499. Life is not easy

"Is it? And what about you to Tian Tian? You are so devoted to her, why didn't you attract her to you? Is it because of your love for her?"

"Maybe my love is not as pure as Han Shucheng's! So I lost, fate let me leave her for eight years, maybe it was to give him this opportunity. ”

"Do you really think that? You're going to comfort yourself. ”

"What else can I do? I have to give myself a reasonable explanation!"

"So, you're able to let her go?"

"No, her place in my heart will always be there, no one can replace her, but I also have my own responsibilities and missions, my mother wants me to start a family, have children, continue the incense, and my mother's life is difficult to disobey, so I will marry other women and love her, but I don't have to marry for life. ”

"Come on, that's a reason for you to not love her enough, so you find a reason for yourself, besides, men are more realistic than women, what is love? You can't see or touch, and having a woman around you is the most important thing. ”

Li Sisi was a little drunk and spoke very presumptuously.

Feng Zijian shook his head with a wry smile, and he took a sip of his wine glass.

"What you don't understand, people live to the fullest if they have love and responsibility, and if they don't have love and responsibility, they will live too hard and tired, and they will not have the direction and meaning of life, this love is not only love, but also family love. ”

"That's right, I'm a person who has neither love nor responsibility, so I live a very tired and hard life, no one loves me, I don't love others, and no one deserves to be responsible for me. ”

"Although your parents have passed away, they should love you! There are no parents in the world who do not love their children, and they may be watching you in the dark! For their sake, you must also love yourself and live well......

Li Sisi interrupted her excitedly, "Don't mention them to me, they don't love me at all, no one in this world loves me." ”

"Li Sisi, you never liked to talk about your parents before, I thought it was because you didn't want to mention sad things, but now it seems that this is not the case, didn't you say that they died when you were very young? Whether they were kind to you or not, you should have no memory! How can you be so sure that they don't love you at all?"

In Li Sisi's consciousness, although they are alive, they are no different from dead, they do not help her in any way, and even Li Zhannan's existence is a threat to her survival, he once threatened that if he touches her again, he must strangle her to death with his own hands.

Mother's warmth to her only exists in memory, since she went to prison, she has not sheltered her, and finally got out of prison, except for endlessly asking her for money to spend on that ruined brother, she can't give her any reliance and help.

All she brought to her was the troubles and troubles of a depressed life where she saw no hope.

For the sake of her precious son, now, she simply moved outside to live.

Of course, Li Sisi can't say these words to anyone, especially Feng Zijian, he is so smart, if he knew that she still had parents, he would definitely follow the vine and find her previous life experience.

"If they love me, why did they leave me so early, why did they leave me alone in this cold world?"