High school life began, and the person who split my head and covered my face gave me a dismount, and all my sense of superiority disappeared.

On the first day, the teacher asked who was the class president in junior high school, and nearly a third of the people in our class stood up, and I hesitated for a moment and didn't stand up, because I found that all the people who stood up were boys.

At that time, the conditions of the school were still relatively difficult, not so much a student dormitory as a classroom, which was full of wooden shelves and beds, and there were nearly 30 girls living in the girls' dormitory.

Military training began, and at that time the clothes were rented. The teacher read the names of four or five people and said that they didn't need to participate in military training, and my name was among them. I looked at these people and immediately understood, because they were too low to have a proper military uniform. The teacher said that everyone trained these people to study on their own in the classroom.

On the afternoon of the first day, when we were studying in the classroom, the pride and self-esteem I had accumulated over the years collapsed in an instant. I was actually excluded from an activity, and the anger and helplessness in my heart could only be forced under calm, but I could feel the subtle changes in myself, that is, I became sensitive, I became unconfident, and I became afraid of doing anything.

The unhappiness of military training slowly passed with the end of the military training performance. Because of the company of Xiaozi and Xiaojing, life is not lonely.

Xiaozi's family background is similar to mine, my mother is also the principal of a school, she grew up in school, the difference is that she has an older sister, and it just so happens that her sister's name is the same as my brother's name, called Xiaoyang.

Xiaojing's family is an ordinary peasant family, Xiaojing also has three younger sisters, one of whom was given away. Xiaojing has a high IQ, a good memory, and a great study.

The three of us ate and drank almost all together, but some of Xiaojing's words and deeds always surprised me.

Once, a classmate who was usually quite selfish suddenly took the initiative to come over and give us the pickles she brought from home while we were eating, and Xiaojing simply refused. Afterwards, I laughed at Xiaojing, the classmates were too clear, she was kind and shared things with us. Xiaojing said very seriously: My mother often tells me that there must be nothing good about showing her courtesy, she is usually so selfish, she must have other intentions to share her things. I listened thoughtfully, because my parents had never told me anything like this. Sure enough, Xiaojing was right, she later asked me to borrow the tool book that the three of us bought together, because this book has to be used every day, and this classmate has the habit of borrowing things and not returning them, so I was embarrassed to refuse, for me to say "no", in fact, it is quite difficult. Xiaojing said that the reason why I came to you is because you are usually more generous and will not refuse people. I think so.

In daily life, Xiaojing will always say from time to time that my mother will say ....., from which Xiaozi and I have learned a lot of things, and sometimes I am thinking, Xiaojing's mother is just an ordinary farmer, but Xiaojing's mother has taught Xiaojing a lot of principles for living in the world. In daily life, Xiaojing is always the person who has a heart, which makes me and Xiaozi admire very much. Although our parents are teachers, they are always busy and do not give us anything special, in this sense, Xiaojing's mother is doing a good job.

In fact, many parents always feel that their children are still young and are unwilling to tell them some of their experiences and realizations, which happens to be the most failure. Don't underestimate your child's ability to understand, when you communicate with him as an adult, they will grow up quickly, and they will not spend time trying and making mistakes later in life.

Later, we split up, I chose liberal arts, and two of them chose science.

There are too many masters around, and a girl named Yanzi in our class really has the ability to never forget. Such a difficult and difficult ancient text, he was a little stumbling when he read it for the first time, and he could recite it after reading it again the second time. Some boys can accurately draw a map of China on a blank sheet of paper. No matter how hard I try, I can't be at the top, I have a heart that is not willing to be mediocre, but you don't have this ability, this is really a very painful and helpless thing. In this environment, I slowly lost my fighting spirit.

At that time, every time I went home, doing the bus was the most painful thing for me, the school was only one bus away from my home, every 2 hours, the car always stopped, there were a bunch of people at the door, everyone hugged me and pushed and shoved up, I was often coerced and went up, there was no place to catch, there were people in front and back, left and right, and everyone was shaking with the swaying of the car. It's easy to do in winter, and you can get warm when it's crowded. In the summer, everyone was thinly dressed, people were next to each other, the air was full of sweat, all kinds of embarrassment, and every time I did the bus, I was extremely depressed.

At that time, the best thing was that my brother came to pick me up, at that time my brother was already at work, he would ride a bicycle from their unit for more than 1 hour, and then pick me up at my school, I sat in the back seat, I could breathe freely, sometimes it was cold, I would put my hands in my brother's pocket to keep warm.

At that time, I thought it would be great if I could have a car in the future. But then I knew it was a dream, an impossible dream. Times are moving so fast that when I got my own car, I felt that my dream had really come true.

At that time, the most difficult thing was winter, the floor of the girls' dormitory was always wet, and it could even freeze in the coldest part of winter. The children in the city don't live in school, they all go home and live in heated houses. I don't know how other children in the school survived, I had the experience of being frozen and crying in class, it was really cold. Mom and Dad bought me red cotton shoes to keep the soles from getting wet, but I couldn't stand the cold. I used to wonder if I could put a kang on the classroom and let everyone sit on the kang and listen to the teacher's lecture. Many years later, I was already at work, sitting in bed listening to online classes, and suddenly I felt like my dream had come true.

In high school, I was drowned in the crowd and could never excel again. I gave up from my heart. At that time, when I was unhappy at school, I would take a leave of absence to stay at home for a few days, this kind of free and loose state was a child, I didn't think there was anything wrong with this kind of behavior, and my parents would not take special responsibility for me. My two companions could not do anything about my sensitivity and freedom.

It was in this kind of wandering that I finished my high school life, and there were no waves, nothing worth recalling.

The most noteworthy thing is that my two partners became my lifelong friends.