Noyan suddenly came to me, and I don't know what it was, but it's certain that it's just Noyan from Sakura's studio, not the Noyan I saw in the old neighborhood.

I made an appointment with Nuoyan in a café, and Nuoyan chose a hidden location, probably because I didn't want our conversation to be heard, so Zuo Mi sent me a WeChat message.

"How did you get to Starbucks?"

It took me a long time to explain, and Noyan was already waving to me.

"Why don't you come in and don't come in?" said Noyan.

"Oh, it just so happened that my wife asked me where I was, and I was delayed in replying to the message. ”

Nuo Yan said sweetly: "Your wife is so good to you." ”

"It's okay. ”

Noyan smiled: "I think I can already explain your last question." ”

Noyan wrote two words in his notebook: "The Transfiguration of Dreams".

I frowned and said, "What does that mean?"

"To put it simply, I came up with some of Freud's theories, and the core of Freud's dream theory system is the mental structure of consciousness, preconsciousness, and unconscious that he created. According to him, because unconscious desires are suppressed by the superego (i.e., social customs, laws, and morals), he cannot be seen as he is, and in order to pass the examination of the superego, he cannot but disguise himself in order to find his substitute, and the appearance of unconscious desires to its disguised form is "the metamorphosis of dreams". Do you understand dreams?"

What Noyan said was too official, and I didn't quite understand it.

Seeing my puzzled expression, Noyan continued: "How to deform depends on how you pass the examination of the superego, the level between the conscious and the unconscious, called the preconscious. Although the preconscious mind is also limited to or below consciousness, it can enter consciousness at any time through memory. The unconscious, on the other hand, has been excluded and suppressed due to the testing mechanism, and is not allowed to enter the consciousness, even if it is disguised, it can only express itself in dreams, even if according to Freud's theory of the unconscious, dreams are a way for the human unconscious to be expressed and vented. ”

I said to Noyan: "Can you give an example, this is too official, not too understood." ”

"Oh, I guess you don't know, okay, Miss Ben will give you an example, if you compare personality to an iceberg on the sea, the one that is exposed above the water is consciousness, the part of consciousness floating above and below the water surface is the preconscious of people, and the part of consciousness below the surface of the water is the unconscious part, the preconscious can occasionally expose the surface of the water through the action of wind and waves, that is, the part under the water cannot be revealed on the surface of the water, that is, the unconscious as a person can only prove its own existence through the form of dreams, so as to manifest another part of the self of people in the form of dreams。 ”

"Is the dream really a magical product, what do I belong to?" I asked Noyan.

"Let me tell you first about the essence of dreams, which in general is the fulfillment of a wish, which can be regarded as a continuation of mental activity in a waking state", which is produced by a highly intricate intellectual activity. From the previous narrative, it is already known that although desire is suppressed in the subconscious, it is still unconsciously active and seeking satisfaction, and cannot be satisfied because of the inspection role of the "inspector" at the door of the consciousness; Therefore, even the content of dreams is not the true nature of desire, and it must be analyzed and explained in order to find the true root. Let's talk about the process of dreaming, the work of dreams is dreaming, there are four basic processes, the first process is "compression", that is, several hidden meanings appear in a symbol, that is, the explicit dream is a kind of "abbreviated translation" of the hidden meaning. The second is the transfer effect, that is, on the one hand, the transfer of the implicit elements, the substitution of the unimportant for the important, the substitution of the original text with the quotation, and on the other hand, the transfer of the spiritual focus or center of the dream thought. "The metastatic role of dreams and the compressive role of dreams are two craftsmen who are mainly responsible for shaping dreams". The third process is dramatization, that is, the means of describing in dreams, that is, translating thoughts into visual images, that is, using concrete images to express abstract desires. The fourth process is retouching, that is, secondary processing, which refers to waking up and re-organizing the upside-down material in the dream to make it more able to conceal the truth, and in layman's terms, it is to develop the final product of the dream's work into something unified, something almost coherent. ”

Noyan said it so profoundly, I remembered that Noyan in my world also explained the dream to me, but I had almost forgotten it, and according to Noyan, I could roughly think that the dream I was in was my subconscious desire.

I said bluntly, "How can I go back?"

Nuoyan smiled: "You're in a hurry?" took a slow sip of coffee.

"Isn't this nonsense? You said that this is my desire, I want to break this desire, I have no interest in this place at all, I just want to return to my real world, where Sister Wen Hui is very difficult, I want to go back to help her, this subconscious desire I really have enough. ”

I was a little emotional, and Noyan just looked at me blankly, obviously frightened by my emotions, and I slowly reined in.

Nuoyan said slowly: " I can understand your feelings, that your present life, which you call dreams, is not meaningless, not absurd, not presupposed, not presupposed, one part of our conceptual savings dormant and another part begins to awaken, it is a spiritual phenomenon of full value, and indeed a fulfillment of wishes: it occupies its place in the long chain of mental movements that we can understand when awake, it is built up by a highly intricate intellectual activity, and in general, why are you trapped in your present life, because your subconscious desires wish you to stay here, You don't want to go back to help your sister Wen Hui as you said, you are deceiving yourself, and the way to go back is that the subconscious desire does not exist, maybe you will go back unconsciously. ”

I think what Nuoyan said makes sense, I thought about it for a while, sometimes it's true, although I love Zuo Mi very much, but I am entangled with other women, such as Lin Jing, Tang Honghong and Li Xiao, and even have that kind of dirty thoughts about Jin Wenhui, this is the subconscious desire, I want to get them? This is my subconscious thoughts, although I don't admit it, but Nuoyan's words make me embarrassed.

"I'm sorry, I was so excited just now, you're right, I'm too greedy, I'm sorry for my wife and I'm even more sorry for Sister Wenhui, thank you for your coffee. "I was about to get up and leave, but I was stopped by Noyan.

"Wait, there is a saying in the Bible that God closes a door for you, he will open a window for you, since you have come to this world, don't go back for the sake of going back, here you can realize your own light and heat, through the experience of this world, maybe after you go back, your own ability, your ability to resist pressure will be qualitatively improved, I am willing to help you. Noyan held out his hand, waiting for my response.

I hesitated for a moment, I think her words are very reasonable, don't go back in order to go back, since I came to this world, try to do something, after I go back, I will no longer be myself, it is a new self, there is such a state of thought in my twenties, I am really ashamed of myself, when I reacted, Nuoyan had already left, I hurried to catch up, there was no one for a long time, I knew that she went back, I also knew where Nuoyan was, but my legs were like filled with lead and couldn't move, this is the so-called subconscious desire, firmly bound me, I am unwilling, I can't be bound by this thing, Nuoyan can save meI should have reached out just now, but I was hesitating about something, and this answer was only known to my heart.

I looked at the time, it was almost six o'clock, even if I went to Nuoyan now, maybe I wouldn't be in the studio, and I would go to her early tomorrow morning, so I must not hesitate.

When I got home, Zuo Mi had already finished frying the dishes, cooking the soup, wearing an apron and saying, "Are you tired? ”

"Hmm. ”

Hot water sprinkled on my skin, recalling what Nuo Yan said to me, I made up my mind to break this subconscious desire, cut off the relationship with Lin Jing, and Tang Honghong and Li Xiao, I can't be sorry for Zuo Mi's single-mindedness towards me, and I can't be sorry for Sister Wen Hui's expectations of me.

After coming out, the short-haired Zuo Mi also came back, putting on a stinky face as if someone owed her millions, I knew that she was reprimanded by Jin Wenhui today, I still pretended to comfort and said: "Manager, why are you, who provoked you, tell me that I will help you out of this breath." ”

The short-haired Zuo Mi glanced at me and said, "Come on, with your body, I have to protect you." ”

"That's a mistake, I have more than 60 kilograms, although I am not tall, but I have muscles, it is no problem to pick one alone. ”

Zuo Mi smiled: "Just blow it, come and wash your hands and eat, the manager has eaten." ”

Short hair Zuo Mi slowly got up and washed his hands, I couldn't stand it anymore but I couldn't say anything, no matter how I said that people were also their own bosses, at least respect still had to be there. After the meal, I took the initiative to wash the dishes, but Zuo Mi refused, on the grounds that my injury was not healed yet, and I was allowed to go back to my room to sleep.

The short-haired Zuo Mi had a lot of thoughts, and didn't say a word, this stimulation was really great, Jin Wenhui was so powerful, the short-haired Zuo Mi was silent, rare, I peeled an apple for the short-haired Zuo Mi, and handed it to her, she glanced at it with disgust, shook her head, didn't eat and pulled it down, I gnawed it up by myself, and watched me eat very fragrantly, she spoke: "Peel one for me, eat it alone, embarrassed you?"

"I said Miss, I just handed it to you and you don't want it, what do you mean now?"

"It's just now, it's now, can you cut it?"

"Sharpen, sharpen, the manager's words are holy decrees, wait a moment. ”

Zuo Mi came out and saw this scene and said, "Husband, cut one for me later, and bring me the room." ”

I was observing the expression of the short-haired Zuo Mi, obviously a little jealous, but it was hard to say anything.

"How are you recovering from your injuries?" asked the short-haired Zuo Mi.

"Thanks to the manager's care, it's not bad at the moment, and I won't be able to die for a while. ”

"Hmph, ignore you. The short-haired Zuo Mi returned to the room and closed the door.

Did I say something wrong? Such a big lady's temper, I don't serve anymore, I took this apple back to my bedroom, Zuo Mi was playing with her mobile phone on the bed, I handed it to her, Zuo Mi looked at the apple and frowned.

"Isn't this what you were going to give to the manager just now? What are you going to do for me? Don't, cut me again. ”

My mother, this can be seen, there is no way to listen to my wife's words, I went back to the living room to learn the apple again, in order to avoid waste, this apple can only be eaten by myself.