Besides, An Yao thought that if he left Niutou Mountain and got rid of Pang Fei and got rid of everything, An Yao would be able to live the life he wanted.

But she found that staying alone in this strange hotel did not feel safe at all, but made her uncomfortable and uneasy in many places.

When night fell, no one came to wash his feet and massage himself with foot-washing water, and there was no longer a table full of rich food waiting for him, and the bed in this hotel was not comfortable at all, not at all as comfortable as her soft Simmons bed.

What's more, in the face of the flickering lights of the city, what she sees is no longer envy and yearning, but always feels that there is one less person around her and a lot of things missing.

An Yao was very depressed, and sat on the bed angrily, "An Yao, An Yao, what's wrong with you, haven't you been clamoring to leave that place, to let people give you freedom and let you live the life you want?

"You must not be unaccustomed to it, you must not regret it, you must persevere, and you must not give up halfway. Yes, I must not give up halfway, I will persevere, I will persevere......"

An Yao muttered to herself, cheering herself on and encouraging.

That being said, it's hard to do what you want to do without any fears.

First, this strange bed made her sleep very uncomfortable, and she couldn't sleep at all. There is also the light in this room, the light is dazzling, and if the light is not turned on, it is dark and there is no light at all, and I am really a little scared of myself.

Second, when she woke up, there was no more delicious food waiting for her, and she had to go to the restaurant to eat by herself, and the food in the restaurant was not very tasty, not to her liking at all.

Third, she didn't think about what she was going to do next, and in the past few days, she had almost walked through all the places where she should play, visit, and eat, and there seemed to be nothing particularly to look forward to.

When she told Pang Fei that she had thought about it for a long time before making such a decision, it was actually a lie, she didn't think about it in advance at all, but made it temporary.

I don't know why, her mood has fluctuated a lot in the past two days, and many times she doesn't know what she is doing?

If she wants to do something, she must do it, and sometimes when she thinks of something on a whim, she tells Pang Fei.

I don't want to have any purpose, I just want to get angry, and I don't know who to get angry with, so I can only get angry with Pang Fei.

An Yao doesn't know what's wrong with her, it may be related to amnesia, or it may be caused by other reasons, but in the final analysis, her current mood is very unstable!

But she didn't want to give up so early, she was only making trouble yesterday, and she obediently went back to find Pang Fei today, didn't she tell Pang Fei that she was making trouble unreasonably?

An Yao didn't feel that she was making trouble unreasonably, this restless mood, this uncontrollable thinking, there must be a reason.

And since it's out, why not take this opportunity to explore the truth and answers you want to know.

Settle down.

Yesterday, Pang Fei mentioned the An family, his mother's family, maybe he can get some clues from there.

Thinking about it, An Yao took out her sister An Lu's phone from the address book and dialed the phone.

For An Lu, her memory is only that An Lu appeared on Niutou Mountain, and as for the rest, she doesn't remember either.

An Lu on the other end of the phone was taken aback when she received An Yao's call, and thought that An Yao had regained her memory, "Sister, do you remember the past? This is really good......

"An Lu, I'm sorry, I didn't remember what happened before. I moved out of Niutou Mountain and now I'm alone. I thought, go back to Anjia and see ......."

An Lu said "ah", "Are you alone?" can my brother-in-law agree?"

Before An Lu could finish speaking, he was interrupted impatiently by An Yao, "My matter, why do I want him to agree?" I find you all so strange, as if I am Pang Fei's appendage, do I have to get his permission to do anything?"

"Sister, that's not what I meant...... Forget it, you come back first, and when you come back, I'll explain to you slowly. ”

"Hmm. ”

Dozens of minutes later, the taxi stopped in front of An Yao's house.

An Lu was waiting at the door early, and when she saw An Yao getting out of the car, she hurriedly greeted her.

"Sister, I haven't been home for a long time, look here, do you feel familiar?"

An Yao raised her head and looked at this spacious villa, but she had no impression in her mind.

She shook her head helplessly, "I can't think of it at all." ”

An Lu sighed in disappointment, "You have lost your memory this time, and you really lost it completely, you forgot everything, and you don't even remember your family." ”

"I didn't want to do that either, so I came out, and I was going to find my lost memories. An Lu, will you tell me the truth about my past?" An Lu pinned his hopes on An Lu.

An Lu smiled unnaturally and said, "Sister, I don't want to lie to you, I can't tell you everything about the past." If there are some bad things, just let him pass, isn't it good? But I can assure you that I will tell you absolutely everything except the bad things. ”

An Yao didn't want to hear such an answer at all.

If he only came for those things that everyone knew, then he could ask on Niutou Mountain, why bother to run down and ask Pang Fei awkwardly?

"An Lu, you are my own sister, the dearest and dearest relative, if even you refuse to tell me the truth, then who else can tell me the truth......?

"It's because you're my sister and my closest relative that I don't want to lie to you. Sister, it's not good for you to be like this now, why do you have to make everything in the past clear. An Lu said puzzled.

It seems that An Lu can't understand herself, An Yao sighed helplessly, not wanting to continue on this topic.

"Forget it, take me in first. An Yao said.

An Lu is happy.

Upstairs and downstairs, An Lu took her around, and made a special introduction to the room where she and Pang Fei had lived before, hoping to awaken some of An Yao's memories.

An Yao followed one by one, but she still didn't have a clue.

An Lu persuaded her not to worry, "Sister, don't be too anxious, maybe one day you will suddenly remember everything from the past, just like you suddenly woke up." You are a lucky man, and we all believe that you will always be lucky. ”

An Yao smiled bitterly, "Am I lucky? ”

An Lu said, "You have a husband as good as my brother-in-law, who loves you and loves you, I don't know how many women in the world envy you, and your eyes are red with envy." You've been in a lot of danger before, and you've been lucky to have survived. Aren't you lucky, you're just so lucky. ”

"Your sculpture is still in the downtown hospital, do you know what those people call you?"

"What?"

"God of luck. ”

"Sister, you are content, you said that you don't have to worry about food or drink, and you have a husband who loves you, and there are two children who love you, what are you still tossing. It is not easy for you and my brother-in-law to get to this day, and now my brother-in-law has rightfully become King Pang, you are Mrs. Pang, you said that you are not good to be your Mrs. Pangwang, and you are still making trouble, you are not afraid that day you will be ruined with all these happiness. ”

An Yao said disapprehantly, "If I cared about these things, I wouldn't be making such a fuss." I don't care about the things outside of my body, because those are things that can be earned by hard work, and now they are gone, and I can earn them later. ”

"But I can't live without the memories I lost and the memories of the past twenty years, otherwise I would be as if I had never been in this world, and all the honors, happiness, and envy seemed to have nothing to do with me. ”

"Because I didn't have the experience of those things in the past, I didn't really feel it, so I always had the feeling that while enjoying those things, I seemed to be usurping the fruits of other people's labor. ”

"It was so unsettling to me that I couldn't really enjoy it in peace. ”

"I want to know those things in the past, and I don't have to do anything, but I just want to accept everything calmly as the real Pang Fei's wife. Rather than enjoying it all with peace of mind as a very unfamiliar identity. ”

An Lu asked incomprehensibly, "Is there a difference?" It's you left and right, and you haven't taken anyone's happiness." ”

An Yao shook her head and said, "There is a difference, there is a big difference." Think about it, if someone suddenly finds you and gives you a lot of money, and gives you the supreme honor and glory, will you also feel uneasy?"

"I'm in the same situation now as if I suddenly had a lot of wealth, I don't know why that person is so good to me, I don't know why I have such a supreme honor, this series of unknowns makes me panic and I can't feel at ease. ”

An Lu seemed to be able to vaguely understand some of An Yao's thoughts, but ......

After all, this matter can't come in a hurry in a day or two, she still has to persuade An Yao, "No matter what, don't make trouble with my brother-in-law, it's not easy for my brother-in-law." Mom now has Alzheimer's disease, and her condition is getting worse, and my brother-in-law comes to see my parents every once in a while to help the family do this and that. On the other hand, I am busy with work and taking care of my children. ”

"He's your husband after all, you can't do anything about him, you have to follow you and get used to you, how tired he is. ”

An Yao said helplessly, "I don't want him to be so good to me, but he can't seem to do it." ”