In this way, I became my boyfriend, and I think it was in my dreams, if only it had always been like this. - Cheng Qi.

Probably everyone liked a girl who loved to laugh when they were young and frivolous, looking into your eyes, looking directly at you, and when laughing, their eyes were crooked, not big, but they were full of your shadows, full of eyes. Sitting in front of or behind you, sometimes you can't do math problems, and in the back you ask you in a nice and soft voice, "How to do that problem on page 32, I won't know, you teach me well, I'm afraid that the teacher will pump me up later, so you teach me well." "At this time, it's false for you to say that you are not impressed. And even if your back table is not good-looking, it is also bright-eyed, cherry mouth, and waist-length long hair, at this time you have not been on the table for long, but you find that you have a lot of common topics. For example, you both like to play games and like to use the same hero. For example, you both like to read a certain fantasy novel, and you secretly discuss the plot in private with a teacher you don't like. For example, you all have the same favorite idol. At this time, you feel that you have the joy of struggling in the three years of high school. You can have fun every day on each other. But in the second year, you went your separate ways because of the class, and the moment before you went back to the dormitory, she asked you, "Do you choose essay or science?" You said very firmly at that moment, "choose reason" You saw the disappointment in her eyes, and for a moment it seemed that the light in her eyes had disappeared, and the whole person was dim. You see it but you don't say anything, you go over. You don't realize your feelings for her at this time.

In the second year, your classroom was already sitting by the new juniors, you looked at your seat being sat by the new juniors, you flashed a trace of discomfort, but your eyes were still full of fun, at this time you also knew that you had to work hard in the second year of high school, and you didn't have so much to pay attention to her, so you went back to the classroom to do the questions. One day, during the evening self-study, you were depressed alone because you couldn't solve the problem. At this time, you think of the girl who went to ask you for help because of the back table where you couldn't solve the math problem, and you miss her a little in your heart. But it was still not spoken. It seems that all of a sudden your intersection is gone, and if you meet here, there will only be two words "hello". You're a little reluctant. But you still haven't spoken your mind.

Suddenly, one day, at the end of class, you see the clouds outside because the sun is about to set, and the surrounding clouds are becoming very beautiful, and you suddenly want to run downstairs to call her out and say to her, "I seem to like you." "But you still don't say it, because when you go out and look out the window, you see her talking to a boy outside in the aisle of the grove, and suddenly you realize, "You seem to be out," and so you think about that girl all night, even if it's a brother telling a joke or something, you don't have the mind. Thinking about this girl. Later, you gradually put your mind on studying, studying hard, and wanting to forget about you. He did it, because at this time, you are already the white moonlight in his heart, and every move is engraved in his mind, and he can't forget it.

The year before the "most important turning point" in the people's mouth- In the third year of high school, there are countless people here every day with coffee powder on the table, drinking coffee, every day on the way to the classroom is used to run, there is a smell of coffee when you enter the classroom, everyone's face is not very good, under the eyes are dark blue, you know that your face is almost the same as them, but you still quickly walk to the seat, take out your homework to do, after completing a question, you feel a little more confidence, every day is such a struggle, you have no intention to miss her, because you know that only after the college entrance examination can you go to a university with her, and confess to her。 So you're working on it every day.

On the day of the college entrance examination, you didn't say the unspoken sentence "Let's go together for the college entrance examination" in different examination venues, and you kept sweating on the way to the exam, as if you couldn't even hold a pen, but when you thought that you could be in the same university, it seemed that there was a lot of motivation. In this way, the moment you finish the exam, you feel that your youth seems to burst out at this moment. You look for her in the crowd, only to be told by your freshman classmates that she has just gone home with her parents. And so you went home disappointed. You are thinking about what school to apply for in your own bed, and you are also thinking about what school she will apply for, what major. That's it, you take out your mobile phone, browse the QQ you added two years ago, browse her dynamics, care about her little bits, and look at her photos in a daze.

On the day the results are sent, you think you have done well in the exam, and when you look at the results, you excitedly send a message to the girl you think about day and night, asking her what the score of the college entrance examination is, and she replies to you, I feel that I am playing normally, and the university I want to apply for is stuck on the score line, and I want to get five or six points, and you say the name of the university at the same time, and you know that you still have likes to be together.

But, but, but!!

Cheng Qi's process for Mu Xing is not like this at all, unlike other people's first love, Bai Yueguang is different, Cheng Qi likes Mu Xing is one! See, Zhong, Love! is the moment Mu Xing went to the examination room and looked up at the sky, good guy, Cheng Qi's heart was moved! Just such a moment, he fell. In the future, there will be no return.

At that time, Cheng Qi was already suffering from severe bipolar disorder due to family reasons, and that day was what he thought was the most unlikely day in his life. Because on this day, he understood what "love at first sight" was, and he moved his heart, and he moved his mind that he didn't dare to move. He met a girl who wanted to be with her for the rest of his life before the college entrance examination. He knew that according to his condition, he would only continue to deteriorate, and he would not be able to do anything, and in the end he would only die at the best age, and in the end, even Mu Xing didn't know who he was, and then he died. "Tsk, it seems to be a little unwilling," Cheng Qi said as he looked at Mu Xing's back and bit his fingers. For the first time, he seemed to have a little motivation, the motivation to live, ah, just live like this.

Mu Xing seems to have been entangled by someone unintentionally. But she didn't know it. Some people can secretly observe you in the dark and surprise you, and some people can secretly like you in the dark for many years until you can meet at the top. Your glimpse has kept me from forgetting for many years, and it wasn't until I could look at you face to face that I knew that all these years of hard work were enough, and I could finally look at you openly. —Cheng Qi's time, the year 2000, the millennium era, what a beautiful year. It was in this year that Cheng Qi was eighteen years old, theoretically speaking, he has the ability to take care of himself, and he will not be unable to live without his parents (here it means that there is no physical problem with the parents who left, but there will still be a little problem in the heart) In that year, both parents died, and when Cheng Qi received the call, only a person on the other side said to him: Hello, we are anti-narcotics police, your parents' partners. I'm sorry to inform you that your parents were tortured to death by drug criminals when they were anti-drug in C State, we are sorry, but please mourn" At every moment, Cheng Qi couldn't hear anything, he seemed to be stunned, he recalled his parents "When he was very young, his parents were very affectionate, very affectionate Dad always held his mother's hand and told her when he took him out Don't worry, I will come back after sending my son, there will be no accidents." In this way, I took him to elementary school on a bicycle. Cheng Qi thinks that such a family is very good, but the good times do not last when he was in elementary school, they have to go on frequent business trips, that is, at this time, Xiao Chengqi began to be often entrusted to the family of the opposite family, he remembered that after the door of the family, a loving couple did not have a son or daughter, so for his arrival, it was also welcome, when knocking on the door, his mother said to him, "Xiao Chengqi, my sister will come back soon this time, wait until the next time my mother comes back, take you to eat pizza, okay?" In fact, Cheng Qi doesn't like pizza so much, it's just that his mother likes him and loves pizza, so he has always pretended to love pizza, just so that they don't have much time together. But for him, it was also a consolation. Even if he didn't have any friends at school, no friends on the surface, but the moment he saw his parents, he just felt that it didn't matter if he had friends or not, just his parents were there. The joy he showed at that moment was indescribable. He only had so much influence on his parents, and then he didn't have it. When he reached the third year of high school, it meant that he had to face this battle alone, without the company of his confidant parents, only himself, and there was no way. It wasn't until later that every time he stayed at home, he could remember that cold sentence, what did he think was the meaning of life like this? He had to hold the little dao every day to fall asleep, and in countless nights he looked at the moon outside, he felt very sad, but it was precisely because of this that he had two-way emotions. It's getting worse and worse in the back. At this time, he was deep in darkness, and there was no way to save himself without the strength to save himself. Until later......

Bipolar disorder is a type of mood disorder, and the English name is Bipola

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(BD), also known as Bipola

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, a group of disorders that have both manic and depressive episodes.

At present, it is emphasized that the interaction between genetics and environmental or stress factors, and the timing of this interaction have an important impact on the occurrence of bipolar disorder, and the clinical manifestations can be divided into depressive episodes, manic episodes or mixed episodes according to the characteristics of the episodes.