom alone.

At that time, her suicide attempt was probably the most nervous and collapsed time in her memory.

The first time I saw her look was when I fainted with a fever of 40 degrees in the practice room.

Mo Xing still can't forget the shocking scene when she rushed into the bathroom with Chen Ruolin.

Su Miao's wrist was cracked with a long and narrow opening, and it was white.

Blood poured out of the wound, and then, suddenly, the blood rushed out, gushing out, as if bursting.

Blood droplets drip down the wrist on the warm water, like blood-red flowers blooming, sickly beauty.

A white mist rose softly from the warm water, and blood darkened the water in the bathtub

Red, dark red.

The bathroom was filled with a strong, disgusting smell of blood, which was terrifying.

Her body was getting colder and colder, and her heart seemed to be overwhelmed.

The warm water was still flowing, overflowing over her head.

The ground was covered with bright red blood.

Her bleeding wrist could no longer hold the phone, which fell heavily under the surface of the bathtub.

Su Miao couldn't remember what she said when she was dying, and she had no memory at the time.

I only remember that the sharp knife slashed through her white wrist, and the blood began to spill out, like a great flood.

She began to lose consciousness and shivered with cold.

Later, how Mo Xing sent her to the hospital, what she said to herself, and what last words she said when she was dying, she didn't remember anything.

All she knew was that the next day she woke up to the blinding sun.

She didn't succeed in dying, but the warm sun shining through the window had nothing to do with her.

That was never, her sun.

After that time, Mo Xing's calm and calm people were frightened.

Chen Ruolin is a little girl, and I heard that she squatted next to her bed and cried all night.

When she woke up, her eyes were swollen like walnuts.

That night, they all watched over her all night, afraid that something would happen to her again.

It was probably from that time that Mo Xing chatted with her about her past and told her that she had also thought about dying.

But there are still worries in the world, she said that her concern is herself, and Ruolin, this little girl.

Su Miao never thought that one day she would become the reason for others to live.

From that day on, she never had the idea of death again.

In fact, the reason is very simple, Mo Xing and Chen Ruolin both told her that if she dared to die, they would go together to accompany her.

Su Miao knew that these two people were very temperamentally the same as her.

Although Chen Ruolin is still a little girl, she is even more likely to do these things when she is young and impulsive.

Mo Xing said that she was her pillar, so she no longer dared to die easily.

In fact, that phone call that year was what she wanted to leave her last words.

It's just that she can't tell whether she is dying or not......

Her eyes were confused, as if she had seen the little brother who handed her candy and smiled at her that year.

The boy who shouted at her in the library and told her that her classmates were cheering for the high school entrance examination. That, who fell into high school and looked at her in the same eye. That, Lu Jinran, who met for the first time in college and squandered his youth on the basketball court.

Su Miao couldn't tell whether she really wanted to die at that time.

Later, when Mo Xing mentioned this incident, she realized that her last words contained so many emotions at that time.

She said, "Mo Xing...... I'm dying.

Do you remember to go to my grandmother and Li Nian, and help me say hello to them on the day of death......

If you can, help me tell him that I don't want to like him for the rest of my life......"

At that time, her tone was weak and unspeakable, and she was on her way to the hospital for emergency treatment.

Mo Xing leaned close to her lips and muttered the words, and what she heard were three words.

The three words that were muttered to her mouth by her obsessiveness, Lu Jin ......

Later, when Mo Xing recalled it, he understood why he was so familiar when he heard the name Lu Jinran.

Her words were unclear, but Mo Xing could hear her, she was calling a name she didn't recognize.

It seems that I desperately want to say goodbye to him, and I seem to be very reluctant.

It wasn't until the end that she understood.

It turns out that when some obsessions exist, the brain will be reluctant to leave.

Who will want to see in the next life, and who knows if there will be another life.

(End of chapter)