Last night's heavy rain came in a hurry, and the sound of the rain did not stop until three or four o'clock in the morning, and Song Yan's face was lying on the pillow.

No matter how numb she was, no matter how disgusting her life was, she never wanted to give up.

Fu Xingzhou's last look really crushed her.

The most embarrassing past, so haunting, refused to let her go at this time, and even gave her such a fatal blow.

She hated Xu Fang, hated her for being a mother in vain, cold-blooded and ruthless, she hated herself, hated herself for being weak and incompetent, self-righteous, she hated life, hated how it could be so hard.

Song Yan was completely sure that Fu Xingzhou had no feelings for her, so she dared to do this. Immersed in it at the time, she didn't think much about it.

Now that she has come to her senses and thinks about it, she may be holding a fluke mentality, and she has been running away. thought that as long as Fu Xingzhou didn't find out, she wouldn't tell the matter.

In this game, she overestimated Fu Xingzhou's trust in herself, and also overestimated their past.

What is this not self-righteousness?

That year, when she was just a freshman, Xu Fang said on the phone that something had happened to Song Cheng and asked her to go to Qingcheng quickly.

Qingcheng is more than 1,000 kilometers away from Jiangcheng and is a small county town in the south, and Xu Fang is a native of Qingcheng.

During that time, Fu Xingzhou had an important case going on, and she didn't want to delay his work, so she didn't say what happened over there, but agreed with him to come back soon.

Who knew that Xu Fang was coaxing her. She gambled and owed a lot of gambling debts and loan sharks, and when she was desperate, she started her idea.

Xu Fang told her that as long as she took a few eggs, with her conditions, she could get 200,000 yuan at one time after the retrieval would not have any impact on her body, and the person she was looking for was very experienced.

Song Yan was so angry that she turned her head and left.

Xu Fang finally coaxed people over, how could he give up if he didn't achieve his goal.

She dragged her, begged her on her knees, and even took a knife and said that she would commit suicide if she did not promise her.

Song Yan looked at the strange woman in front of her, this is her biological mother, two years ago, after Song Ye died, she seemed to have changed as a person. She has not been a good mother, but she has not done such a thing.

"Isn't there any other way? What about my brother? Mom, I'm scared, let's think of another way, okay?" Song Yan cried and begged her.

She said: "I just can't contact your brother, so I can't find you." Xiao Yan, mom begs you, just this time, okay, it's not that there are no other ways, but mom knows that you won't agree to it. ”

Without her to continue, Song Yan guessed that it was not a legitimate thing.

"Just this time, I beg you, Mom really has no choice, I'll figure out the rest of the money myself, you can just be responsible for the 200,000, okay?"

Nineteen-year-old Song Yan tasted the gloom of life for the first time, she didn't think of Fu Xingzhou, but he had just stepped out of society, and she couldn't open her mouth about the 200,000 yuan.

What can she do, Song Cheng can't be contacted, and Fu Xingzhou doesn't dare to contact her.

In this way, Xu Fang said that there was no dangerous way, she was still in that process, the hymen was destroyed, although the doctor said that it could be repaired, but she refused, she was afraid of the feeling of lying on the operating table again, even if it was just twenty minutes, she felt extraordinarily long.

After the incident, she lay down for three days, during which she called Fu Xingzhou once, but asked him to wait, and went back soon, and made an excuse, saying that the place where she was was located was a mountainous area, and the signal was not good, so she would contact her when she went back.

The money all fell into Xu Fang's pocket, and she didn't even mention it, so relieved that Song Yan felt ashamed of having such a mother.

Later, Xu Fang did take care of her before and after the saddle, and Song Yan was afraid of falling into the root of the disease, so she also went to a regular hospital for a check-up, and under the advice of the doctor, she recuperated for a few more days.

What happened later was the real accident in Song Cheng, the sudden birth of Song Yu, she was desperate and was sold to Shen Yan by Xu Fang, signing a bunch of messy agreements, and her mother, with all the money, ran away with her lover without a trace.

She didn't know what the Shen and Song families had in their deep hatred, and Shen Yan wanted to be so persistent in trapping her in a marriage contract in the name of revenge.

There were already birds chirping outside the window, Song Yan got up and washed her tired body, looked in the mirror, and arranged her hair and clothes, but found that the white skirt made her face even more pale.

After two rounds of blush and a cup of coffee, Song Yan went out with her bag, her life was so barren that she only had work left.

The sky is exceptionally clear after the rain, and the morning air is fresher when it is washed by the rain. The ground at the intersection of the community is a little rugged, and there is still last night's rain on it, Song Yan stepped on the heel of her five-centimeter-high shoe and carefully stepped over the stagnant water in the pit.

The plane trees on both sides of the road have grown exceptionally luxuriant this summer, even after last night's wind and rain, they still stand and even look more vibrant.

Song Yan stood at the bus stop waiting for the bus, she thought, this is life, we are always changing between gaining and losing.

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Fu Xingzhou was so busy that he didn't even have time to see Zhang Yizhi, and Zhang Yizhi complained to Pei Sen many times.

"Ah Zheng has been gone for two years, and Xingzhou has not even seen a figure recently, hey, is this the price of growth, where is our youth. ”

Pei Sen was so speechless that he didn't bother to answer him, and drank the wine in his hand by himself.

After Fu Xingzhou came out of Song Yan's apartment in the middle of the night, he drove the car by the Lujiang River to blow the wind all night, listened to the rain all night, and smoked all night.

He was afraid of being deceived, it was because of the deception that the Fu family fell, his father finally apologized with death, and overnight, he lost everything, even at that time, he still had thoughts about her.

When he reluctantly said the sentence Song Yan, you are my calamity, he was ready for the two of them to start over. It wasn't that he had some kind of complex, the moment he entered, what flashed in his mind was the way she swore and he had never felt so disappointed.

Why can she become even liing, who can return the 19-year-old Song Yan to him, he was afraid that he would say something more excessive, so he chose to leave without hesitation.

He thought, so be it, it's been seven years, it's time to really let go.

He hadn't been sick for a long time, but he caught a cold and fever after he went back that day, and he stayed in Lujiang Mansion for a day, enjoying the careful care of Fu's mother, who even joked with a smile, wishing he had a few more colds, so it seemed that he felt like he was back when he was a child, and he relied on her.