So she was a very insecure person from childhood to adulthood.

Everything she got today, whether it was the name of Sixiaohuadan or becoming the queen of the entertainment industry, all of this was achieved by her own efforts.

She can practice singing until two o'clock at night, until her voice is hoarse, and then get up at five o'clock the next day to catch up with the announcement.

She has long stopped thinking of herself as a woman, and she has suffered much more than many men.

Others only see her glamorous appearance and only see the brilliance of her success, but who sees the hard work and sweat behind her success?

She can't stop, and she doesn't dare to stop, because every opportunity is precious to her, and she can't afford any small failure.

So she had to do her best to seize every opportunity.

In this way, her life can be changed.

She really likes Li Zhan, and her feelings for Li Zhan are not as false as her feelings for other men.

Just like when she was in high school in that county, she wandered around the so-called rich children, but she never had the slightest true feelings for these people.

She's only taking advantage of those people at best.

She knew how those people scolded her behind her back, and there were all kinds of ugly things.

But at that time she was just a minor little girl, and even her parents disliked her

After three years of high school, all the tuition fees, living expenses, and materials were all earned by herself, although the means she used were unsatisfactory in the eyes of others.

But what can she do about a girl who has not yet reached adulthood?

Beauty has become her only advantage, so she can only use her advantage to survive with difficulty.

She had to go to college.

She had to get out of that county,

She had to leave the family that no longer meant anything to her.

So no matter how hard it is, she must persevere.

At that time, she felt that her whole life was gloomy.

She has to dress up as a smiling face every day, maybe other girls at her age are innocent, enjoying the love of her parents and a carefree life.

But she can't, she has to learn to force a smile!

She had to learn to play left and right!

She had to learn how to be exquisite!

She had to use her only advantage and beauty to give her a chance to survive, to give her a chance to leave that small county town.

If there was anything to be happy about in her gloomy life in that small county town in the past ten years, it was that she met Li Zhan.

Li Zhan was as if a light suddenly came to her dark life, making her originally desperate life a little meaningful, a little color, and a little light.

Let her life not only be painful, but also sweet and joyful.

For her, Li Zhan is a very special person.

Although they were classmates, they basically didn't say anything in their first and second years of high school.

She knew how some of her classmates scolded her behind her back, and even some teachers looked down on her.

But she had never heard Li Zhan talk about him behind his back, and Li Zhan was not like other boys, who simply coveted her beauty and wanted to do something ×× to her.

After so many years of trembling and walking on thin ice, she can quickly see through a person's mind.

She didn't see any disdain and ridicule in Li Zhan's eyes, she only saw a kind of pity, a kind of distress!

This kind of pity was something she had never seen in anyone, and she had seen it in others, including her parents, only disgust, disdain, ridicule, possession, greed, lust.

Li Zhan can be said to be a very dull boy, whether he is in class or out of class, he is holding a copy of "Five-Year College Entrance Examination and Three-Year Simulation" and constantly writing there, as if there is never an endless homework.

Of course, Li Zhan's grades are also excellent, he takes the first place every time, not only the first in the class, but also the first in the grade.

She remembered that when he and Li Zhan were in their third year of high school, it seemed that the two of them were walking together tacitly.

Li Zhan used his modest pocket money to buy a hairpin for her, and often copied down all kinds of notes from class to her neatly, and would take the trouble to tell her about those math and physics problems over and over again!

At that time, her heart was full of nervousness and anxiety, but as long as she was with Li Zhan, she had an indescribable steadfastness.

She saw Li Zhan, who had always been silent, arguing with others for saying a few bad things about her behind her back, and even being provoked and harassed by several rich sons who had a good impression of her before.

But none of this made Li Zhan flinch!

Li Zhan accompanied her to the Beijing Film Academy to take the exam, she remembered that during the exam, Li Zhan constantly comforted and encouraged her, and even accompanied her to take the exam, and finally Li Zhan was inexplicably admitted.

Then he gave up the best university, Peking University, and instead accompanied her to this film school.

Even for this reason, he even had a big fight with his father, and the relationship with his father has never been good since.

This scene after scene kept appearing in Leyu's mind like a movie.

But since she went to college, because she was busy with various jobs, they basically haven't seen each other for four years, and sometimes they don't even have time to eat together or take a walk.

But he has always understood himself and has never made any excessive demands on himself.

I often tell myself on the phone to rest more.

She knew that she had completely buried this beautiful relationship.

She is still a selfish person after all, and he still chooses a career in the face of career and love.

At this time, a melodious singing voice suddenly sounded, but this voice sounded so familiar.

"Squander love unscrupulously

What do you care about when your heart is broken?

Whatever you want

All for you to take away

If you feel that freedom is joy

Love is making the mistake of being weak and old

.................................”

"Xiaomi, who are you listening to!" Le Yao realized at this time that the singing voice was originally sent from her assistant's mobile phone.

"Sister Le Yao, this seems to be the original song sung at the graduation party of your film school, it seems to be sung by a man from your film school. Just now, an Internet celebrity was broadcasting him live, and now this live broadcast is already the most popular on the Douyu platform, and now the popularity of this live broadcast has reached more than 40 million!"

Liu Xiaomi swallowed the snacks in her mouth and said vaguely that her favorite thing is to watch the live broadcast while eating snacks!