"Why is there no breath, why are you dead, wasn't it okay just now, didn't you tell you not to go up!"

Zhao Lifan lowered his head and whispered, and then looked at the safety valve under the front bracket column with a dull gaze. I don't know how long it took, Zhao Lifan stood up violently, slapped his cheek twice, and shouted loudly:

"It's all my fault, I don't have anything to say about my dreams, if I pull the yellow hair, it's okay, it's all my fault!"

Zhao Lifan shouted heartbreakingly, slapped himself again as he spoke, reddish marks appeared on his black face, and tears rolled down like beads.

"I don't want to die, master, I don't want to die~"

Zhao Lifan sat down slowly, buried his head between his knees, and cried loudly, he was only 22 years old, he had never thought about death before, and he had never faced death so directly.

Huo Lai's sudden and tragic death directly shattered his spirit, he couldn't face all this, in fact, the biggest pain of the trapped people was never the lack of food and water, nor the physical pain, but the mental torture and inner collapse.

The cry gradually faded down, only the sound of confused and trembling sobs, occasionally accompanied by a painful hiss, and the almost enclosed space fell silent again, as if abandoned by the whole world, only the cherry red blood on the coal block showed its cruelty and reality.

"Later?" Ouyang Alan softly pulled Zhao Lifan back from his painful memories.

Zhao Lifan calmed down a little and said:

"At about 5 a.m. the next day, the coal mine found us trapped, and at 1 p.m., He Feng and I were rescued. At that time, sitting in the back seat of the rickety pickup truck, I felt very steady, and I kept staring at the mileage board of the alley gang, 2300m, 2200m...... counted, until the sunlight on the ground pierced me so much that I couldn't open my eyes, and subconsciously blocked it with my hand, and then stretched out my fingers to look at it. ”

Zhao Lifan smiled after speaking, and continued:

"I'm sorry, let you laugh, when I heard someone shouting about us outside, I didn't want to cry, now I think about it is very embarrassing, I feel very afraid of death, and I'm sorry Huo Lai. ”

"There is no shame, only people who have faced death are so looking forward to life, the desire to survive is so strong, let go of all dignity, humble and great, this is not ashamed Zhao Lifan.

You are not afraid of death, people who are afraid of death will not risk death to save people under the murderer's knife, you are a very pure person, I believe Huo Lai will not blame you. Ouyang Alan stared at Zhao Lifan tightly and said.

"Thank you, Lawyer Ouyang!"

There was a slight hint of self-reproach in Zhao Lifan's sincere eyes, he felt that he was responsible for Huo Lai's death, he should forcibly stop Huo Lai, and he had that ability at that time. Zhao Lifan looked into the distance through the small window of the visitation room, and thought of Huo Lai's father when he was dealing with the aftermath.

After the accident, Huo's father came to Huo's house alone, he didn't fight with the coal mine, the only requirement was to deal with it quickly, he wanted to go back as soon as possible. Huo Lai is an only child, the more he bargains, the more he feels that his son's life is worthless, he always refused to do this or that when his son was alive, and now that he is gone, he has to leave him some dignity.

In the end, Huo's father refused the request of the coal mine to send him back to his hometown, and only let the car take him to the train station.

At that time, Huo's father's thin back was so cold and lonely, even the red sun could not make that figure feel a trace of warmth.

Zhao Lifan seemed to see Huo's father on the train from the small window, first crying silently, and then sobbing, until finally the lung-splitting "woo" sound and the clanging sound of the train completely coincided with the cold fence of the window.

In the detention center's cell, Zhao Lifan was sweating profusely, kneeling on the ground with his fists supported, and in the gasping sound like a bellows, dense beads of sweat flowed down his arms, forming a stream on the ground with the fresh blood on his fists, and the scarlet fist prints on the porcelain-white wall complemented each other.

After coming back, Zhao Lifan's mind kept echoing the conversation with Ouyang Alan, he felt more and more that he was innocent, it had been six days in the detention center, he was so hopeful for the first time, but he didn't understand why Wang Xiaoer and Lin Guoqiang had wronged him, thinking about it, he drilled the tip of the horns, his anger was out of control again, and he vented directly on the wall, this is not the first time.

Zhao Lifan stood up slowly, looked at the cracked wall tiles on the wall, and smiled bitterly:

"The anger and the desire to destroy are getting harder and harder to control, and it's not a problem to smash the wall like this!"

Instead, he squatted under the corner of the wall, staring at the small window diagonally above, so focused, but his eyes were hollow, and there was no bright view outside the window.

After being in a daze for a while, Zhao Lifan's eyes had a little color:

"What are you worried about, it's a serious matter to get out of here first, I hope Lawyer Ouyang can find more evidence!"

After speaking, Zhao Lifan struggled to stand up, and as soon as he got up, he stumbled, his right hand was on the bed, and his legs were numb. He held on to the bed and moved his legs, and when he was about to stand up again, he suddenly felt that the back of his hand was a little itchy, and his eyes naturally fell on his hand.

The blood stains on the fist have dried up, and the place where the skin was broken just now has also scabbed, Zhao Lifan couldn't help but start looking inward, and the state of the wound under the scab appeared in his mind, it was slowly healing, although the speed was slow, but it was also visible to the naked eye.

Using internal vision, Zhao Lifan not only recalled the earth-shaking changes he had made in the past six months, although Zhao Lifan had practiced martial arts for more than ten years, and his qualifications were considered to be upper-middle, but he was still too far from the current achievements, all of which had to start with the roofing accident in October last year.

Regarding the accident, Zhao Lifan had one more thing to hide from Ouyang Alan and them, on the one hand, because it had nothing to do with his case, and more importantly, it was a secret hidden in his heart, and he would never tell anyone.

After Huo Lai's death, Zhao Lifan soon fell asleep in a collapsed state of mind, and it didn't take long for him to suddenly feel that he was in a purple glow, and then he dreamed that he had become a purple ball of light, constantly floating lonely in the endless void.

I don't know how long it has been, a thousand years, ten thousand years..... Suddenly, a whirlpool appeared in front of him, flashing with a dazzling white light, sucking him in. He didn't even think it was a dream, because the loneliness that floated in the void was so clear that he was scared to think about it now.

After being rescued, Zhao Lifan slowly changed in all aspects, first of all, the most significant is memory, what happened to him for more than 20 years seems to have been rediscovered, all listed in his mind, and even the memories of his infancy that should not be remembered are so clear.

As long as Zhao Lifan is willing, he can clearly see every detail he has experienced, and even the moments that he didn't pay attention to at the time, as long as he swept through his eyes or heard it in his ears, he could know it clearly. His memory is now like a memory card, which can be read and replayed at any time, that is, he will never forget it.

And more than half a month after the accident, when Zhao Lifan stood on the pile of Xingyi boxing, he actually entered a state of selflessness and nothingness, which he had never encountered in practicing boxing for more than ten years, and his grandfather had never mentioned it to himself, but the effect of practicing boxing in this state was obvious, and when Zhao Lifan got out of this state, he found that he had practiced internal strength, and he had to know that his grandfather had internal strength in his forties.

Later, I entered this state more and more times, from once or twice a month at the beginning, to five or six times a month later, and this state of selflessness and nothingness can not only accelerate the growth of internal strength, but also strengthen the understanding of meaning.

You must know that the root of Xingyi boxing is to practice strength, the stronger the internal strength, the more powerful the boxing method, but there is no understanding and understanding of the meaning, that is, no matter how strong the internal strength can not be played, not to mention the lack of understanding of the meaning, the practice of strength is basically empty talk, the boxing has clouds:

"The spirit of the god is the body of the body, and the spirit and spirit have a certain master, the sincerity, the sincerity, the heaven, the sincerity, and humanity. The body is for the use of the will, and the strength is for the use of the body, so it is said that the intention is not forceful, but the intention is lucky. "It can be seen that the importance of meaning to the cultivation of Xingyi Fist.

In this way, Zhao Lifan's Xingyi Quan improved quite rapidly, and it was not until the beginning of March this year that Zhao Lifan underwent another earth-shaking change.

In the early morning of that day, Zhao Lifan stood in the back mountain of the coal mine reservoir area as usual, and this time he entered the state of no self and nothing, and the night of the accident, he suddenly felt that he was in a purple haze, and when he woke up, Zhao Lifan felt as if he had broken some barrier, and the whole person was much more light and agile, this feeling was never before.

After that day, Zhao Lifan found that his sense of hearing, sight and smell had improved significantly, and he could clearly perceive the emotional changes of others, as if everything in the world he was in was clear, and the range of information he received had expanded many times, and at the same time, it was many times more microscopic.

These are the improvement of the ability to receive external information, and the perception of his body has also undergone qualitative changes, simply speaking, Zhao Lifan can look internally, and the real-time state of his muscles, bones, internal organs and even small blood vessels can emerge in his mind, but he did not find the meridians and acupoints, and there is no clue about the internal strength, which makes Zhao Lifan feel quite regretful.

Zhao Lifan summed up his changes, as if everything can be attributed to the qualitative changes in his sensory system, Zhao Lifan knows that practicing Neijiaquan can improve his senses, and then thinking of the recent increase in the number of times he has entered the state of selflessness and nothingness, it may be that this state has promoted the breakthrough of his sensory system.