I was a little nervous, my mouth felt dry, and the sound of my breathing was lowered.

If Jia Mu is the chairman, Mrs. Wang is the general manager...... My job title is the head of the executive department. These two people are really two mountains weighing on my head. I am under their control and trusting in them.

There was a smell of incense in the room, and I couldn't smell it, but I felt that the air around me seemed to be getting hotter and hotter, and I couldn't sit comfortably in the heat.

Jia Mu raised her hand and said nothing. It was not allowed, but it was not allowed.

I estimated that I didn't say no to my face, it was already giving me face. When people deal with some things that they don't want to agree to and don't want to refuse in one bite, they often use the word "drag" to drag it over. Jia Mu's attitude was as if she hadn't heard it, and the underlying meaning was that she hadn't heard it because I hadn't said it.

Mrs. Wang didn't want to lose an arm, and Jia Mu couldn't let me run so far. Even if I used my illness as a reason, they wouldn't agree.

Whether my illness is real or not, they may not be sure. But...... They don't have any genuine affection for me. Don't look at one is an aunt, and the other is an old lady and ancestor who is affectionate all day long. What they really care about is themselves. I'm useful to them, so they're okay with me. But that's about it. They won't put themselves in my shoes and think for me. Anyway, Jia's mother can't live for a few years, Mrs. Wang is counting on Xue Baochai to be her daughter-in-law, she has arms, as for my life and death at that time, who cares?

As soon as I think about things, I feel cold in my heart.

Everyone in Jiafu is sweeping the snow in front of their own door, regardless of whether others are dead or alive.

Baochai walked over and spoke to Mrs. Wang, breaking the uncomfortable silence.

"My mother originally said that she wanted to invite the old lady these two days, and the wife came to us to sit there, and someone happened to have some new things to salute, and I wanted to invite everyone to try it. ”

Jia Mu said, "Your mother hasn't been here for a few days, what are you doing at home?"

"I didn't do anything, but it was suddenly cold again, so I didn't bother to go out of the house. ”

Baochai was really very understanding, and Daiyu also came over, leaned next to Jia's mother and talked to her, leading Jia's mother to touch her head with a slight smile. Daiyu usually doesn't deliberately be coquettish, but that doesn't mean she won't. Mrs. Wang also took the tea handed over by Baochai, nodded with a smile and said, "Okay, if the weather is good, I will naturally go to you." ”

Mother Jia also smiled, Daiyu took an orange from the fruit bowl, peeled the orange petal and fed it to her, so that she was happy.

Baochai said a few more words about the little things about the management of Daguanyuan in the past few days, and the atmosphere was pulled up by them, but Jia Mu and Mrs. Wang didn't look at me anymore.

I got up to take my leave, and there was no one to keep me.

Ping'er put my cloak on me as I walked to the door. I looked at her, and she looked at me.

There are many things that need not be said, and she and I both know what is going on in each other's minds.

It is useless to stay any longer.

Ping'er held my arm and walked slowly through the long verandah, the girls in red and green were laughing and laughing, they didn't know what would happen tomorrow. But I know...... But what's the use of knowing only yourself? It's like everyone is asleep, only you are awake. I can't see where the light is in the dark night, I can't help everyone, my strength is only enough to save myself.

"Sister Feng. ”

I stopped, and Daiyu walked towards me with small and light steps: "Sister Feng, stand for a while, I still have something to say to my sister." ”

I squeezed out a smile: "Miss Lin, what's the matter with me?"

Her gaze swept over the maids who were not far from us, and said, "Let's talk as we go." ”

Out of the courtyard, Daiyu took a closer look at me and whispered, "Sister Feng's ...... illness"

"You know, it's not because of illness, it's just the same reason as yours. ”

"But ......" Daiyu whispered, "Sister Feng is different from the two of us, if we can really go, except that the old lady is still here, there will be nothing else to worry about." But Sister Feng, you...... Don't you care about home?"

I walked hand in hand with her, and I didn't go fast. Ping'er was one step behind us and followed.

"If I can make it, I will naturally take Sister Qiao with me. ”

"So, what?"

She didn't say who else, I laughed: "Others have their own paths, I can't even be my own master, can I manage others?"

He finally got the son he wanted in his heart, Second Sister You, Qiu Tong...... There are many people around him who are not short of companions, and I and Ping'er are already yesterday's yellow flowers, who cares about us.

Daiyu frowned slightly, gently covered her cough with a handkerchief, the pearl earrings shook slightly, her hair was soft and curled up into a hairpin bun, and there was a black braid combed underneath, and her eyes were rippling. She didn't look at me, but just whispered, "Sister Feng, it's easy to leave, but it's hard to come back." ”

"I know, if I'm gone, where will I have a place to come back?

"But the south is not necessarily a paradise, although it is far away from the capital, but it is still one with this side, and if it is true here, there is no luck in that side. ”

"What the future holds, it's uncertain. I can't tell her anyway that I've already figured out my way out, right? When they all get together, if there is something to do, they will not be able to make people serve a pot? If you are far away, there will be a buffer time, and you may be able to find other regressions. ”

She smiled a little helplessly: "I keep telling myself that things may not really come that far." But I also know that Sister Feng is by no means threatening us. She whispered, "Sister Feng has already done a lot for us, so there is no need to delay you for us." Or if you can go, let's go early. The old lady is there, and Baoyu and I ...... I'll talk about it for you, maybe the old lady will answer. ”

I said, "If the old lady doesn't agree, don't force it." If you make the old lady unhappy and mislead your own business, it will not be good. ”

"It doesn't matter, the old lady treats me and Baoyu differently in her heart. ”

That's certainly different. The old lady knows that Baoyu is now finding a way, and she is willing to help you in the end.

It's hard for me to say, I'm still an outsider after all. In her heart, how can a granddaughter-in-law be compared to her precious grandson and granddaughter?

Daiyu walked with me for a while, Zijuan also caught up, we didn't talk about this anymore, the front is the courtyard where I live, Daiyu said: "Sister Feng, take care of yourself, so that you can rest and maintain." When Baoyu came back, I begged the old lady with him, and I think the old lady would agree to it. ”

"Will it?" I don't think there's much hope.

Daiyu smiled, said no more, said goodbye to me, and took Zijuan's hand and walked slowly. I watched them walk away before turning around and entering the courtyard gate.

There were more people in the yard than usual, and it looked like it was getting a lot busier. Outside the eaves of the east house, several maids and daughters-in-law stood there to listen to orders. gave birth to a son, and the status and treatment were really different immediately. Without a son, no matter how much scenery there is, it is empty, and with a son, everything is real. The door of the west floor was tightly closed, and Qiu Tong did not show up.

I was about to go back to my room when the curtain of the east room was lifted, and Jia Lian walked out. He was dressed in a blue silk coat, and although he hadn't slept all night, he was still in good spirits. He looked up and saw me and said, "Hey, you're back? I happened to have something to discuss with you." ”

I didn't know what it was, but I could guess it, nodded and said, "Then come in and talk about it." ”

Yahuan held a hot tea to me, I looked at Jia Lian who was cross-legged on the opposite side, and slowly plucked the tea leaves with the lid of the tea bowl: "If you have something to say, just say it, what are you still talking about?"

"You've been sick all these days, and you've never gotten better, so how can you go on like this for a long time? Why don't you ask a famous doctor to take a look?"

"Alright, my own body knows it. That's what you're here for?"