Chapter 65: Face your fate
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"Jörmungard, or rather...... Meng, in your eyes, what is fate?"
Meng, this name is not very heard, but for the big snake, this name has a special place......
It was the name he had used in his previous life as a human.
The eyes that were already closed slowly opened again, and then indifferently looked down at Loki, who was as small as dust in front of him.
"Interesting, you know my name?"
In Loki's ears, the serpent's deep voice seemed to be laughing, but it was difficult to say whether the smile was full of interest or something else.
And silently looking at the huge monster in front of him, the behemoth whose whole body was almost hidden in the bottom of the sea, but just the huge head that was exposed had formed a majestic submarine mountain range, Loki's face was as usual, and he just said calmly.
"Of course I know, because you're a soul I pulled from another world......"
Loki said with a strange look on his face, as if the mischievous child was sneering when he wasn't discovered.
But smiling and laughing, he began to cry, and his handsome face was full of deep sadness and decadence.
"Everyone knows that the god-king Odin once went to the Fountain of Wisdom and obtained endless wisdom from the wisdom giant at the cost of one of his own eyes, but no one knows what to do...... I, Loki, the god of mischief, actually sneaked up behind Odin that time and drank a sip of water from the Fountain of Wisdom. ”
A strange smile curled up at the corner of his mouth.
After calmly telling a secret that was enough to shock the world, he didn't take it seriously, but continued to mumble.
"I knew that Ragnarok was coming, and I wanted to stop that fate, so I pulled a human soul from an unknown other world in Runi script with the intention of changing all that. ”
"This soul blends with my child's soul to form a whole new individual, an eccentric individual who should not have been in fate......"
"A monster that is neither human nor godborn. ”
As he spoke, he lowered his head miserably, with a bit of confusion in his distracted pupils.
"I thought that if a strange piece suddenly appeared on top of the orderly chess game, at least, it should be able to bring some changes to the chess game......"
"Odin and I both perceive that future and try to change it, but we are both like flying insects bound by cobwebs, the more we struggle, the deeper we fall into the cobwebs......"
"I had a premonition of the danger of your three siblings, so I acquiesced to Odin's actions, but I did not anticipate that my concession would result in you either being imprisoned or exiled. ”
"I tried to make amends to Odin, and I kept trying to get him to release you, but you, out of resentment, made the atmosphere of hostility and hatred rise even more, so that Odin felt that you were not trustworthy. ”
"I couldn't accept this result, and my heart was filled with resentment, and I went to trick the dark god Hoddle into killing his brother to vent my anger......"
"Hehe, fate...... Is this fate? It's a mockery of fate. ”
In the end, he couldn't help but laugh wildly, as if lamenting his pathetic and powerlessness.
He looked over his head, the sea still blue.
In his eyes, the blue sea in front of him seemed to have turned into a huge spider web that covered the sky and the sun, slowly falling, and he was like a small flying insect that tried to break free, but was unable to break free.
Struggle?
Not struggling?
It was just a doomed fate to usher in him.
In the distance, the serpent looked down on him indifferently and did not speak.
And Loki didn't seem to expect the snake to speak, and after the laughter stopped, he was silent for a long time before he spoke slowly.
"What is fate in your eyes, Jörmungard?"
Loki didn't call the Great Snake Meng anymore, he and the Great Snake both knew very well that the human named Meng was only a part of the Great Snake's soul, and the Great Snake was Meng, but at the same time it was Jörmungard, and the two were combined into one to be the Great Snake.
For the Great Snake, "Meng" is like its childhood, and "Jörmungard" is its adulthood, both of which are it, but neither of them is the whole of it.
"Fate...... What an interesting question. ”
The serpent's deep voice slowly reached Loki's ears.
Its voice carries an inhuman sense of coldness and indifference from beginning to end, which makes people feel inexplicably frightened. With the mind of a human yet with the perception of a beast, the serpent is inhuman not only because of its large body, but because it is no longer a human from the depths of its soul, but a monster through and through.
Both humans and gods think with an almost similar idea, or rather, humans born at the hands of gods and endowed with souls by Odin are more like gods, but the serpent is not, it is a monster.
At this moment, the monster is using its unique perspective as a monster to examine the questions that Loki has raised.
"In my previous life, or when I was just a human being, there were people in the world who said, 'Whatever you can change, and whatever you can't, is fate.'" At the time, I thought he was right. ”
Listening to the serpent's words, Loki was keenly aware of one thing.
"Once? That means you don't think so anymore? So, what is fate in your eyes now? ”
Looking down at Loki in front of him, the serpent's erect pupils showed a slight sneer.
"Fate?"
"It's just something that a weak reptile imagines, and there has never really been a fate. ”
A low, inhuman voice surrounded Loki, and his voice was like thunder, with a thick sense of sarcasm and disdain.
"I was once a small dust, and I could understand the fear and fear of the mysterious unknown. Feelings of powerlessness, hopelessness, fear, insecurity...... With all these emotions intertwined, the bugs are powerless to control their own future, and can only go with the flow, lamenting their misfortune and seeing it as their fate. ”
In the words, the serpent does not deny that he was once a human being, just as it does not deny that he was once just a small worm, because this is the truth, and the arrogant and empty-eyed serpent does not deny this fact.
"Bugs like to fantasize, because they are weak, so they will desperately try to find all kinds of ways to make themselves look strong, so as to build a country, a nation, a culture, customs, a history ......"
As he spoke, his deep voice laughed inexplicably.
"Where did any country ever exist, what nation ever existed? All these are just fantasy communities built on fantasy. What really exists are just independent, unrelated human beings who don't even know each other. ”
"Such a simple and clear reality that even the most ignorant beasts can realize it, but these small bugs do not think so, and they fantasize that there is an invisible connection called the state, the nation, so that they are seen as a whole and not as individuals, and with something called morality and law that never really exists, they pretend to dominate other worms and dominate their mental world...... All of this is just to be able to stick together and make them seem stronger. ”
However, bugs are only bugs after all, weak and weak, and in the face of the unknown and mystery, they will completely expose their weak nature, and regard the future that they have no control over as fate, and lament their own fate. ”
The serpent's pupils were filled with mockery.
"Fate is nothing more than a bug's lament for a future that it has no control over, and it has never really existed. ”
And silently looking at the big snake in front of him, Loki smiled inexplicably.
"Hasn't fate ever really existed...... Is this the world through the eyes of monsters? But, yes, Jörmungard, I feel the shackles of fate that I cannot break free. ”
"Shackles? There are no shackles, you are free to live in this universe, you can go anywhere, how have you ever been shackles? What traps you is only your thoughts. ”
The serpent's disapproving sneer reached Loki's ears.
Obviously, the big snake doesn't agree with Loki's idea at all, and the difference between the two is completely two different visions of life, two different worlds.
"What if you too were bound by that fate?"
Loki was noncommittal, but asked as if with some deep meaning, and he stared closely at the serpent in front of him, as if he had seen through something in his eyes.
Orochi knew exactly what Loki was asking.
According to that fate, it should have died in it.
"Even if there is any chain of fate, then I will break free from this chain and see what kind of power that 'fate' has. ”
With the sound of sneering, Sen Leng's erected pupils carried a certain madness and hideousness.
"Break free from the chains of fate......"
Muttering at it, Loki was silent for a long time, then turned his head and looked at the other side of the sea, where there was a faint glimmer of light.
Looking there, he said as if talking to himself.
"There, the old sea god Egil's feast, and all the gods who mourn the death of Badr, the god of light, will go there, and if I go now, probably no one will welcome me......
"I'm afraid that instead of welcoming you, I'm afraid I'll tear you apart in anger. ”
A low taunt rang out.
Loki was unimpressed, and in front of him, countless futures were emerging before his eyes, and since drinking the Fountain of Wisdom, he had often been able to see images of foresight of an uncertain future.
Except for the unavoidable, unchangeable, and doomed fate of Regaruk, the future of everything is uncertain.
However, in this foreknowledge there were all kinds of tragic encounters with him, and like the serpent's taunt, it was almost impossible for him to have a chance to escape if he went there.
But he silently stared at the pictures of the future, and there was no expression on his silent face, but continued to mumble.
"I want to go there and try it out one last time...... See if you can change Odin's mind. ”
The serpent did not answer him.
The big snake, which was already bored with this "stubborn bug", chose to continue to fall into a deep sleep.
But Loki didn't expect Serpent's answer, because these words weren't meant to be said to Serpent, but to himself.
"Why I'm here, maybe I've always known ......"
The handsome face was as calm as water, and with a certain determination, he took a deep breath and whispered.
"Even if it's an evil god...... That's at least a god, and even if that's my fate, then I want to try to fight my fate head-on...... Even if I'm going to break my bones for it. ”
Before he knew it, Loki's fists clenched slowly, and he flew towards the place that shone with countless lights.
In the distance, the big snake looked indifferently at the disappearing figure, and then slowly closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep.