"I've actually thought about a lot of ...... in the past two days" Su He opened his mouth a little unnaturally, and he was a little unsustainable when he said a word, as if he had a lot of words in his heart, and when he opened his mouth, he found that he didn't know where to start.

A light rain fell densely on the umbrella surface, making a soft rustling sound, reflecting the emptiness of the mountain.

After being silent for a moment, she said softly again, "Su Laoquan, twenty-seven, the beginning of the indignation" pulled the corners ......of her mouth self-deprecatingly, "I am five years older than him, and being ruthless at this age makes people feel a little anxious." Hang'er Langdang's tone changed, and he became resolute again, "But you're right, you can't go on like this anymore, it's too late to regret it when you're dying." ”

This one-sided conversation seems to be going on again.

Su He, who was educated in materialism when she was a child, did not believe that the dead who were sleeping underground could hear the living talking, but she really had no one to say these words except for the people buried here.

"Finding someone who can listen to me may be one of my goals in the future. After a while, Su He said.

Then she crouched down, placed a large bouquet of lilies in her arms in front of the tombstone, arranged the bouquet with her hand, and then raised her eyes to look at the black and white photograph on the tombstone.

The girl in the photo has a delicate and beautiful face, a stubborn and stubborn expression, and her eyes happen to stare at Su He on the opposite side, as if she is angry with someone.

Su He didn't have a single photo of her in his hand, and this portrait was cut from the only photo of the two of them.

The two people, who were full of temper at the time, never imagined that this photo would play such a role many years later.

The world is impermanent.

"If you really have you, you will stare at me when you die. ”

The unformed wry smile turned into a shallow sigh in the middle of it, and Su He stood up and patted the tombstone lightly, as if he were patting an old friend on the shoulder, although they had never been friends, and then turned to leave.

There is still a month before the Qingming Festival, far from the peak of worship, coupled with the cold rain, the spring is cold, the whole cemetery is empty, only Su He walked through the gray tombstones with an umbrella. With the lonely sound of the rain, the sigh-like whisper unexpectedly sounded in her mind again, "In the past, I was still in the past, and the willows were still there." Now I think about it, the rain and snow are ......"

The taxi driver was already waiting a little impatiently outside the cemetery, and before Su He could sit down, he asked, "Where are you going next?"

Su He looked blankly at the driver's face for a full five or six seconds, and then his eyes became clear again.

She said categorically, "Siping Street, Yangtze River Photo Studio." ”

Before the words were finished, the angry driver started the car and rushed out, as if he did not want to stay in this unlucky place for a second longer.

Su He, who was brought by inertia and suddenly fell to the back of the chair, bent the corners of his mouth in understanding, too, even if you don't believe in ghosts and gods, the cemetery is not a pleasant place. Only by facing death can we truly feel its horror - when you die, there is really nothing, whether it is success or failure, wealth, beauty, youth, grievances, pain...... It's all over in an instant.

Thinking of this, she silently praised her decision just now.

It's right to go and take a picture.

Anyway, today is a special day for her.

A new beginning, it is worth solemnly going to the photo studio to take a commemorative photo.

You don't need to do any art photos, just ID photos.

In addition to commemoration, if there is really an accident, it can also be used as a posthumous envoy.

One photo is multi-functional, simple and affordable.

When I left the photo studio, the rain had stopped, and the early spring sun broke through the clouds and sprinkled on the stagnant water on the street after the rain, like fragments of a mirror shattered on the ground, reflecting the large expanse of sunlight and the clouds in the sky that seemed to be chased by time.

While waiting for the photoshoot, Su He quickly made a non-stop itinerary for himself.

Beauty salons, hairdressers, department stores, hypermarkets, bookstores, yoga classes......

For the first time in her life, she did a full set of maintenance care, got a card, followed the advice of the hairdresser and changed to a hairstyle that is said to better reflect her strengths and temperament, and made a big purchase from skin care products, clothing, daily necessities, books and fresh ingredients.

In the next three months, Su He made a weight loss plan, practiced yoga, worked hard to quit Internet addiction, did skin care seriously, and learned makeup and clothing matching.

Learn to take care of your own meals and say goodbye to takeaway and fast food by comparing your newly purchased recipes and online video tutorials.

I treat my work with enthusiasm and put more thought into interpersonal communication.

Join an online time management group, buy a lot of time management books with the advice of netizens, learn to record and plan your life with forms every day, and work hard to correct your unhealthy work and rest habits little by little.

According to the recommendation of colleagues and netizens in the city, I applied for a professional title training course in a well-known training center.

Su He studied accounting in junior college, and at that time, he passed a practicing qualification certificate with the crowd, and he didn't even bother to take the junior title. After graduation, I worked as a logistics clerk, and my major had long been lost, but I just threw my qualification certificate to the financial department of the unit and followed the annual review every year.

Now that he has a motivated heart, Su He wants to pick up the major and take a technical title first.

From the bottom of her heart, she doesn't like the accounting industry, but from her personal situation, as long as she is willing to work hard, the upward channel of this industry can be regarded as very smooth for her.

Time flies by in such a regular busyness, and inadvertently the lilacs have begun to show signs of withering, and some tiny white buds have faintly grown between the green leaves of the locust trees on the streetside.

It's another weekend afternoon, and the three solid professional classes are a little indigestion in the brain, in the end, I have been away from school for many years, although the teacher speaks in simple terms, and is clearly organized, but at first put into the boring study, there are still some unaccustomed habits.

When Su He walked out of the training center, the gray sky was almost night, so she deliberately checked the time on her mobile phone. The phone proved to her that it was not the speed of time that had accelerated, but the illusion of dark clouds all over the sky.

The location of the training center is a little off-line, and you need to turn a narrow street to get a taxi. The gloomy sky and the windy winds made Su He have more and more bad premonitions, from striding to trotting all the way. But her speed was still as fast as God's ruthlessness, and the side street was only halfway through when she let the pouring rain hit the street.

After working the street for more than half an hour, he couldn't even carpool, let alone empty cars, and finally had to walk two stops in the heavy smoke and rain before squeezing into a bus.

The most annoying thing is that when Su He reversed the car twice in the heavy rain and returned home like a chicken in soup, the wet clothes on his body had not been picked up, and it had already rained outside.

Well, this rain was specially for her.

This was further confirmed in the middle of the night, perhaps in the middle of the night, when Suhe's concept of time was completely blurred.

The only thing that is certain is that she has a high fever.

Unprecedented menacing.

Su He was still a little conscious at first, knowing that he should get up and take medicine, or go to the hospital.

It's just that consciousness can't be the master of the body, let alone get up, and even the action of opening the eyes, the whole person seems to be trapped in the boundless fire, and it seems to be trekking on the ice field of the blizzard, burning into a fire for a while, and forming a piece of ice for a while.

Soon she sank into the darkness completely.

When Su He woke up again, the room was still dark, but it was not completely dark, and a large area of light from the opposite house shone in through the window without the curtains, providing a dim light source.

It seems to be seven or eight o'clock in the evening, and time may have come and gone?

Su He braced up what little strength he had, climbed from the middle of the bed to the edge with difficulty, and reached for the phone on the bedside table, only to fall to the floor along with the phone.

She lay on the floor like a dehydrated and dying fish with her mouth open for a long time, and when her consciousness began to blur again, she finally pressed her father Su Jinghai's number with trembling fingers.

It seemed like a long wait, but in fact, after the phone rang for more than a dozen times, a mechanical female voice rang, "I'm sorry, the phone you dialed is not answered for the time being......"

The scene in front of him began to ghost, and Su He had to bite his cheek to try to stay awake, and used his last strength to press his mother He Meijun's number.

One, two, three......

Just when Su He thought that this was also an unanswered phone call, the sound of light and lively music suddenly poured out of the mobile phone, and then the slightly cold voice of her mother, obviously, she seemed to be in a lively and noisy place, "Su He, why haven't ......you arrived yet?"

“...... Mother...... Mom, help me...... Help me......"

Sue's moaning whispers were drowned out by the sound of cheerful music and the slight reproach of her mother.

Is it my stepbrother's birthday? My mother seems to have told her to go over and celebrate her birthday together...... She probably passed out longer than expected......

This was the last thought that Su He had in his mind before he lost consciousness.

When he woke up again, the sky was already bright, and Su He found that he had already laid back on the bed, still holding a bottle of cold pills in his hand, and he seemed to have more strength in his body, and his breathing was much smoother, but he was still groggy and couldn't keep his spirits up.

Too lazy to care about how she climbed back into bed and where she got the medicine from, she quickly poured out two cold pills and stuffed them into her mouth, there was no water in her hand, so she simply choked her neck and swallowed it, and then arched her body into the quilt with great effort, and soon fell asleep again, not forgetting to hold the bottle of life-saving cold medicine in her hand.

In a daze, it seemed that she was sweating, and her body was much more comfortable, and she moaned and stretched out her limbs that had been tightly curled up because of discomfort in her half-asleep.

I don't know how long it took, Su He was woken up by a crisp and pleasant birdsong, and the whole person was bathed in a bright and bright sunshine. After sweating profusely, the virus seemed to flow out of the body with sweat, and the heaviness on her body was lost, and she suddenly became relaxed, but her skin was sticky and greasy, and her empty stomach seemed to have been dug into a big hole, which also made her unable to continue to be lazy in bed.

She desperately needed a shower and get herself something to eat.