I am accustomed to thinking of you in the morning light, the one who waits in the future, will I also look at the wandering in the flickering night sky?

When the day passes by in a hurry, a person quietly searches, a person quietly tastes the ups and downs of life, will you still understand that there is a kind of affection called knowing each other?

Every time I turned around, every time I looked deeply, the surging affection dripped tears from the corners of my eyes.

It was a slightly sad season, but also a poignant and lingering season, the wind blew up the years that withered and broken like flowers, and the outline of you in my memory has long been blurred.

So the wisps of fresh breeze have become a kind of spiritual sustenance, and everyone hopes that those lingering past can be gone with the wind. performed the beauty of "butterflies are drunk flowers but fly with the wind".

I went to middle school. Every day, I have to ride a bicycle to go to school more than ten kilometers away!

So when I left home and became independent, I said that after I went to middle school, I went home once or twice a month, and my younger siblings were in the fourth or fifth grade. I've already become a big kid!

On weekends, I would go to my father's construction site for two days to earn a week's living expenses!

I haven't contacted Zhang Mengxin for a long time, I haven't seen her since the start of school, and I haven't found her when I went to her house to look for her. Not even a single contact method!

In the end, I met Kong Ping and told me that she went to Guangdong, where her sister went south to work!

I have been in a mess all this time! I have been assigned to a key class, but I am not in the mood to study, I am thinking about Zhang Mengxin! I don't know where she is in Guangdong, whether she is doing well or not, and where she is tired or not!

I was transferred to the second class unexpectedly, and I didn't care at all, I wasn't with the person I liked, and I didn't have any motivation to study, which only made me disgusted!

Once, when I passed by her house, I walked to her house in the rain and recalled the scene of separation. The face is full of sadness!

I looked deeply at the direction of her house, and my heart was full of bitterness! The bitter thing was that my bicycle was stolen again, and even more bitter was that I never saw the person I had been thinking about for a long time!

I should have thought that I was really stupid when she said to me! I should have cherished the time I spent with her even more!

It was already late autumn, and the leaves of the large plane trees at the entrance of the village had already fallen, and a few sycamore seed balls were hanging in the treetops and fluttering in the wind!

I tightened the fur coat that my fifth uncle had given me, took another deep look in the direction of her house, and walked towards the hole behind the small temple hill!

After I was transferred to the bad class, the competition in the class was not as fierce as in the good class! I went to class every day leisurely! I would rather be a chicken head in the errand class than be a phoenix tail in a good class!

The head teacher is a math teacher, and he is very strict with us, and he will beat people with a board at every turn!

But because I'm an honor student in a poor class, I basically haven't been hit by the teacher's board, but sometimes when I make a small guess in class, I am found and sent twice.

But I don't care, the homework that should be completed is completed, the texts that have been changed are memorized, and the top 10 in the exam!

I don't bother to go out to play with my classmates every day, and I write some words about missing Zhang Mengxin in my notebook every day!

That's when I fell in love with writing poetry! Modern poetry doesn't have seven quatrains and five rhymes, so let me write whatever I like. I even write poems on the paper during exams!

Because every time I see a line of 500 words at the back of the composition, I am too lazy to write so many words, and it becomes a poem in a few words, perfunctory exams, and this teacher gives high marks every time, which makes me even more arrogant!

I'm 17 years old, and I was a big kid in junior high school, so much more mature than other 15 or 6 year old classmates! I'm a big brother in front of little girls! No one dares to mess with me in front of male classmates!

Just because I'm a little dark, plus the tendon meat of my body, it's a weekend brick move, usually walking to school and finishing school, I don't feel very social, I've been alone!

Some of the little girls in the class like these little literary poems! Educational resources are indeed unequal. I was born with children who didn't like to study so much, and most of them were families in Pingwei near the power plant.

To be honest, it's the first time I've known that I have to punch the mop for more than ten minutes, the first time I know that the mop must be mopped five or six times to pass the level, and what's even funnier is that there is still ice cream to eat in winter!

It gives me the feeling that it is hypocritical and a waste of all kinds of resources!

They are just a group of children, I am too lazy to play with them, sitting in the classroom all day, looking out the window, thinking about whether Zhang Mengxin is doing well!

I hesitate every day, and I was nicknamed by the same table, melancholy son! You are so melancholy, your whole family hesitates!

Sometimes life will give you some surprises! When I was most depressed and lonely, a letter broke my decadent appearance!

The address was sent from Guangdong, and I saw the font of Juanxiu on it, and I didn't have to guess who it was!

The gossip girls before and after me were immediately interested, and I quickly put the letter away and ran to the playground to read.

Zhang Mengxin said that she was living a good life, missed me very much, and asked me to study hard. He said that he didn't tell me that he would go to Guangdong at that time, because he was afraid that I would be worried!

"Aren't I just as worried about you now that you're over there!!" I thought to myself. A smile leaked out of a long time.

Although I can't see her now, I now have her letters, I can write to her, and I can still keep in touch with each other normally!

I immediately went to the commissary to buy envelopes and stationery, and wrote a lot of lovesickness!

I think she should know what I mean, even if I don't know!

I was looking forward to reply, waiting for a month, two months, three months. Zhang Mengxin lost contact again, I would write to the past every month, but it was like a sea in the sea, and there was no reply!

I didn't know that something was wrong, and I was worried about her day by day!

Fei Fei also wrote to me in the middle and sent me a few test papers, and I knew that she was for my good.

She was in junior high school in an aristocratic school in Hefei, and she would send me a letter every month, and sometimes she would secretly stuff a hundred yuan in the envelope and send it, all of which I sent when I replied!

I'm a big man, how can I ask for a girl's money, although sometimes I am really short of money, but I can use the weekend to go to the construction site to move bricks to earn money!

My feelings for Fei Fei are quite complicated, you say you like it, and you really don't want to see her sad, you say you don't like it, how is it possible, I still like Fei Fei!

The children of poor families are in charge of the family at an early age, which is why in the 80s, it was often the poor children who would be admitted to good universities!

Sometimes I think that if my school opportunity is given to Zhang Mengxin, then she must be a top student in this school!

This is the injustice of fate and the sorrow of the times!

I don't know what she said in the coffee shop at the time, and Fei Fei has always refused to say it, so I didn't ask again.

This half semester I have been at my grandmother's house in Lu Village, only a few kilometers away from the school, and there are two small tiled houses behind my grandmother's house, which are the houses of the third grandmother's family in the back.

The life under the fence has been with me for three whole years! These three years have been the three years of my personality change, sharpening the edges and corners, and having a little more patience!

When I'm alone, I often think, "O man, is it all the time like this?"