Seeing that Fang Sheng didn't speak, Lin Ping pointed at Fang Sheng's clenched hand with his finger and said gently: "It's useless for you to hold the chess pieces in your palm, you always have to put it down." ”

Fang Sheng slowly unfolded the chess pieces in his hand, looking at the chess pieces in his palm in a daze.

So, Lin Ping smiled and said, "Do you know why your parents only said that you were sick and wanted to drop out of school, they didn't know why you were sick, but I guessed the cause?"

Fang Sheng shook his head, then raised his head to look at Lin Ping, although he didn't say it, his expression was already asking Lin Ping "why".

Lin Ping smiled and said: "Because, the teacher and you are the same kind of person, I have also had that kind of experience, I know this feeling, it is a kind of mania, a kind of pain, and a kind of ......."

Lin Ping paused for a moment, then looked at Fang Sheng and said with a smile, "Grievances." ”

It seemed that the word "grievance" touched Fang Sheng's heart, Fang Sheng's throat shook after listening to Lin Ping's words, and then looked out the window.

Lin Ping also turned his head to look out the window and said affectionately: "I also loved a girl who loved death and life, so much love that I couldn't extricate myself, I once paid a lot for her, put my whole heart into her, I think she should be mine as a matter of course, but she left me." I was furious at the time, thinking that her behavior was a betrayal, and even hated from love, and gritted my teeth with hatred. I used to think that she should be my whole life, until later I found out that there are many girls in this world who are better than her, but ...... But none of them can replace the memories of her youth in my mind. ”

After Lin Ping finished speaking, the two looked out the window in silence, as if they were caught in their own memories. Of course, Lin Ping's words are three points true and seven points false, he did like a girl in high school, but it did not reach the point of seeking death and life and unable to extricate himself, although they have not been together, but that girl has taught Lin Ping a lot, and also made Lin Ping more rational and cautious in his feelings, however, that girl has indeed become the most colorful stroke in Lin Ping's memories of youth.

After a long time, Lin Ping broke the silence and said with a smile: "Actually, classmate Fang Sheng, time can heal everything, and slowly you will let go, there is nothing that you can't let go, and there is nothing that you can't face calmly." ”

Fang Sheng shook his head and said bitterly, "No, teacher, I can't let it go." ”

Lin Ping smiled and said, "Then can you tell the teacher and let the teacher listen, what kind of memories make you so unable to let go?"

At this time, Fang Sheng's eyes moistened, and then he said, "Teacher, I originally thought I would let go, but I found that I couldn't let go of ...... at all."

Fang Sheng, who had been aggrieved for a long time, finally opened his heart to others, and began to slowly tell his heart, and this complaint was eager to release all the grievances in his heart, he began to talk to Lin Ping slowly, first talking about the first time he and the girl were assigned to be at the same table in the first year of junior high school......

Fang Sheng's academic performance has dropped sharply since he lost his feelings, and his mind has been completely off on studying, and the girl's academic performance has plummeted, from being able to take the test for more than a dozen in the class to being at the bottom of the class, you must know that when Fang Sheng was in junior high school, Xibei County was short of educational resources, and there were more than 70 students in a class in his middle school.

And the more students are mixed, the more difficult it is to manage, and the more energy the teacher has, unable to focus on all the students, can only focus 80% of the energy on the good students, and the rest of the energy is used to deal with those who are naughty and mischievous.

And Fang Sheng and the girl's academic performance declined, and the teacher still had the energy to manage them at first, and would criticize them and talk to the parents, but slowly gave up and focused more on other good students.

Fang Sheng almost fell for a whole year in the third year of junior high school, he was distracted in class, and he was disgusted with school, and that girl was even more powerful, skipping class, skipping school, all kinds of rebellion and her boyfriend and those partners joined forces to confront the teacher, so that the angry teacher didn't want to care about them anymore, just asked them not to affect other students.

In the end, the genius Fang Sheng was only admitted to Xibei No. 4 Middle School, and the girl didn't even get into high school, and after graduating from junior high school, she followed her as a gangster's boyfriend.

Originally, after graduation, Fang Sheng would no longer see that girl, and there would be nothing to do, but Fang Sheng was emotionally attached to that girl and knew the girl's address, and that girl's home was not far from Fang Sheng, Fang Sheng would always try his best to sneak around the girl's house.

Fang Sheng wanted to see that girl, but he didn't want to see that girl, let alone that girl to see him. This kind of feelings and psychology are very contradictory and entangled, and the more contradictory and tangled they are, the more difficult it is for Fang Sheng to let go.

The so-called "once the sea is difficult to water, except for Wushan is not a cloud", although Fang Sheng has never been with that girl, but the memories and feelings that the girl left to Fang Sheng make Fang Sheng unforgettable, plus Fang Sheng's unhealthy character formed by not suffering setbacks - the more you can't get it, the more you want to get it, this kind of character makes Fang Sheng more and more paranoid, and wanting to be with that girl is not just a feeling, but also an obsession.

However, Fang Sheng's obsession and feelings are extremely complicated.

Fang Sheng wanted to be with the girl who had never been in love and was still at the same table by himself, but he didn't want to be with the girl who was in love with others, held hands, and kissed.

In Fang Sheng's eyes, the girl before was perfect, and now this girl who is with "garbage" has also become "garbage".

In short, what Fang Sheng really loves is the girl in his memories, and now this girl gives him a contradictory and complicated feeling, the girl he likes has not changed in her body, but her soul is not the soul in his memories.

Fang Sheng's obsession became more and more paranoid in this complex and contradictory entanglement.

It is said that time is the best medicine for pain, and it seems to be true.

After going to high school, Fang Sheng could only go home once every two weeks, and the time to see that girl became less and less, and the news of that girl became less and less, and the obsession in his heart seemed to be reduced.

However, Fang Sheng still has no interest in any girl, and even Fang Sheng has received love letters and been confessed by other girls, but the obsession in his heart has been faintly haunting, making him unacceptable, and he can't transfer his feelings by finding a new goal.

The best way to fall out of love is to transfer the goal method, of course, this broken love includes the failure of the crush, the failure of the confession, the breakup of the love, the transfer of the goal, put your feelings into the next relationship and the next goal, will make yourself faster from the last lovelorn.

And Fang Sheng couldn't do this, the obsession in his heart made him unable to find a new goal, and the inability to find a new goal made him obsessed deeper, and so on, forming a vicious circle, in which Fang Sheng's character became more extreme and withdrawn.