I came to the general ward, I specially greeted this ward, only Su Ningning alone, I walked into the ward alone with nutritional products, the vital detector was running non-stop, Ling Ningning was so beautiful when she was sick, her fair face, her beautiful nose, although she was wearing a hospital gown, it did not affect her beauty at all, this kind of natural beauty face, it made people itch, I belonged to this kind of person, but I could not be blasphemed from a distance.

She coughed twice, and I helped her up and sat on the bed.

"Wake up?" I said happily.

"Here?"

"Of course it's the hospital, do you know me?"

"Well, wind chimes. ”

"Good memory, how do you feel?"

"My hand hurts a little, why am I here?" said to me, as if I didn't remember anything before.

I held Ning Ningning's right hand, avoiding her left hand, which was wrapped in a thick bandage.

"The doctor said, let me not stimulate you, recuperate first, don't think too much, it's safe here, everything is with me!"

Yu Ningning looked at me and frowned, "You saved me?"

"I didn't save you, you were sent here, what about me, you know, work in this hospital, I know that you were sent in, and I specially told the doctor to treat you, and I didn't do anything else. ”

"That's right, but thank you. Su Ningning looked a little lost.

"It's okay, that's what I'm supposed to do. ”

Yu Ningning grabbed my hand and said excitedly: "But why can't I remember what happened, can you tell me?"

"Oh my God, you're so strong. ”

Su Ningning didn't know where to get such a big strength, and it hurt me so much, if it weren't for what I just said, I'm afraid it would have been tighter.

"I'm sorry, I'm just wondering what happened to me, why I'm here, scratching you up. ”

"It's okay, I'll ask Dr. Lee Mei Hui to come over. ”

After sending a WeChat message, Dr. Li Meihui came over quickly.

"Ms. Yu Ningning, how do you feel?" Li Meihui put together her glasses, not to mention that wearing glasses felt particularly attractive.

"Well, doctor, can you tell me why I'm here, who sent me here, why my left hand hurts so much. She was anxious to know what was going on.

"Don't worry, your body hasn't recovered to its best condition yet, so let's ask the nurse to measure your blood pressure and blood sugar first, eat some food, I'll tell you more slowly, okay?" Li Meihui gathered her glasses again.

"Okay. ”

Lee Mi-hye motioned for me to go out first, and I did so.

In the hallway, Li Meihui said to me: "I can't let her recall the past, that will bring her a big psychological barrier." ”

I wondered, "Why?"

"I learned about what happened before, do you know why Shu Ningning cut her wrists?"

"Why?"

"Someone is going to rape her!!" Li Meihui's just six words shocked my heart.

"I see, I understand what you're doing. ”

"Actually, it's not just rape, there are people who want to kill her, do you think you can make her remember. ”

"But why can't Yu Ningning remember what happened before, it stands to reason that it shouldn't be?"

"That's because I cleaned her brain and deleted that memory, of course she can't remember. ”

"How?

Li Meihui smiled: "Aren't you the heir of the copper needle?

After Li Meihui finished speaking, she fled quickly, and I hurriedly chased after her: "Sister Meihui, how about two hot pots?"

"It's pretty much the same, this is Shu Ningning's test list, take a look. ”

Red blood cells, hemoglobin, white blood cells, platelets, liver function, and kidney function are all normal, but this TCD is a little abnormal.

"What does this last indicator mean?" I asked Li Meihui.

"It's stimulated, and the brain is starting to degenerate, and it's a pity for this girl. ”

"What a pity?"

Li Meihui said to me seriously: "If you want to cure her disease, I am talking about completely curing it, it is difficult to !!."

"Is there no way?"

"Yes, you go wake her up. ”

"Can you explain that a little bit?"

"Didn't you notice? I put my glasses together while talking to Yu Ningning. ”

"You're hypnotizing Ning Ningning?"

"Yes, it's pretty smart, or let her forget the conversation with me, every time I talk to her, she won't remember me. ”

"What does that mean?"

"Heart disease still needs heart medicine, of course, it's not a quick-acting heart pill or anything like that, I mean that heart disease is the shadow in Ning Ningning's heart, and this shadow can't be dispersed, remember Deng Qiuju?"

"Nonsense, isn't it not long since I was discharged from the hospital. ”

Li Meihui smiled: "I thought you forgot, yes, some symptoms are similar to Shu Ningning, encountering a certain scene and character or a sentence will bring back that unbearable memory, and the condition may recur at any time, which is the more difficult part of this mental illness." ”

"Persecution paranoia!"

"Well, Su Ningning has this kind of psychological disorder, which is like a seed hidden in the bottom of the heart, no matter what kind of drug, sertraline, paroxetine and other antidepressant drugs will not have much effect, this is like grass, as long as the root is still there, it will recur, can you understand?"

I was about to light a cigarette to relieve the depression in my heart, but was stopped by Li Meihui.

"Let's go, let's talk as we go, you can't smoke inside the department, but now you can smoke outside. ”

I hurriedly lit a cigarette and took a deep breath.

Li Meihui smiled: "It seems that that girl has a different relationship with you?"

"It's not that good, it's a little related, it's a very good girl, it's just that her fate is ill-fated, and sometimes it feels like God is really unfair, and she has to suffer so much at such a young age. ”

"I see, can I ask you a question?" said Yu Ningning, looking at me.

"If there's anything we can't say between us, say it. ”

"Based on the situation of Su Ningning, what do you think of the word "sex"?"

"In our society now, I remember when I was a kid when I was in school, my tablemate next to me asked her mother, where do I come from? This situation has been accompanied by children entering puberty, and when they begin to receive calls from the opposite sex, parents will anxiously tell them: now is not the time to fall in love, and your most important task now is to read the book well. This phenomenon may be a true reflection of the parents' own anxiety in the face of lust. To put it simply, many parents subconsciously want to separate their children from sexuality as soon as they perceive that their children's sexual consciousness is beginning to sprout, and they want to raise their children to be innocent and innocent children without sexuality. Parents' anxiety about sex will be invisibly passed on to their children, and gradually, children will seem to begin to mistakenly think that once lust appears in their hearts, it seems to be a "sin".

Since then, sex has become a topic that no one dares to take the initiative to mention between parents and children, and the understanding and exploration of lust has become a life lesson for children. If they are lucky, they can also communicate with like-minded partners on the way to growth, grow together and learn from each other. However, we don't know exactly what they learned from it. What's even more terrifying is that when they have a relationship with their partner in the future, even if they feel that something is wrong with them, because sex and lust have long been regarded as a sin, they do not dare to ask for help and find someone to discuss.

Because in our society, talking about sex is a shame, or a shame.

Lust is a natural instinct that every human being has in the process of development, just as a person needs food when he is hungry.

Especially after entering puberty, due to the development of physiological mechanisms and hormonal changes, we are accompanied by the germination of lust and sexual desire. However, when lust is truly judged to be a "sin", we are prone to feel guilty about our lust and subconsciously suppress and deny it.

However, the appearance of lust makes us want to be close to people, allows us to have an intimate relationship with our partner, and enjoy the flow of lust between each other and feel happy.

Once one's anxiety is reduced, when sex is no longer regarded as a sin, it may be able to teach generations to face and understand their own emotions and desires with a healthy attitude.

I can probably understand what you mean by asking me this question, what do you want to say about the person who wants to rape and kill Ning Ningning?"

Li Meihui smiled: " I know a lot, this is all guessed by you, give you a thumbs up, yes, when I was a child, my parents' education was always very tactful, this may also be a desire to breed crime, the more confused things are, full of freshness, now in society, of course, our country is a little better, rape is much less, after all, who wants to take the risk of a few hundred dollars, but it is different in India, it is simply a hell on earth for women, of course, the education method of each country is different, such as Japan, legalization, since childhood parents began to popularize this knowledge, but it has received miraculous results, there are few rape crimes, and the crime rate in this area is very low, which is all a matter of the upper class, we don't count what we said, I guess the person who committed the crime also has a certain psychological disorder to a greater or lesser extent!"

"Your guesses are always so accurate, I admire you a little, by the way, who sent Ning Ningning?"

"Didn't you tell you about the ambulance?"

"I mean that!" I deliberately raised my voice.

"Haha, I know that your kid is very bad, very lucky, intact and not violated. ”

"Then it stands to reason that Su Ningning should know, why did she choose to commit suicide by cutting her wrists?"

"This is also the question I want to ask you, this girl has a strong sense of self-esteem, after all, this is about a person's innocence, the man is fine, the woman is too bad, not only will the neighbors point fingers, the psychological disability is the most terrible, I think Su Ningning does not know that she has not been violated, I don't know the specific details, but it can be seen that Xuan Ningning attaches great importance to her chastity. ”

"Is it also the murderer's conscience who found out?"

"Maybe someone just found out about this?"

"Haha, well, that's a reason. ”

"You've smoked three of them, and you're not afraid that your wife will go back to clean you up. ”

"Smoking is bad for your health, my wife often tells me this, but I can't help but want to smoke. ”

"Hey, I don't have a boyfriend yet, so you're just teasing me like this? ”

"That's not good, a hot pot is too expensive, take advantage of the fire to rob it!"