And Lin Ruoshui, who he was thinking about, was in a remote mountain village at the moment, listening to the chirping of insects and birds, breathing fresh air, and welcoming the arrival of a new day.

"Ruoshui, I didn't see you in the dormitory, so I knew that you came to the back mountain again, whether it was cold or not, were you thinking about that person again?" The young and handsome man looked at the drawing board in front of the woman gently, and asked softly.

"Senior, why are you here, are you out of class?" Lin Ruoshui was wearing a thick cotton coat, a scarf and a hat, only revealing a palm-sized face and big eyes, like a cute Barbie doll, and said softly with white breath.

"No, Mr. Li is looking, the humidity on this mountain is heavy, the temperature is low, you are not in good health, don't keep running up the mountain, stay in the dormitory to bake the fire, read books. Su Qingmu looked at the ethereal white mist in the mountains like a fairyland, and said with a concerned expression.

"Senior, do you remember, did we spend two years at the school radio station, many schoolgirls sent me snacks, asked me for the phone number of the anchor of Suda, and said that your voice was low and sexy as if it was magical, and I felt happy just listening to it, but unfortunately no one sent me snacks now, hey......" Lin Ruoshui tilted his head slightly, looked at some young and old men in front of him, and couldn't help but quip.

"I thought I was the only one who blocked the love letters of those seniors for you, it seems that we are even. Su Qingmu's voice was like a gentle breeze in the mountains, refreshing people's hearts.

"Why did the senior choose to come here to teach with such good grades?" Lin Ruoshui asked puzzled.

Su Qingmu looked into the distance and said slowly: "This small mountain village is where I was born, my family was very poor when I was a child, my father was the only teacher in this village, and later, I got good grades and was admitted to the middle school in the county, and the high school was also there, and I rarely had time to go home." ”

Su Qingmu's eyes were full of vicissitudes for a long time, and then said: "One year, there was a flash flood and landslide in the village, and my father, in order to save the students, was hit by a large rock, and the transportation in the village was inconvenient, so he could not be rescued......... Later, in order to provide for my schooling, my mother died of exhaustion within two years......"

Lin Ruoshui listened to his breezy words, as if he was telling the story of others, but he didn't know that the senior must have felt a lot of pain in his heart.

It turns out that life is really a practice, as long as you live, you will always encounter all kinds of ups and downs, all kinds of changes, all kinds of difficulties, Su Qingmu's life is like this, and so is her Lin Ruoshui's life.

They were all pushed by the torrent of time, stumbling forward without even a respite.

Lin Ruoshui didn't know how to comfort him, because she knew that no one could empathize with everyone's pain.

"The grave of my parents, on the hill not far away, the newly built school, which is much better than before, was still a small mud house, a tiled house. The children in the village all want to get out of the mountains, be admitted to university, and go to the land. ”

Lin Ruoshui looked at the mountains in the distance, listened quietly, and only heard Su Qingmu pause for a moment and continued:

"There are more people leaving, and there are fewer and fewer people in the village, all of them are poor left-behind elderly people and children. I stayed here for two years, accompanied by my children and my parents, and in the future, when I return to Y City to work, get married and have children, I am afraid that I will rarely have time to come back. ”

"Seniors are all planned?" Lin Ruoshui asked with a smile.

"That's pretty much it. Su Qingmu nodded.

Lin Ruoshui nodded, and said in a calm voice: "No matter where you are, as long as you know what kind of road you want to take, you are not afraid that you will get lost, even if there is no road under your feet, there will be a world in your heart, and the senior will one day be able to realize his ambitions." ”

"When I was in college, I was always curious about why you can be so emotional, and at the same time be able to look at a person, one thing, and experience so much, but now you are more and more transparent, and your paintings are becoming more and more aura, and you have made great progress. Su Qingmu said affirmatively with a light smile on his face.

"Senior, thank you for introducing me to such a quiet place, self-cultivation, I like it very much. Lin Ruoshui said sincerely.

"What's polite with me, let's go, it's cold on the mountain, shouldn't you go back and teach the children to draw?" Su Qingmu carefully put away the easel and said softly.

"Well," Lin Ruoshui nodded and followed.

............

Psychological counseling room

Liang Yichen half leaned on the sofa, closed his eyes, and quietly told about the things that had happened in the past year or so, one after another, that made him feel painful.

The middle-aged psychiatrist on the other side listened quietly, sometimes frowning, sometimes contemplative, sometimes distressed, and sometimes full of pity......

After Liang Yichen finished speaking, he waited until he was about to fall asleep, only to hear the doctor's words, and he came slowly: "The reason why you don't dare to drive, and getting close to the opposite sex will cause strong discomfort, is because what you have experienced makes you afraid of the opposite sex, especially the scene of the car accident, which left a deep shadow in your heart, which is a more serious case of intimacy phobia......

"Can it be cured?" Liang Yichen asked lightly.

The middle-aged doctor was silent for a long time, and said slowly: "This... It's hard to say, the key is still up to you, to get out of that memory as soon as possible, maybe one day, you can meet a person of the opposite sex that you can fully trust, maybe a miracle will happen...... However, this is also a double-edged sword, if someone you trust is hurt again, it may make your illness more serious, and the worst result is ......"

The doctor stopped talking and didn't continue.

"What's the worst outcome?" Liang Yichen asked coldly in a deep voice.

"Perhaps, it will make you change your sexuality. The doctor said helplessly.

Liang Yichen's clenched fists, his green muscles burst out, he was full of anger, he had nowhere to vent, his teeth were gritted together, he was clucking, and the pain on his face could not be concealed, and the middle-aged doctor on the side couldn't help but feel distressed.

"Young man, you still have a long way to go, don't be pessimistic, maybe there will be miracles. The key is yourself, you must have a good attitude, and don't have any psychological baggage. ”

The middle-aged doctor said helplessly, and said: "Or, I'll introduce you to a psychiatrist who can hypnotherapy, his surname is Tong, you can go to him to try it when the time comes." ”

............

Liang Yichen opened his eyes, it has been two years, and every time he thinks of that past, the pain does not decrease but increases, just like a silver needle swimming in the blood, it hurts through the heart and hurts into the bone marrow.

He sat up slowly, poured the wine gracefully, walked to the window, looked up at the gray night sky, and asked helplessly in the cold air: "Ruoshui, can I give myself to you with confidence?" You won't hurt me, right?"