A strange pharmacist-sama

Bye-on. I am an ordinary human living in the human world, and my name is Ogura Kuriko.

Please forgive me for my pranks, because I have something I want to say to you anyway, but I can't meet you. I am grateful for your accommodating willfulness, which has caused you real trouble.

I don't know if you think that all human beings living in the human world are all the same? I think that every human being is a unique and special individual.

I never felt anything strange about my personality until my only friend inadvertently cruelly gave me a book - I couldn't refuse books and words, so I read that one, the only book I hated in my life.

One thing I learned from the book that my special, unlike others, may be suffering from Asperger's.

I like to be quiet and alone, and enjoy the experience of writing in this atmosphere, which is said to be a "social communication barrier". I can't accept that description, I just don't want to waste my time doing something like that.

I don't like what they say about limited interests and repetitive and stereotypical activities - I just love words more than anyone else, and I don't get tired of copying the same words all day. Human love has a limit, so why can't they understand the act of loving only one interest alone?

As for anxiety and depression, I don't think it's a bad thing – but I wonder why people walking down the street can live so calmly and unnoticed.

What I see in the human world is that some people who have given up thinking and live like the walking dead, and the other part of people who have a strong sense of mission and a strong sense of role, they don't have these emotions.

I look down on them and I don't want to waste time having anything to do with them.

As for occasionally doing something that surprises adults, it makes me wonder - it was obviously started after preparing for the aftermath and there would be no bad consequences, but I was still taught a lesson. My mom cried and told me not to do it again, and I felt distressed.

I just wanted to see how the muscles worked, how the blood flowed. In order not to interfere with the copying, I scratched the skin on my legs. It's rare for her daughter to become interested in something other than writing, so why can't a mother be happy for her daughter?

I couldn't understand that everyone was treating me as a patient, even my only friend, who was trembling at me, as if she was afraid to touch my sore spots—she didn't know that the attitude itself was sad enough for me.

Strange Yakushi-sama, I wonder if you have seen this, or if you have already thrown this letter away because of boredom?

If you would like to answer my questions, please write back to me the next time you visit the village. The address is written at the back, press the letter under the stone, and erect the bricks on it, and I will know that you have replied.

It's likely to be ignored, but it's just a matter of causing you trouble, so it's better to follow through.

If, two days after your reply, I still have questions, I will send you a reply in the same place, and if you will come to the village and would like to receive my letter, please take a look at it again.

Honorifics.

Ogura chestnuts

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Okura-sama

Please. I am a medicine seller, not a pharmacist. If you don't give up, you can call me Lingxian.

I'm sorry, but I can't give you an answer or advice from a human standpoint about your question.

I don't know if you know that I'm not really human.

In terms of pathology, there is no in-depth research, and I only asked about the symptoms you mentioned from Master.

The outside world is a place where there are many human beings. There, for the sake of peace of mind, 10 million people can unjustifiably dismiss a human being who is different from their group as sick - but Gensokyo is not a place to be bound by common sense, and you don't have to worry about it.

Mental abnormalities can certainly be a good thing. In the outside world, there are also many revered human beings—those who proposed the three classical laws of physics, those who proposed the theory of relativity, those who wrote famous songs, those who painted miraculous paintings, and so on—all of whom share the same troubles as you.

It's normal to not be able to bring up an interest in other things.

There's more to the world than black and white—there's more of a 'it doesn't matter' attitude in the middle ground between liking and hating. Why bother with things that don't matter, just let them take their course.

As for the difficulty of contacting and interacting with others, from the standpoint of a youkai, this is the right thing to do. But since I've only been a youkai from the beginning to the end, I can't put myself in the shoes of a human to put myself in your shoes, so I may not be able to give a better suggestion.

However, since you also have a friend who wants to be rare, why not try to get along with her more friendly.

It's my first time writing a letter to a human, so I'm a little nervous. I hope my reply can help you.

Worship.

Reizen, Yuzukain, Inaba

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Reizen-sama

Bye-on. I am grateful to have received your reply, and your reply has given me peace of mind.

I didn't expect to have the opportunity to correspond with youkai-sama in my life, and it was indeed a wise move for me to make up my mind to write to you.

Although Reizen-sama's reply is just about me, I have a keen relationship with words, and I can feel your tenderness. Why can a youkai be more gentle than a human? It's incredible.

The reason why I wrote back to you is certainly not just to say a few words of exclamation.

I hope that you will return to me the last letter I sent you, and this one, and put it in the old place, and that you will grant me this wayward request again.

As for the reason, with your approval, I was finally able to make up my mind to do something I shouldn't have done.

Although I should not have had extravagant hopes, I was tempted by longing.

Life is boring enough for me, and if I can't carry out a rare hobby, it will be too boring. Thanks to you, I have the courage to take a step forward.

When I'm done with that, I'm going to end my life.

You're the only youkai friend I've ever made in my life, and it means a lot to me.

Please also be sure to accede to my request to exchange my letters with me and not to mention my matter to anyone.

Such a gentle and kind Reizen-sama, you will definitely promise me, right?

Worship.

Ogura chestnuts