Chapter 67: A Strange Home, The Furthest Distance II
A gust of wind blew lightly, and the milky white shutters stacked like the pages of a book were opened. Around the roller blinds, there is a very intense inky blue sky, and when the fiery clouds that have just burned the western canopy gradually fall into a faint bright starlight, at first glance it looks like a beautiful bellflower is sprinkled on the canvas.
A chill slowly penetrated into the depths of the room along the window, and Gu Beiming's body began to tremble unconsciously. Until Lian Xun's slender figure was revealed in the crack of the hidden door, when the owner of the black shadow slowly approached his side, Gu Beiming turned his face stiffly, and he slowly raised his face and stared blankly at Lian Xun's face without a trace of warmth.
"It's too late for you to regret it, President, because of your half-brother on one side and your biological mother on the other, I don't believe you would do anything against the principles of nature. And emotional factors aside, your mother holds 11% of the shares of the Gu Group and your 23.5% blessing, as long as you win the votes of the major shareholders. After all, you and your mother have shown a shrewd and capable way for all to see. And Gu Beichen, although he also owns 23.5% of the shares, he is so immature that he can't do anything. What's more, he has a mother like that, as the illegitimate son of President Gu, what choice do you think everyone will make? Since ancient times, no concubine can successfully overshadow the limelight of his concubine, and even if he gets that position, his position is not exactly to be drowned in spittle. ”
"I think this is Brother Lian Xun's cleverness, although your move just now is more inclined to choose me, but I can completely default to it as an expedient move. Your reversal is tempting, but your support for me will only work if I agree to your offer, and even if I know what lies behind your meaningful gaze, I have absolutely no reason to reject you. According to your true intentions, there should be two ways for the shares in my hands. But just when I was hesitating between the two forks in the road, you had quietly pointed me in the direction, didn't you? If you choose the mother's path, you will die, but if you choose the Beichen path, you can also re-energize. So you look like you're a very cunning guy. ”
"Thank you for your praise, I remember that I told you, President, that your shrewdness and wisdom are not inferior to those of the President lying here. ”
"But compared to Brother Lian Xun, I seem to be one square behind. It was your overwhelming rhetoric that pushed me unreservedly towards my brother. So while thinking deeply for me, you have also prepared for Beichen. I can understand that this is a foolproof plan for your Gu family. ”
"If I did, you'd hate me even more. I can't wait to really give me a cup of poisonous soy milk. ”
"How can it be, I just keep an eye on the innocuous scheming, if I really want to get rid of you, will you often put your thoughts on your lips? What's more, I am no different from my father's suspicion, the more the fox jumps around, the more it arouses my desire to hunt, otherwise they all sit there honestly, and I will treat them as sculptures. ”
"Don't tell me you like the people below, and sure enough, you still have the blood of your youth in your head. You are very similar to Beichen in this regard. ”
Gu Beiming chuckled helplessly, but soon his eyes were once again covered with an opaque film.
"How did Mrs. Zheng Shijing and Young Master Gu Beichen walk back. I just told the driver to wait a little longer. A wide lake appeared in Lian Xun's eyes, the moonlight shattered, and Gu Beiming slowly walked to the window.
The sound of dull breathing echoed eeriely in the cold air, at this moment Gu Beiming's heart was even colder than the temperature outside, he looked desperately at the pair of figures that were about to disappear into the night and trembled like a deer, no matter how tormented they were, they always had each other.
Looking at Gu Beiming's deep eyes, Lian Xun smiled quietly. But soon he shook his head silently.
"If it weren't for an accident, you'd never know you had a brother who supported you. Lian Xun grabbed him tightly with a righteous gaze and never let go.
"Beichen told you, can you tell me now, don't you plan to hide it for him?" Gu Beiming's face turned pale, and the corners of his mouth twitched weakly. At this moment, his eyes sparkling when he looked out of the window, his pale brown hair like satin and his fair face formed a sharp contrast, Lian Xun hesitated for a moment, and he said more solemnly with Gu Beiming's misty eyes after a dizzying cloud. "There's nothing to hide, Beichen has no idea about that position at all, but for those shares, he just hopes to use these things to protect his relatives, Mom and Dad and that favorite brother, he said he wants to accompany you to protect this home that is about to be stormy. ”
I'll have to be careful with you, or you'll betray me like this in the near future. ”
In Gu Beiming's eyes, Lian Xun's face was even more incomprehensible than before. A bright star fell between the branches and the broad leaves, Gu Beiming rubbed his eyes, looked at the star tree that was gradually moving away, and he closed his eyes quietly.
"I told him that he was still very young and that he should eat and drink like other children his age, and then lie on the playground and talk and laugh. Whether it is to protect the family or the company, this is only the responsibility of the adult son-in-law. ”
"Actually, you know better than me what kind of person your brother is, don't you, the president? I am just an ordinary friend with whom we can occasionally meet and talk, and you are the brother he has called for nearly twenty years. It is said that except for the closest relatives, only the opponent is the one who knows him best, do you know that you can't trust your brother now?" Gu Beiming couldn't help but be moved, and his eyes gradually moistened. The crimson mist disappeared without a trace in the bright moonlight, and Gu Beiming's tarnished amber eyes became deeper and deeper because of absorbing the light of the silver moon, and there seemed to be a light flowing wildly in the depth.
It seems that everyone's attachment to ideals is like this.
"Of course I know, it's a fool's love, an idiot's person. Gu Beiming's nails, which were as hard as blades, cut deep into his thin flesh, and he didn't receive pain, but instead an overwhelming cold penetrated his entire body.
"Now that I think about it, what is this idiot talking about? Seeing Gu Beiming's relief with a slight melt of ice, Lian Xun was happy, but at the same time, he was also sad, because it was a brotherly love that could not be perfected. Especially now that the relationship between the characters is becoming more and more complicated. Some decisions are often triggered by the whole body. Even Lian Xun, an outsider, had to sweat for Beichen's situation, not to mention that it was Gu Beiming, who was good at weighing. Sometimes love moves with the wind, and it is not really heartwarming.
"Many times I have also asked myself ridiculous questions, if my mother never left the Gu family, my childhood was without any flaws, would I be able to become a complete fool like him. Gu Beiming's eyes were full of questions.
"Am I going to be as rebellious as he is? I'm selfish compared to him, and the most important person to me is always myself. Before I met someone, I was also confused, would I give up something for the sake of my loved one in the future?"
At this moment, Gu Beiming seemed to have been brainwashed, and he muttered to himself at the snowflakes flying in the sky.
But the answer is still no. ”
Looking at Gu Beiming's dull matte eyes and Hitomi, who slowly lost focus, he once again avoided the ravages of time. Yeon-hoon was so nervous that he narrowed his eyes into crescent moons.
"So Beichen used to wait for me like this, waiting for me to turn around, even if it was just a beckon, or just to respond to his indifferent looks. Gu Beiming wandered in frustration in the scorching breath he exhaled to the window and the suffocating sound of instruments operating in the room, because of the different identities of the two brothers, he had no way to open the door and rush out, he gently hooked his frozen fingers, he knew that the only thing he could do was to wipe away the tears that were out of control, and then quietly wait for the person who could not turn back to gaze again.
"Even though I acquiesced in my mother's revelation of his true identity as an illegitimate child because of my brain heat, he still didn't hate me. Gu Beiming asked in surprise, because it is impossible for sunflowers to touch love, so the faint sentimentality is particularly painful.
"I said yes?!" Lian Xun stared at Gu Beiming cautiously.
"I hope my brother can smile more often and not frown, I just need to look at it from afar. ”
Gu Beiming suddenly remembered the agreement between Beichen and himself when he was a child, it was the agreement when the first snow came, but Beiming, who was deeply trapped in the pain of being driven away from his mother at that time, did not pay attention to Beichen's intentions. In any case, the essence of Beichen is the honest boy at the beginning. He is Beichen, and he will always be the most ignorant and determined Beichen, and he is Gu Beiming, but he is not Beiming.
A gust of wind blew, the black branches swayed in the wind, looking at the world that immediately became noisy, Beiming's mind once again resurfaced the scene when the boy held his hand in the fluttering snowflakes.
The little child's little finger hooked the little finger of the older child in the cuff.
In fact, in the time that passed, he had countless opportunities to fulfill the most urgent desire of the boy's heart. Gu Beiming subconsciously glanced at Lian Xun, who was standing one step behind him, and then looked back at the snowflakes falling from the sky among the melancholy green leaves.
"Beichen knew that there would be such a day, so whether it was you or Mrs. Wen did it, he planned to accept it calmly. He said that the damage he and his mother inflicted on his brother was irreparable, and it was their appearance that ruined his brother's complete childhood, and now that his brother finally took action, his heart was finally relieved a little. If the brother doesn't do anything, it means that the brother will never be able to forgive his mother. And he will be even more afraid. ”
"Don't tell me, Beichen hasn't come out of those things until now. He was another innocent victim in those matters. He didn't need to be so obsessed. ”
"Do you want my brother to be alone in the pain of the past? It is better for two people to share than to suffer silently. Otherwise, once the thorny thorns spread in the heart, it will really be impossible to extricate itself. ”
Gu Beiming smiled weakly, and he looked up at the sky silently.
"Doesn't he understand that it's because he's too stupid now, so I'm afraid that one day I'll fall into the hands of such a person?"
"I call him brother, and when we first met, I liked him inexplicably, because I liked him, so I always looked for various opportunities to get close to him, and you are the reason why I grabbed my brother's hand next time. ”
"You don't like him as much as you like angels, when the breeze blows, the sound of the wind chimes is the prayer of the angel. And he'll just stare at you with hard eyes. ”
Beichen shouted hysterically, but Beiming didn't care about anything, he didn't care about letting his younger brother keep chasing after him. No matter how much he stopped, no matter how he fell, he couldn't shake Beiming's heart.
"Because my brother didn't come, you said that this was the first snow, and you had to wait until your brother. ”
The door of memory slowly opened, Gu Beiming seemed to have returned to the scene when he first met Li Junxi, at that time Junxi was still Beichen's only playmate, the cheerful and lively Junxi was different from the taciturn Beichen, the more childish the more he was sad. Gu Beiming held his melancholy chest.
"Why haven't you come yet? Is my brother lost? I should have picked him up. I wanted to hold my brother's hand in the palm of my hand, but I didn't. ”
"No, if he had you in his heart, he would still beg him like your pug. Not to mention accompanying my younger brother, it is also necessary to take care of my younger brother. ”
Looking at the way Gu Beichen cried bitterly at Junxi in his memory, Gu Beiming felt both remorse and self-blame.
He looked out the window at the dark sky like the ocean floor, and a snowflake fell on his face and condensed into tears in an instant.
"You said that he had always been for me, so he gave up his inheritance and even did not hesitate to offend his father many times, also because he wanted to protect me?! ”
"He just wants to make up as much as he owes you. And he knows that if he chooses to stand against you, it will undoubtedly be a repetition of the tragedy of the year for you. He doesn't understand the brutal competition in the career field, so he can only attribute the gap between you and him to a past that neither of you can face. ”
Lian Xun's voice was deeper than the night, and it was clearer than the weather that suddenly cooled down.
Looking at Lian Xun's eyes condensed like ice blades, Gu Beiming swallowed back what he wanted to say, he was like a puppet with a broken thread staring at the snowflakes that were accumulating thicker and thicker in Lian Xun's pupils.
"And the reason why he grew up with more intense pain is entirely because of you, the president, because you have never been able to face your heart, because compared to the reality that you can't accept your mother's departure from the Gu family, what you really care about is that you can't do anything about your mother's exit. And you have no way to admit your cowardice back then, and you can only blindly attribute the heartache to the harm caused to you by others. He knows that your guilt and self-blame are far heavier than facing reality, so he is often overwhelmed. ”
The loneliness in Beichen's heart finally echoed in Gu Beiming's heart. The younger brother didn't talk about his loneliness, Gu Beiming, who has always been known for his observation of words and feelings, didn't see it at all, it seems that Beichen is not a coward, let alone an ordinary chaebol. When he trampled everything his father had arranged into chaos, perhaps his heart, which was stabbed densely by a knife, was also bleeding. Thinking of this, fear and sadness permeated Beiming's heart, and he was so painful that he almost forgot how to breathe. It turns out that the person who has sinned deeply from beginning to end is never someone else, but himself who refuses to let go. Gu Beiming recalled Zheng Shijing's kindness and fear of him, and his heart became more and more uncomfortable.
"Then what I said to Aunt Zheng Shijing, didn't Beichen take it to heart?"
looked at Beiming, who was a little flustered. Lian Xun smiled at him.
"I have heard the second lady tell Young Master Beichen more than once that she will be punished if she does something wrong, maybe this is what people often call the reincarnation of cause and effect. ”
"Sure enough, Aunt Zheng Shijing is not a stupid person, looking at her who bears it silently, the sadness in my heart will not be reduced at all. Gu Beiming's hand grasping the fence gradually loosened.
The air was so cold, Gu Beiming's body trembled, and even his lips trembled.
A faint gasp broke the dull silence as he watched his father, who was once as arrogant as a lion, turn into a wounded white rabbit in one day. Gu Beiming's heart was full of mixed feelings. The sound of swallowing became more and more rapid, Gu Beiming slowly moved his hands and feet as if they were firmly tied with ropes, he stiffly stretched out his hand and gently stroked his father's hair soaked in cold sweat, and Lian Xun, who came in the moonlight, involuntarily followed Beiming's footsteps. In Lian Xun's eyes as deep as if he was immersed in water, Gu Beiminghe leaned weakly on the side of the hospital bed, and sat down as if pulling bones, his face tightly pressed against his father's kind face.
"Father, you still turn a deaf ear to Beichen's intentions. You obviously know that Beichen is not a cold-blooded and cold-tearful person, you still want to use him as a bargaining chip and get involved in the endless war of the Gu family, you are ashamed to regard this as a constraint on me, but you don't know that it is your narrow-minded belief that you have ruined a son's life. Now do you want to do it again and let your other son live this seemingly illustrious but secluded life? Not the most expensive is the best, and what you think is good is the best for children. ”
Outside the window, the branches seem to be full of stars falling from the Milky Way.
Gu Beiming laughed inexplicably. He stared silently at his father's wrinkled hands exposed outside the quilt. Through the moonlight of the green trees, the sleeping Gu Kailin's whole body was shrouded in a soft light, his silver-white hair danced gently in the breeze, and a clear cheek slowly appeared under the slightly fluctuating hair. It was the first time to look at his father so closely, Gu Beiming's eyes were as sad as moonlight.
"So every time you ask me if you really look like the president, I never answer you. It's not like it, in the chairman's position of putting money first, he doesn't stop until he makes a move, and you, although you have moved the power of thunder, are not really unkind. Otherwise I categorically wouldn't have followed you for so long. ”
Lian Xun's cold voice came from his ears, which seemed to come by the wind, and it seemed to come faintly from the bottom of his heart.
"How ridiculous our family is in Brother Lian Xun's eyes, between father and son, it is us children who bow our heads first, and then we quickly disappear in the eyes of my father's great expectation. It doesn't feel like you're slowly getting closer to your father as a rising star, but like dodging the impact of a planet. I don't know how my father would feel in his heart, and I don't know if his eyes are as lonely as I am at the moment when he is always facing only his back. But when the damage has been constituted, even if this time he has paid all he has as a father, he can only get the estrangement of his two sons. Because when we had been looking forward to him, he responded to us with a back that was even colder than that. He must have felt very uncomfortable. Isn't it as remorseful as I am? Even in a family like ours, what can only be presented to the public is a piece of peace, but the more you pretend, the more it will tear apart the dark wounds of the years. This is a question that may never be answered again, Gu Beiming forced himself to hold back the tears that were about to overflow his eyes.
It was late at night, and the room was filled with a chilly chill.
"President, I don't think it's time for you to let go of everything and be sad. Even though I know it's unkind to talk about business in front of you, we need to act as soon as possible. There's no way your mother's side will sit still. ”
"Yes, you must know that this is an inheritance that the father must keep at the cost of his sons' lives. Think about it, the person lying here, who should have been the kindest person in the world, should have been an ordinary person, and if he was an ordinary family, he would have reached the age when he would have children and grandchildren and enjoy the joy of family. But now, if my father is still conscious, what a cruel reality it is to watch his family fight in the same room. At this point, I also have to hold up Gu's crumbling sky alone. Brother, my only wish now is for my father to wake up soon. As long as he woke up, everything wouldn't be as tricky as it was now. ”
Bei Ming, who was sitting on the side of Gu Kailin's bed, slowly leaned down, and he slowly brought his cheek closer to his father's gradually even snort. My father's lips were as clear as the morning dew that was about to dissipate before dawn, and the light, even if faint, brought a hint of warmth to the cold hospital room.