"Manager, what are you doing here?" I said, pretending to be stupid.

"Wind Chime, have you been thinking about it lately, ask some idiotic questions, I brought my brother on a trip?"

Nuo Lan smiled: "Brother Wind Chime, I am my sister's assistant, and Sister Zuo said that she brought Brother Li to treat her illness." ”

"I'm sorry, I suddenly short-circuited, Sister Nuolan, it's the first time I've been here here, and this mall feels a little deserted?"

"Yes, this is a new area, in the development, we work here mainly to consider the cost, my sister and I have just started our careers, we can't afford to pay much rent, and there are water and electricity or something, saving a little is a little, and it will be better in the future." ”

"Sister Nuolan, you will return to work in a tertiary hospital in the future, let me give you a prediction. ”

Nuo Lan thought I was just talking casually, just smiling, and the short-haired Zuo Mi looked at me suspiciously, but didn't say anything.

"Thank you, Brother Wind Chime, if I can work in a tertiary hospital, I will definitely treat you to a big meal. ”

Looking at the somewhat young Nuo Lan, I am experiencing their experiences before, or going back in time, this is an opposite world, except for the short hair Zuo Mi is not very similar, other people are more in line.

The door was pushed open, and it was Noyan.

"I'm sorry, Sister Zuo, I'm a little delayed. Noyan said.

"No, no, Nuoyan, long time no see, it's been half a year since you last treated my brother, you were very busy at the time, only half of the treatment, now my brother's condition seems to be much more serious, I look for this guy to treat me, it seems to have a little effect, but this guy is not happy. The short-haired Zuo Mi pointed at me.

"Manager, I can be blamed for this, I'm just a handyman, I know a little bit of psychology, it's all a sideshow, I can't take it on the table, you use me as an attending physician, I have a hard time?" I muttered to express my dissatisfaction.

"Don't complain to me, learn more from Dr. Noyan. ”

Nuo Yan smiled: "Manager Zuo, how about I borrow this handsome guy from you and let me be my assistant?"

"Take it, so I don't have to worry about seeing this guy. ”

Nuoyan said to me: "Handsome guy, please help me push Brother Li to the room inside." ”

I did so, and Nuo Lan and the short-haired Zuo Mi didn't know what they were talking about, and they laughed happily.

I closed the door, Li Qiang somehow fell asleep, and Nuoyan said to me: "I see that you are a little familiar at first sight, have we met there?"

"Sure, how old are you?"

"Do you mean age?"

"Yes. ”

"22 years old. ”

"We'll meet after I've been with you for two years. ”

"Hmmm, no, it's so mysterious, where are we going to meet in two years?"

I whispered in Noyan's ear, "I can't tell you yet, I have something important to talk to you about, and I'll talk about it after the treatment." ”

Noyan is very aware and interested in some unknown territory.

"Brother Li, Brother Li, wake up. ”

Li Qiang slowly opened his eyes, "Doctor Nuoyan, why did I come to you?"

"How are you feeling lately?" said Noyan,

"It's still the same, the insomnia is very bad, and that scene keeps repeating itself in my mind, lingering. ”

"Do you take your medicine on time?" fluoxetine, sertraline, paroxetine?"

"I eat every day, but I can't help but think about that unbearable past, I can only bear the pain silently, sometimes I really want to make a break, I am really happy to see you again. ”

"Brother Li, let's start then, wind chimes, don't make a sound, just listen quietly. Noyan said to me at the same time.

"Good. ”

I blinked, the surrounding environment changed, the sky was dripping with a light rain, I knew that I had entered Nuoyan's hypnosis, this is too exaggerated, this kind of hypnosis is the first time I have seen it, there is a saying on the Internet, "close-up hypnosis".

Li Qiang said to himself: "The sky was drizzling, mixed with cold wind, my ex-wife and I walked to the Civil Affairs Bureau one after another, and my mood at that time could only be described by the word "pain".

I know that this is a hypnosis of Li Qiang, no wonder Nuoyan told me not to make a sound just now, I can't see Nuoyan and Li Qiang there, I can just hear their conversation, but what is the purpose of Nuoyan just calling me in, which makes me wonder.

Li Qiang continued: "I vaguely remember that year, it was the end of 2015, my ex-wife came to my hometown county and applied for a divorce certificate with me, and our five-year marriage on thin ice came to an end. The second is to dislike my shabby, depressed, more than a year of living separately in the two places, adding a lot of oil to these two things, so she repeatedly forced me to divorce, in desperation, I chose to let go, chose to be a real man who took and put down!

I don't cry because I sweated at the stage when she forced the divorce, and when a person cries without tears, there must be only a shriveled cone heartache in the depths of my heart......

Let her go, I sighed.

It turns out that Li Qiang still has such an unbearable past, the reason why he didn't tell me last time was because he didn't trust me, I continued to listen carefully.

"After the divorce, followed by my work has not been smooth, encountered setbacks again and again, so that I once suspected that my ability to integrate into the society has been lost, in 2016 to the beginning of 2017, the work is not smooth, which makes my frustration even worse, but my heart continues to motivate myself, no matter how hard I work, no matter how hard I don't want to do it, I have to do it, because if I don't do it, I will starve to death! It is this belief that has always supported me to work hard, and with the adjustment of my mentality, my work has slowly improved, but just when my work is improving, the sudden blow is once again like a basin of cold water poured down from my head, which makes me panic all day. In 2017, my parents both fell ill in a year's time, fortunately they were some chronic physiological diseases, my mother suffered from cervical spondylosis, the vertebral artery compressed the nerve, resulting in sudden fainting, unconscious, because my mother did thread picking work in the wool factory all the year round, this job, sitting there is a long-term bowed work, long-term bowing of the head of the possibility of cervical spondylosis will be greatly improved, but also because of the long-term bowing, overwork into a disease.

As for my father, one of the kidneys was severely atrophied, or failed, and lost his function, and the other was severely hydrographed and a large number of stones, and he needed to be operated on as soon as possible.

However, my parents' condition was fine for a period of time, and I was relieved to continue my life by continuing conservative treatment.

Just when I was at ease, at the end of 2017, my uncle suddenly had the most dangerous disease in vascular diseases (aortic dissection), and the blood vessel suddenly burst, and it cost nearly 350,000 yuan, but he still couldn't save his life.

My uncle's sudden death caused me a huge trauma, how dangerous this disease is, the probability of disease is one in every 500,000 people, think about such a probability of underground disease, actually bumped into by my uncle, this is really unlucky. The sudden death of my uncle, I once fell into a panic, I clearly remember a few days ago to see my uncle well, healthy, but who would have expected a few days later, I will leave alone, the whole family fell into a state of grief, the day I learned the bad news, it seems that at that moment, the air in the sky seems to have been solidified, depressed to the extreme, the color of the sky is gray, blurred eyes, packed luggage, rushed to the station to take the car......

When my uncle died, I couldn't believe it was true for a long time before I saw his coffin, and it wasn't until I returned home that night that I really believed that he was no longer alive. Grandma cried to death, and the scene of the white-haired man sending the black-haired man came to my eyes for the first time, and tears rushed down......

As a result of this series of traumatic events, I also suffered from major depression, insomnia all night, and epilepsy during the medication, although sometimes I also reflect on myself, maybe if I didn't get divorced, there would be no later things. ”

Noyan said, "Do you accept the reality you endure?"

"I don't want to accept it, but it's what it is. ”

"I think you made the right choice, know how to let go of a love, in the end so as not to hurt yourself more, I give you a little advice, you have to find this person, psychological companionship and spiritual companionship is the best way to cure depression, anxiety patients, companionship is not only in reality, but also a lot of online companionship. If you have the experience of illness, you can become a role model and hope for people with depression and anxiety. If you are lucky enough to find someone who thinks you are a role model, you should feel fortunate that the energy to cheer up may be given by this companion, and having such a companion may be more useful than any drugs and self-relaxation. Too many people don't understand depression, and it causes them to be terrified, depressed, self-defeating, they once thought that they were terminally ill, and they once firmly believed that they would never get better.

The patient's ignorance, the black box effect of the uncertain future, and the pain of emotional and physical torture in the stage, have smoothed out the little will that people still have, and when the patient looks around him, there is no one who can give him warmth and strength, which makes them desperate. They are like drowning helpers, with a strong desire to survive, but no one can help them. I have the privilege of being the rescuer, I walk on thin ice every day on the road of helping others, I firmly believe that I can bring them a trace of energy and strength, so that they can re-strengthen their walls in psychological construction, after consolidation, it will be enough to resist the forces of foreign invasion, everyone who finds me is an angel who has temporarily lost his spirit, how can I leave it alone when the angel comes?

In today's society, there is marriage every day and divorce every day, it is normal, your experience is not the first nor the last, give up illusions, to try to find this person is what you need to do, instead of being depressed all day long, to find this person, she will take you out of the predicament, out of the shadows, only alive can there be hope. ”