Chapter 2 What is lost will be lost
"I used to think so, but the older I get, the more I don't believe it! I remember my mother used to appear in my dreams for the first year after she died, but since she died again in that dream, she has never appeared again, and I almost forget what she looks like!"
"Rest assured, he's happy now. "I stared at him for a long time, and after a week of getting along, I always felt that he was not simple, and sometimes I felt that he was older than me, but looking at his face full of collagen, I immediately ignored the thoughts in my heart.
As we passed by the policemen in our little battery car, we heard them whispering something
"Alas, Xu Lao has been handed over to the party all his life, and he has also participated in battles" A man in his fifties had a long scar on his face, which was very scary, and said
"Yes, I've won a lot of medals," a handsome young man chimed in
"I heard that the chief came to pay his condolences in the morning," another young man dropped a mine.
"yes, we're not late?"
"Ouch, don't you say that Xu Lao is not a policeman, how can he be involved with the army?"
"I heard that there was an infectious disease in 20 years, a global infectious disease, and there was a lot of riots, so he went to join the army and fought for more than two years."
"I also heard that Xu Lao is still single! There is no descendant, and his nephew still holds him the spirit."
The voices gradually drifted away from us. We also passed by the man's tombstone later, and there were many more people in front of the tombstone. I didn't care about anything!
When we were on the way back, looking at the scattered crowds and the lonely tombstones, I don't know what attracted me to something, so I must take a look. When I came to the tombstone, I was shocked to see the picture.
"Oh my God, why does this man have so many scars. ”
"Yes, it should have been left over from the battle" Xiao Fan stared at the top of the tombstone.
"Oh, it's a miracle that you can live to be 95 years old with so many injuries! Well, the surname is Xu, Xu Yang! What Xu Yang!" Is that Xu Yang?
"That's right, it's the Xu Yang you think!"
"How do you know who I'm thinking? Who are you! Xu Yang! Xu Yang! Hahahaha, I couldn't see you when I was alive, but I saw you buried in the soil when I was dead! Yes, yes! I thought you were dead a long time ago, and I don't know where you were buried, but I didn't expect that there would be a time to say goodbye, and that goodbye after that goodbye would be a matter of things and people! Have you ever regretted it?" I shouted hysterically, I couldn't care about everything I had buried in my heart for many years at this moment. inexplicably believed Xiao Fan's words and believed that this was that person.
"Have you ever thought about me, why don't you want to see the last one when you break up, are you as ruthless as ever, do you want to be under my sight even after death?" The whole person is paralyzed on the ground like no bones!
"Do you want to see him again?" Xiao Fan shouldn't say that the words that came out of Yan Fan's mouth were cold to the bone.
"Who the hell are you?"
"The 19 sons that Hades hates the most! ”
"Hehe, it's not like you know how much your parents hate you just by looking at your name!"
"Needless to say, it's so ugly, and I don't care if they like it. ”
"Why are you following me!"
"It's not something you should know. ”
"So what should I know? How is my mom?"
"Don't worry, your parents have been reincarnated as humans, and your mother was reincarnated in the second year of her death!"
"Oh, is it my daughter?" is the question I want to ask the most! It's my spiritual sustenance, if I don't think so, maybe I can't hold on for so long, when my mother died, I was pregnant with my daughter, a month before giving birth to my daughter, I dreamed that she died in my dream world, I checked a lot of information and said, this is the reincarnation of the deceased, and I have also seen a rumor, it is said that the elder in the family died, and the child conceived within a year may be the reincarnation of the elder, when I saw the face that was exactly the same as my mother, I really didn't regret it and wasn't afraid of being tired, I was satisfied, I swore that I would be good to my daughter and give her all the love, so I had this belief and carried the depression。 I have carried all kinds of troubles. Because I protect her!
He stared at me for a long time before he said, "The reincarnation of the Heavenly Dao has its own fixed number! The Heavenly Secret must not be leaked, and if the Heavenly Secret is leaked, he will be whipped by the Nine-Colored Divine Thunder a hundred times." All I can tell you is that she is happy now. ”
As long as she's happy, it doesn't matter what she does. ”
"Are you here to pick me up now?"
"Sort of!
"You just said, ask me if I want to see him?"
"Yes, do you want to see it?"
"Then is he here now? Heh, Xu Yang, you listen to me, I don't see you, I don't want to see you even if I die! I hate you! I hate you! What you leave me with is an unforgettable pain, if I am reincarnated, I will drink three bowls of Meng Po soup and deprive you of my soul!" Yan Fan, who looked at me who was almost crazy, said.
"You can't enter reincarnation! You have a task, you just need to remember one thing! After being reborn, you have to have ten children."
"What the hell? are you a pig for me.................." Before he could finish speaking, he lost consciousness in front of him
Yan Fan stared at the figure floating in the air in front of the tombstone
"It's her who doesn't want to see you!"
"Where has she gone!" the muffled, hoarse voice in the air sounded like a ghostly roar.
"I'm here for her to wait for the two of you to reunite, and this is the beginning of my mission!"
"What a mission! What does it have to do with us!"
"It's not for you to know, remember to have ten children!Let's go, the Chosen One!" With a wave of Yan Fan's big hand, his soul drifted into the distance.
Yan Fan stared at the sunset and muttered, "Fucking shuttled through the space for 50 years, it took me to find two Chosen One, I'm really tired! I don't know how many of the eighteen have been found, and I don't know when I will be able to go back to my volcano bath." I guess it's quite tiring. He waved his hand through the space, leaving only the cooling corpse on the ground.
After a long time, the workers who came to clean the cemetery found the corpses that had been cold on the ground. The first to arrive was the old woman's granddaughter. About six hours later, all the rest of the family were present
"What the hell is going on, why did Grandma die in the cemetery?"
"Yes, whose tomb is there, and why is Grandma there?"
"And little sister, why aren't you with grandma?"
"Hehehehe, you all know to blame me, I said that I don't go to work, I want to accompany my grandmother through the last section, you don't have time, can't I take time out?"
Silent air in the dark night. There was not a single sound. The person on the bed sat up from the bed suddenly, gasping for breath, and the beads of sweat on his forehead fell on his life! It's been a long time to breathe. Looking around with round eyes! Looking at the hazy furnishings in the moonlight, it seems a little familiar!
"Where is this? Oh my God, I don't have any strength at all! Am I still in the cemetery? Did I faint? Who sent me to rest somewhere? It's nostalgic to have this place in this year!" I was about to move my body and get out of bed to shine on the lamp, when there was a panic outside, and the door and the light were turned on! The blinding light made my eyes a little unbearable! Just as I was adjusting to the light, I heard the sound of talking.
"Xiaoxi, what's wrong, do you have a nightmare?" I didn't slow down when I heard this voice, who called me Xiaoxi, I haven't heard anyone call me Xiaoxi for many years! It's because the person who called me Xiaoxi is gone! Who would call me that? I squinted my eyes hard to find the person who spoke! This middle-aged woman looked familiar! Suddenly my eyes widened! I almost screamed out in a surprised and sharp voice!
"Mom, Mom, is that you?"
"What's wrong with you, girl? Did the fever burn out your brain?"
I couldn't say anything, I hugged my mother and cried.
"Hey, what's wrong with you kid? What kind of nightmare are you crying like this?"
"Uh......h I'm dreaming of the end of the world! I'm scared and anxious!" "Isn't it the end of the world, the years when my mother died, it was the end of the world for me." In his last life, he suffered from mild depression because he broke up with Xu Yang, and then the death of his mother raised his depression to a higher level, and those years were like tormenting in hell.
"That's scary! Do you want me to sleep with you?"
"Yes, okay!" I still remember when I was a child, I didn't like to hold people, especially when I was hugged by others, and I avoided it when my mother hugged me, and I hated her and my brother for being clingy. Later, when my mother died, I missed her hugging me! But that was a luxury. It's finally a hug. In this way, my mother hugged me, and we remembered it on my small bed that was two meters wide, and soon my mother's snoring was heard.
But I can't sleep, and after crying, people calm down, what the hell is going on? Am I dead? I met my mother in the underworld? But do dead people still need to sleep, and they still snore?
I climbed out of bed lightly, I wanted to turn on the room light, but thought that my mother was still sleeping, so I opened the door and went out, found and waited, opened, where is this, how familiar the place, I sat on the bench and looked at these furnishings, carefully recalled, and gradually remembered that this table was played by my father, and then I collected it in the study of the villa, on which I put a wooden board of golden silk nanmu that I bought and changed it into a long table for writing calligraphy, because later the family was demolished, my younger siblings disliked these things old, there was no place to put them, and then I secretly discussed with my younger brother to put me there, in order to be able to use it, I made some modifications, and did not destroy the original table。 It's been decades, and there's a reason why I didn't remember it!
Inspired by the table, I began to gradually recall that this is the house where I was born and raised for more than 20 years! Since my parents got married, they have been in this house and have never left! Later, if it had not been demolished, my father would not have left this house! Those Cheng Shi that have not been broken are still in my villa!
"Am I dreaming? But it's too real," I felt pain, and my head hurt right now. So am I being reborn! That Yan Fan said that I can't enter reincarnation, is that what he meant? Let me start over.
"I'm reborn! Is my essence dead too? So I'm reborn at this time?" If it was all a dream, now that I'm waking up from a dream, when I wake up from a dream, the things in the dream won't be so clear. If I were dreaming now, then I wouldn't be so confused about this period now. So what I'm sure of is rebirth.
"No! I don't remember what kind of catastrophe I had when I was a child! Don't you need an opportunity to be reborn?" I remember what happened to that Yan Fan before I died! He sent me here? But is there any point? Why did you send me back here? And the sentence "I have to have ten children"! Why is this sentence so clear in my mind!
"Forget it, I don't understand! My brain is a little confused, when should I do it now, how old am I, what am I doing now?" So I turned on the bathroom light and looked at me in the mirror!
"I can still see my face full of collagen, and my little granddaughter is really not as good-looking as I did! I haven't inherited it at all!" This should be when I was about eighteen years old, but I have kept a non-mainstream hairstyle for several years! I don't know when, I looked for it to see if there is a wall calendar, my mother used to like to hang a wall calendar at home, in July! 2006! I was seventeen years old!
"Seventeen years old! Seventeen seems to have a lot of things happening! The turning point of fate is this year! Although I have also spelled out a happy path in my previous life! But what would I have done without the turning point of fate? Would it have been good or bad? I want to take a different path from my previous life! Old man! It is possible that we will not meet in this life! "This change of history should not make future generations collapse! Will my children be changed?
"Yan Fan, if you can hear the highest explanation to me, you said to give birth to ten children, then I gave birth to ten children, wouldn't it also change history? It's better to give me an explanation, otherwise I don't care, I don't care what you said about having ten children! Hmph, when I am a pig? Give birth to ten! Isn't that what I hollowed out?" Things are very complicated and I suddenly don't know how to do it, I am seventeen years old, and I have dropped out of school for two years! I can't say that I have dropped out of school! After graduating from school and going to vocational high school in the third year of junior high school, I wanted to go to the corresponding college entrance examination class of vocational high school, but I went to the employment class. In my last life, when my career was not going well, I actually blamed my mother a little, I wanted to go to school, but I didn't go to school before, and then I wanted to learn to paint, I especially like to paint, but my mother was embarrassed and said, "Learning to paint is very expensive, and why do you want to learn it?" That's it, I didn't argue, and then I learned that I went to the employment class, and the teacher came to ask if we need to change classes? I especially want to change, but my mother's embarrassed face, I know, she thought it was a difficult thing, thought it would cost a lot of money, I blamed her, but then I was indifferent! It's not that I'm not really angry, I'm not sensible, and I didn't study well when I was studying! I want to take an abnormal path, but my family's ability is limited.