When Xiao Yang Yi's sister Yang Shuting left the room, the diary left on the bed was picked up by Xiao Yang Yi curiously.

"August 18, 1999, this is the first night that my parents left me and my brother, the fragrance of the big osmanthus tree at the entrance of the village is still wafting in the air of the mountain village, refreshing, but my parents did not wait for the osmanthus to bloom this year and left, my brother learned that his parents cried very much, perhaps in his subconscious realized what this parting meant, although he was only four years old, and this age is the age that needs to be cared for by his parents, I don't know what caused our family to be shattered overnight。 ”

Xiao Yang also read the first diary and then saw the second one, the diary is still Yang Shuting's handwriting, neat, meticulous, horizontal and vertical folds are wrong clusters.

"September 1, 1999, this is the first semester of my second year of junior high school, my mother wrote me a letter, the letter told me to study hard, take care of myself and my brother, when I received my mother's letter, I feel very happy, all along, I thought that my parents have forgotten me and my brother, today is a special day, I should remember. ”

On this day, Yang Shuting also painted a family portrait of a family of four, with parents and parents, herself and Xiao Yang Yi, the family is smiling, harmonious and happy, but although it is a very ordinary willingness, but for Xiao Yang Yi, Yang Shuting's family seems out of reach, slim and no return.

I saw Yang Shuting continue to write:

"As my grandfather is getting older and more fragile, my uncle and aunt came to our house today and said that they were going to take me and my brother to live with my grandmother, and I am very happy. Many times, I always feel that my brother and I are a burden to my grandfather, adding a great burden to my grandfather, and if I go to my grandmother's house in the future, I think my brother will be happier, after all, he is still young and needs to be taken care of. ”

This diary is about the experience of Xiao Yang being taken to his grandmother's house by his uncle and aunt, and since then, Xiao Yang has completely left the land where he was born and raised, and left the familiar big osmanthus tree.

I don't know if this also reflects the conclusion that girls always mature earlier than boys.

"At first, I was very worried that my grandmother's house was too far away from my brother's elementary school, I was afraid that my brother would not be used to going to school alone, and I was afraid that he would feel lonely on the way to and from school, but when I returned to my grandmother's house, I found that my brother was actually a brave child, which was a bit unexpected for me, and I was very happy for my brother's bravery. ”

Seeing this, Xiao Yang, whose face was swollen and tall, only felt warm in his heart, wrapped in a warm feeling of being cared for and cared for, like a warm current, warming people's hearts.

"Today is the first time I go back to my grandmother's house, because of the school residence, I actually have very little time to see my brother, when I see my brother and Zhang Jing carefree play, I feel very happy, I hope that time can dilute the scars left in my brother's heart by my parents quietly leaving, I don't want my brother to bear the pain that he should not bear at his age, if God really has mercy on our family, I hope I can bear that pain for my brother. ”

In fact, Yang Shuting herself is not suffering what she should not bear at her age? It's just that time has faded, and she should have joy at this flowery age to accelerate her maturity and growth.

"I heard from my grandfather that my brother's grades in school were particularly good, and many people praised my brother's intelligence in front of my aunt, uncle, grandfather and grandmother. Actually, I've always had this feeling, my brother's eyes seem to be the eyes of elves, smart and elegant, containing the light of wisdom, but a little naughty, if naughty can soothe the scars in my brother's heart, I hope my brother can be a little more naughty, then he will live a happier life. ”

"Today is my brother's birthday, it's a pity that I can't be by his side, because I have to attend classes at school, at this time I really want to be able to fly to my brother's side to spend this birthday with him, because my brother's birthday is his first birthday after his parents left, I am afraid that he will feel lonely alone, but even if I don't have my brother by my side, I will wish my brother a happy birthday in my heart, I hope Feng'er can bring my blessings to my brother's heart, happy birthday, Yang Yi. ”

Maybe Xiao Yang Yi was still young at that time, but in fact, he had forgotten how he spent this birthday, but he didn't expect Yang Shuting, who was dozens of kilometers away, to still remember it deeply.

This may be what others say, although I am thousands of miles away, I am looking at you through the starry sky, silently paying attention to you under the same star, silently.

"Today is my thirteenth birthday, but unfortunately no one said happy birthday to me, I think my parents must remember my birthday, silently say happy birthday to me in a distant place, although it is a birthday alone, but I feel very happy, which means that I have grown up a little more, and when I grow up, I will be able to share some pressure for my parents, and I can also take care of my younger brother, so that I can grow up quickly. ”

Many times, when we are young, we always hope that we can grow up quickly, because then we can break free from the "constraints" of our elders, such as being free to eat snacks we want, playing freely, not having to go to school and do homework, everything is so beautiful.

But when we really grow up, experience the hardships of life, the pressure of survival and the obedience of being forced to "smile", we suddenly look back, only to find that the childhood time is so beautiful, by chance, a child running past you has an innocent smile on the face, can only sigh that time goes too fast, the beautiful childhood will quietly slip by, you have not played enough, you have grown up.

Perhaps this seemingly contradictory dialogue between children and adults is based on different perceptions of the reality of society. In fact, there is a seamless connection in the contradiction, and unconsciously, people's identities have changed, which makes people unprepared and even have no time to reminisce.

"When I knew that my brother was on his way home from school, he suddenly fainted and fell to the ground, I was really frightened, God, please spare my brother, he has lost a lot, why did he bring him so much pain, is it not enough that what he has been through now? If you still don't let him go, I am willing to bear all this for him, and all the suffering will be borne by my sister. ”

When Xiao Yang also read his sister's diary, he understood how deeply his sister loved him, although many times Xiao Yang also felt that his sister was very strict with him, maybe at this moment he understood that the strictness was actually engraved with love for himself, but sometimes this kind of love was not expressed in words, just silently, and even Xiao Yang couldn't feel it.

Just as Xiao Yang Yi continued to look down the days and saw the reason why his parents left quietly, Yang Shuting's footsteps gradually reached Xiao Yang Yi's ears, and Xiao Yang also had to put down the diary in his hand, because Yang Shuting did not let anyone read this diary, and the author and reader were only Yang Shuting herself.

Yang Shuting hid her thoughts, worries, and expectations deeply between the lines of this diary, silently.