Everyone makes a lot of mistakes in their lives, sometimes mistakes that are irreparable. At the age of 15, I made a mistake that I would never forgive myself for the rest of my life! I personally killed my good friend, good partner, and big black who had always been with me. May the great black in heaven not blame me or hate me!

Watching the big black dog slowly fall, my tears flowed down at once! I killed the big black with my own hands! I wanted to cry without tears, and I regretted why I did it in the first place. My good friend, good buddy, the big black dog that has been with me for four years has just fallen!

Thinking back on the past, I fell into a deep sense of self-blame...

Dad built two tiled houses by the river outside the house, opened a back door in the room near the river, and surrounded a yard with eight piglets.

I was taken to sleep alone by my mother in a pigsty isolation house when I was only 11 years old. I slept alone in a house, and I was scared in the middle of the night! Once at night I was half awake in a daze, and I couldn't move my whole body, which was a nightmare in the eyes of the old man.

I was scared, I felt like someone was walking around the bed, and it took me a long time before I could move, and I was so frightened that I covered my head and secretly cried under the covers!

Children are like this, for things they are afraid of, only crying can relieve the panic and fear in their hearts. The old man said that only people who are not in good health often have nightmares, and I was frightened when I was a child, and my health is indeed not very good. When I was a child, I was most afraid that my mother would let me sleep alone, and I woke up several times in a dream and cried alone in the house!

The next day, my father brought back a little black dog at the worker's house, with black and fluffy eyes, watery eyes, blinking, very cute!

My father gave me the little black dog, and the little one struggled in my arms for a while, and I smoothed its fur and scratched its little belly, and it immediately lay down on the concrete floor, wagging its short tail, and enjoyed it!

At night, it was time to go to bed again, so I found a box with old clothes in it, made a kennel and put the little one in it.

In the middle of the night, I had a nightmare again, and I only heard the little black dog, with its fur on end, and the crisp voice of "Wangwangwang!" screamed in the house.

My body was able to move immediately, and in the dark room, the bright eyes of the little black dog looked at me. I fumbled the little black dog to the bed and let it fall asleep next to my pillow.

It curled up its little body and nestled around me. I touched the fluffy fur on Xiao Hei's body, it was very comfortable to touch, and I felt a great sense of security in my heart, and gradually I fell asleep! That night I felt that I had slept soundly in the hut for the first time!

Early in the morning, Xiao Hei jumped out of my little bed and screamed in the room. I opened the door, and the little guy rushed out to pee on the river, and the little guy was quite sensible and knew how to pee outside.

After the little black dog arrived at my house, I really dared to sleep alone in the hut!

Gradually, two months later, the weather warmed up, and every morning I would run in the direction of my family's two acres of land to the north, because I had to go to the field to pull some dry straw and carry it back to cook for cooking, so as to reduce the burden of housework on my mother. At the same time, he also used the distance of these miles to trot over, all as exercise. The little black dog likes to run with me to the field, and every time he runs in front of me, wagging his tail and stringing it into the wheat field, startling the birds in the wheat field. When it comes back, it still has a little vole or a bird in its mouth! Like me, it never goes empty-handed! It never has an empty mouth!

Gradually, the little black dog grew into a big black dog, and every time I went to the field, the big black dog was running fast in the field. Every time, I don't know where to go for a long time, and when I come back, I often have a hare in my mouth. I ate a lot of meat with the big black hare that year! Sometimes I would catch a hedgehog and prick it and scream!

I still remember that time when I used the bark of the sycamore tree as fuel as a mosquito repellent coil, I lit the quilt in the hut at once, and the fire was rising, when I was catching shrimp by the river, Xiao Hei ran in a panic, half of the tail hair was about to burn out, and reported to me, I quickly carried a bucket of water with a bucket in my hand and ran to the hut to extinguish the fire of a bed, and the quilt was burned in half, fortunately I found it in time, otherwise the house would have been burned. I was chased and beaten by my mother for several days, and then Xiao Hei hunted a hare in the field to calm my mother's anger.

The last time I sent Zhang Mengxin home, it was very late, to be honest, I was really scared to go home alone, when I walked to the dam section next to the school, a black shadow in the distance quickly rushed towards me, close to me before I saw that it was a big black, it wagged its tail towards me, I squatted down and touched the head of the big black, my heart suddenly tightened and the emotion was gone, and I instantly felt a lot safer and more solid. Da Hei probably came to the school to look for me because he hadn't been home for a long time, and if he didn't find me, he ran over to me following my scent!

But something happened that made me regret it, this happened, and my loyal big black left me forever!

I like to do some strange things, that day I was idle and had nothing to do, I thought that catching rats in the house was a little rampant recently, and my mother bought rat poison, so I wanted to poison some! It was red powder, I carefully smeared it on a few steamed buns, and then put it on some of the places where rats frequented at home.

The next day I got up and went to the field, but Da Hei didn't crawl out of the nest, I thought Da Hei was in a bad mood! I didn't look too much, I went down to the ground alone, and when I came back, Da Hei still couldn't come out of the nest, I felt that something was wrong, and suddenly I saw a few leftover half mice in Da Hei's nest, and I felt a sigh in my heart!

"Big black, big black!" I finally pulled Big Black out of the nest, and Big Black's black hair had become very messy, and there was no luster at all!

I found water and poured it into Da Hei's mouth desperately, but I couldn't pour it down, looking at Da Hei lying on the ground, dying, I felt sad and anxious!

I ran to the house of Uncle Xiaoli, the village doctor, and begged Uncle Xiaoli to save Da Hei, but Uncle Xiao Li touched Da Hei and said that it was too late to find out, and he injected Da Hei with a needle and left!

At noon, Dahei, who was lying on the ground and dying, got up from the ground with difficulty, and a glimmer of hope ignited in my heart!

Da Hei looked at me and wagged his tail hard, I squatted down to get close to Da Hei, Da Hei rubbed hard in my arms, and then used his last strength to walk towards the small room with difficulty, and when I was about to reach the door, I made a "boom"!

The big black dog fell, I quickly ran to the big black, the big black raised head slowly sank, trying to open his eyes and look at me with the last bit of strength, and then slowly closed his eyes!

My tears flowed down all of a sudden! I hugged the big black dog and cried sadly, I killed the big black with my own hands! If I had found the big black earlier, it would have been saved, and if I hadn't drugged, it wouldn't have eaten poisonous mice!

I wanted to cry without tears, and I regretted why I did it in the first place.

My good friend, my good partner, the big black dog that has been with me for four years has just fallen! We have so many happy times in my mind, one by one! These have become memories!

I dug a big hole in the ground of my house and buried the big black in it. It was the field where it loved to run, and it was a day of returning its soul to nature! I had a busy day, a day of crying, and a day of sadness.

A flock of birds suddenly flew over the green wheat field in the wheat field, like the big black was still running happily behind, and I wished that I could suddenly string the big black out of it...