Chapter Twenty-Eight: I'm Sorry, I Love You II
For Shin Tae-hee, Gu Beiming has done his homework, not only does he know that Tae-hee, who was born as an orphan, regards his only and uncompetitive brother as a treasure, but he also knows that in private she also has the cute and pink side of a little woman, and her mobile phone album is full of hello kitty pictures. and Xiaoxi, the backpacker who has always posted chicken soup in the circle of friends to promote that women should live a wonderful life, has never left the country, let alone a few sunny days in Melbourne before March. Not only that, but the first stop on her most longed-for life journey was the romantic Aegean Sea.
The night with the smell of fishy smell gradually creeping through the windows of the car surrounded by the raging waves.
"Damn. Looking at the mist that was rising again in front of him, Gu Beiming slapped the steering wheel again. He cursed softly with a slightly fierce expression, but if Tae-hee could look with his heart, he would definitely see that his eyebrows were actually full of evil smirks.
There was a hot pain in his fingers, Gu Beiming looked sideways, and while he was stuck in traffic, he slowly spread his palms on the steering wheel, and the lines of his palms or the swollen fingers were hot crimson.
Of course, this did not affect his mood, and he smiled indifferently, and that smile was elegant and gentle. "It seems that Miss Tae-hee is destined not to make it to this class, why don't you lose heart? β
"Maybe I can grant you one more wish. Under the dim street lamp, Gu Beiming's voice fell on deaf ears.
"I don't have a wish, and even if I do, I hope my brother can fight. The pouring rain pounded on the dark window, and Tae-hee's voice faded away in the solidifying air like a dying rose.
The fingers trembled slightly, and the numbness between the fingers slowly replaced the soreness in the palms. He forced himself to put his fingers back together and slowly close them together. "It's really difficult to make this wish, can you change it to a different one. You don't have any particular places you want to go, or someone you want to meet, Miss Tae-hee. β
He slowly turned his face to the back of the driver's seat, and although Tae-hee saw his three-dimensional and handsome jawed face like that of an English nobleman, the smile was completely sincere and solemn.
"Please, I'm busy, and I don't like the title of Miss. You should call me teacher, so that I can always be vigilant about my identity and dare not do anything transgressive. β
"Oh. Gu Beiming looked at her regretfully, "It's really a unique first encounter." β
Along the way, she was silent like an invisible person, and under her deliberate avoidance, even a slight gasp was lighter than duckweed, he could no longer hold back the resentment in his heart, and the haze in his heart slowly spread, and finally dyed his starry eyes with rain and dew. "Do you know how much girls in this world want to come to me, even if it's to be a pretend couple for a day. He tried hard to tilt his head sideways to look at Tae-hee, and seeing that Tae-hee's eyes remained dull and numb, he showed a graceful and arrogant smile.
"Even in one day, there is half the luck of victory. β
An expression that Tae-hee couldn't read shone like a red tide and appeared on his prince-like and elegant face in his oil paintings, but that expression of wanting to stop talking was like a spring breeze that slowly disappeared in just a moment.
He interjected calmly.
"I am very surprised and surprised by your performance, even if I never take the overtures of those who have a heart to heart, but a person is indifferent to my overtures, I am really very upset for those who take the initiative to approach me. But goodwill is one thing, and the interaction is a strange vibe. Of course, I'm confident that the other half of your admiration for such a motivated girl should be what I am. But you, did you hear something that's why you're so hostile to me? Gu Beiming glanced at his red, swollen palm covered with bruises and scars. "I think it must be so, otherwise I'd rather believe that you're blind than that you're so grotesque by nature. He deliberately tested her.
He reached out and handed the back of his white hand to her startled eyes, and a raised bruise mercilessly broke into her sight. "It's also the first time I've been injured. β
Under the snow-white thorn light, Tae-hee's eyelashes trembled. When she stared at him firmly, those eyes were brighter and more terrifying than the winter snow in the middle of the night.
"I didn't let you bang on the steering wheel, it's your personal behavior. Tae-hee said unhurriedly, her eyes always looking ahead.
"I guessed you'd say that. He shook his head slightly. "But I think I said that I would break all your cordons with my actions. β
"I hope it can be as you wish, but the higher you hope, the greater the disappointment, it is better not to hope, so that you will get lucky, and you will not regret what you can't get. β
She gently twitched her slightly white lips between the bruises.
"You're right, others say that it's very important to fit the three views, and I think you and I will at least become each other's confidants. After all, from the perspective of our future life planning, the general direction is the same, you want to get ahead, I want fame and fortune. β
The light in the car turned from bright to dark, and in the dark night, her delicate silhouette became white and transparent.
"You can say whatever you want, after all, you are a noble person. β
"Can I assume that you've agreed?"
"You?!"
Shin Tae-hee's eyes were deep with a dark light like black crystal.
"How long will it take to get to the student's house?" she asked anxiously.
"Oh, it's almost there, cross this intersection, turn left and drive in... β
Gu Beiming's hand was attached to the steering wheel.
Gu Beiming, who had never panicked at that moment, was complacent about making an exception for the first time. Even though the injured hand was frozen by the cold air surrounding him, he obviously didn't care.
Waiting for the signal, through the rearview mirror, Shin Tae-hee carefully looked at himself who appeared in the center of the mirror. Gu Beiming slanted his eyes and glanced at Tae-hee, who was self-pitying in the rearview mirror. Then he was speechless and found the handle.
"Teacher Shin Tae-hee, could you please do me a favor and help me check the injury on the back of my hand. For the young president who studied abroad alone to cultivate self-reliance when he was an adolescent, and then came back to preside over the overall situation when the Gu family was crumbling in his prime, winning a woman's empathy is like a puppy wagging its tail and bowing its head to beg for mercy. But despite the awkwardness of opening his mouth like this, he was still embarrassed to open his mouth.
He put his hand over the driver's seat and went straight to Tae-hee's eyes.
"No, are you so delicate as a big man?"
There was not the slightest emotion in her voice and eyes, but instead she kept looking at his hand in silence. The strange eyes with slight contempt were very sharp even through the fluttering dust, and at that moment, Gu Beiming, who was already living as lonely and cold as a vacuum, was fatally injured because he was ignored by his beloved woman.
"No, I don't want to forget it. I'm just wondering if you've lost any sympathy. After all, I just slapped the steering wheel hard, and I saw your eyes jump, and I just tried it. Don't worry about it. β
He began to refute, intending to save some face, since Shin Tae-hee is so difficult to deal with, he always wants to Taoguang to keep his eyes on for a while, save more tricks in the future, and conquer slowly.
He grinned lightly, and the smile that was as gentle as spring water just now instantly froze, and even the dark light that flashed under his eyes was a little lazy. He gently raised his hand and pressed the wing of his nose, and carefully tied his tie in the rearview mirror.
"It's okay not to look at the merit but to look at the hard work. If I hadn't sent you, you would have been able to sit in the car and listen to the radio so leisurely. You don't have to run wild all over the world now. β
"Stop, I'll go down and walk. β
The fragrance of Margaret came to my nose,
The dappled moonlight spilled loosely through the dense branches and leaves of the French acacia, and under the unpredictable and overlapping light and shadow, Shin Tae-hee's eyes completely lost their light. Her tone was extraordinarily serious, as if a teacher was ready to reprimand a student.
If there had been a possibility of lava on this iceberg just now, the temperature has now plummeted to absolute zero. It seems that Gu Beiming is doomed to failure.
Gu Beiming was very disappointed, he didn't look back at her again, and she stubbornly didn't answer.
"Do you want to have a drink, I heard that Sunrise Chatai has launched a new product. Gu Beiming looked carefully in the rearview mirror, he once again regained his usual polite expression, and his smile was very elegant.
"I love to drink water, and I only drink water. β
An atmosphere of silence and awkwardness once again lingered between the two men.
"Oh" Gu Beiming pretended to think, and did not immediately respond in depth.
Silence once again swirled like incoming cold air in Tae-hee's eyes that were gradually frozen.
"Oh, I just remembered. Gu Beiming broke the silence again, taking advantage of the gap between waiting for the signal light, he took out a bottle of water from the car, he raised his head leisurely, and his indifferent eyes shot straight into the depths of Tae-hee's eyes.
"This is for you, I want to buy a hot drink because the weather is bad. Unfortunately, we just missed a store. β
Through the dim street lamp, the water droplets on the wall of the cup flickered brightly and dimly.
About the first two days, when Gu Beiming was navigating to a new restaurant, he inadvertently went in the wrong direction. He was so angry that he was about to slam the steering wheel and yell, and his eyes suddenly lit up. He parked his car safely beside the road, and by the dim headlights, he could clearly look at the landmark in front of him.
"The Eiffel Tower, the Carousel Lost Land, and the Hello Kitty Traveling Park. β
He immediately took two tickets to give her a surprise today.
Gu Beiming took advantage of the gap between waiting for the signal, and he glanced at his watch with his eyebrows slanted. Since the course was definitely going to fail, Gu Beiming couldn't hold back the joy in his heart, and he drove along the route that had been planned with great interest.
"Hey, hey, hey. Just as Gu Beiming was concentrating on driving, Shin Tae-hee, who realized that something was wrong, slapped his slender legs fiercely while desperately looking out the window.
"Why are you doing, how can a governess be so rude. Gu Beiming glanced at her and continued to drive the car as if nothing happened.
"You park, you hurry up. β
In an instant, Tae-hee grabbed Gu Beiming's shoulder and shouted eagerly.
"How can you do this? Gu Beiming, do you know that you are actually harming me by doing this. And even if I will offend you, I have to say that I really don't have any thoughts on anything but making money now. My younger brother has just entered the society, and I have to plan for him in all aspects. Gu Beiming, please let me go. I'm not the kind of casual woman, and with me, I really can't afford to hurt. My heart is already messed up enough, don't add any more to it, okay? Just for the sake of my face as Teacher Gu Beichen. β
Tae-hee vented his anger in a questioning tone. Her voice was full of distrust. There was even a flash of suspicion revealing a faint ruthlessness.
Braked suddenly, and the hovering acacia leaves fell.
On the road at night, cars are speeding on the endless road one after another, and for a time countless flashing arcs are rushing towards the invisible end of this road. Perhaps it is precisely because of those dazzling flow lines and dim street lamps looking at each other in the distance, fading away from the crowds and glitz of the night, that the city will not be particularly lonely.
Gu Beiming's face suddenly eclipsed, in the thick night fog, his face with two red tides turned pale, he stared at Tae-hee who was standing on the side of the road in the rearview mirror, and after a long time, he finally let his body slump in the driver's seat like a deflated ball.
"It turns out that you have such a deep prejudice against me, am I the kind of person you imagined? How can you think that I am flat? You think that I am playing tricks on you and plotting against you. β
"Okay, I'll give you an analogy. You say that you are not such a person, perhaps because you have always been prominent in front of others, so you do not understand the coldness and darkness of human feelings. Then when you read this, I don't believe you can still say such naΓ―ve things. What kind of family are you, can you tolerate a person from a humble background like me? And do you dare to disobey your father? Please, sir, you should plan the blueprint before the chessboard falls, and then talk to others about it. β
The lights of the night are swaying with the cold wind.
watched Tae-hee disappear into the violently shaking poplar forest without looking back. His heart was as furious as a mast in the wind.
A lonely row of street lamps, slanted beaded curtains, stagnant water that glistened on the sidewalk like a white horse passing through a gap, and the man who had just turned off the fire and slowly walked out of the car with an umbrella.
According to common sense, Gu Beiming would not stop where he was and wait for anyone at all. But the more certain you are, the more likely you are to make an exception for a special person at a special moment.
Gu Beiming poked his hands back and forth boredly.
The stiff and numb palms of the hands slowly scaled hot.
He tilted his head slightly and looked at the endless moonlit sky.
"Why, why is everyone around me so reluctant to approach me. I really don't understand what I'm doing wrong, it's like I'm a plague god, I'm an infectious disease. I obviously want to find out my heart to her. Of course I don't blame her, there are really few people in this world who understand herself. β
Gu Beiming's originally calm voice also began to tremble slightly, although he kept forcing himself to speak in a calm voice, the distorted facial expression seemed to cry.
The wet wind blew into his eyes, and he closed them in agony.
Before seeing Shin Tae-hee again, it is necessary and necessary for him to sort out his mood. However, before his heart could calm down, Tae-hee had already walked towards him with a bright face of sunshine.
Gu Beiming stood silently in place, motionless and waiting for her to slowly approach him. Just two hours ago, she was looking at him with an unfriendly look. But now her gaze seemed to soften a lot. Her call echoed around the silence, like a crisp and melodious shell wind chime.
Gu Beiming was stunned, he looked at her silently and affectionately.
"Here you go. Take it. Shin Tae-hee slowed down, she held the leather bag in one hand, and gently lifted it in front of him with the other, she gently shook the plastic bag in her hand, and then saw a hot warm light rising from under his eyes, her smile like a rose froze and gradually retracted.
Tae-hee pulled her face again, her expressionless look was really fainting.
"What is this?" he asked, cautiously, with his eyes wide open.
"Ice packs, I brought you from the students' homes. β
She stared at him, her chin curled in a haughty arc. She was like an angel in a mask, and every expression was so realistic. A dark gray windbreaker was worn on her, there was always a feeling of heaviness and death, just as Gu Beiming slowly opened her dry mouth and was about to answer, she shook the plastic bag gently between the two of them again, and then she straightened the broken hair that slipped down her lips, and when her arms hung down softly, she pursed her lips again and the corners of her lips were slightly upturned, her lips were ruddy but not as dazzling as roses, she was like the elegant but unostentatious pink rose in the Garden of Eden, simple and clear.
After hearing her simple reply, Gu Beiming obediently took his hand, he frowned slightly, and then shrugged his shoulders helplessly.
"I thought it was a gift you carefully selected to reward me for not letting you miss a chance to make money. β
Hearing him finish saying this, Shin Tae-hee raised his lowered gaze and met his gaze.
He stared earnestly at the face, thinking about it in his mind. The two faces he had seen in the garage for a while passed through his mind one by one, and suddenly Tae-hee was holding his knees and choking helplessly, and the intermittent sobbing echoed in front of his eyes again.
"Ah, why, why did you do this to me, I have never hurt anyone in my life, why should I swallow all the bitter fruits, swallow all my sins, what did I do wrong, God wants to punish me like this, do you have to take everything from me. β
"Why do I have nothing in this life, ah, no, there are people behind me, and I have a brother who can't be found. My brother. β
Gu Beiming silently and carefully looked at the big eyes as deep as the dark night on her small and delicate face.
Shin Tae-hee's tired eyes suddenly lit up, she adjusted her breathing, and then slowly turned her gaze to the acacia covered in night dew, her voice reaching his ears again through the wind, and the voice was still cold.
Gu Beiming looked at her in a daze, his eyes were extremely unnatural, and he turned his face awkwardly not to look at her.
"I, I'll take care of it myself. "
He struggled to speak.
After receiving the ice pack, Gu Beiming immediately returned to the car. But when his hand was gently applied to the ice pack. The red and swollen palms began to sting.
"Take it and show it to me. Tae-hee didn't say anything, she just asked Gu Beiming to turn his body to her. "No, you really don't have to bother. Gu Beiming said hurriedly.
"Don't bother, after all, it's all because of me, you're so careless, just on the way to the student's house alone, I'm still reflecting on myself, I'm sorry, my brother's debt has been making me panic all day. So, I said so many hurtful things before I got out of the car, and I should take it as my apology for helping you with a cold compress, okay?"
Gu Beiming gently held Shin Tae-hee's hand holding the ice pack. "Ah!" he regained his sad face.
"Hey, why are you like my brother and I are bending the same routine, he cheats me like this every time. If I weren't immune to his routines, maybe you would have been able to fool through with your clumsy acting skills. β
Shin Tae-hee gently raised his hand in front of Gu Beiming's eyes, although the palm was still very red, but the dark marks with bruises had gradually disappeared, and even the bulging lump on the palm looked a little swollen.
Gu Beiming looked at his hands, then took out a handkerchief from the car and wiped it.
"By the way, I just heard you say that your brother left you a mess outside. What about now, has the arrears been paid off?"
"Don't mention him, I've been taking extra classes lately just for this account. I wish he was just addicted to online games like the delinquent teenagers in elementary school. It doesn't cost money, it's just an energy-consuming game. β
Shin Tae-hee's eyes seem to have countless things to confide in but nowhere to confide.
"You see I've bandaged you. Shin Tae-hee looked at the elastic bandage wrapped around Gu Beiming's hand, she choked up for a long time, and finally she replaced her lonely sadness with a cheerful tired face.
"Well, it's nice, I feel like I have a white rose in my hand. "
Under the moonlight, which was as clear as water, he raised an innocent smile from the heart.
Confession seems like yesterday, and now, now.
He, doesn't he really need me?
Gu Beiming, goodbye.
Tae-hee secretly said goodbye to his departed self in his heart.
Even if she was abused by life, with the last touch of happiness and innocence that Gu Beiming gave her, she would not be exhausted.
The joy of the past is now like comparing the world with her, the feeling of bitterness and warmth is like a light cast on the dark night, which is confusing but dreamy and beyond the reach of scratching people's ears.
"If you want to live well, it's actually very simple, as long as you meet two conditions. First, don't expect too much about the future. Second, don't be discouraged by the future. As long as your heart is visible to her, life will reward you in the same way. You must know that the bad days are over, and when the bad days are not bad, the good days are also inadvertently beckoning to you. β
Shin Tae-hee was in a daze, Gu Beiming turned his head with a smile, he looked at Tae-hee sitting there like a bronze statue, he waved his hand lightly, "What, what kind of stimulation, see if I can think of a way for you, you must know that my independent survival ability is not comparable to ordinary people." Gu Beiming glanced at her gaze. "Why are you still distracted? It seems that your brother must have caused a big accident this time. β
Shin Tae-hee, who has always liked to pretend to be domineering, suddenly became silent. At that moment, when an orphan girl without parents was faced with a chaebol family worth hundreds of millions, she naturally intertwined with inferiority complex and inexplicable anger from her heart. She smiled awkwardly. "You give me a way, I'm afraid your method will not be able to be used in my life and in the next life, I need money for debts. You must know that a thousand of me is not worth half of you. I often wonder how good it would be if Xinghe could be as sensible as Gu Beichen, although Little Master Gu has the habit of spending money lavishly, but at least that kid has a bottom line, and he knows where he can't touch it and won't take half a step forward. β
Shin Tae-hee suddenly felt a sense of dΓ©jΓ vu in her heart, and she felt that the indescribable feelings in her heart were being torn to pieces. Something that had accumulated in my heart unconsciously suddenly collapsed.
"Thank you for your enlightenment and let me know that there are reasons for not only doing evil. Maybe I don't love the world enough to never see the beautiful moments. When you are frustrated, even if you put the light in your mouth, it will melt away. Do you know that a burden is a burden, and if you sing about life, she won't beckon you to tell you that all the previous trials are a joke. β
Gu Beiming's mood instantly became heavy.
His figure was particularly dim in the backlit driver's seat, but his deep gaze was still fixed on her.
"Are you telling the truth? But I've never hurt anyone, why, when I'm most helpless, I'm always empty behind me. I am like an island in the sea, like the most unnoticed inch of desert in the oasis, why no matter how hard I try, there is no result, in this world compared to never attracting attention, the cold eyes after being noticed are the real indifference. β
Shin Tae-hee raised his lowered gaze again, meeting hers. She was the same as usual, and I looked at her and remembered her desperate screams in the warehouse that day, and it felt like a dream.
But the more hazy and unpredictable this nightmare becomes, the more realistic it becomes.
Gu Beiming stared at Shin Tae-hee intently, and at this time, Tae-hee spoke.
"My parents died in a car accident when I was nine years old, I was still young and didn't have the ability to make a living, and I remember running around City A with my younger brother on my back, and I finally found my uncle's house, but he pointed to his nose and said that he didn't know us at all, and if we came here so rashly, he would send us oranges. β
Shin Tae-hee looked at Gu Beiming, her chest rose and fell rapidly, she was panting and crying, and her eyes were still full of unspeakable choking with tears in her eyes at that moment, even if it fell in the eyes of strangers, it was boundless sadness.
She pretended to be nonchalant and said lightly. Actually, she didn't know that her face had begun to become distorted.
At that moment, Gu Beiming seemed to understand that the faint sense of alienation she carried was not self-enclosed, but a clear protective color.
She wiped away the tears that were still flowing.
"Can you imagine the despair of losing a loved one and being kicked out of the house by someone who is also close to you? β
She lost her voice for a moment, then covered her mouth and curled her trembling body into a ball.
At that moment, Gu Beiming's pupils continued to tighten. He reached out in distress and gently patted Tae-hee on the back as he tried to comfort her.
But look at her cheeks with teardrops the size of beans.
Gu Beiming was suddenly at a loss, and Tae-hee slowly raised her head, and there was undisguised sadness in her red eyes.
She pretended to look at her with a smile, and the next moment she hurriedly held back her tears, and then said in a hoarse voice: "Please, don't tell anyone, I'm a thin-skinned person, and I hate others pointing fingers behind my back, even if I'm really bad, but I still walk the road that others haven't walked, and I have suffered unusual hardships." I, I hate it when people pretend to sympathize with me and splash dirty water everywhere. In that case, it is better to open everything and scold me in front of countless people. β
"But you, can you keep it a secret for me, promise me to spend tonight, and forget my embarrassed appearance. I'm really, I'm really tired, I can't hold it anymore. β
She buried her head in the slab again, and she began to sob. Tears poured out, and the more she tried to hold back the tears, the more the tears burst out of her eyes, and her heart felt aggrieved before she made up her mind every time, and she couldn't stop crying. It's like Gu Beiming's unrelieved sadness tugging at his chest, making his heart like a knife, but he just can't take that step out of his own way.
Gu Beiming's heart was full of sourness, he looked at Tae-hee, who was tear-stained and almost uneasy, and he gently hugged her shoulder.
The white mist of water splashed down in streams, and the Rolls-Royce, the same color as the twilight, sped quickly through the deserted streets.
"Thank you, thank you for sending me home. β
Shin Tae-hee unbuckled his seat belt while looking at him seriously.
"Go back, good night. β
The door slowly opened, and she walked with light steps towards the apartment building.
The high heels stepped on the bright stagnant water, and every footprint seemed to outline a piece of silver arc, just like the girl in the oil painting quietly came to the mysterious Seine.
Even the low branches of her long flowing hair that accidentally touched her were stained with the scent of rose buds in the morning dewdrops.
"By the way, Gu Beiming, thank you for giving me a good night. Good
ight!β
She smiled weakly, her clear eyes fluttering like the breeze on the sea.