"Did you think about reporting the case at that time?" Huang Yixi knew that Xiao Li's mood was wrong at this time, but she didn't want to comfort her, because as soon as she was comforted, she was afraid that Xiao Li would relax this restraint, and she might lose control all of a sudden and fall into serious emotional chaos. This kind of pain buried deep in the heart is an underground volcano that can erupt at any time.

It's not good for her.

"I thought about it, but quickly gave up. Xiao Li said bitterly.

"My family is very strict, and my dad is the kind of traditional parent, which is described by the outside world as straight male cancer. ”

Xiao Li talked about her father, a look of fear flashed on her face, her father himself is usually rude, and he must bring Baishui dialect to greet the women in other people's families, he is lustful himself, but he is very strict with his wife and children.

When Xiao Li spoke, his hands kept shaking, and he couldn't help but keep stroking her thighs against his knees.

"Growing up, whenever I encountered something, my dad would either scold me or beat me when he found out. ”

Xiao Li raised his head, "So that night, my first reaction was to go back home, wash it over and over again, and use disinfectant, I didn't leave the clothes, I threw them away, and the next morning, the first thing I did was go to the pharmacy." ”

Xiao Li thought for a while, and added, "I'm not a virgin, I had a boyfriend when I was in college, but he was from another province, and when we graduated, he chose to go back to his hometown, and we broke up." ”

Huang Yixi understands that although Xiao Li tried his best to suppress these emotions, he showed numbness and indifference, and his behavior was sluggish and slow. But in fact, she is afraid, but she is afraid that she has been in fear since the incident, and her fear is still multiple, there are realistic fears, such as fear of pregnancy, fear of being disabled, fear of infection, fear of being discriminated against by others, etc., and there are also unrealistic fears, that is, fears without realistic reasons.

"And what are you looking for me to do?"

Xiao Li stopped for a while, closed his eyes and opened them again, "I don't know, Sister Wu has been to our unit to sell insurance, and the people in our unit are discussing the administrative litigation case in Partridge Village, Sister Wu said that the relationship with you is a ghost, I want to see you, I want to talk to you, I haven't talked to anyone about this matter until now." ”

To put it bluntly, what Xiao Li actually needs is not a lawyer, but a tree hole.

Probably a little more than a tree hole, she needs a professional to tell her that she's not a bad girl, that she's forced, and that she's handled it properly.

So Huang Yixi didn't make a sound, just listened attentively to her narration.

"I thought I didn't care, but these days, no matter what time it was, I would think about the situation at that time, and I wouldn't tell you that yesterday in Partridge Village, I was sitting there watching the parade, and I saw him again, and I don't know what others were looking at, but what I saw was the scene of myself being raped, and those people who marched were watching me being raped. ”

Xiao Li raised his head with tears streaming down his face, his voice hoarse, "I originally thought that I was not a virgin, nor did I have more than one boyfriend, and that incident was regarded as being bitten by a dog, but in the past few days, I have opened my eyes and closed my eyes for this incident, and I even blame myself, why didn't I resist strongly at that time, even if I was injured and killed by him, it can also prove that I was not voluntary." ”

Xiao Li obviously not only felt ashamed at the moment, but also fell into serious self-blame.

"No, you did a good job, you protected yourself from harm, it's not your fault that you're being forced. ”

Huang Yixi said that when she was in college, she also studied psychology, and severe self-blame and shame sometimes caused the victim girl to self-harm or suicide.

"It's not my fault?" Xiao Li muttered to herself, repeating it many times, and her originally dim gaze slowly brightened.

"It's not your fault. Huang Yixi followed her tone and confirmed it again and again.

"But how dare he if I hadn't behaved like that?"

Xiao Li always had a feeling in his heart, was there something wrong with her behavior that he dared to take this kind of action, if she was a person who was clear and jade, how could he violate her.

"It's really not your fault, you know, there are more women who have encountered this kind of thing than you know, and there are people who have paid a lot for it. ”

Huang Yixi cited an old case of rape that was opened on the Internet a few days ago because of the death of a certain actress.

The actress has mentioned to her friends more than once that among the men she hates the most in her life, including a boss in the Hong Kong entertainment industry, the actress said that when she was filming in Singapore, she was raped by this person, and after the incident, this person still sneered at her, and she still remembers that sneering to this day.

It's a pity that the acute phase of the actress's rape trauma syndrome has not been relieved, and the knot has not been untied during the long period of recombination.

"Rape Trauma Syndrome Restructuring Period?" Xiao Li raised his head in confusion and looked at Huang Yixi.

"That's right. Huang Yixi nodded.

The recombinant phase refers to a long period of time after the acute phase, which often lasts for months or even years or decades. During the restructuring period, the victim's emotions calmed down, but there were still many remaining psychological problems.

The study found that 95 per cent of rape victims developed severe PTSD in the first two weeks after the incident, and 25 per cent of women continued to suffer from the disorder five years after the incident.

This disorder can manifest itself in several ways. Some of them have become very cautious and have shrunk their lives very small. The personality appears withdrawn and aloof, and often becomes very silent.

If she is killed in the house, she will be afraid to stay inside. If you are killed outside, you may be afraid to go out into the streets. They may also be afraid of certain colors or objects because they have been present at the scene of the rape.

For example, a girl who was raped had a bottle of wine in front of her, and since then she has been afraid of any bottle, glass, or door. Fear of sex is a very common problem.

Others will be short-tempered, will imagine the people around them as enemies who are attacking and malicious towards her, and they will become debauched, aggressive, and even depraved.

The so-called rumors of the actress having a bad temper and playing a big name may be fundamentally a symptom of her post-traumatic stress disorder.

"You mean, I imagine that many people have encountered rape before, just like an actress, who always remembers the way that person sneered at her?"

Xiao Li is actually very smart, and immediately put the actress's situation on himself.

Huang Yixi nodded, in reality, there are more cases of being raped or almost raped than most people imagine, and this often happens to acquaintances.

Just like Li Min said that her colleague was almost raped, even if it didn't happen at the time, the female colleague didn't dare to stay at the scene, walking so far alone at night, fear, anger, anxiety and nervousness far outweigh the uneasiness of walking alone in an unfamiliar environment.

Presumably, that incident will also become an indelible memory for her life.

"It's not your fault, don't punish yourself for someone else's fault. Huang Yixi said a very vulgar but appropriate sentence.

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