Outside the monitor, Ding Fan stared at it all night, thinking that these two people might not say anything, even Captain Luo was a little tired, and fell asleep sitting on the chair on the side.

But when it was close to dawn, Xu Lai suddenly moved his body, bent over and walked to the door with a little difficulty, and glanced to the side with difficulty.

Obviously, he was still thinking about whether he could say a few words to his nephew next door, but in fact, Hu Dekai didn't really want to talk to him, and was still sitting on the edge of the bed, holding his knees with his hands in his hands, curled up in the corner.

But when he heard his uncle calling him next door, he fell directly on the bed, facing the wall, and he didn't mean to reply at all.

On the contrary, Xu Lai thought about it all night yesterday, squatting on the edge of the wall at this time, looking at the cage next door with difficulty, opening his mouth, there were many things he wanted to say, but at the last moment, when the words came to his mouth, he closed his mouth again.

Just like Ding Fan told him before, the two have not communicated well for many years, and many things may not be able to be said even if they want to.

And even if he said it, Hu Dekai may not be able to accept it.

This is caused by Xu Lai's refusal to communicate with Hu Dekai for many years and avoid him.

When he was in his hometown, there were only a few people in a small mountain village, and it was enough for Hu Dekai to be uncomfortable if no one cared about him, but now he finally walked out of that mountain village and went to the big city outside, but he found that the people around him always looked at him with all kinds of strange eyes, and the only uncle around him was even more reluctant to talk to him.

In those years, the two of them depended on each other together, working everywhere to make money, and it didn't matter if they didn't give him the money when they got it, but his uncle didn't even want to say a word to him, which was the most unacceptable to him.

Thinking about the relationship between his uncle and his brother at the beginning, Hu Dekai had seen it, how good the relationship between those two people was, and even compared with his father, Hu Desheng preferred to contact this little uncle.

But now, following his uncle, he didn't even bother to look at him, and the damage caused to him was almost immeasurable.

For a while, Hu Dekai was almost jealous of his brother in his heart, thinking that everyone in this world liked him and everyone was willing to talk to him.

And himself, who is a fellow brother and mother, is an ugly duckling that no one wants to deal with.

You must know that he is a stranger to the outside world wherever he goes, and he has no knowledge of everything around him, and the only person who can give him a little support is his uncle.

But his uncle never gave him a good look, either looking at him coldly, or frowning tightly and making a frosty accusation.

To this day, Ding Fan told him about his uncle, and he still doesn't want to admit it, in fact, his uncle has been doing it for his good all these years.

Many small things in life, in fact, if you think about it carefully, it is not difficult to see that my uncle still cares about him very much.

After walking out of the mountains, the first clothes on his body were bought for him by his uncle, and it was the first time he put on new clothes, clean new clothes, and he could hold his head up proudly wherever he went.

On his first birthday, his uncle gave him a special trip to buy a small cake, although it was not big, but it was really delicious.

That kind of sweetness is something he can't forget in his life.

The first time I went to the park, my uncle took me to go, although my uncle was to work nearby, but the park also had to buy a ticket, and my uncle was very curious about it, and took out the little money on his body to buy a ticket, but he was reluctant to go in, and only looked at him outside the door.

......

Now recalling the events of that year, he realized that his uncle was actually really good to himself, although his uncle has always been cold to him over the years, he has done too much for him.

The reason why he never opened his mouth, did not speak to his uncle, and would rather face the wall than respond, was largely because he did not have the face to face his uncle.

His parents died at his hands, it was his uncle's own sister, and he didn't dare to tell his uncle about it.

Over the years, he has secretly drugged his uncle's daily meals, although these medicines are somewhat redundant, but after a long time, they still hurt his uncle and aunt very much.

It's all because of his jealousy and suspicion, where does he still have a little face to meet his uncle?

"Little Kai...... I'm sorry!" Xu Lai squatted lonely on the edge of the fence, and after waiting for a long time, Hu Dekai still didn't say a word, which had to remind him of what Ding Fan had told him before.

This kid was pushed too far by him, it's all at this time, and if he wants to talk to him, he doesn't even want to deal with himself.

"Officer Ding is right, I pushed you too hard and pushed you too far!" Xu Lai sat on the ground weakly, looked out with dull eyes, put his head on the door and said bitterly: "Actually, I am not a competent uncle, I have never taken a child, the only child I have come into contact with is your brother, but he is different from you, he is very independent, and you are completely different." ”

"I've always hoped that one day I can see you alone, and then I can go home to see your parents and tell them that you have grown up. ”

"It's a pity...... I failed, I have always been a failure, and when I left home, I realized how small I was, and how fragile I was, because I finally understood why your parents didn't agree to me coming out in the first place. ”

Hu Dekai listened to it for a long time, and finally made a little movement on the bed, sat up slowly, glanced at the shadow in the next cell with a little blurred eyes, opened his mouth and said faintly: "I know, from the beginning, you have liked my brother, no one in this world likes me, including my brother, I have always been alone, even my brother began to hate me." ”

When Xu Lai heard this, he was suddenly pleasantly surprised, to be honest, he didn't expect that Hu Dekai would talk to him.

But hearing what he said, Xu Lai felt that this kid understood things too much, and hurriedly explained: "That's not the case, your brother has never disliked you, in fact...... I told him that day, he was about to take the high school entrance examination, and the school conditions in the county were not good, so I told him that I wanted to go to the big city to feel it, and I would also be admitted to the big city in the future. ”

"But your brother has been hesitating about this, do you know why?"

"He said that you are still young, leaving you alone at home, he is not at ease, he hopes that one day, when he can go out of the mountains, he can take you out of here with him, the medical level in the big cities is better, the medical conditions are better, and he hopes that your problems can be treated. ”

"He never wanted to leave you, it was I who told him that everyone has their own circle of life, he can't be by your side all day, and after a long time you will only become more and more dependent on him, and it is not a good thing for you. ”

"Actually, it's all my fault. ”

These words, which have been hidden in his heart for more than ten years, finally said it today, I don't know why he has the courage to say these words at this moment, maybe he feels that if he doesn't say it, he won't have a chance in the future.

Now that he has said everything, he simply stopped hiding it, and generously admitted that he accidentally forgot the book at home.

It's just that he doesn't know, Hu Dekai has known this for a long time, and he is not stupid in his brain, although he didn't understand that kind of book, but the villain in the book wore very few clothes, and it was obviously impossible for them to make it in their village or town.

And the village is already very congested, and the only one who can bring this thing back is my uncle.

"That book...... I brought it back to my brother!" Hu Dekai thought about it for a long time, he had been thinking about these things since Ding Fan dissected them one by one for him before.

After thinking about it, he felt that since he had already told Ding Fan about this matter, there was nothing to keep secret.

It's just that he didn't expect that after saying this, Xu Lai was obviously stunned, and he didn't speak for a long time, as if he was also frightened by this fact.

He really didn't expect that the book would be taken out by him for Hu Desheng in the end.

But he still felt that this incident was all caused by himself, and if he hadn't brought it back to his hometown, such a thing would not have happened at all.

"I heard the conversation between you and my brother at the time!" Hu Dekai's face flickered a few times, and his body even twitched a little, but fortunately he finally eased up, took a deep breath and said: "Since then, I have always hated you, you don't know how important my brother is to me, you have too much, you have relatives and friends, and family and lovers, but what do I have?"

"I have nothing but my brother, my parents see me as a shame, the children around me see me as a monster, and even those neighbors treat me as a dead star. ”

"I still can't figure out what I did to them back then, why everyone hates me, everyone is hostile to me, and even treats them as demons and monsters, why?"

Speaking of this, Xu Lai didn't know much about it, he just knew that when Hu Dekai was born, it seemed that there was an accident, and when the eldest sister gave birth to a child, the child almost couldn't be saved.

Later, it was a bit of a sequelae, the child's cerebellar development was defective, which was all told to him by the second sister, and he didn't know much about the specific things.

But when he saw Hu Dekai back then, he could really see that this kid did seem to have some problems, and he couldn't walk very steadily.

And the reason why the eldest brother-in-law wants a son is mainly because the family land is obviously a little busy now, and I hope that someone can help him in the future.

But I didn't expect that the child I gave birth to was a little mentally disabled, and I couldn't even keep up with my development.

This help did not give birth, but in the end, he gave birth to a trouble, and the eldest brother-in-law was naturally a little depressed.

As for others, to be honest, Xu Lai is not very clear.

I can hear that Hu Dekai seems to have a lot of resentment about everything he has encountered over the years.

"Xiao Kai, it's my uncle who didn't take care of you, there are some things I should have told you a long time ago!" In order to tell the news that had been buried in his heart for a long time, Xu Lai also made a lot of determination, gritted his teeth and said: "I have been avoiding you all these years, because you look more and more like your brother now, when I see you, I always think of him, I hurt your family." ”

"Do you know what kind of mood I feel every time I see you over the years?"

"The more I want to forget, the more I will remember, the family of my sister who was killed by me, so I don't dare to meet you at all. ”

"I really want you to get out of me sooner, so I'm pushing you very hard, even pushing you to a dead end. ”

After saying this, there is nothing to hide later, and the two of them confided in each other the biggest secret in their hearts, and this secret really surprised Ding Fan.