"The cruelest thing about paraquat poisoning is not its high lethality rate, but that it is very painful to die, and this suffering is twofold.

One is physiological pain, such as the poison rat strong, which is very uncomfortable at the beginning, but in the later stage, it is basically in a coma and will not die very painfully.

Paraquat, on the other hand, only destroys the basic functions of the organs and hardly damages the nervous system, so the poisoned person is awake from the moment he drinks the pesticide until he dies a few days, a dozen days, or even dozens of days later, and he will clearly feel the life force draining from his body.

The feeling of watching oneself die step by step is probably more terrifying than death itself, which is why doctors often say that suicide by drinking paraquat is the most stupid.

There is also psychological distress, as paraquat does not kill people immediately, and even without gastric lavage, the paraquat will be completely excreted within 24 hours, and then enter a long period of waiting for death.

This period of time is long and short, and you have enough time to recall and summarize this life, and if you write well, you can even take advantage of this time to write an autobiography or something.

But most people will not be so optimistic, they will regret it, they will be annoyed by their impulsiveness, but there is nothing they can do.

So, if you commit suicide by drinking paraquat, God will give you time to regret it, but not a chance to regret it. ”

"So what should we do now?" asked Li Xian.

"While she is still in good spirits, I made a record, and then sent her to the ICU, called her relatives, and spent more time with her, she will not live for a few days, I will try to relieve her pain with medicine, so that she will not be so uncomfortable." ”

Two days later, Du Lin had just given Yu Guifen a bowl of Tonglung soup mixed with a drop of immortal water, and walked to the lounge outside the ICU ward of the Public Security Hospital, where he met Yu Guifen's eldest daughter, Chen Li, who was secretly touching tears.

Durin pulled out a tissue and handed it to her.

"Thank you, Dr. Du. ”

"Can you tell me about your parents?" asked Doolin.

"Okay. Chen Li wiped her tears and told Du Lin about everything she had seen and encountered in this family in the past few decades:

Chen Yuan's family has always lived in Daqiao Village, Chen Yuan'an's health is not very good, and he can't do too much farm work, so the harvest in the field is not as good as other people's families, and life is very hard.

He is a man with a problematic personality, he slumps in front of outsiders and is submissive, but when he comes home he becomes a tyrant.

He was an alcoholic, and he drank very fiercely, and every meal was to take a wine glass without chopsticks, and then talk about it in half, and beat his wife and children at every turn after drinking.

If you are angry outside today and your work is not going well, it will be even worse.

The dish is not to be done, hit!

The rice is more and less, and it is beaten!

It's slow to get him a cigarette pouch, and it's also a hit!

Once, Chen Li's school asked each student to bring a bundle of firewood (this is mostly the case in rural schools, and heating in winter depends on burning firewood brought by students), Chen Yuan had just finished drinking, and was nowhere to sprinkle drunkard, when he heard that the school wanted firewood, he scolded: "Last school, I want this and that all day long, I have to bring you firewood to burn! Okay! You burn my family's firewood, I TM burn your books!"

snatched Chen Li's schoolbag and stuffed it into the hearth, Chen Li didn't care about the raging fire in the hearth, and hurriedly reached in to dig it out.

Chen Yu'an saw that her daughter dared to snatch it out, and an evil fire surged, and she hit Chen Li's head with the stove hook that poked the ashes in the hearth, and the red stove hook directly burned off a piece of Chen Li's scalp, bleeding all over her face, and her hands were also burned.

Speaking of this, Chen Li lifted her hair, and there was indeed a scar on the top of her head that did not grow hair, and there were also burn marks on her hands.

Speaking of this, the youngest daughter Chen Na wiped her tears and came over to call Chen Li, saying that Yu Guifen called her over, Chen Li said: "Let my sister continue to tell you, little sister, you and Dr. Du tell you how you came over all those years at home." ”

"What are you talking about? He's dead, and our mom is dying......"

I don't want to say it, but the grievances in my heart often can't help it when I am sad:

Because there is already a daughter of Chen Li, Chen Yu'an has always hoped that the second child will be a boy, when Yu Guifen was pregnant with Chen Na, the old people in the village looked at Yu Guifen's stomach and said that they were pregnant with a boy, because it was just in time for the family planning policy to be implemented soon, Chen Yu'an gave a household registration in the village without waiting for the child to be born, and the gender was written as a boy.

But as a result, when he was born and saw that it was a daughter, Lao Chen didn't say a word, left his wife who had just given birth and the newborn baby at home, went out to drink with others, and drank for three days before returning home.

The first thing I did when I got home was to beat my wife, and then took out the little money left in the family, bought two bottles of good wine and a pound of pig's head meat and went to the village chief's house, and asked the village chief to help change the household registration to a girl.

Since then, Chen Yu'an has hated her little daughter, always saying that she is a loser, a bad money, and she broke a lot of money when she was born.

In order to save money, Chen Yuan told others everywhere that Chen Na was a fool and couldn't go to school, but this little daughter, known as a "fool", only relied on her sister's textbooks to learn by herself, she was literate, and she also learned simple arithmetic, and she caught up with her sister's course when she was eight or nine years old.

After finishing the work at home every day, I ran to the village primary school, squatted outside my sister's classroom and eavesdropped, it was fine in summer, but in winter, the biting cold wind froze Chen Na out of chilblains.

The village teacher saw that she was pitiful, so he persuaded Chen Yu'an to let Chen Na go to school too, Chen Yu'an still insisted that her little daughter was a fool and didn't need to go to school, but when the teacher asked a few arithmetic problems, she sarcastically said that if she was a fool, then you would have no brains at all.

made a fool of herself in front of the teacher, which made Chen Yuan hate Chen Na even more, and when the teacher left, Chen Yuan grabbed Chen Na's hair and knocked her head to the edge of the pit, scolding while knocking, "I made you smart! Aren't you smart? I said you are a fool, you have to be a fool, if you are not stupid, I will knock you stupid!"

From then on, the youngest daughter never dared to go to school again, but honestly helped her mother feed the chickens and pigs at home.

However, fortunately, Chen Na had a good life, and when she grew up, she married a young man from the same village, who earned a lot of money as a contractor in the city, and took Chen Na to the city and finally got out of the sea of suffering.

After Chen Na finished talking about what happened to her, even if the box couldn't be closed, she began to talk about her mother's suffering over the years.

"My mother married my father at the age of nineteen, stayed in the Chen family for forty years, and suffered for forty years. Don't mention it when you are beaten and scolded, the key is that my dad is still not serious!

When my dad was in his forties, he started hooking up with a widow in the village, and he ran to the widow's house all day long.

My own land was not good for planting, so I went to help the widow's lover work, and from time to time I moved the things from the house to the lover's house, and later, I even lived in the widow's house, and even moved the pots and pans for our family's cooking.

The kitchen was almost empty, and there was no cooking pot, so my mother hugged me and my sister, and we cried together.

Our mother and daughter depended on each other for several years, during which my mother proposed for divorce, but my father did not agree, and chased and beat my mother with a wooden stick, from the east of the village to the west of the village, and beat my mother all over her body, and never dared to mention the divorce again.

My sister asked the women's director of the village to persuade my dad to pay attention to the influence, and if he couldn't get a divorce, it was not as good as before, and divorce was not a shameful thing.

My father nodded in front of the village cadres, said yes, and sent them away, and then turned around and beat my mother and sister at home.

After a few more years, my sister and I got married and moved to the city, my mother lived alone in the village, and my father lived with a widow lover, and life was peaceful.

But the good times didn't last long, my dad was sick, it was rheumatoid arthritis, his knees were swollen like two footballs, and he had to rely on crutches to walk, let alone do farm work.

His widow lover saw that he had become a waste, and wanted to drive him out, but he would not leave, and the widow saw that he was a scoundrel, so she simply packed up and ran away.

My dad found my mom again and asked my mom to serve him and raise him, but of course my mom didn't agree, so he went to my sister's unit to make trouble. ”