Only now do I understand - my Valentine's Day
I have always liked the lyrics in Xiao Heshuo's "I Understand Now": "Like is a faint love, love is a strong like." ”
I've always thought that we would go on like this in this life.
I remember that night six years ago, when you suddenly asked me, "Do you like me?"
Your wife's smile was so cute.
I never told you that you were actually my first love.
Maybe I want to pretend to be mature and vicissitudes in front of you, but I'm not telling the truth. But I really, really love you!
Back then, you used to sit in the back of my car and hum silly.
Do you remember that song? once you and my favorite song: "I want to hold your hand like this and not let go, can love be pure forever without sorrow......"
I wish this song could be sung forever until one day we all lose our teeth. Looking back now, there is always an indescribable sweetness welling up in my heart.
It's just that in this sweetness, I don't know when there is a wisp of bitterness.
The sad melody still spreads in the air: "One day I wake up with a blank head, one day I go to sleep and dream but I clearly understand how simple it is to like you, but it is harder to wait for you than forever to forget you......"
After the clock rings at zero o'clock, it's time for that damn Valentine's Day! In fact, I've always been quite afraid of this festival, but every time I see you excited like a child, I don't care, who calls me the person I love the most is your wife.
Your happiness is my greatest happiness.
Dear wife, I can't accompany you anymore, so you must be well-behaved alone.
Sometimes love is like a kite with a broken string that can never be returned to the hand.
I once heard a saying: "If you feel lonely and lonely, you can look up at the night sky, then there must be someone below who also looks at the night sky." ”
Wife, it's been a long time since you've been lying on the roof of the building and counting the stars. Raise your head and look at the brightest star in the sky, you must have seen it too, my dear, right?
Two months before the college entrance examination, you suddenly said to me, "Let's break up!"
I'm so sad, I don't want to lose you so soon, after all, we used to love so seriously, and we used to really envision our future......!
It's really hard to lose you, I often go to class, and suddenly I think of a little bit of us together, and tears begin to roll in my eyes without fighting. You seem to have become my most familiar stranger overnight......
Later, I went to Quanzhou to study, and by chance, I learned the reason for your breakup in a chat with a friend.
Even if you graduate, even if you are not around, how can I not love you?
The next day I bought a ticket back to Fuzhou, and when I appeared in front of you, my wife, you hugged me and cried for a long time.
You said to me with reproachful eyes, "I did this because I had faith in you! Who knows ...... you?"
"Wife, I was wrong, and I will never again!" I said to you seriously. At that time, I swore that I would protect this beautiful relationship for the rest of my life and never be separated again.
We said yes, as soon as I graduate, you will come to Quanzhou to accompany me, and when I graduate, we will get married, raise a lot of puppies, and have a lot of children......
Maybe I've been confused, but I really can't live without you.
It was naïve to think that we would all end like a fairy tale, with a prince and princess living happily ever after.
But reality is not a fairy tale after all, Snow White is destined to sleep forever after eating that poisonous apple, and Cinderella's crystal slipper is just a dream of Nanke.
In fact, we have been living half-asleep and half-awake, it is like our love, it starts like a dream and ends like a dream.
When I woke up, I found that I was left with nothing, leaving only a scarred body, numb and hollow repeating the unchanging trajectory of life.
"I didn't understand it before, but I understand it now......"