The starlight in the sky slowly faded out of everyone's sight, and a new day began with the nascent morning mist. The white snowflakes are fluttering one after another, and there is a kind of hazy at first glance. In the valley not far away, a cracked silver frost suddenly appeared between the blue water waves. July slowly walked to the window, she snorted hot air at her fingertips, and then looked at the blurred haze street scene in great silence.

July looked at the boys' dormitory building opposite, the lights were bright, as if the sky was clear. She lowered her head and looked at Mu Xuan's call who was waiting for her to answer, her fingers had just touched the answer button, out of curiosity, July wanted to hear his voice, but the more she couldn't wait, the tense heartstrings were frozen and almost broke at a touch.

The ringing of the mobile phone echoed non-stop in the empty room. Mu Xuan looked at July calmly, not paying any attention to the phone that had vibrated hotly.

"Zheng Muxuan, I think you are unfair to Zhou Huixi like this, her love for you is true, she is not wrong in this regard. No matter how angry you are, you can't slap her in the face in front of the whole school. How can you let her live in Qingyi. Have you ever put yourself in her shoes? A woman being rejected by a beloved man is a big blow in itself, not to mention. She is a woman with pride and stubbornness in her bones. ”

"You drove her away, no, it's us, it's us who removed her from Qingyi, right?"

"We put an innocent man on the road for our own happiness. July's stunned eyes swept over Mu Xuan's annoyed eyebrows.

The snow between heaven and earth is getting heavier and thicker. Mu Xuan's gaze patrolled the playground. The green tendons on his forehead jumped and jumped and staggered. Mu Xuan stared at Mu Ran's July. At this moment, the sky was cold and cold, but compared to the cold attack on his body, the trembling atrium made him anxious and uneasy.

The green tendons on his forehead were like a rift, and they almost cracked.

"The weather is bad today, and people's hearts are inevitably depressed. It's angry or resentful, let's clean up for the time being and talk about it another day, okay?"

After speaking,

Mu Xuan quickly turned around, the anger in his chest surged, and when the anger surged, his lips suddenly turned purple and blue. He breathed heavily, his plump chest muscles looming through his lowered collar.

Snow was flying on his eyelashes, and the rush of snow almost blurred his vision.

"Leaving Qingyi, where is Zhou Huixi going? She kept saying that she gave up so many opportunities for further study for love. Compared to her, I really. ”

Zheng Muxuan had already walked away alone, and heard July's heartfelt cry. He turned around slowly, and after thinking about it for a long time, he finally asked July with a wry smile on his disheartened and dilapidated face.

"Xia Qiyue, why do you regret being with me now, don't you? Say such an understanding word for your rival in love, Xia Qiyue, you really surprised me, hehe. ”

"She is a woman with pride and stubbornness in her bones. Zheng Muxuan repeated what July had just said. "She is a woman with pride and stubbornness in her bones. Hehe, hahahaha. He laughed as if he were deliberately teasing her. July looked at him nervously and in amazement, she kept raising her hand to wipe the cold sweat from her forehead.

"You've really done your homework on her, and your mind is really enough, and all those angry words of her have been deeply engraved into your mind. ”

Mu Xuan deliberately provoked her. His fingers kept gesturing back and forth, venting the dissatisfaction in his heart. Just look at that handsome face, not to mention how evil it is.

"Xia Qi, July, what do you mean by this, are you simply ignorant of the world or are you not emotionally intelligent enough and not online? Those women in Qingyi are eyeing me, you can pretend not to see it. Zhou Huixi has been looking at me with a pair of covetous eyes, and you can still be indifferent. You don't get jealous, you don't blush, and you can even convince yourself to accept the ambitions of others by posing like a virgin. Xia Qiyue, living in the world with such a false aura, don't you feel very tired and a failure?"

Xia Qiyue's eyes were shining, she opened her mouth slightly, but her throat was jammed as if something was stuck, and then she had nothing to say and lowered her head slowly, and July's slightly silly appearance in a daze looked at Mu Xuan's dim eyes, and for a while a sour surge of surging water passed through his mind like an electric shock, his gaze was dimmed like a street lamp in the morning, and in the end, only a black and faint void was left under his dark blue eyes.

"That's enough, I said that I'm completely out of state today, if there is any abrupt offense in my words just now, please bear with me as always. ”

July sensitively withdrew her hand, her face as fierce as red flame. "You're running away from questions about her. "July's voice is soft, but it's not unpleasant.

"As I said, I don't want to say anything more to you, especially today. Zhou Huixi, Zhou Huixi's matter has been a long time, why did you come to ask me these details today. Your brain circuits are not. ”

Mu Xuan leaned down, and the quiet snowflakes fell on his dark face.

The restlessness stretched from the top of his head to every cell in July's body.

Mu Xuan walked quickly into the lush pine forest around July, he simply put his hand into his trouser pocket, he didn't want to listen, at this moment, no matter whether Xia Qiyue was defending himself or excusing Zhou Huixi, he didn't want to hear even a word. The crisp vibration sound came to his ears, but when he just fumbled with the phone, he pulled his hand out of his trouser belt like an electric shock, and through the cold thorns, Mu Xuan's eyes were sour, and all the past once again devoured the only good thought in his heart. He poked out half of his face, his eyes full of hatred. There was a tidal tingling pain in my heart. The bitterness in his chest drove his eyes to darkness.

"Do you know whose call this is?" Mu Xuan's eyes were red, and tears welled up in the corners of his eyes.

"Mu Xuan, why can't I tell you that I understand. You're misinterpreting me. I'm just, I, since I was a child, I couldn't see the people around me sad and crying, and on that day I saw Zhou Huixi looking at you with such desperate eyes and saying that kind of humble words, I felt very guilty. It felt like it was all my fault. ”

July's eyes sparkled like stars that had just been born in the dark night.

"So, you and I are at least on a different standpoint, yes, I admit that my attitude towards her is too bad, but in the face of love, it is selfish as individuals. Sometimes I wonder why you can't be selfish. Oh yes, you've been, when I first joined the orchestra, you asked me if part of the reason I was so close to you was because of the use of it. You are suspicious of my sincerity, and even this doubt can stop you from pouring out your love for me. I didn't see you for who you really are, and it turns out that you've been looking for the right reason to kick me out of your world. ”

Mu Xuan looked at July with vicious eyes, July was stared at uncomfortably, she suddenly shivered unexpectedly, and July looked back at Mu Xuan's broken hair with ice crystals hanging on it with confused eyes.

"Zheng Muxuan, how can you think of me like this?" July asked rhetorically, he was so unreasonable that July had no heart to pay attention to it. In the face of Mu Xuan's harsh words, July just wanted to rush back to the bedroom as soon as possible to take a lazy hot bath and sleep comfortably. Otherwise, with Mu Xuan's aggressiveness, her good impression of him will be digested sooner or later.

"Am I misinterpreting, I think you alone know the answer to this question. Do you know? You don't mind Zhou Huixi's unilateral overtures to me, and I already have a grudge against you for my vague attitude on this issue. It's me who is stingy, yes, I just love to turn the horns. Xia Qiyue, how can I have your open-mindedness? Your open-mindedness, your gentleness, to be precise, are you really a selfless person? My love for you is small love, and your understanding and forgiveness for Zhou Huixi is great love. So I'll have to take a step back and learn from you. ”

Mu Xuan's face changed suddenly, and his face was red with anger. See the stubborn pestle of July in front of him. The depths of his eyes were about to tear and there was a faint pain of despair.

Cotton wool-like flying flowers slowly fell from the thick clouds, snowflakes slowly fell on the nervous gaze of the two, and fine silver snow slowly poured out from the bottom of July's eyes.

The smile on Zheng Muxuan's lips seemed to be very casual. Huo Ran was furious, and he stretched out his hand and pointed at Qiyue's facial muscles frantically.

"Didn't you see her confession to me? Didn't you turn a blind eye to her care for me? Don't you don't care about her ambiguous thoughts that she didn't hide before and after? Well, I will use my actions to teach you what it means to be neurotic. If you can push me out like this today, I think our relationship should come to an end. ”

Mu Xuan looked at July, and he roared at July as if he was desperate.

July's face was heavy, and her face was shocked in disbelief. Facing Mu Xuan's overwhelming anger, every word she spat out quickly flew through Qiyue's mind. An indescribable strange feeling welled up in her heart. She didn't seem to say anything wrong, and all the time she said it was just clichés that didn't make real sense. But when the conversation turned, it was her words that didn't take advantage of the time, or Zheng Muxuan's brain circuits were sensitive to the point of being sick.

"What did I say to make you have such a deep dissatisfaction and misunderstanding with me. Yes, I pity her and sympathize with her, I just think there are some things that can be said well, and they should be said more slowly. You were so unkind to her that day, it is inevitable that everyone will not look at her with colored eyes in the future. Since it's her wishful thinking, it's good for everyone to talk about it. Besides, Zhou Huixi understands you so well, how can you be so sure that she won't let go because she has figured it out? You said so many outrageous things, and even half of your words caused a personality attack on her. Aren't you pushing people into the endless hell?"

Mu Xuan patiently listened to her finish speaking, and his body trembled violently.

He stabbed one hand hard at the heart, and the other hand leaned against July's arm.

"Pity, sympathy. If these work out as you hope, there will be countless less tragedies in the world. His voice was hoarse and silent. At that moment, Mu Xuan was so enraged that even his heart was a little paralyzed. The ** taste between the two people is full, one is red-faced, and the other is stubborn.

Mu Xuan thought about it again and again, and finally cast a cold gaze on July.

"After Gu Beichen confronted you, do you still remember your pitiful appearance? And after you were inexplicably frightened by a horror doll, I don't know if you looked in the mirror at that time?" Mu Xuan's eyes were strange, and the face with a bitter smile was simply ugly.

He walked briskly in the direction of July, four meters, three meters, getting closer and closer, close under his nose. It wasn't until the tip of his cold nose touched July's hot breath that he managed to stand still. July saw it clearly, and those eyes were full of horror.

He inhaled sharply, and then Mu Xuan shouted manically like a nervous breakdown.

"Xia Qiyue, after all, you just don't trust me enough, even if you have a little trust in me, you won't interrogate me again and again like a prisoner. ”

The clear snow clings to July's claustrophobic eyelids. Her tear-stained face was haggard.

"Can I be happy with him? ”

"Do you still believe him? I really can't figure it out, and I can't guess his thoughts. But whenever the problem is with him, he will always look like I'm not wrong. ”

Thinking of this, July pressed his finger against the window frame, his finger as hot as lava on standby. The embarrassed smile that was pulled out lingered in July's heart for a long time.

"No, I'm not that kind of person. But more than once I doubted everything about him, his motives, and there was still a rift between me and him, and that crack was like morning dew rolling down from glass. Is it because I'm nervous or does he go to extremes? July shook his head lightly. Her cold and clear face was as transparent as morning dew, and her unsmiling smirk was like a fragile doll in a shop window, but it was not realistic.

Last night, July completely got rid of insomnia, under the effect of drugs, she fell asleep soundly, until the next morning, she suddenly noticed a small damp mark under the corner of the eye on the pillow, her hand kept groping forward, oozing cold tears told her that there was her unnamed sadness in the dream that had just been withdrawn, even if she could no longer recall the clues, but the familiar shadow in the gradually blurred light and shadow just said everything. The pieces that were quietly picked up were not put together in a coordinated manner. Even if I haven't seen each other for a long time, the memories that have settled into the bones and blood are as if he and she see each other every day. can't help but say that she is a nostalgic and emotional person.

Not long since

Childhood little July took the ball and patted it gently, she rushed all the way to the basketball hoop as her Minghao brother demonstrated, she took a few big steps forward, and easily threw the ball into the basketball, at that moment July's heart brushed up to his throat, and there was a fishy liquid surging in his throat. It's just that the ball played back and forth on the basket for a while, and finally turned out of the basket and fell down.

"Oops, I don't play anymore, it's not fun. Mom said it was all a big kid's game, and besides, I was a girl running around in the yard like a girl. “

July looked at Song Minghao in frustration, his eyes stiff and a little straight.

"Ah, I'll show you again. Yesterday, my dad asked the coach to teach me, I actually don't know how to do it, my mom said it's good to be happy, you don't have to learn too well. “

"July, you look at me. “

Song Minghao moved agilely with a vigorous pace, and the good ductility of his body was displayed at a glance with the graceful curve of the ball sliding in mid-air.

"Hmph, Detsah. "Even though his movements are handsome, July just can't get up to the top. Since then, whenever she met Song Minghao in the summer house, she couldn't help but be sarcastic and sneering. He's a typical kid of someone else's family, and that's undoubtedly annoying.

But he still has the beauty that Mu Xuan doesn't have, doesn't he? His voice is not as beautiful as Mu Xuan's, but he can be bad tempered with the people around him, only her, she is his destined exception.

"Hey, why am I thinking about the past again, since I have chosen Mu Xuan, I should accept the good and the bad. How can you still think of others as wrong?"

"Smack!"

The moment the lamp was lit up, except for a small darkness under the wick, all the confusion was dissipated by the warm light.

July raised her hand to remove her phone from the bedside table. She didn't notice the countless phone calls coming in silent mode, and the text messages from the secretary's desk were stacked on top of each other. Zheng Muxuan, the words that jumped out of her heart had her uneasy heartbeat.

"Do you want to ask him in person what Song Minghao meant, there may be some kind of connection between them. But with Zhou Huixi's experience, now I can only say it slowly, and when I touch his reverse scales again, I don't know what his mind will be distorted into. ”

July made up his mind and was thinking about it alone. Liang Xia walked in quietly, she carefully handed a full cup of cappuccino to the bedside table next to July's pillow, and she looked at her like a child. "It doesn't smell bad. Liang Xia said, stretching out her fingers stained with coffee powder and scraping back and forth on July's nose. "Wake up in July and try my freshly brewed coffee. Just looking at such a delicate packaging bag, the coffee must taste good. ”

July hurriedly brushed her teeth and quietly came to the coffee table on the balcony, she elegantly picked up the cup and took a small sip carefully. Then, her brow and eyes seemed to wuffle together. "Bitter" July swallowed the coffee in his mouth raw.

For a long time, for a long time, she didn't come back to her senses from the bitterness just now. She grabbed the cup, the bitter aroma of coffee filling the tip of her nose. "Why don't you feel so bitter when you smell it?"

After the slight swallowing sound, a slight wave flashed in Liang Xia's eyes, and her eyes quietly fell on July's misty eyes, and then explained with a malicious smile. "yes, coffee is like love. It smells and looks too wonderful, but only if you think about it carefully, you will find that many moments in the relationship are not satisfactory. But this truth is really good, otherwise all the good things in the world are pinned on emotions. There is a beautiful jade in the world, but there is no love that is not broken. ”

Liang Xia put down the cup in her hand, she reluctantly restrained the astringency coming from her throat, even if the curvature between her eyebrows was as exaggerated as July's face. But she still accosted with a little praise. "Tasting coffee is the same as tasting people, you have to be attentive, the range of your expression just now is very appropriate, and you have the potential to be a movie queen at a glance. No wonder Song Minghao always said that your heart is more exquisite than ordinary people. By the way, I forgot to tell you that this bag of coffee was sent by Song Minghao. ”

Liang Xia waved her hand again. "Come, I'll pour you another Maxwell with creamer. ”

"No, no, I'm on a plane. “

In the soft light, Liang Xia opened July's suitcase for the last time, and she carefully counted July's clothes. She half-squinted and sniffed the faint incense emanating from the suitcase. Miss Coco's taste is rich with a touch of girlish liveliness.

Under the excellent arc of the fingertips, the changing light and shadow outside the window became more and more astringent, and the long-standing ice rose on the glass, even though it bloomed and stretched out layers of buds, but there was always half a piece of ice stamen missing from the aggregation point.

Among the white checkered ice flowers, there is a line of crooked words - Zheng Muxuan. It's just that I don't know when his personality has become more and more bitter. July let out a long sigh.

"Why did he suddenly change his appearance, where was the gentle and considerate he used to be?"

Liang Xia didn't speak, she smiled and replied to a private message from the fandom.

The bone-eating pain spread through July's heart, and July crouched down and curled herself up in the quietest corner of the window. She pressed her head very low, and after just a quarter of an hour, Liang Xia suddenly came back to her senses. At the moment, she had never seen July like this since Liang Xia could remember.

She calmly dropped her phone in the corner of the bed, she grabbed her shoulder, gently stroked her back, and slowly squatted down. Leaning against the long strip of heater.

July's body stiffened, and she couldn't even pull the corners of her mouth lightly, she only raised her eyebrows slightly, and didn't say a word from beginning to end.

Liang Xia grabbed her hand, clenched her cold hand tightly, and then freed up her other hand to wrap around her shoulder, and she used a slight force to take her into her arms.

Liang Xia put her mouth to her ear and asked softly, "If, I mean, if you had the ability to predict the future, would you have hidden this love in your heart and hidden it in your lips and teeth?"

July was slightly stunned for a while, and smiled noncommittally.

"Understand, you don't need to say it, I understand, although I have always been a rotten cabbage in the world of love. Ryonatsu grimaced at July, and soon she looked out the window again with confused eyes.

She looked out the window in silence at the rushing traffic, not far from the dormitory building there was a school bus stop, which was surrounded by students in a hurry every morning or evening. The couple who passed by tirelessly pillowed their heads on each other's arms, and when they noticed that Liang Xia not far away was paying attention, they were not embarrassed to make ambiguous movements towards Liang Xia. Every time it happened to be at that time, she had a crying and laughing look on her face, but after all, Liang Xia was also a girl, and no matter how arrogant she was in private, she couldn't help but envy July, a good sister.

"I'm tired in the summer, and I don't know what I'm thinking a lot of the time. ”

July's face was as pale as paper that could be torn at the touch of a button, and she sat back silently on the pale yellow sofa chair, her dark eyes as dim as a black hole.

Liang Xia tilted her head and fell into deep thought.

A dull voice came from her chest, and she rested her head on the back in front of her, exhaling faintly, and slowly closing her eyes in this confined space.

"In July, if I were to give yourself a trip and go away, I would come home in a happy mood. After the Spring Festival, I will find a small town to have a good time, and wait for the school day to start again with Brother Mu Xuan. Xiao Biesheng is newly married, every minute and every minute is pleasant, a month and a half of vacation, I believe that Brother Mu Xuan will definitely figure out a lot of things. But you also have to give yourself some time to adjust. ”

As he was talking, Liang Xia Huo Ran stood up, "There was a heavy snowfall yesterday, the road was somewhat muddy and slippery, I don't think it's too early, let's go to the airport." Liang Xia took the trolley box from July's hand, July nodded, and strode towards the outside of the dormitory with Liang Xia behind him.

Western suburbs airport in the afternoon,

The sky was still as pure and blue as a wash, and the sun, which was like a flower, shone softly through the faint resting clouds, and reflected the silvery white light on the dim airport runway.

July looked up with a sad expression on her face, and she looked out the window from time to time as planes left the runway, stretching arcs into thick clouds. Finally, the last arc became one of the brightest star spots in the distant blue sky.

July habitually lowered her head and looked at her watch, and then she slowly closed her eyes, the residual aroma of coffee in her mouth, and there was an illusion of drunkenness in a trance. She wanted to pick up her phone and make one last call before putting it into airplane mode, but what should she say? At the thought of this, July's throat became inexplicably dry.

July was slightly stunned, and she reluctantly looked at the short messages that she had long been familiar with.

"July, please don't be so willful anymore, okay? Where are you, I want to see you. If you see a message, remember to send it to me. ”

"I heard Liang Xia say that you booked today's flight, I will rush over immediately, please don't leave first, you know? I have something to tell you, especially this morning, my right eyelid keeps jumping, I'm so afraid, I'm afraid that you won't come back to me if you leave." ”

"Wait for me, please. ”

"Please, please reply to my message. ”

July hesitated for a long time, and finally she put her phone back in her jacket pocket. She wandered around the verdant bamboo forest path in the airport. Thinking of her father's harsh reprimand on the phone last night, and then contacting the dead knot of misunderstanding that Mu Xuan created and couldn't untie, July turned around and flashed into no man's land, her fingers rubbing the beautiful moments in the album, and she couldn't bear it anymore and suddenly shed tears as round as pearls. July had no way to accept that Mu Xuan always used a heavy look to make excuses to avoid her questions. Again and again, what justification can there be for explaining it with distrust?

July's nose was sour, and her eyes were slightly wet again. In her heart, she kept weighing and considering, even if she was a model father and wife in the eyes of outsiders, her parents who had lived together under the same roof for 20 years and gave birth to a baby daughter together, they were always calm and restrained in front of people, but in fact they had already been full of holes. Mom always repeats a sentence at a loss after Dad has a night's entertainment: "When you step into the ice cellar, there is no room for maneuver, I really regret not being at the beginning." When she was a child, she always listened blankly, and her mind was at a loss. Now she understands what empathy is. She vaguely remembered that moment, her mother walked to the door with a vague step on the sofa, and listened to her father's endless ridicule and abuse, she had to force a smile.

My heart pounds when I think of July.

The noon sun was warm and bright.

July walked out of the bathroom and wiped her hand with the scent of hand sanitizer twice on her face.

The phone rang again, and July hurriedly wiped the moisture from his cheeks. The belated text message was very short and simple like coping with an errand. "Have a safe journey, I was wrong, Zheng Muxuan. ”

Mu Xuan sat quietly in the back of the speeding taxi, his eyes kept looking at the Qianmo alley that flashed outside the brown glass window. Those heartwarming moments when I was with July flashed through my mind as quickly as a movie in the cinema, and the last scene was frozen in July's clear eyes when I first met.

The time to board is approaching,

July walked back into the bustling crowd with his suitcase,

"Wait a minute" in the panting voice, there is also a trace of warmth slowly enveloping from behind, like the soft sunlight warm and magnetic.

July slowly turned around, and at this moment Mu Xuan was looking at her gently.

The empty waiting hall was full of people in a hurry, and a sparse figure flashed through his and her staggered sights.

Separated by mountains and mountains of people,

July looked at Mu Xuan, who was standing closer and closer to him, in a daze.

The lilies in the lounge are still blooming.

July gently rested her head on Mu Xuan's chest, her heart beating uncontrollably.

Mu Xuan's fair-skinned slender fingers touched her lilac lips.

She raised her head and was about to speak, but she felt cold on her lips, and Mu Xuan's cold lips were tightly pressed against her tight lips. July closed her eyes, her eyelashes trembling slightly.

For a time, countless pairs of eyes looked at them,

The air around them was silent, as if time had stood still.

The sun shrouded softly around him and her, and they snuggled up like angels in an oil painting.

"Attention passengers of flight D2909, your flight is about to depart, please hurry up and board the plane as soon as possible. Have a great trip!"

The sweet voice on the airport radio reminded me repeatedly.

July hurriedly walked around Mu Xuan's side and walked quickly into the terminal,

At the moment when her figure disappeared into the crowd,

Mu Xuan stood quietly in the crowd of hurried people,

Looking at the direction in which she walked,

His gaze never wandered for a moment.

"I'll wait for you to come back in July, and when you come back, we'll start over, and I'll definitely double down on your care. ”

A beam of sunlight shone directly into the huge floor-to-ceiling windows, and under the dazzling bright light, the July flight flew into the bright clouds like a fire burning.

He looked at the bright light without blinking, and at that moment he only felt as if something was burning fiercely in his heart, and the unprecedented sense of disparity spread from his heart to his throat.