Information Office

In the past, there was no such department in the agency, but with the situation and development, this department was created. It can be said that the information department is a new thing, and people can feel the new things everywhere. Although the information department is a new thing, it is still dispensable in the organization, and there is no major event in normal times, collecting information from the same industry and serving other departments. Newspapers, periodicals and a computer with Internet access have become the main sources of information for the Information Service. Since the establishment of the Information Service, there has been little significant improvement in the efficiency of the work of the Agency. As a result, the status of information in the organ is dispensable, that is, it is not very well received. Everyone knew this, but they didn't say anything, in fact, it was useless to say it, so everyone didn't say anything.

Recently, there have been some major events in the country, such as the reduction of institutions. In order to appease these reduced people, the state organs arranged for Huang Shan's lover to go to the United Kingdom for further study. This is where the story begins. In order to understand the whole story, it is necessary to explain some of the natural conditions of the information department.

List of Information Officers:

Lao Jiang: Male, 46 years old, director.

Lao Hong: Male, in his fifties, enjoying the treatment of the deputy department.

Lao Li: Female, in her fifties, enjoying the treatment of the deputy department.

Xiaowu: Male in his thirties, with a two-month marriage history, at the department level.

Yu Hong: Female, in her thirties, deputy department level.

Xiaojie: female, 26 years old, clerk.

Huang Shan: female, 28 years old, clerk.

The story begins with Huang Shan's going abroad.

Huang Shan's first letter

A few months ago, Huang Shan finally went abroad. In fact, she went abroad and had nothing to do with herself, because her husband Xiao Wang had the opportunity to be sent to the public for a year, so she went to England thousands of miles away with her husband. Such opportunities are not very common for many people, so they are precious. As early as Huang Shan's husband had just news that he was going to go out for further study, she started to move, not for her husband, but for herself, in order to let herself go out smoothly. At that time, everyone who knew Huang Shan knew that Huang Shan was going abroad, and even those who didn't know her were also asking who Huang Shan was. In those days, many people who didn't know Huang Shan found all kinds of excuses to come to the information office to see Huang Shan, who was about to go abroad. In those days, Huang Shan became a celebrity in the agency. Huang Shan also seemed very active in those days, and she could be seen in the office dressed neatly dressed and flamboyant, and she was full of sympathy and care for the people and things she touched. She was so gentle and generous in those days, she no longer cared about anything, that is, there was nothing left. Being able to go to Great Britain with her husband for a year made Huang Shan seem to be a different person. No matter whether she saw people familiar or not, she always said goodbye to those people, as if she would never come back, and the scene of goodbye was unforgettable. In the end, Huang Shan finally completed the procedures for leaving her job without pay, and finally got on a flight to Great Britain and flew thousands of miles away. He brought his eyes of compassion and care to Great Britain thousands of miles away. She could only turn her sympathy and concern into a text message on the Internet in England, which she sent to her colleagues who were still in dire straits. So there was Huang Shan's first letter.

Yu Hong:

I've been in the UK for a week, I'm doing well here, I'm starting school, I'm mainly learning English. In the past few days in the UK, what has touched me the most is that it is really different from China. The sky here is so blue, and the matter is so abundant. It's the young men who walk on the street, all of them are so handsome, and they are quick to do anything. It's a great place to be. Yuhong, if you have the opportunity to go abroad, come to the UK, it's really different here. I don't know why, I'm relaxed now, completely out of the same way I did when I was in the agency. It turned out that I didn't like anything, but when I got here, I didn't feel that way, which was great. I'll write to you when I have time, and I'll tell you everything here. I'm going to go downstairs to the self-selected market to buy a few dishes so that I can make dinner for Xiao Wang, so that's it. I hope you will write to me often, too. Don't forget to bring it to the old Jiang Lao Hong and Lao Li Xiaowu in the department. I wish you all happiness and peace!

Huang Shan, who is far away in the UK

Ms. Yu Hong

After reading Huang Shan's letter, Ms. Yuhong's face was flushed, and no one knew why she was flushed, and her eyes were watery, as if she was about to cry. After reading the letter, she sat back in front of her seat, flipping through a book one after another, and everyone else gathered in front of the computer to read Huang Shan's letter in amazement. Lao Hong and Lao Li were the first to walk back to their desks, they didn't say anything, Lao Hong sighed first, and then Lao Li also sighed. No one knows why they sigh. After sighing, they each sat down, and then they turned over the newspapers on the table without moving, which were the ones they had all read yesterday, and the new ones had not yet arrived, so they could only read the old ones of yesterday.

Yuhong is a woman in her early thirties, her appearance is neither good-looking nor ugly, she often loves to be excited, and she blushes when she is excited. When Huang Shan didn't leave, in the information department, the relationship between the two was the best. said that the relationship was good, but in fact, the two talked more when they were together, because Yuhong was a woman who had no friends, and in this case, Huang Shan's existence was very important to her. Huang Shan said to leave, she was a little lonely, and no one loved to talk to her. It's been a long time coming. A few years ago, Yuhong was still a worker, doing some chores in this bureau, she was married at that time, and her husband was the current laid-off technician. At that time, the husband was full of confidence and wanted to become an engineer in the factory, and just as the husband was working hard for his lofty ideals, the factory reform and downsizing, and the husband was laid off. Of course, that's all for later. Yuhong, who is an employee, sees that the people around her are all national cadres, and she is a little anxious, which is understandable. They all work eight hours a day, and they feel that they are not working less than others, others are cadres and they are employees, not to mention the low salary, and there are many unfair treatments. Ms. Yu Hong, who was relatively lost, didn't know what day she was a little unclear with Deputy Director Feng. In fact, this kind of unclarity is just people's feelings, no one has seen anything, let alone caught anything. Deputy Director Feng was transferred to the bureau from the army a few years ago, and before he was transferred to the bureau, he was a division-level cadre, and it is said that he was transferred because of his work style. That's what I've heard. But there is one thing that everyone knows, that is, Deputy Director Feng's wife killed herself. The reason for the suicide was that Deputy Director Feng, who was still Master Feng at that time, had always had a discordant relationship with his wife and had been divorced for many years. He brought his wife to the army from the countryside. When his wife was still in the countryside, the two had a quarrel, and later his wife proposed that if she was allowed to join the army, she would agree to divorce, but the result was that she did not leave the army. Later, his wife committed suicide, and after committing suicide, Lao Feng changed jobs. According to legend, Lao Feng changed his career because of his style.

Yu Hong and Lao Feng are not innocent, so naturally it is also people's speculation. The reason is that for a while, Yuhong often ran to Lao Feng's office. Lao Feng was also very willing to talk to Yu Hong when he was fine, Yu Hong had just gotten married and was still young. Soon after, Yuhong enrolled in the city's party school. This was personally recommended by Lao Feng, and everyone knows about it. After studying in the party school, Yuhong transferred to the information department in charge of Lao Feng.

Since then, there have been thousands of reasons to believe that the woman Yuhong has a leg with Lao Feng. No one can say whether there is a leg or not, and this kind of thing itself cannot be said, and the more it is not clear, the more something will happen. Since then, Yuhong has often loved to be excited, and blushes when he is excited. Since then, Yuhong has no friends. The only person who can usually talk to Yu Hong is Huang Shan, and when she leaves, Yu Hong feels very uncomfortable.

In fact, there are other reasons why people are reluctant to pay attention to this woman. What people are most dissatisfied with is that she often can't tell where is the work and where is the home.

Speaking of which, let's talk about Yuhong's home. In fact, her family is very simple, a husband who works as a technician in a factory, and a son. The husband's factory was not far from the institution, and the kindergarten where the son worked at first was not far from the institution. The welfare of the institution is not bad, and there is a food subsidy of more than 100 yuan every month. My husband's factory also has a canteen, but it doesn't do well. When my son was in kindergarten, her husband came to the office on time every day at noon, just like commuting to and from work. Then Yuhong went to the cafeteria to cook for her husband and herself, and after a while, it was steaming, and the pots and pots were brought back from the bowls. Next, I gathered around the desk and ate with my husband. In fact, it's nothing to do, the key is that her husband doesn't treat himself as an outsider, and keeps greeting all the people in the information department, just like going to his own home. After eating, he still didn't mean to leave, but sat down in a big way, flipping through the newspaper in a hurry. At the beginning, everyone can understand that there are few opportunities to read newspapers in the factory, and there is nothing wrong with taking this opportunity to learn. The main thing is that he flipped through the newspaper for a while and still had no intention of leaving. Most of the people in the agency have the habit of taking a nap, especially Lao Hong, Lao Li and others, who are old and feel very uncomfortable when they don't rest for a while and go to work in the afternoon. There is a sofa in the office, lie down for a while, lean for a while, in short, everyone in the agency has to take a break. Yuhong's husband still didn't leave at this time, and he still flipped through the newspaper very loudly. The cadres represented by Lao Hong were a little unhappy, and Lao Hong coughed dryly at this time and said: Xiao Wu, it's time for you to go to work, right? Ordinary people can hear the off-strings of this sentence, and they can do whatever they need to do. Xiao Wu didn't take Lao Hong's words to heart, but only smiled at Lao Hong and said: It's still early, you rest, I'll stand guard for you. He thought his words were humorous, and instead of looking at other people's faces, he made himself funny first.

Xiao Wu suffered losses because he was too self-righteous, including his later layoff. Of course, Yuhong, a woman, could hear Lao Hong's voice, but she felt that Lao Hong and the others were purely looking for trouble. What's wrong with your husband staying in the office for a while, isn't it just staying for a while, and he didn't eat or drink you, and the office is not your Lao Hong's alone. After thinking about it like this, Yuhong felt that there was nothing wrong with her husband doing this, and it was normal for her husband to rest for a noon in an air-conditioned office. After all, her husband is her own, who else is distressed if she is not distressed? Xiao Wu is so cheeky in the office, and more than half of the responsibility should be borne by Yu Hong. From this point, you can see what kind of woman Yuhong belongs to. It seems that Lao Feng asked her to go to the party school to study, but it didn't make her noble.

In this way, everyone has opinions about the woman Yuhong and doesn't take her seriously. Later, Yuhong's son grew up and went to school. The school is at the back of the agency, and this time it wasn't Xiao Wu who came alone, but also brought their son. A family of three came to the office at noon. Since their son went to elementary school, the family found out that his son's IQ was a bit problematic. In fact, people had already seen it before, but Yu Hong and Xiao Wu didn't see it. The child is his own good, and he is so dear to see everywhere. It wasn't until I was in elementary school that I could figure out the addition of a single digit, and I couldn't understand the two-digit number. There is also literacy, learned today and forgotten tomorrow. Since discovering that her son is like this, Yuhong, a woman, has sighed for a long time. Xiao Wu brought his son at noon every day, and as soon as he entered the door, Yuhong began to sigh. Yu Hong sighed, and Lao Hong went to cook while singing Peking Opera while holding a rice bowl. And they laughed.

The family of three is in the office, and the information office at noon is not peaceful. The silly son is very energetic, never tireless, looks fresh when he sees everything, and whines. To be able to calm down is to watch cartoons. The Information Office has a computer with Internet access, which is the reason for the existence of the Information Service. It is the one who provides the organs with such and such information. In order to calm down his son, perhaps so that his son can learn some knowledge from animation, Yuhong plays cartoons on his son on the computer every day at noon. As soon as the cartoon was played, the son was honest, and his small eyes were wide open. Cartoons have dynamic effects, and every time I watch cartoons, my son asks to put the animation effect to the maximum. The son is as mentally retarded as an animal.

In this way, it can be said that the information department is restless. Everyone has an opinion on the woman Yuhong, Lao Hong Lao Li took the lead in telling Director Jiang this opinion, and Director Jiang didn't even fart. He is such a person, he is better in front of his subordinates, but he has nothing to say in front of his superiors. The information department is not well received, and it has something to do with Director Jiang's incompetence. Lao Hong and Lao Li said in private: One soldier will be a nest of bears. Since then, Lao Hong and Lao Li have no opinions to Director Jiang, knowing that what he said is in vain, and he is still angry.

Yuhong, a woman, seems to have too much family concept on the surface, but in fact, she is very selfish in her bones, and she is so selfish that she has lost herself. Don't look at her husband Xiao Wu is a laid-off technician, and he still speaks a little sissy, but in Yuhong's heart, this woman is extraordinary, which makes her admire her so much. When he was at home, Xiao Wu had a lot to say as soon as he entered the house, talking about some major national affairs, from politics to economy, and from domestic to foreign. In short, what flies in the sky and what runs in the ground are the objects he wants to elaborate. Of course, most of this information was obtained by him from the newspaper of the Information Department, and it became his own opinion at this time. Sometimes I read a little bit of a philosophy book without knowing anything, and then I stiffly connect it with reality. Such a husband is very good in the mind of Yuhong, a woman. Everything the husband says is true, and what others say is false. She opened her mouth and closed her mouth in the agency, my Xiao Wu said. Xiao Wu said this, Xiao Wu said that, and it became her spoken language.

Xiao Wu's position in the family is supreme, he does not need to do anything, his main job is to read philosophy books and watch television, and then he talks about the international and domestic situation. The mentally handicapped son became a problem for them, Xiao Wu naturally had his own explanation, so he said to his woman: Beethoven and Picasso all have physical or mental problems, but they are all geniuses, who dares to say that our son will not be a genius in the future? Yu Hong did not dare to say that his son was not a genius, and looked at her husband Xiao Wu, Xiao Wu lit a lamp of hope for her. Since then, she has some normal children who look down on others, and feel that other people's children are so mediocre, and only her own children are geniuses. In her eyes, her son is little Picasso, little Beethoven......

Therefore, Yu Hong can't let his son be wronged no matter what. On the desk in the office, there are books bought for her son, and there are all kinds of contents, and she hopes that if she is not paying attention, her son will become a genius. Her husband is a big genius in her eyes, and her son is a little genius who has not yet debuted in her heart. She also knew that the people in the office had opinions about her, but she couldn't wronged a pair of geniuses just to make everyone have no opinions. She pretended not to know anything, what to do.

Since her husband Xiao Wu was laid off, she has never found a reason in her husband himself. She always thought that the leader of her husband's unit was too bad for a thing, and she deliberately couldn't get along with Xiao Wu. What kind of people do you want to use in such a genius factory? Before this, Xiao Wu was not treated by the head of the unit, he was better than anyone else, but in practice, he was worse than anyone else, this kind of person we can often see in life. Usually very high, no one looks down on him, just do it yourself, at the critical moment, who will be laid off if this kind of person is not laid off?

As soon as Xiao Wu got off work, it was easier for the people in the information department to see Xiao Wu Huaicai's figure, and he almost commuted to work with the people in the information department. When he went to work, he moved a chair to sit next to Yuhong, took all the newspapers from the information department yesterday to his eyes, and then read the newspaper very deeply, thinking while reading, sighing and shaking his head. At this time he can't speak, he knows that no one will talk to him if he says anything, he knows that no one will treat him. He pretended to be a belly of words at this time, and these words could only be vomited at home and his woman.

At noon, it was the time for the family to reunite, and the appearance of her mentally handicapped son was the happiest time of Yuhong's day, and it was also the most tired time of her day. While urging her son to eat, she planned whether to let her son watch cartoons or learn fairy tales after eating. In short, her mind is devoted to cultivating geniuses. The son was very angry, she read a fairy tale for her son, and the son drooled and said: Mom, I want to sleep. She was very angry and said: Only people who have no interest only know how to sleep. At this time, Lao Hong and the others were already asleep, and when she said this, Lao Hong and the others must have been angry. So she held up a hand and said to her son, "How many fingers are these?" Yuhong looks like he hates iron but not steel. She didn't have the heart to teach her son, so she let him watch cartoons. When I watched the cartoon, my son was happy, drooling and looking overjoyed.

After noon, she seemed tired, dozing off at her desk, and sometimes drooling. At this time, her husband Xiao Wu had already gone home, and he would get off work if he sent the child away in the afternoon. He had to go back to his home and sleep, and when the woman came back at night, he would have to talk about many national events, and of course, a lot of dissatisfaction with the leaders of the unit in society. Yuhong felt that her husband's words were too correct, and this society was really unfair to people like her husband. She firmly believes that her husband will come out one day sooner or later, and now there is no future, but the time has not come.

Huang Shan, this woman

Yuhong Since Huang Shan went to the UK, she began to envy Huang Shan, she felt that Huang Shan's life was better than herself. Huang Shan's husband Xiao Wang was also laid off, but there is a big difference between being laid off and being laid off, and he went to the UK as soon as he got off the job. Yuhong currently worships two people, a man and a woman, the male is her husband Xiao Wu, and the female is Huang Shan.

When Huang Shan was in love, Yuhong felt that Huang Shan, a woman, was extraordinary. At that time, Huang Shan talked about three objects in one go, one of which was her current husband Xiao Wang. She didn't come one by one, but three people together. This requires a great deal of wisdom and courage, and sometimes a lot of boldness. Huang Shan talked about three objects in one breath, she was not playing with men, if that was the case, Huang Shan would not be Huang Shan. She has only one purpose, that is, she wants to find the most suitable one for herself under the conditions she can. She was not wrong in her thoughts and thought that her actions were full of kindness.

In other words, Huang Shan, a woman, has been going back and forth between three men for two years without goofing, which cannot but be said to be a miracle. Her shrewdness lies in the fact that these three men all feel that Huang Shan is the only one of them, and they don't feel in danger at all. Huang Shan walked between the three men, and for a while she was like a migratory bird, flying there this time, and then flying here again. She keeps abreast of changes in the climate, what clothes to wear in what season, and what makeup to wear in what season. In short, she confuses the three men.

Huang Shan's other cleverness lies in the fact that she not only grasps the psychology of the three men, but also keeps herself calm, she is calmly analyzing the advantages and disadvantages of the three men, it can also be said that the three men have their own strengths, some have good family conditions, some have good looks, and some are honest and kind. Huang Shan is also constantly puzzled why these advantages are not concentrated in one person. But she will soon be able to get rid of this confusion, otherwise she would not be Huang Shan. She knows that bear's paws and fish can't have both. When she thought about it, she had nothing to be confused about. The reason why she chose Xiao Wang over the other two in the end was because she felt that Xiao Wang would make a difference in the future. At that time, Xiao Wang was alone in this city, and being able to stay in this city after graduating from college was already very revealing in itself. Another point is that Xiao Wang works in state organs, and he will be very down-to-earth in the future, and he will not be too out of line. In the current dusty society, it is impossible for Huang Shan not to think pragmatically about the future and the present. That's where she's smart. Soon after she and Xiao Wang got married, the other two men also got married one after another, and not long after, a third party divorced, and the other had a bad life and was preparing to divorce. Now, Huang Shan herself feels that the original decision was wise. Although Xiao Wang has also been laid off now, this kind of layoff is more affordable than going to work. What could be more privileged than being laid off for a year in Great Britain?

Since Huang Shan and Xiao Wang got married, Huang Shan has formed a hatred with her mother. The reason is that her mother does not agree with her marriage to Xiao Wang, among these three men, the mother's least favorite is Xiao Wang, and Xiao Wang will not please Huang Shan's mother. The mother couldn't change Huang Shan's decision, and in the end, it could only be a discord between mother and daughter. Actually, it's nothing, and the general situation is that over time, it's all going to be okay. Huang Shan wants to do things well, because during this period of time, she can't get along with her mother, and someone will definitely make irresponsible remarks; in order to prevent people from making irresponsible remarks, she began to speak ill of her mother, and she wants to strike first and push her mother into the moral dock.

Every Monday, as soon as she went to work, she would tell each of her colleagues about the misfortunes she had encountered in the past two days, how she went back to her mother on the weekend, how her mother would not let her enter the door, how her mother would speak coldly after entering the door, and that she would be asked to repay the child support she had paid for so many years, and that if she did not pay, she would not have supported such a daughter, and so on. The words were bloody and tearful, and Lao Hong and Lao Li were also in tears. They are all people with children and daughters, and they feel that Huang Shan's mother has done too much from the perspective of their parents and mothers, and they should not have done so. They unanimously sympathized with Huang Shan, and they all said that Huang Shan had done nothing wrong, and it was Huang Shan's mother who was at fault. Huang Shan got sympathy from people, wiped away her tears, and did whatever she had to do, anyway, she had already thrown off the burden in her heart.

In fact, the mother was not as serious as she said, the mother was just a little unhappy, and said a few words about Huang Shan in a few words. If it were someone else, it would be over if she talked about it, but Huang Shan is different, she can't suffer in front of anyone, otherwise it won't be her Huang Shan. She couldn't bear it, got into a big argument with her mother, and left her mother's house.

Huang Shan has never suffered losses in the unit, as long as there is a chance to be cheap, he will not give up an inch of land. For example, she always picks fruits, rice, etc. first. The big ones are left, and the small ones are left to others. Of course, everyone is not very happy, but when I think of the current conflict between Huang Shan and her mother, I feel that it is not easy for her, so forget it and tolerate it. Actually, people are quite kind.

This time, Xiao Wang was laid off first, which once made her doubt her eyesight, but as Xiao Wang was announced to study abroad, she quickly affirmed herself again. She often said to Yuhong: In fact, marriage is a bet. If you bet on it, you will bet on it. Yu Hong was convinced of her words. She also said: In fact, love is not love, it is a lie, you can live a lifetime with anyone, as long as the other party is useful to you, you can live this life. Yuhong was skeptical of her words.

Huang Shan doesn't care if others believe it or not, anyway, she has been here for so many years, and she feels good. When she was in school, she joined the party. Later, she said that the party branch secretary in college liked to talk to girls, of course, the party branch secretary was a very old man, and many girls stopped talking twice, and she was the only one who persevered, and the result was that she was the only one who joined the party. When she graduated, her current agency went to the school to pick people, and she was selected because she was a party member. This reinforces her life creed - those false things are useless, and only those that are beneficial to themselves are true.

Lao Hong and Lao Li finally saw Huang Shan's this, and they both felt that the young people now were many times stronger than they were back then. If I had Huang Shan, I wouldn't be like this today.

Lao Hong and Lao Li

Lao Hong and Lao Li can be said to be a pair of enemies, and they have never been separated since they started working. It can be said that they are also the elders of the agency, and they have been working here since the establishment of the agency. At that time, they were all young, they had many dreams, and they all fought for their ideals, and the result is what it is today.

At that time, their biggest ideal was to be the director of the department, they were the veterans of this agency, and almost all the people who entered the agency with them were the director of the department, and now the director of the information department - Xiao Jiang (they have always called Director Jiang Xiao Jiang) is much less senior than them, and they have all become the director of the department, only they are just researchers who enjoy the treatment of the deputy department.

In fact, no one is to blame for all this, only themselves. At that time, the two were a veritable pair of enemies. The two are colleagues and rivals at the same time. If they weren't together, maybe the outcome would be different, but fate arranged them together and never separated. At that time, the two were like a pair of aggressive chickens, pinching whenever they met, until both sides were drenched in blood.

On several occasions, the leadership has made the decision to make one of them the head of the division. When the other heard about it, he talked to the leader and listed all kinds of things that the other party was not like, for example, what the other party said in a certain year and a certain month, of course, these words were not good for the other party; what was done in a certain year and a certain month, of course, this matter was also unfavorable to the other party; and when he said bad things about the leader, such bad words were exaggerated and exaggerated by the other party, and they were all detrimental to the image of the leader. The leader was naturally very unhappy when he heard this, so he put down the promotion. In this way, it was put and put and put and put and released, for a few years, and then for a few years, and the two of them gradually got old. When the opportunity came again, there was no longer their share, because they were all past the age of promotion. So they have to settle for the status quo.

During this period, the bureau leaders changed one batch after another, and almost every leader gave them a chance, and they all used the same method to block their way to progress. Leader after leader didn't understand why they couldn't get along with themselves. This really fulfills the old adage, the authorities are obsessed.

It wasn't until one day, when they finally understood that such an opportunity would never come again, that they came to their senses. But it was too late. Maybe it's because people have reached a certain age before they think about everything, and after thinking about it, the two of them no longer fight for right and wrong. They saw in front of them, and when they were fifty miles away, there was nothing. They all have a third generation, and when they think about it, they realize that these days have passed too quickly. The days of their fighting and fighting seemed to be a month ago, and I really don't understand how all these years have passed. They have already seen the future, that is, they will retire in two years; after retirement, they will take care of their grandchildren at home; when their grandchildren are older, they will really be old; and then they may encounter some illness or disaster, and if they can't talk about it, they won't be able to get up, and this life will come to an end.

Both of them wanted to open it on about the same day. The two people who no longer fight, as if the past grievances and grievances had never happened, laughed at each other. Now the first thing the two of them do when they go to work every day is to exchange qigong experiences. What kind of qigong have I learned recently, what kind of results have I received, my legs don't hurt anymore, I sleep soundly, and so on. It is convenient for two people to communicate, two people table to table, sitting opposite each other, which was unthinkable before. They now have many common languages, what to eat, what time to go to bed is better for health, and whether it is better to walk fast or slowly.

If one of them doesn't come to work for a few days because of his family or health, the other person will feel that something is missing, neither sitting nor standing, and then pick up the phone to connect with the other person, say a few words, and then put his mind at ease. The people in the office felt that something was wrong, and Xiaojie, who had not been involved in the world not long after graduating from college, once suspected that the two were in twilight love.

The two went from one extreme to the other. When Xiao Jiang was the director, the bureau asked for the opinions of the two, and the two said almost without thinking: No opinion, we have no opinion on who to be the director. Huang Shan went abroad, and in the eyes of the two of them, she went out, and it was no different from a business trip. What can happen if you go abroad? Don't you have to come back in the end? What happens when you become a director? Don't you have to retire in the end? It's the same when you're old. So the days were different in the eyes of Lao Hong and Lao Li, and there was nothing.

Xiao Wu

Xiaowu, who is in his early thirties, has not been married yet, and it is not accurate to say that he is not married, it should be said that Xiaowu has had two months of unworthy marriage history.

Things have to start when Xiaowu was thirty years old. When Xiaowu was thirty years old, he caught up with the agency to divide the house, which was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for anyone, but the division of the house was conditional, that is, it must be a married houseless household. At this point, Xiaowu is not eligible. Thirty-year-old Xiaowu is in the throes of falling out of love, that is, his girlfriend who has been talking for three years said goodbye to him because his girlfriend has found a better man than him. said that it was better than Xiaowu because that man was richer than Xiaowu and was a man in the mobile phone business. That man was five or six years older than Xiao Wu's age, and he was a man who was already very powerful, and Xiao Wu was fortunate enough to meet him once. It was the day Xiaowu broke up with his girlfriend, and the man came to pick her up. She said to Xiaowu: This is my boyfriend. Xiao Wu saw the man, and the man smiled at Xiao Wu, then grabbed her waist and left. Xiao Wu stood there, feeling very much like an athlete, handing over the baton to the next person, and then there was nothing to do with himself, he could only watch the next athlete run from a distance, whether he won or lost was someone else's business.

Xiaowu's unsuccessful love this time made Xiaowu have a new understanding of love, that is, there is no love in this world, and love is deceitful. The girlfriend who broke up with him has been in love for three years, and he has also sworn and sworn that he has also been in the mountains, but the result is not like this? The girlfriend is his college classmate, so it can be said that he knows the roots, and the two stay in the same city, and the two fall in love, which should be reasonable. Xiaowu knows that he is just a civil servant, and he has never expected anything before, if it is a luxury, it is to live the life of ordinary people, and he will live how others live. Reality completely shattered Xiaowu's dream of living an ordinary life.

Soon after Xiaowu fell out of love, he caught up with the agency to divide the house, the agency has not divided the house for several years, how important the house is to everyone who understands the national situation, I won't say much here. Xiaowu clearly realized that such an opportunity could not be lost no matter what, and there would be no such shop in this village after that. If you want to get a house, you can't get married unless you get married. In those few days, Xiaowu was really at a loss.

After Xiaowu stayed in this city, he has been renting a house, and there is no dormitory in the institution, so he can only rent a house. Without his own house is without his own home, Xiaowu has always had a sense of wandering, sometimes like a kite with a broken string, it can't go up, it can't fall down, it just floats in the air. He has always felt this way after staying in the city. At that time, he wanted to wait for the opportunity to mature, get married, get married, and maybe not have this feeling when he has a family. Now getting married has also become his distant dream. However, it wasn't the dream house that was right in front of his eyes, and he didn't want to lose it again.

In those days, Xiaowu mobilized all the acquaintances in the city, such as teachers and classmates, and asked everyone to contribute to him. A male classmate came up with a plan, that is, to let Xiaowu get married fakely, saying that if he wanted, he could find such a person for Xiaowu, but the woman was conditional. In other words, Xiaowu had to pay the other party 20,000 yuan. This classmate said with confidence. Because, before this, this woman had such a transaction with someone else, the first time the other party paid 30,000, and this is not the first time, it dropped to 20,000. Xiaowu had no other better way, and thought that it would cost 20,000 yuan to buy a house, and it would be worth it!

From marriage to divorce, Xiaowu met the woman a total of twice. That is, in two months, Xiaowu's house was in hand, and he went through the divorce procedures with the woman. Xiaowu got a house, and at the same time got a reputation for divorce. Anyway, Xiaowu also wants to open it, so there is nothing.

In addition to going to work, Xiaowu is obsessed with the Internet. He now has few friends in real life, but he has made a lot of friends online, and chatting with friends he has never met online has become an essential part of his life. No one can see anyone on the Internet, they can say whatever they want, and they can even talk online without asking whether the other party is male or female, as long as the topic is speculative. This is a fun that Xiaowu can't experience in real life. Real life can only disappoint him.

What he usually looks down on the most is the woman Yuhong, he never even talks to her, her personality and style are simply unbearable for him. He also doesn't like Huang Shan's little woman, it's not an exaggeration to say that she is a little woman, Huang Shan almost handed over her fate to a man, and it must be Huang Shan who will suffer when the time comes. He couldn't tell if Huang Shan was the man who loved her, anyway, her man brought her what she wanted. At this point, he used to think that Huang Shan was betraying himself, which made him despised. Now he doesn't think that way anymore. Because his so-called love has been shattered, he no longer believes that there is any love in this world, since there is no love, then it is the same with everyone, whoever can make his life better will follow whom, what's wrong with this? He thinks that Huang Shan, this little woman, is very smart, at least she woke up earlier than herself. After thinking about it like this, he looked at this little woman a little.

Yu Hong was not like this in his eyes, and all her actions only made him feel disgusting and unhappy. Just two small things let Xiaowu see through the woman Yuhong. The various departments and offices of the organ have ordered several kinds of newspapers, and after a while they will sell some discarded newspapers. Every time she sells newspapers, Yuhong is very active, she takes the initiative to sell, and every time she can sell it for more than ten yuan, in fact, no one takes it seriously for more than ten yuan, Yuhong says every time: Let's buy ice cream for this money. Then he generously put the money in the pen holder on his desk. After a while, and after a while, the matter of eating ice cream was gone, and the dozen yuan was silently gone. This is still the case the next time you sell a newspaper. Every year on June 1st, the agency means something for people with children, sometimes giving out some food for children, and sometimes some cash. Lao Li, Lao Hong and Director Jiang's children are not included in the distribution when they are older, and the others have no children, and only Yuhong is a woman who is eligible. Every time she received the things distributed, she looked like she had taken advantage of the sky, and then said to Xiaowu Xiaojie and others: How good it is to have children, you should have children quickly. It's as if the child she gave birth to was a special agency to divide things. In Xiao Wu's eyes, these little things were enough for him to see through this woman. Xiaowu sometimes thinks, I really don't know how this kind of person got into the position of a civil servant.

Lao Hong and Lao Li, existence is equal to nothingness, whether the two of them have or not, in Xiaowu's eyes, it is the same. In other words, the two of them are eating together and waiting for death. Director Jiang exists only because he is the director of the Information Department, and it is better to let this kind of person be the director. In Xiaowu's impression, Director Jiang has never had his own opinions, and he has to consult his superiors for big and small things, maybe it was because his superiors took a fancy to him that he made him the director. In the information department, Director Jiang is just a microphone, and he keeps a straight face all day long, and he has never seen him smile once.

There is also a small world, not long after graduating from college, some places have not yet come out of school and are angry. There are constant dating calls all day long, either going clubbing or jumping, in short, there is no free time. Although Xiaojie is also in his twenties, he has no sign of maturity at all. Although the age gap between Xiaowu and Xiaojie is not too big, he has no common language with Xiaojie.

Xiao Wu can only chat with netizens on the computer every day, and only then does he feel his existence, which is also the only joy in his life. Recently he met a girl named Careful on the Internet, and they have been chatting a few times. Every time he went online, he could run into the girl called Careful, and every time the two of them talked very speculatively. They chatted and chatted, and they talked about their respective units, be careful that this girl's unit is also an agency, her feelings are the same as Xiaowu's, they have not found colleagues with a common language in their own units, and their distress is the same. They also have the same opinion of the people around them, which makes Xiaowu feel surprised, and of course Careful feels the same way. They have the meaning of seeing each other and hating each other. They chatted and chatted, and carefully said the first half of the sentence, and Xiao Wu knew what she would say in the second half of the sentence. It's the same way around, chatting and chatting, Xiaowu actually laughed at the computer, he felt really god. He didn't know what the girls looked like, whether they were tall or fat or ugly or handsome, it didn't matter, just by their hearts was enough to show that they were the same kind of people. Xiaowu's name on the Internet is Xiao Kan, this is the rules of the game for their netizens, everyone who goes online has their own screen name, in fact, it doesn't matter what it is called, it's just a code name. This is the same as his usual name, but it is convenient for others and himself.

Xiaowu met this girl called Careful when he was disheartened, which brought a touch of brightness to his life. He didn't know what this girl called Careful would bring him, anyway, he felt good at this time, the dull life of the organ made him feel that he could not see hope, but Caution made him feel the ripples in his life, and made his dead heart ripple again. For some reason, he wanted to see Caution more and more. Even he didn't have such a strong feeling when he was in love, Xiaowu didn't know if he was in love. After three years of love that ended in failure, love was dead in his heart. But sometimes this feeling made him indescribable, and he once mustered up the courage to meet carefully. Be careful of giggling on the Internet and saying: Don't see each other, maybe we won't feel this way when we meet. Xiao Wu thought about it and felt that it was reasonable to be careful. So he temporarily dismissed his desire to see Careful.

Small world

The small world is to go to the society and the institution with a red heart. When she graduates, she can go to the company, Xiaojie's parents are all from the past, and she still thinks that the agency is safe, although she doesn't earn as much as the company, but the agency is the agency, which is the country, and it cannot be replaced by any company. In the end, Xiaojie came to the agency under the persuasion of his parents.

In the days when Xiaojie first came to the agency, everything was new, and he felt that there was nothing wrong with the agency. As time passed, she gradually realized that this lifeless life of the organ was really not suitable for her. She couldn't relate to these people, and she knew what they were thinking. Director Jiang only wants to be his director, and keeping the position of director is currently his greatest ideal. Lao Hong and Lao Li are messing around, they are waiting for the day when they retire. Every day's firewood, rice, oil and salt, or qigong fitness, if they are like this, there is nothing wrong, after all, they are almost at retirement age, and they should also care about what they should care about. This is not the case, they have nothing on the surface, but deep down, they are more unbalanced than anyone else. The phone was placed between Lao Hong and Lao Li, and almost two people answered every time a call came from the office. Xiaojie has many boyfriends and girlfriends, and not long after he walked out of school, his friends felt that everything was still so fresh, so there were many calls to Xiaojie. Every time, Lao Hong or Lao Li answered, and it would be better if it was a girl's call, but if it was a boy's call, the two of them would prick up their ears and listen carefully, hoping that they would become a mosquito and get into the telephone. In fact, they didn't hear anything, but they can associate from the words of the small world, the biggest advantage of association is that what they think is what they want, so the content of the phone in the small world is very rich under the association of the two, so the two look at each other, and there is everything in their eyes. This point has long been seen in the eyes of the small world, and every time she answers the phone, she feels weird in her heart, and there is an indescribable taste, as if she is doing something unseemly.

Lao Li, as a woman, often finds Xiaojie, and seems to care about Xiaojie's personal affairs, and keeps asking if Xiaojie has a boyfriend. Every time, Xiaojie said that he already had it and was about to get married. choked so that Lao Li couldn't say a word, and after a while, when he saw that there was still no movement in the small world to get married, he said that women would get married sooner or later, and women could only live with peace of mind if they got married, and so on. The implication of what she said was that it was as if the small world was not a person who lived without marriage.

If Xiaojie doesn't get married for a day, Lao Hong and Lao Li don't seem to be able to settle down. They seem to have a lot of words of consolation to say, and they know that what they say is also in vain, and the small world will not listen to them, and it will be boring if they don't get it right, so they can only put what they want to say in their stomachs. In this way, both of them were very uncomfortable, so the two of them muttered in private, looking worried about the country and the people.

In the eyes of the small world, Yuhong is a woman who can't be expressed in words. She felt sad for such a woman as a woman. In the eyes of Xiaojie, Yuhong is a woman with no personality, no pursuit, no self, and selfishness. Sometimes she thinks that if all women get married and only have their husbands and children in their lives, they really don't know what the world will be like. At the same time, she also doesn't appreciate a woman like Huang Shan, she is too practical in her feelings, and she bets on a man like a marriage treasure, what is the difference between this and a gambler?

Director Jiang is not a man in the eyes of the small world, and everything in Director Jiang's eyes is bigger than the sky and heavier than the ground. He felt that this was too much of a thing, and he couldn't make the decision, and he had to consult his superiors to be sure, otherwise he would have no master, and he didn't know what to do. At the same time, Xiaojie also felt sad that he met such a leader as soon as he went out into society. Xiaojie also felt from her perspective as a woman that Director Jiang was still a womanizer. She could feel it from Director Jiang's gaze looking at her. When Director Jiang spoke to her, his gaze was always wandering, and he kept looking at the most sensitive parts of her body. Whenever he was alone with her, he always took the opportunity to touch her hair, or sleeves or something, which made Xiaojie feel uncomfortable and ridiculous. This bold little man gave her goosebumps all over her body.

Xiaowu didn't have a cold in her eyes. She knew that Xiaowu had failed in love, and she had also faked marriages with others in order to divide the house. This is nothing in the eyes of the small world, and everything will have success or failure. Now Xiaowu's failure seems to be that everyone in the world can't stand him. I rarely talk to people every day, and it's too profound.

Xiao Jie was looking at the world with her eyes that didn't have much of a city, looking at the people around her, and also experiencing this mechanism.

When she was in college, she was so eager to graduate early, and at that time she was full of desire for society, and she felt that she could only prove that she had really grown up if she went out into society. At that time, she felt that school life was not interesting at all, and her desire for society at that time was simply longing. It wasn't until she went out into society that she realized that everything was her fantasy. She couldn't turn the corner for a while, and she often imagined that maybe it would be better to change units. She was looking forward to that day sooner rather than later.

Old ginger

The old ginger, who is nearly fifty years old, has experienced everything he should have experienced. He went to the countryside before graduating from high school, and as a result, he married a woman from the local county, and he didn't think further at that time, and he couldn't have thought further. At that time, under the instruction of the vast world to make great achievements, he wanted to work in the local area for the rest of his life. Unexpectedly, overnight, the majority of intellectual youths said that they would return to the city, and finally left behind those of them who got married locally. If the policy remains unchanged and everyone is still doing a lot in the vast world, there will be no imbalance in him, but if others say leave overnight, he will be unbalanced. Later, after hard work, he finally returned to the city. After he came back, he realized that he was really poor and white, not to mention anything else, the house alone was a big problem. He had no choice but to live with his mother, who had died before that. Only my mother is left in the family, and my mother is an intellectual, she likes to be quiet, and she has been used to it for so many years. The other children also went out one after another, and the mother looked forward to the stars and the moon to come to a quiet day, but she didn't expect Lao Jiang to come back with the family again. At that time, Lao Jiang's children were already in elementary school. Lao Jiang has nowhere to go but to live with his mother. After a long time, a contradiction occurred. The contradiction comes from Lao Jiang's lover and mother, the mother doesn't like this daughter-in-law from other places very much, and the daughter-in-law is not very good at things. She felt that she should eat and live here, and she didn't treat herself as an outsider, and her daughter-in-law didn't want to suffer anything. In this way, the contradiction happens, and as soon as it happens, it is out of control, the mother is unhappy, and the lover is not happy. All day long, it was the mother who complained, and the lover who was angry. There is a reason why a lover is angry. The lover didn't want to call back, she had her own lovely job in that county, and finally followed Lao Jiang's advice and came to this unfamiliar city. What she didn't expect was that when she came back here, she had nothing to do, and she had to start everything from scratch, so she was angry. She knew that her mother-in-law couldn't get used to her, and she often showed her face, and she didn't have a good face to show her mother-in-law. Those days made the old ginger chicken restless, and his biggest wish at that time was to hope that he would get a house as soon as possible. It was then that the seeds of hatred were planted between him and his lover, he felt that his lover did not understand him at all, he could not quarrel with his mother, he could only quarrel with his lover. As a result, the seeds of this hatred are planted deeper and deeper. A few years later, Lao Jiang finally got a house and left his mother's residence. However, this contradiction has not been resolved.

After a few years, my mother was getting older and it was not easy to move. Lao Jiang always has to take the time to take a look, and of course his lover is not happy. For this, she often had to quarrel with Lao Jiang, and Lao Jiang felt that this day was very gloomy, and there was no way out.

Lao Jiang is nearly fifty years old, and finally got into the position of director, he cherishes it very much, he felt that he was satisfied with a house of his own in this life, and later he had a house and became the director. The position of the director was picked up by him from Lao Hong and Lao Li, if Lao Hong and Lao Li did not have a conflict, what happened to this director would not be his turn. It is precisely because of this that he feels more and more that this director is not easy to come by, so he always feels that the position of the director is unstable, and he always feels that he may be snatched away one day. Because of this thought, he is cautious everywhere and does not dare to make the slightest mistake. In order to reduce the right and wrong, no matter what he encounters, he must ask the leader for instructions, and many years of work experience tell him that it will not be wrong to ask for more instructions and report.

For so many years, he had wanted a divorce, and when he chose this woman, he found out that it was a mistake. At that time, when I was young, I didn't control myself when I was excited, and it turned out to be a big mistake. He wants to get rid of his lover now, but it's not so easy. At that time, local women were able to find intellectual youths in the countryside, and it became a fashion for local young women. When he returned to the city, he thought about divorce, and he would not have so many troubles when he returned to the city with his children. Before he brought it up, his lover seemed to see through his thoughts, so his wife said categorically: There is no door for divorce, unless you don't want to go back to the city. At that time, his wife's family had some connections in the local area, and he was afraid that he would not be able to come back, so he did not dare to file for divorce. When he returned to the city, when the quarrel between his mother-in-law and daughter-in-law was in full swing, he wanted to divorce again, and his wife saw the signs of his inconsistency in time, so she said: If you want to divorce, you can give me 100,000 yuan, and I will leave you immediately, otherwise don't think about it. His wife does what she says, and he has learned how powerful his wife is. When Lao Jiang heard his wife say this, he had no choice at all.

Later, they had their own house, and although they would still quarrel with their wives about going home to visit their mothers, they would be many times better than arguing every day before. Later, he became the director again, so he didn't dare to mention the divorce, otherwise the director who was finally able to get his hands would also disappear with his wife's noisy and noisy affairs. Thinking about it like this, he endured it. During this period, the child grew up little by little, and he poured all his hopes and sustenance into his son, who was about to graduate from high school, and when his son was admitted to college, half of his wish would be gone. The other half of him pinned on himself, and this kind of sustenance was slowly grown after he became the director. Before he became the director, he never dared to think that he would be the deputy director. Lao Feng is about to retire, as soon as Lao Feng retires, someone has to take over Lao Feng's class, he secretly calculated, there are more than ten organs, which means that he will have a dozen hopes. Excluding those who are about to retire, there is still one in seven or eight hopes. When he thought about it, the future suddenly brightened, and he was now working carefully for that bright future. He couldn't tell why he wanted to be the deputy director, maybe this kind of career was innate, and he had this desire deeply buried in his blood and bones. Perhaps this is the genes of the ancestors, passed down to him from generation to generation, and he cannot get rid of it and cannot get rid of it.

Lao Jiang knew what the people in the department thought of him, and he felt that all this didn't matter, these people couldn't affect his pace of marching to the deputy director. As long as the relationship with the leader is good, no matter what you do, as long as you let the leader rest assured, you will listen to the leader everywhere. Therefore, no matter how big or small, he must actively report to the leader, and he will do what the leader says. What others think of him is someone else's business, as long as there is such a little ginger as him in the eyes of the leader, he will be content.

Lao Feng

Lao Feng, who is about to retire, has been transferred to the local government for nearly ten years, and he has been in the position of deputy bureau for these ten years. After his wife committed suicide, he couldn't continue to work in the army. Why his wife committed suicide he can't tell why, he used to have emotional problems with his wife, but he made trouble, he filed for divorce or something, but he never divorced. His wife was found from the countryside when he was a soldier, and then he got married, and then he did it again, and then he realized that he really didn't have any common language with his wife. He also thought about divorce, but his wife cried and made trouble, and his wife counted down her misfortunes. He thought about it, when his wife was in the countryside, it was not easy to be a mother and a father at the same time, so the result was forgotten. Later, he never mentioned the divorce again, life was going smoothly, the children were older, and he had been a division commander for a few years, and the day when he became a general was just around the corner. I didn't expect a good life, but my wife committed suicide. His wife had said something to him the day before she committed suicide, and he didn't care about it at the time, but those words turned out to be his wife's last words. His wife said to him: I know that you have not been satisfied with me for so many years, don't think that I am reluctant to you, I am reluctant to have a son, I don't know how to live without a mother. When my wife said this, my son was already admitted to university. My wife also said: You have been uncomfortable all these years, and I am also uncomfortable, now we don't have to be uncomfortable, you can be comfortable as your division commander and commander.

His wife often nagged like this, and he was used to it. When his wife said this, he was thinking about something else, he thought, the third regiment went to the exercise on behalf of the whole division this time, and I don't know if I can get the first one back. He also thought that if the head of the first regiment Yang changed jobs, it would be better to let Deputy Head Wang take over or Deputy Head Zhang to take over. These are all big things, and what he thinks about all day long is the big things of the whole division, and his wife's words are like a gust of wind blowing away from his ears.

No one thought that the next day, when he came home from work, he saw his wife hanging from the door. My wife was dressed neatly, she was wearing the same gown she wore when she first entered the city, and she was wearing mille-feuille shoes that she had made. He saw the scene in front of him as if he understood everything, and he didn't seem to understand anything. Later, he changed jobs and came to this agency as a deputy director, and it has been almost ten years in a flash.

Everyone in the agency knows that Lao Feng is the best leader to speak, and he will work hard to do anything for you, and if he says no, don't ask him. When it's okay, people can often see Lao Feng looking out the window in a daze, looking at it for a long time, and no one knows what he is thinking. Usually he also has the least words. My son has graduated from college a long time ago, and he has been married for another time, but he rarely comes back to see Lao Feng, and Lao Feng doesn't say anything. Lao Feng is usually the only one in the family. Not long ago, Lao Feng had a stroke and was hospitalized for a few days, and after being discharged from the hospital, Lao Feng did not leave any obvious sequelae, that is, his mouth was a little crooked when he spoke, and saliva sometimes flowed out of the corners of his mouth.

Lao Feng usually never goes to the office, and whoever has something to do goes to the office to find him. Sometimes when you meet him in the corridor, he will ask you: Xiaowu, how long have you been in the bureau? Xiaowu will answer for a long time. Then he asked, "Where does Xiaowu's family live?" Xiaowu replied where his family lives. Not long after, the next time Lao Feng meets Xiao Wu, Lao Feng will still ask Xiao Wu, how long has he been in the bureau? Xiao Wu was stunned for a moment, but still replied how long has it been. Lao Feng asked again: Where does Xiaowu's family live? Xiaowu quickly finished answering and left without looking back. Xiao Wu privately thought, how could Lao Feng, the leader, be like this.

Of course, this will also happen when others meet Lao Feng. People think that Lao Feng, the leader, is too bureaucratic, and Lao Feng usually gives people a bit of that. After a long time, I don't take Lao Feng as a leader. When we meet, Lao Feng always shouts, and Lao Feng can't see any changes, sometimes agrees, and sometimes nods at you. Next time, no matter what you ask him for, as long as he can manage it and can do it for you, he will always do it for you. People also said that Lao Feng was a good man.

Yu Hong ran to his office more often for the sake of going to the party school, and Yu Hong was very anxious at that time, in order to be able to go to school, because he could change jobs when he went to school. She had thought that if Lao Feng could really help, it would be nothing to have something with Lao Feng. She once hinted at Lao Feng with words, I don't know if Lao Feng didn't hear it, or Lao Feng didn't move, in short, Lao Feng didn't act at all, even if Lao Feng had a little meaning, Yu Hong would express it.

It wasn't until Yu Hong had been dry for a long time that Lao Feng met Yu Hong in the corridor and suddenly asked: How long have you been in the bureau? It was only then that Yu Hong really realized that Lao Feng really didn't know what he was thinking.

No one knows what Lao Feng thinks, only Lao Feng himself knows. Since he transferred to the local area, his mind has remained in the army, where he has fought for most of his life, and his career and his emotions have been left in the army. It was a kind of helplessness for him to change jobs to the local area, and although many years have passed, he still has not entered the role. He was often in a daze, and when he looked out the window, he would wander, as if he had seen his thousands of horses walking solemnly before his eyes. His eyes moistened as he thought about it.

He was getting older every year, and in a few days he would be retired, but this hallucination was intruding more and more intensely, making his blood boil again and again, and he was disillusioned again and again. So he walked between reality and illusion.