After graduating from college in a blink of an eye, all heartless life came to an abrupt end.

Saying goodbye to the principal, the principal said that he could stay in school, but I wanted to fly.

Finally arrived at the seaside city of my dreams, and everything was so beautiful. Entering the foreign trade company, working for a period of time, I especially regretted, I found that there were too few things in my stomach, to cope with the work in front of me is simply a drop in the bucket, those wasted time let me know, how to waste, but also need to double it. Another thing that I can't stand is that the women in this city are too tall, our company's accountant is actually 1.8 meters tall, and I can see the average height of women 1.7 meters. I was already very short, and I was literally a little person. Every day I will be the first to come to the company, because I have to avoid rush hour, otherwise I will suffocate in the elevator, when I look up you always see the shoulder, you have to see their face, you have to look up, he wants to raise his head a little higher, you really can't see his face. This kind of gap gives you an idea of what it means to be at the bottom.

The most fascinating thing for me is the sea, although I can't swim, but every weekend I go to the beach, just sit like that, and listen to the sounds of heaven and I am fascinated. That weekend, my friend and I came to the beach, I tripped over something under my feet, looked down, it turned out to be a large piece of kelp, I exclaimed and picked up the kelp, my friend smiled, pointed not far away, I looked in the direction she pointed, only to see a large piece of kelp there to dry. To the sea, kelp is really an ordinary thing, and my exclamation is really ridiculous. The two of us sat on a big reef by the sea, the reef was at least two meters high, while looking at the sea and chatting, she talked about her past and her hopes, I talked about my past and my thoughts, chatting and chatting, the two people who had left their homeland were not only sad, but also full of worries about the future. I don't know how long we talked, when a wave hit the reef and splashed a huge splash in my face, we both found that something was wrong, these turned out to be two reefs by the sea, and the sea water was at the foot of the reef when we sit, and now the sea water has reached two-thirds of the reef, almost to my hanging feet. I can't swim, so what can I do? My friend was even more disgraced and shouted, "Help!" because she couldn't swim. Neither of us landlubbers ignored the high tide of the sea, and we both cried out to the people in the distance, but the crowd was too far away for anyone to notice us. We both stood up and shouted in the direction of the crowd, drowned out by the relentless sound of the waves, no matter how loud our voices were. We were in despair, and our legs trembled with fear at the thought that we were going to die in the sea before life had even begun.

Just as we were discouraged, someone came running towards us in the distance, they ran to the nearest shore to us, we shouted for help, they learned that we couldn't swim, they went back and got two lifebuoys the size of car tires, and four people swam towards us in two groups. The two of us were helped off the reef, put on a lifebuoy, and pulled back to shore. Looking at us soaking wet, the lifeguard still criticized us mercilessly, criticizing us for not even having the most basic life experience, and we nodded desperately and thanked us, and went back to the dormitory in embarrassment. We were so frightened that we didn't dare to go to the sea again for two weeks.

After working in the company for a year, I began to feel very homesick, the kind of suffering of a person in a foreign place will drown you like a flood on Sunday, and the pain of missing my relatives makes me at a loss, but all this is my own choice, even if it is bitter, I can only bear it silently, and the letter to my father is only to report good news and not bad news. But the longing for food torments your taste buds and your stomach, the cold skin and meat buns that can be eaten everywhere on the street, the spicy garlic sheep Heluo, and the vegetable rolls made by your mother. The North Korean cold noodles here, the first time I ate it, I thought it was delicious, the second time I ate it, I thought it was okay, but the third time I ate it, I got tired of it, and then I deeply realized the truth that one side of the water and soil supports the other side.

As time passed, everything was slowly adapting, and on that day my mother made a phone call that broke all the peace.

There was an accident at home, my father went to the town to buy something on my brother's motorcycle, and hit a ten-year-old child, and the house was in chaos, and my mother asked me to go home.

I immediately bought a train ticket, took a leave of absence from the company, and packed my things, and I suddenly had a feeling that I might not come back after this trip.

The train was six o'clock in the evening, and I had almost eight hours left, and I dragged my luggage, took a taxi, got in, and said to the driver: pull me to see the city. The driver looked at me puzzled, and I smiled wryly and said: Maybe I won't come back, I want to take a good look at the city. The driver was infected by my emotions and slowed down to take a closer look at this beautiful seaside city. What a beautiful city it is, clean and tidy, very well planned and built. That section of the tram is the place where I must pass every day to commute to work, and the female mounted police in the square, the beautiful red uniform, the heroic appearance, makes my heart move, and I turn around on the Corniche, the sea that I am most obsessed with, is setting off waves one after another, the sky and the sea in the distance, the seagulls hovering nearby, the slanting sun shining on me, I squint my eyes, and the beautiful scenery slides through my eyes.

In the end, I asked the driver to take me to see the development zone, at the end of the nineties, such a development zone was relatively early, some high-rise buildings have been settled in by companies, most of them are Japanese and Korean companies, looking at the spacious roads, glittering high-rise buildings, I sighed infinitely, farewell, so beautiful, but it doesn't belong to me.

Next to the train station, I found a Korean restaurant, asked for a bowl of cold noodles, let the symphony of sweet and spicy play in my mouth, and looked out the window at the crowd of people coming and going, everyone looked in a hurry, not knowing whether to leave their homeland or return to their hearts.

Carrying a duffel bag, following the crowded flow of people, almost squeezed onto the train, I am the eleventh car, but the carriage on the train is the second hard-seat car, the bustling crowd, I really can't move an inch, at this time, a tall man sitting next to me, looking a few years older than me, whispered: I'll help you, what carriage is it? I quickly refused, no need no, I'll wait, everyone is tidy up in the aisle, there are not so many people, I'll go over again, thank you. He said very enthusiastically: I have settled down, it is not easy for you to be a student, let me help you. Saying that I picked up my bag and walked forward, I was embarrassed to follow, it was too crowded, after walking three carriages, he turned around and asked me if I had arrived, I was embarrassed to say no, so he has been struggling to push away the crowd and walk forward, when I walked to the sleeper car, there were obviously fewer people, I said. Taking his bag, I hurriedly said thank you. I saw that he was a little unhappy and said that he was not welcome, and left without looking back.

I settled my luggage and sighed softly, I knew the man's displeasure, and when she saw that I was weak and carrying such a large bag, she was very sympathetic, she expected me to be a student, and when she found out that I was actually a sleeper, his sympathy was immediately withdrawn. People always have pity for the weak. Even so, I am grateful to him.

I need to take the train for three days and three nights, and in addition to sleeping, I sit on the edge of my bed and watch the scenery along the way, reminiscing about my lost youth and confusing my future life.