She took me to a separate room on the second floor, and there was a bed, which should be her usual resting place.

"What did you bring me here for?" I asked.

"You be quiet, is there really another me?"

"Believe it or not, I've just been talking for so long and asking such a boring question. I said impatiently.

"Okay, okay, I believe you, it's so weird, I can't accept it for a while, understand. ”

"The last time I came to see another you at your place, it's likely that after I left, that I just peeked around like I am now, and then came to see another you, a bit of a tedious one, you may be confused, but that's the way it is. ”

"Okay, so what do I do?"

"Let it be, it's good that you know the situation, I've been here for so long, I should go back, otherwise the short-haired Zuo Mi will suspect me." ”

"It's an interesting nickname for her. ”

It just so happened that my phone call came, and the short-haired Zuo Mi called.

"Look, say Cao Cao Cao will arrive. ”

Su Ningning smiled and didn't speak, I made a silent gesture, and Su Ningning's stupid expression was very funny.

Short hair Zuo Mi asked me to go to a place, the location has been sent to me on WeChat, I took a look, what the hell is this place.

"Let's go, pretty girl, see you another day. ”

"Hey, wait, I'll add you on WeChat, what questions do I have for you?"

I just can't change the problem of liking beautiful women, after adding WeChat, Yu Ningning said that she wanted to drive me, but I refused, there are some things she can't know too much.

I called a Didi, anyway, the short hair Zuomi reimbursement, I didn't feel distressed, and the driver stopped after about twenty minutes.

"Driver, where is this?"

"Auchan's side. ”

"Thank you. ”

"You're welcome. ”

Really, what did the short-haired Zuomi ask me to do here, I was about to call her, and she called me.

"Have you arrived?"

"At the door of Auchan. ”

"So fast, then you wait for me, I'll come down right away. ”

I lit a cigarette, looking at the busy city, I couldn't help but have a lot of thoughts in my heart, although it was a dream, I missed my father, I missed every bit of the family, but unfortunately I couldn't go back, and a cigarette was quickly smoked.

"I'm done smoking here again, but you're really there?" said Zuo Mi, who had short hair, behind my back.

"I said Mr. Manager, you have to take care of smoking a cigarette, and you can't let people live?"

"Don't talk nonsense, come with me, the time has come to test you. ”

I entered Auchan with Zuo Mi, this is really big, the second floor is Yonghui supermarket, the third floor is selling food, the elevator goes directly to the top floor, as soon as you enter the door, a fragrance of flowers hits.

"Don't talk nonsense later, listen to my arrangement, understand?" said the short-haired Zuo Mi staring at me.

"Good. ”

A man of about twenty-seven or eighteen years old, with his hair all gone, a pair of glasses, and a face full of vicissitudes, must have been stimulated by some kind of look.

"Brother Qiang, maybe he has a way. Zuo Mi, short haired, pointed at me.

"What do I have to do?" I couldn't figure out what the short-haired Zuo Mi was talking about.

The short-haired Zuo Mi smiled at me: "I'm optimistic about you." ”

Closed the door and went out.

The man in front of him said, "Please sit down, what kind of tea do you like to drink?"

"Jasmine. ”

A cup of jasmine tea was placed in front of me, and I looked at the man, just as I had just guessed.

"What do you call you?"

"Li Qiang, Zuo Mi is my cousin. ”

"I see that your mental state is not very good, has something happened to you?"

"Yes, I have depression, didn't Zuo Mi tell you?"

"No, depression? It's not easy to treat, you need a professional psychologist, I know one, but I haven't seen it for many years, but it's in this city. ”

"Psychiatrist?" Li Qiang shook his head with a wry smile, and returned to that sluggish state with ease.

"I'll try, can you tell me your story?"

Li Qiang was silent, still looking at me with dull eyes.

I whispered: "People have nothing more than two things in their lives, either busy living or busy dying, there is a saying that death is better than living, living is hope, living is everything, living will definitely get the favor of God." Maybe you have been tormented by the demons of your heart so that people do not look like people, ghosts do not look like ghosts, think about the worst outcome: "It's a big deal!" This is the worst outcome of us, no fear, no more fear, when you completely kick out the fear from your heart, there is one less stone that weighs on you. In fact, the demons can't kill people, and all the fears are because we are afraid of death......

When people die, they die, there can be no second time in life, what reincarnation is, you exist in this world and have the value of existence in this world, how good it is to live, whether you have pain or depression in your heart, you can re-flop, believe me, the bitterness in your heart may be solved, there is nothing in this world that cannot be solved, the key is that you are a person, as long as you dare to think, there must be hope to reverse the situation. ”

Li Qiang's hungry eyes are different, it seems that he listened to what I said.

"One day in autumn, when the leaves were yellowing, it was an ordinary day for me to remember, when I was not yet five years old, and on one ordinary day of that year, my mother locked the door of the house, threw the key to me, and said, "Go and give it to your brother......

I took the key and walked briskly in the direction of my brother's school, who was in the first grade of the village elementary school, while my mother was stationed at the door of the house with a basket for picking pigweed, waiting for me to return......

I didn't know it was a mother's escape, she was leaving my real father! and secretly! The hogweed basket was a cover for her escape. At that time, his father was not at home, and he was forty or fifty kilometers away from home in another township to collect the rags to support the family. Mother's farewell, no one knows. In this way, the night my mother took me to leave, my brother came home alone, because he couldn't find us, he was scared and pitiful in the dark house at night, and cried loudly, fortunately, we lived next door to my grandmother, my grandmother thought that my mother had taken me to go to relatives, and I didn't know that my mother had already fled with me to another family, and my grandmother saw that my brother had neither eaten nor had anyone to take her, so she temporarily took care of my brother's daily life and diet, until my mother took me away for a week, my grandmother only found out that something was wrong, so I asked someone to carry a letter to my father。

After my father learned the news, he rushed home in a hurry, and then simply packed his luggage and went to his grandmother's house to ask for someone, but my father's trip was destined to be a failure. Because, the mother's escape plan without saying goodbye was secretly fleeing, but the discerning person knew at a glance that she didn't want to live with her father and wanted to divorce the rhythm!

And the reason why my mother has such thoughts and practical actions is very important is that my father's shabby and downfall, my mother dislikes my father for being poor, and she is afraid of living a poor life, which will prompt my mother to choose to leave his thoughts, and my mother's family also knows such a thought, and my mother's family has cried to my mother's family more than once that she has lived a very happy life with my father! My mother's family also felt that my mother was wronged, so there was such an escape incident.

So, it is in such a realistic situation that the mother's family hides from the father, while looking for a suitable man for the mother, and at the same time comforting the mother to wait and see the changes, and when the time is ripe, choose a safe day to run away. The above is roughly a consensus established in advance between the mother and the mother's family.

For my mother to bring me to another man, I was not conscious at that time, I was still ignorant, for me who was so weak, and at the end of the 80s, I couldn't tell what family affection was, I felt that as long as my mother was by my side, I didn't care who the man next to her was, as long as there was food for me, as far as my biological father was concerned, I had already forgotten him.

Mother's farewell, in a blink of an eye on this man's side, a stay is five years, at the same time, my honest and poor father, in these five years, every day to live a lost life, brother's life, he has no energy to take care of it, it can be said that my brother's childhood life is seriously lacking in maternal love and father's love, in the absence of father's love and mother's care, my brother at a young age followed his grandmother's self-reliance to go to school and study, and lived a loveless childhood, but these did not defeat him, but instead trained his strong and independent willpower。

And the father, because of the sudden departure of his mother, in the past five years, he has done a fruit business, sold vegetables, etc., every time he earns a little money, he will use it as a travel fee to go to his mother's house to ask for someone, and the father knows that only by forcing his mother's family to tell him where his mother is, can his father find her.

Once my father was forced to be in a hurry, but my mother's family still refused to disclose any information to tell my mother where it was, and he burned down the flue-cured tobacco house of his mother's family in a fit of rage. Fortunately, no one was hurt at the time, so you can imagine how desperate my father was at that time.

Think about it, a woman who has lived well with herself for seven years, suddenly evaporated from the world, and ruthlessly threw her own eldest son down and took me away, which is a kind of spiritual torture for parents. My father wanted to see me, but he couldn't, and my mother felt very guilty that I couldn't take care of my brother because I had to take one of my children to the man. In fact, only they know how painful it is, and all of this is done by my mother! Even so, my mother seems to be determined to live with that man, no matter how my biological father calls, she is always indifferent, but despite this, my father's infatuation and salvation have never stopped, and in the five years since my mother left him, my father has never given up persuading my mother to return to him.

Maybe my mother's conscience was discovered, and my mother was not happy in this new family, and in my memory, my mother would always quarrel with the man and her in-laws in this newly formed family for some family trivialities. Because of these various reasons for hunger, in the end, the mother remembered the inspiration of her biological father and the unbearable and guilty heart for her eldest son, and the most important point is that, according to my later analysis, my mother finally left this new family because her life was far less than that of her biological father.

It was under such circumstances that my mother, at the insistence and hard work of my biological father, returned to my biological father five years later, and at the same time my mother gave birth to a girl with the man, and this girl was my half-sister.

My mother's toss and turn has returned to the original point, but she has caused indelible hunger trauma to the hearts of my three children, and the biggest trauma is my half-sister, who still refuses to forgive her mother, and the psychological trauma is also huge for me......

Divorce is okay, but please make proper arrangements for your work, and try not to hurt your children as much as possible, they are really innocent! In other words, divorce and remarriage, if you are not happy, it is more practical to be single with children.