"That'...... That one. Looking at Hua Ruoquan's calm and handsome face, and the eyes that made her heart tremble but were still unfazed, Chang Xing swallowed his saliva with difficulty, lowered his head again, shook his head and said in a low voice: "...... I...... I didn't. ”

After saying this, Chang Xing bit his lower lip desperately.

She almost wanted to strangle herself to death, obviously she wanted to boldly tell Ah Quan that she liked him, why was she so timid at this time that she wanted to lie to him?

She really hated her cowardice, but she was even more afraid, afraid that Ruoquan would despise her because of her filthy mentality, and would spit on everything she had done. Don't talk about Hua Ruoquan, even she herself doesn't understand how she could do such a thing yesterday.

Having sex with him while he was drunk, and then using this as a reason to hold him responsible. Does Ah Quan think so?

But she really just wants to get closer to him, and she really doesn't mean to force him.

She doesn't regret losing her life to Hua Ruoquan, but if Hua Ruoquan will cut off her relationship with her after knowing the truth of the matter, she would rather never tell him that she likes him for the rest of her life.

Chang Xing hung her head low, she twisted her fingers restlessly, her ears rumbling, and she only felt that her brain was a mess.

"Really?" Hua Ruoquan, who was standing in front of him, answered softly.

Chang Xing is as embarrassed and ashamed as sitting on pins and needles. She didn't dare to look up, she didn't know Hua Ruoquan's expression, and she couldn't tell what his emotions were from his flat tone.

There's no way to change reality by saying anything now, he's so smart, sooner or later he'll find out the truth of the matter, and when the time comes, ...... What will she do then?

It was like a fire burning in his heart, and Chang Xing's sad expression was almost crying.

Quietly looking at Chang Xing's lowered face, Hua Ruoquan did not break her emotions that she couldn't hide in front of him. After a moment of silence, Hua Ruoquan said: "Fortunately, I have already helped you put hot water in the bathroom, you can go take a bath first." ”

After speaking, Hua Ruoquan turned around and walked out of the bedroom, leaving Chang Xing alone to be quiet.

Chang Xing slowly looked sideways at the bedroom door, Hua Ruoquan helped her close the door when she went out, no matter how hard she looked, she couldn't see Hua Ruoquan in the living room through the wooden door.

Hua Ruoquan lingered in the living room for a while, and then Chang Xing heard the sound of the security door of the apartment opening and then closing.

Ruoquan is gone.

The body that had been tense finally relaxed and collapsed, and Chang Xing sat on the bed with his head hanging down and very frustrated.

The apartment was quiet, and her favorite breath was still wafting in the air, but the tranquility she felt on weekdays was now lifeless due to the difference in mood.

I can't be friends anymore.

It was she who destroyed the balance of all this, the original friendship, the original peace and comfort. The human heart is not enough for a snake to swallow an elephant, and if you hope for something that does not belong to you, you will only lose it faster, and she is the snake that wants to swallow the elephant with no strength.

The shame in her heart grew deeper, and she couldn't stay here for a moment. Chang Xing got up from the bed in a hurry, picked up the clothes thrown on the ground and rushed into the bathroom.

She panted with her back against the cold tile wall, and slowly looked up, the flat mirror opposite reflecting her embarrassed appearance.

Under the messy long hair, there are no features at all, everything is ordinary and mediocre, no one will take a second look, she is the kind of girl who can be found on the street with a casual grab.

And the obvious kiss marks on her body have lost the temperature of last night, as if denouncing what she did. Chang Xing stared at himself in the mirror, as if a voice said disdainfully: Chang Xing, Chang Xing, I can't see that your appearance is not good, but your heart is so insidious. For his own selfish purposes, he even disregarded his integrity. If Ah Quan disowns you from it, it will be your own doing......

That's not true.

Chang Xing squatted down and pounded his head with a clenched fist.

After getting dressed in the bathroom, Chang Xing hurriedly walked out, looking at the messy bed, she took out a new sheet from the wardrobe and replaced the bed.

After doing everything, Chang Xing stroked the clean big bed without a trace of wrinkles, and his mood was complicated.

Every time she came to Hua Ruoquan, she would take the initiative to help him with housework, although Hua Ruoquan had a slight habit of cleanliness, and the house was always kept very tidy. When she helps Hua Ruoquan do housework, she will feel happy, but I'm afraid that in the future, there will be no more such opportunities.

Without a face, Chang Xing found a bag and stuffed the soiled sheets into it, picked up his bag and quickly left Hua Ruoquan's house.

Along the way, I came home in a trance, and as soon as I got home, Chang Xing rushed into the bathroom, and without taking off his clothes, he stood under the sprinkler head and rinsed himself. She shivered in the cold water, but she kept standing there and didn't move.

She wept silently, her heart full of remorse, water can wash away filth, but it can't wash away her filthy heart.

......

After changing her clothes, Chang Xing washed Hua Ruoquan's sheets, and then sat alone on the sofa in the living room, time passed minute by minute, until it was past lunch time, and she didn't have the slightest appetite.

Suddenly, there was a faint knock at the door of the small apartment.

Chang Xing jumped up, holding the pillow with one hand, covering his mouth tightly with the other, staring at the iron door.

Don't look at it, she also knows that it is Hua Ruoquan, for more than 20 years, she has prematurely remembered every habit and small detail of Hua Ruoquan, and even the frequency and strength of his knocks.

After knocking for a while, I didn't hear Chang Xing's response, and the knocking on the door was interrupted.

Chang Xing held her breath and slowly moved to the door, just putting her ear to the crack in the door, but the rapid knock on the door that she didn't want to ring again almost made her go into cardiac arrest.